dhibooks Chapter 21 Chapter 21
Chapter 21 Chapter 21
The drizzle in early autumn is like strands of embroidery thread, entangled between the sky and the earth day and night, and finally embroidered into a plain coil of smoke and clouds, hiding the sun in the center, even the wind that occasionally sweeps across the window sill become damp.After crying, Zipei suddenly seemed to be a different person. She went to work by herself to cancel her vacation, got up early in the morning to prepare breakfast for her son, was so busy cleaning the house that she couldn't stop, and now she is busy making dinner again.
Seeing Zipei like this, her mother felt even more uncomfortable. After the rain that day, Zipei had a cold and a fever, and lay in bed for several days, which happened to be unusually diligent.She knew that her daughter didn't want her to have leisure, but her behavior made her mother feel uneasy.
Mom: Pepe, Mom will do it.
Mom came to the kitchen and looked at Zipei who was cooking. This child was spoiled since he was a child, and he can't cook. He is in his thirties and doesn't know how to take care of himself.
Zipei: Mom, I'm coming.
Zipei pushed her mother out of the kitchen, turned around and wiped her eyes, and continued cutting potatoes.Pretend that you are not sad anymore, pretend that nothing has changed, maybe after a long time, you will not be able to tell what is true and what is false.
Zipei's cooking was really not very good, but the son and mother ate with gusto. The quiet dining table could only hear the sound of chopsticks touching the bowl and chewing food.Zipei, who hasn't had a serious meal with her family for a long time, looks at the grandparents and grandson eating quietly, and feels guilty again. What have I missed all these years?The son's size is about to catch up with her, and her mother's hair is already graying... My sister is right, she is too selfish, for the sake of a person who is far away, she ignores the people around her who have been silently loving and caring for her.
After dinner, my mother sent a bag to Zipei's room, exactly the things she threw away that day and desperately tried to get it back.It turned out that her mother went out in a hurry that day to help her pick up something deep in her heart that she couldn't bear to throw away. Zipei took the bag from her mother, her throat a little choked.
Mom: Pepe, you can put these things away, whether the person is still there or not, it's just a thought.Everything you walk is a road, and some traces cannot be erased. Instead of covering up, it is better to face it squarely!
Zipei: Mom...
Mom: Pepe, mom is getting old, and she just wants to see her children safe and healthy.I don't care about your brother or sister, but you are the one I worry about the most!
Zipei: Mom, don't worry about it, am I fine?
Zipei said this, but the mother and daughter shed tears at the same time, and they both understood each other's thoughts in their hearts.The mother is worried that her daughter will suffer alone, and the daughter does not want the white-haired mother to worry about herself, but they will not hide it.
Mom: Little Yu chose to get married, so Mom doesn't blame her.However, Mom doesn’t want to see you go on like this day after day. If you still have the ability to love, you must learn to love yourself first, because those who love you hope that you can feel the love from them. If a person doesn’t even love himself, How can you feel the love of others?
Zipei: Mom, I will come out and start a new life, but I need some time!
This was the first time Zipei's mother talked to her since she grew up. Zipei put the bag in the bottom drawer of the bookcase, pulled her mother to sit by the bed, and then leaned her head on her shoulder, just like when she was a child.Zipei had already forgotten how long she hadn't listened to her mother quietly. In order to be with Lin Yu, she had a big fight with her parents.Since then, she has turned herself into a hedgehog, not approaching others, and she does not allow others to approach her. Sometimes, before her parents speak, she will shut up their words with a guilty conscience.In fact, thinking about it now, it's not that they don't understand him, but that he never gave him a chance, it's not that they don't accept it, but that he keeps refusing it!
Mom: No matter how long it takes, the family will be there for you!
Zipei: Mom, thank you for being my mother, and I will be your daughter in my next life.
Mother stroked Zipei's head with some rough hands, showing a smile.
Mom: When I gave birth to you, I was nervous about family planning. Your father always said that you are the most valuable in our family, and you are the one who paid fines when you were born!
Zipei: When will Dad come back?
Mom: After a while, every time he calls, he asks if Pepe is okay, as if you are still a child in his eyes.
Zipei: You are not the same, you always treat me like a child.
Mom: In the eyes of your parents, no matter how you are, you are still a child!
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The light in the house sneaked out of the window, making the misty rain and fog a little more warm. This kind of faint but extremely warm light belongs only to home.That night, Zipei chatted with her mother for a long time. From the time she was born to the time when she became an adult, the phone's WeChat notification sounded many times, but she didn't look at it.She just wanted to rely on her mother, just like this quietly, the wounded and lost people were all sealed away from her mother's embrace.