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Chapter 109 - This Is Also Called - Love

Wang Yanyan, who has nothing to do at home, spends most of his time lying on the bed and reading books, except for doing some housework every day.But today, she just opened the bookmark, and before she got into the mood, she received a call from Shu Bi, saying that she was already in the county here.This made Wang Yanyan unable to calm down, and hurriedly took his mobile wallet and was about to go out, but was stopped by Ms. Wang embarrassingly.

Wang Yanyan suppressed his anxiety and told his mother that he was just going to meet a friend.However, Mother Wang did not believe it.

The scheduled date is getting closer, but Ms. Wang is still worried that she will change her mind temporarily.

Seeing her mother looking like an enemy, Wang Yanyan calmed down instead. She sat on a stool beside her and said calmly: "If I want to leave, you will definitely not be able to stop me. You have never believed me. Mom, I I love you. It is this love that makes me obey all your arrangements unconditionally, even if it takes the rest of my life. Today, I just go out to meet a friend... that's all."

During this period of time, Wang Yanyan is still the obedient and sensible child at home.Everything, as long as she asks, she will accept it completely, and if there is any objection, she can discuss it. Her obedient attitude made her forget the cause and effect of the rush blind date.

On the surface, the child did not let outsiders see even a trace of dissatisfaction and reluctance.She always responded lightly, and it seemed to others that the child had grown up and become mature and steady.But Ms. Wang knew that her daughter was full of depressive aura, just like the ending scene in a tragedy movie. Every time she took a few peeks, she felt sore and bitter in her heart.

Mother Wang pondered for a long time, but still let Wang Yanyan go out.She couldn't ignore the look on her daughter's face when she went out.At that moment, she actually thought, it might be better if Yan Yan just escaped like this... But as soon as the idea came out, she was ruthlessly dismissed.

She knew that her daughter was becoming more and more silent, and most of the time she was silent was distracted.

She also knew that Yin Yan had to sit in front of her desk for a long time every night, and she also knew that she would quietly go for a walk in the yard after turning off the lights.The child's appetite is getting smaller and smaller, and sometimes the chopsticks are thrown away after a bowl of corn porridge. She sees her daughter getting thinner day by day, like rose flowers in the yard in autumn, slowly withering and withering, and she also I can't bear it.

What could she do?no way!This is a wrong path, knowing that it is wrong, how can you just watch her continue to be obsessed with it? !She could only be ruthless and turn a blind eye to these things, but the pain in her heart was no less than anyone else's.But as a mother, it is in my nature to protect my children.She knows the truth that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain.So she has to grit her teeth and persevere. As long as she gets through this period, she will gradually get better.she believes.

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They haven't seen each other for a few months, and the two are relatively silent, but they can see the love in each other's eyes.Yes, during this period of time, no one lived more comfortably than the other, and the emaciated looks made each other look more alike.

Shu Bi held Dashu's hand tightly, with tears in his eyes.

On the contrary, Wang Yanyan opened his mouth and smiled: "Didn't you see this? Are you getting impatient? I told you before that it might take a while, so you miss me like that? Baba ran here without saying hello?"

The book was silent, but the tears couldn't be controlled anymore.

"Okay, why are you crying?" Wang Yanyan stretched out his hand and gently wiped away the tears on Shuyu's face. "Fortunately, the pine cone is not here, or even she would laugh at you."

"You're having a bad time!" Shuzui's aggrieved voice was filled with reproach. "But you didn't tell me anything!"

Wang Yanyan did not argue, but admitted frankly: "Well, this period is the hardest, and I am really tired. But this situation will not last for a long time. Don't worry."

"How can I rest assured! I am here this time, and I want to bear it with you." Shu Bi expressed his thoughts. "I'll go with you to convince my aunt. With my word, I think she'll..."

Wang Yanyan interrupted her, "No need. I won't let you see."

"Why?!" Shuzi didn't understand: "Perhaps one more person has more hope. I want to face the problem with you, instead of letting you carry it alone!"

Wang Yanyan took a deep look at her and shook his head. "Crowds are useless. I'm just betting."

——gambling with family affection.

If you win, everything is easy to say.lost...

"Did you lose the bet?!" Shu Bi immediately discovered the crux of the problem.

Wang Yanyan lowered his head in shame, not very confident, "I lost...then it may take longer to go back~"

"Then why don't you let me be with you?! If not, my parents can also..."

