dhibooks Chapter 20 Chapter 20
Chapter 20 Chapter 20
The cold raindrops fell from Zipei's face and fell to the ground with the warmth from the corners of her eyes. She didn't even bother to put on her shoes, and ran straight to the garbage pit with her bare feet.The immortal flower was bought for her by Lin Yu for Christmas the year before, the little shadow puppet was bought when they went to Xi'an together, and a stack of bookmarks was bought in Kuanzhai Alley in Chengdu... and the ceramic bracelet, the pair of printed The little doll with Lin Yu's fingerprints... that piggy bracelet was a gift I received for my birthday last year... There are also many seemingly inconspicuous little objects that have special meanings.Also, there are several notebooks with their details written on them, and the ticket stubs of their trips to and from each other's cities are pasted...
Sister: Pepe!
The elder sister hurriedly chased after her with an umbrella. Seeing Zipei running like crazy with bare feet in the rain, her thin back was like a leaf blown by the wind. Weeping silently, he ran behind her.What has happened to her?To be tortured like this... Instead of making her feel so uncomfortable and walk the normal path in the eyes of others, it is better to let her happily walk the path she wants to walk.As one of her dearest people, maybe what I should do is not to change anything about her, but to accept everything about her!But she is also afraid that when her relatives around her are gone, she will be lonely and helpless for the rest of her life, without even a person who can talk, and her inner conflicts are extremely extreme.
Zipei didn't care about her sister who was crying silently behind her, and searched carefully in the garbage pool, but she couldn't find the bag she had thrown away. She frantically flipped through the garbage pool in a moment of anxiety, chanting non-stop.
Zipei: Why did it disappear?how come……
Sister: Are you crazy?so much rain!
The elder sister finally couldn't bear it any longer, she yelled at Zipei, who was digging through the garbage with her head down, and stretched out her hand to pull her.Zipei shook off her sister's hand, and stubbornly squatted by the garbage pool, refusing to get up.
Zipei: It's here, why is it gone?
Zipei couldn't hear what her sister was saying at all, but rummaged like crazy in the messy garbage pool.She originally thought that she would throw away those things, but when she heard that it was raining, her first reaction was to worry that those things that she once regarded as treasures would be damaged by the rain.When she couldn't find anything, the dull pain in her heart made her not care about the coldness of the rain, let alone her hands being cut by broken glass in the dirty garbage pool. She just wanted to find the only thing she had seen in the past seven years. Something that can be seen and touched.Even though that person will no longer kiss her good-bye across the screen in the early morning, her shadow still dreams every night!
Sister: Pepe... get up!
Seeing Zipei's appearance, the elder sister couldn't control her tears any longer, flowing down the icy rain. She walked forward and wanted to hold the younger sister who was crazily flipping through the garbage dump again, but Zipei threw her away again.The blood on her hand stained her sister's sleeve, so shocking, her sister couldn't help feeling distressed and angry, and slapped Zipei on the face, the two sisters fell silent instantly, only the sound of rustling rain was heard.
My sister was at a loss looking at Zipei who was slapped by her. From childhood to adulthood, she had never touched Zipei's fingers. This time, even if she was always lazy in doing things, she ended up being two people by herself... My sister has never been angry with her, never beaten or scolded her, but today, I actually beat her!
Zipei: I just want to get those things back, even if she doesn't want me anymore, I still want to keep those things that make me hurt at the first sight...Prove that we loved!I'm so humble and worthless, I just can't forget her!
After a moment of silence, Zipei suddenly cried loudly in front of her sister. This was the first time she cried in front of her family, or the first time in her life that she almost screamed. She squatted on the ground dejectedly.
Sister: I'm sorry, Pepe... I shouldn't have hit you!
My sister squatted down with her under the umbrella and cried with her.
Zipei: I just can't let go...
Sister: Pepe, can you wake up?She's married, she's someone else's wife.Do you think for yourself?You spent so many years with a child for her alone, and you ended up miserable in the end?Maybe she really loves you, but she doesn't have your courage to face the secular vision with you, she doesn't have the courage to accompany you to the ends of the world in your heart, you know?
Zipei: Stop talking!I beg you stop talking...
Zipei held her head, not wanting to hear those words that were as sharp as knives but extremely true, but her sister became more and more excited as she spoke. She was not only distressed for her sister's love, but also for those who were not blessed.The same person, the same sincere emotion, why do we have to give it an existing framework?In the end, let these poor people die under the straw of secular speech!
Sister: Look at what you have become in the past six months?Have you taken care of the child?Do you know how many tears your parents shed for you?I'm your own sister. In the past few years, except for something, when did you take the initiative to call me?You can leave as soon as you want for your love, but do you know that someone behind you has been watching every step you take?However, take these things for granted!Do you still have your parents and my sister in your heart?
Seeing Zipei like this, the elder sister cried out excitedly. She didn't want to blame Zipei for anything, but just wanted to cheer her up.Even if everything that person told her is true, she still can't believe that she won't hurt her sister again this time. She and her family can't bear it anymore. At the beginning, parents also had the idea that they only want their children to be good. But Zipei did not live a carefree life as they said, and the decision made by her family under pressure did not bring her the happiness she wanted.Sometimes falling out of love is like having a sore, if you don’t make up your mind to clean up the rotten place, more places will eventually rot, although the process is very painful!
Zipei: Sis...
Listening to her sister's words, Zipei felt guilty for a failed marriage, a failed love, and a failed life...I thought I was strong, but I was actually so fragile inside!She pretended to be indifferent, but she didn't want people to see through her cowardice. What she said was dispensable, but it was exactly what she wanted to defend with her life.Only at this moment did Zipei understand why people have the idea of committing suicide. It turns out that living is really much more difficult than dying!
Sister: Go back!Don't worry mom, everything will be fine!
The elder sister pulled up Zipei, turned around and saw her mother standing not far away, wiping the tears on her face with an umbrella, looking at two children crying into a ball in the rain.