Years of painting GL

Chapter 9

Sitting in the car, Shen Chai gasped for a few breaths before recovering.

What the hell did she say? If she said that, they wouldn't even be friends in the future.But why is she angry? It's obviously nothing to do with it.

A tear fell silently from the corner of her eye and dripped on her hand before she realized that she was crying.Then she leaned over the steering wheel and fell silent.

Whose fault was it? Obviously she was the one who was abandoned, but seeing the desolation and sadness in Su Nian's eyes made her feel unspeakably guilty, as if she owed her in her previous life.

Yes, they are all wrong.

I thought that both of them had grown up and would never cry again.She tried hard not to keep her eyes from falling.

They are obviously inseparable, but they are separated on both sides of a long river, the river called fate.

They were all right, it was the fault of fate.

In fact, they were doomed to separate from the day they met.From the time they swore to stay together forever, they were destined not to stay together.

Wrong time, wrong place, even with the right person, it doesn't matter.

Shen Chai opened the cigarette case on the car, took out a cigarette, lit it, and stared absently at the red dot in the smoke.

She hadn't smoked for a long time. It was because of her that she quit smoking, and it was because of her that she started smoking again today.

She watched the fireworks on her fingertips burn out little by little, and then go out, like her lost and irretrievable feelings.

She wiped away tears.Her tears had dried up, and it seemed that all the tears in her life were shed for a person named Su Nian.

Who is Su Nian and who is she?

Nobody, nothing, you have nothing to do with her.

Shen Chai taunted herself, smiling sadly and beautifully.

She wiped away her tears and turned on the accelerator.

There is still one person waiting for her at home, how can she worry about her.

Since the lost feelings can no longer be retrieved, let's look forward bravely.

Night fell over the city, and thousands of houses were brightly lit.

Shen Chai drove very fast all the way, even so, it was still a long time late.

She was very upset, why didn't she call her in advance before she went?

The little girl must be worried

'Xia Yu. 'Before the door was fully opened, she shouted eagerly towards the door.

and got no response.

The house was so gloomy that it didn't look like there was anyone at all.

While searching, she tentatively called Xia Yu's name in a low voice.

As the doors were opened one by one, her heart gradually sank.

Xia Yu was not at home, and as the last closed door was opened, the result was revealed to Shen Chai.

where will she go

She calmed down and thought quietly.

Although she still doesn't know where Xia Yu has gone, it is certain that she has not returned home, and she believes that she is definitely not returning to the home she used to be.

They won't be at school either, the school doesn't keep anyone after school, and even if they are, they won't stay home so late.

Her heart twitched, and she suddenly became nervous.Xia Yu, she won't encounter you on the road, will she?

She shook her head, laughing secretly that she was not calm.She thought about Xia Yu's route home, and the possibility of an accident was unlikely.

where will that be

She suddenly thought of a place, and the moment she thought of it, she was almost sure that Xia Yu must be there.

She lives on the twentieth floor, and one more staircase is the rooftop.

She didn't even have time to change her slippers, so she ran directly to the rooftop.

She pushed open the door and saw that Xia Yu was indeed there.

She saw her back, she was only wearing a thin sweater, and her long hair was blown by the wind in the night.

Xia Yu sat on the concrete platform outside the roof, with her feet hanging on the edge parallel to the concrete platform.

Shen Chai was stunned for a moment.Afraid of scaring Xia Yu, he quietly walked to Xia Yu's side, not daring to speak.The place where Xia Yu is sitting is very dangerous, as long as you don't pay attention, you may fall down.

Xia Yu focused on drawing with a drawing board in her hands.

At this height and angle, you can see a very beautiful night scene, full of traffic, lights of thousands of houses, and a glimpse of light.

For such grandeur, what does little danger matter?

Xia Yu feels that she has nothing to fear, she has long thought about giving up her life, so what is there to be afraid of.

She didn't have a key, and there was no answer to the door knocks.She walked up to the rooftop and sat here waiting for more than two hours, she felt that hope was exhausted bit by bit.She had a deep sense of powerlessness, and she felt abandoned once again.

She looked at the vanity of the world in front of her, from the setting sun to the night.

There seemed to be a voice in her heart bewitching her, 'jump down, and you won't have to endure loneliness anymore.Even if you jump down, you won't be abandoned. '

After finishing the painting, just jump down, she thought it over.

She put down the pen and glanced at the painting, and it was a night scene completely different from what she had seen.The ups and downs under the calm picture is the deep loneliness of her half life.

She lowered her head, and the autumn wind gouged out her face like a knife.She stepped into the void, and in front of her was an abyss.

She wanted to take one last look at the world, and although she no longer had any attachments, she still wanted to say goodbye.I also want to confirm again...

She saw Shen Chai, who was standing behind her.

Her inner emotions were churning, she struggled for a while, and cried out aggrieved, "You are finally here, I have been waiting for you for a long time." '

After finishing speaking, she smiled foolishly again, she thought she would not come.