"No! Your family's family is much better than mine, so it's unequal. I don't want my mother to compromise because of such a gap. In this way, she will still have lumps in her heart. This is just a simple relationship between me and my mother. problem. I'm going to solve it in my own way."

Wang Yanyan's stubbornness in a certain aspect will always make Shuyu helpless.In the end, under Wang Yanyan's insistence, Shubi boarded the return bus.

"Then you... will you come back?" Before getting into the car, Shu Zi asked what he wanted to ask the most.

"Of course. It's just a matter of time. Trust me." Wang Yanyan was not absolutely sure.

In case she loses the bet, can she control the subsequent developments?

No one can say with absolute certainty what will happen in the future.

Life is not a novel, it doesn't just go in the direction you say if you move your lips.

It's not that she's not firm enough.Instead, he dared not make fun of his mother's body.

Compared with love, family affection is much more important.This is what Wang Yanyan has always insisted on.

But it's man-made.What Wang Yanyan can guarantee is to try his best to win the gamble he set up.

Maybe she was cruel, maybe she was selfish.But, thinking about it the other way around, she was the cruelest to herself.

Shu Bi understands this point even more.

So she believed in Wang Yinyan.It hurts even more, the forbearance and grievance of the older child who has always given her a sense of security.

Through the car window, Shuzhi saw Wang Yanyan smiling brightly at her.

Some people say that there are two realms in life, one is pain without speaking, and the other is laughter without speaking.

And Wang Yanyan is experiencing the first kind.

After driving a long way, Wang Yanyan received a text message: "There are many smiles at the price of hurting yourself. So, that kind of smile is ugly. It makes me feel bad. I don't like it."

Wang Yanyan wandered the streets of the small town alone.She walked on and on, not wanting to think about anything.

She didn't tell Shuzu that in a few days, she would be "arranged" to register for a marriage certificate, and follow the procedures set by her family to approach the vortex step by step.This is also a critical time point that she desperately wants to seize.

The game will be decided slowly.

Wang Yanyan is also afraid, in case of losing...

I don't know if the unrecognizable me, after the dust settles, will have any reason to keep her in love...

In the evening, Wang Yanyan returned home with a haggard complexion.Exhausted.

Mama Wang looked at her worriedly, wanting to say a few words of concern, but asked against her will, what friend did she go to see today.

"It's a book. She is worried about me, so come and have a look." Wang Yanyan didn't intend to hide it.

"What?! She's here?!" Ms. Wang was anxious.

"She wanted to see you, but I persuaded her to leave." Wang Yanyan said truthfully. "I don't want her to put any pressure on you. I hope you can figure this out yourself."

Wang Yanyan smiled quietly, "She is a very good person and treats me very well."

"Actually, Shuji didn't agree with me telling you about this before. She didn't want the truth to hurt you. She doesn't care about titles or anything like that. As long as we are doing well, she is satisfied. But in my opinion It was not like this. First, she has done a lot for me and paid a lot. The relationship can only last for a long time. Second, when I have concealed this matter for more than ten years, and even thought of continuing to conceal it, I find that I am very tired. This kind of tiredness cannot be dispelled by time. Whenever I face you, my favorite relative, every time you smile and lie after taking a deep breath, I will secretly feel sad. And this state It will continue...continue, conceal, lie, prevaricate, endless loop...and then struggle in pain..."

"I know that once I confess to you, your hopes and expectations for me will be shattered at once. This kind of gap will inevitably hurt you. In this regard, I will never be able to obtain inner peace for the rest of my life. But, mom, you are my dearest person, how can I be willing to hide it from you! You know how much I want you to know my happiness, which is no different from others. I want your understanding and Support, I hope you will give us the same love and help in the rest of our lives, because these are the things only loved ones can do."

"But what I wish for is, after all, an extravagant wish..."

Mama Wang sat down in the chair, not saying a word.

No matter what, the scheduled date is still in front of us in a flash.

The relatives in the family happily waited for the prospective son-in-law to come and take Wang Yanyan to the Civil Affairs Bureau to obtain a certificate, but Wang's mother showed her hesitation uncharacteristically.

In front of her daughter who was pale but still forced to smile, Ms. Wang hesitated to speak, hesitating.

At this time, she hopes that her daughter can resist once more, maybe... maybe she will...

However, Wang Yanyan did not.

Ms. Wang didn't know whether she should breathe a sigh of relief or hold her heart.

until……

Bright red blood spurted from Wang Yanyan's mouth, splashed on the transparent glass tea table in the living room, and condensed together with blood foam...

Mama Wang's eyes darkened intermittently.