mountain snow

Chapter 38 I Love You

Because I did not accept bundling with Xiao Su to fire CP, I lost the follow-up job opportunity.

I thought Brother Qin would let Xiao Su be tied up with another team member, but in fact, no one was tied up.

My own decision left me and Xiao Su on the bench.

He didn't say anything.

In our whole regiment, I am least familiar with him.He came by air, and he is not enthusiastic about anyone, but he sings very well, with skills and feelings.I once wanted to ask my teacher for advice because I couldn't sing a sentence, but the teacher happened to be away.He took the initiative to teach me, those tips are more effective than what the teacher said.

It was that time that made me feel that he was not bad.

I feel a little guilty for delaying him.

Brother Qin came to me alone later and asked me about firing CP again, but I refused again.

For the first time, he showed me a disappointed look.

"I was also a member of the boy band before," he said.

I thought, no wonder he is so good looking.

"When we first formed a group, each of us believed in being popular, because we have both strength and good looks." Brother Qin looked at me: "But we didn't wait for the day when we became popular, and we disbanded without any fuss. Do you know why?"

I frowned.

This kind of thing is too common in the entertainment industry. It seems that boy groups form and disband every day.No one pushes and no one praises, it seems that there is only one way to disband.

"Because we are disobedient." Brother Qin said: "No, the main reason is not disobedience. Ji Chi and Qi Sheng, no matter how disobedient they are, as long as they don't make principled mistakes, there is no problem. But our group can't, We have strength and good looks, but no background."

After a pause, Brother Qin said again: "None of the four of us has a background."

My chest suddenly became heavy, like a stone bound me to sink.

"Later we broke up and went our separate ways. I was the only one who remained in the entertainment circle." Brother Qin spread his hands, "You can see that I'm a poor guy, so I can only take you with me." Small group."

Brother Qin talked to me a lot, including how much effort he spent to get me and Xiao Su a good resource, made a plan to bind us together, and said that firing CP is not what I imagined It's so simple, you can just pull two guys to get fired, aura, character, and appearance are too important for the audience, so it can only be me and Xiao Su, not Xiao Su and another teammate.

I haven't seen Xiao Su in the company for a long time without receiving resources.I heard that he shut himself up at home to create.

Ji Chi is now the most popular person in our group. In his busy schedule, he actually knew that I had "disobeyed" Brother Qin once, and came to give me an ideological education class.

Ji Chi's ability is mediocre, and he doesn't work hard enough. He just relies on resources to hit his position.

But it may be that they were trainees together, plus he has a good personality, I never dislike him.In the entertainment industry, he is one of the few friends I have.

He asked me why I didn't listen to Brother Qin, and only then did I know that Brother Qin, the [-]th-line agent, was able to win resources for Xiao Su and me because he was behind the scenes.

"What's wrong with firing a CP? It's not about what happened between you and Xiao Su." Ji Chi said, "Are you so disgusted?"

This question stopped me.

Am I disgusted with frying CP?

It doesn't seem to have either.

I have entered this circle, how can I not know how deep the water is inside?

I don't look down on the stars who fry CP at all.Who doesn't want to accumulate popularity quickly?Can succeed who wants to fail?

Ji Chi and Qi Sheng's family has such a background, and there is never a shortage of resources, don't they still need to be tied up?

They fired CP, I am not disgusted at all, they are my friends.

I don't seem to be disgusted by other male stars' speculation on CP, it's none of my business.

But Brother Qin asked me to fire CP, and I couldn't accept it.

Ji Chi asked me why.

I also wonder why.

After Brother Qin talked to me last time, I imagined the situation of being tied up with Xiao Su.

Without thinking too much, he transferred the things that Ji Chi and Qi Sheng did to us.

Not gagging, but I just feel sick and want to vomit.

Brother Qin said, Xiao Su and I don't need to have any relationship, we just need to interact with each other, and the fans will understand.

I can be read by fans, but I don't want to be read by fans about my relationship with another man.

"Xiao Shanxue." Ji Chi still likes to call me that, "Do you like that brother of yours?"

I snapped back to my senses and stared at him in surprise.

What is he saying?

Ji Chi looked solemn, "Do you really like him?"

I opened my mouth, but no syllables came out.

"The last time you looked at your phone and laughed, I found out." Ji Chi sighed, "There were other people around at that time, so I said girlfriend."

I still didn't say anything.

Ji Chi looked at me for a long time, "Xiao Shanxue, didn't you find out yourself?"

I stayed in the practice room until late at night, and then I went alone to the all-night food stall.

I need to hide in a busy place.

I like my brother, didn't I find out?

I am not a fool.

I just don't know when my liking for Yue Sheng changed.

He is the brother who saved my life, he gave me everything, and I am a part of him.

Before he told me that he was going to support education in Yunshan County, I didn't even think that one day we would be separated, he would have his life and family, and I would have my own path to walk.

In my planned life, he is the most important one.

Life would not be life without him.

I don't have to find out, I don't have to admit it, he is mine.

People around me were drinking, but I imagined Coke as alcohol, "using alcohol to relieve sorrow".

I drank a lot and ended up throwing up under the company dormitory.

In the first year of working in No. [-] Middle School, Yue Sheng was rated as an outstanding young teacher. The school originally wanted him to take the summer camp, but he refused because he wanted to support teaching.

But the summer vacation has passed quickly, and the fact of supporting teaching actually made his students like him even more.

The dividing line between summer and autumn is like the watershed between Yue Sheng and me.He was getting better and better at No. [-], but I lost almost all my jobs.

I didn't tell him.

After Brother Qin didn't give me the resources, I could only dance those dances that I knew every movement by heart day after day.I still want to be popular, but I am not reconciled.

One afternoon, I was exhausted in the practice room, and on impulse, I went to No. [-] Middle School to pick up Yue Sheng wearing a peaked cap and a mask.

It was only when I arrived that I realized that I didn't have to be like this.There are a lot of celebrities in Xucheng, even middle school girls who are keen on star chasing may not necessarily recognize me.

It was already very cold, I bought two cups of hot milk tea, and when I saw Yue Sheng coming out of the door, I waved to him.

He had no expression at first, but when he saw me, he smiled.

"Aren't you busy today?" Yue Sheng asked me.

"Busy, but Brother Qin asked me to take a break." I didn't want to tell Yue Sheng that I ran out of resources, "Brother, I want to eat braised pork today."

Artists are on a diet, especially idols.Our meals are strictly controlled, and I haven't eaten braised pork for a long time.

Yue Sheng took me home and cooked my favorite braised pork, but when he was clearing away the bowl after eating, he asked me if I was unhappy.

My chest felt tight all of a sudden.

I obviously pretended to be the same as usual, but he saw it at a glance.

He seems to know everything about me.Then he knows that I like him, do I love him?

I am very wrong, I thought that the lack of resources would not cause me much mental pressure, I am still young, so what is there to be afraid of?

But in fact, I am about to collapse, and I am afraid that my spirit has long been out of order.

I threw away the dishes I was washing, turned around suddenly, and hugged Yue Sheng tightly.

He seemed to be taken aback for a moment, and then patted my back lightly, just like comforting me when I was a child.

At this moment, I felt a strange peace.

"Brother." I was trembling, my voice was crying, it must be ugly, even worse than Little Sun's "quack".

But I just said to him in this ugly, trembling voice——

"Brother, I love you, I love you so much, I want to have sex with you."