Shen Chai was a little confused, so she helped Xia Yu out of the brink of danger.

Her hanging heart finally let go.

She hugged Xia Yu tightly, her slender fingers deeply inserted into Xia Yu's clothes, and it took a long time before she let go.

She gently wiped the tears from the corners of Xia Yu's eyes.

Xia Yu buried her head in her arms and cried out.

Shen Chai suddenly remembered the painting she saw just now.

Skyscrapers.Pieces of glass windows are bizarre.A long river of warm yellow lights and shadows flows endlessly.Isn't this the scene that can be seen from the angle just now? It's just that, but it's indescribably weird.

No, it's not.

The picture is covered with a thick layer of gray, and all the beauty and warmth are covered in dust.

She suddenly understood Xia Yu's tears, and she saw her truest emotions from this painting.

She looked at the weeping girl in her arms, stroked her hair gently, and whispered softly, "It's okay, it's okay, I'm back." '

She can understand her emotions.However, she was sure that she saw another deeper emotion from her just now, not only loneliness, but also determination, and hesitation. She felt as if she wanted to give up something.

She saw Xia Yu's soul drifting away, and was held in her arms again by her.

She couldn't help but feel a little lucky that she came in time.

'Sorry I'm late. ' She didn't know why she apologized to her, she felt that it was not enough.

Xia Yu stopped crying, feeling inappropriate.She gently let go of her hand and shook her head.

'It's me, please. '

Shen Chai brushed aside the broken hair in front of her, looked at the obvious tear stains on her fair face, felt her heart was about to break, she didn't want her to shed another tear.She gently kissed Xia Yu's forehead, her voice was helpless and gentle, "You are always like this. '

The warm and soft feeling still stays on the face.Xia Yu froze for a moment, raised her head, and stared at Shen Chai.

Shen Chai also stared at her with firm eyes, "I will definitely tell you what happens next time, please cherish yourself and don't do this again." '

Xia Yu realizes that this is a two-way commitment.There is nothing that requires her to pay, and she can easily get what she wants.

She nodded slightly.Speaking of which, it was his own business.She overreacted, everything was her fault, but she got an apology from the other party.

Seeing the hesitation on Xia Yu's face, Shen Chai smiled and patted her head lightly, "Good boy. '

The spring bed was not bought, so they continued to sleep together as a matter of course.

Shen Chai gently put her hand on Xia Yu's waist, but Xia Yu hugged him tightly with her backhand.

In fact, both of them are afraid of losing.

Her face was soft and beautiful under the moonlight.Shen Chai stared at Xia Yu, making her a little embarrassed.

Xia Yu lowered her head, trying her best to avoid looking at Shen Chai.

See her reaction.Shen Chai couldn't help but laugh inwardly, but she didn't dare to laugh out loud, for she was afraid of scaring Xia Yu.

Neither of them could fall asleep, Shen Chai looked thoughtfully at Xia Yu's petite and frail body in her arms.

"What have you been through before?" Shen Chai paused word by word, flowing slowly like the moonlight.

Shen Chai feels that now is the best opportunity to ask this question, if you don't ask now, you may not have the opportunity in the future.

She knew that this might force her to uncover the newly scabbed wound.However, if some issues are not clarified, things like today will definitely happen again in the future.Only by uncovering the wound and squeezing out the pus and blood can the wound heal.

Xia Yu hesitated, was silent for a long time, and thought for a long time.

Now that you have decided to trust the person in front of you and entrust yourself completely to her, you must make it clear.

She finally spoke heavily.Tells her story of six years.

'I have a friend... She gave me hope when I was most desperate, and now she has left me and taken away my hope. '

'My father is a painter, and he only wants to paint pictures.I have been with him for a long time, so long that I can’t help but give up... At this time, I met her, the most important person in the past six years, she and I draw together, we together I've had the hardest time of my life.But he left me when the weather was closest to calm, and gave up painting.This is my life before I met you. '

'The first time I saw you was when I was separated from her, and when I was just about to give up, I met you again.I don't know if it's a coincidence or necessity, but you are the salvation God gave me, and you are my courage to live. '

After she finished speaking, the imagined pain did not follow.Instead, it seemed relaxed and joyful, as if a heavy burden had been let go.

Xia Yu looked at Shen Chai and stopped talking.

Shen Chai learned the reason from her words, the reason for what happened today.

She may have thought that she had given up on her like that person, and everything was easy to explain.

Shen Chai thought for a while, and whispered in a deep and soft voice, "Do you want to hear a story?" Before Xia Yu refused, she continued, "Why don't I tell you a story. '

Seeing that Shen Chai didn't seem to be making fun of her at all, Xia Yu nodded.

Shen Chai said, "I won't say anything about princesses and princes, nor about emperors and generals."Let me tell you about a person, a life that has existed in this world for more than twenty years. '