inexhaustible

Chapter 59

At eight o'clock in the morning, Shang Muxiao was waiting by my car on time.

"Come on, open your mouth." As soon as he got in the car, he passed a steaming meat bun in front of me through the plastic bag.

I leaned back and declined, "I've eaten."

He didn't stop, and even put it to my mouth again, insisting: "It's delicious, you have a taste."

Everything that happened yesterday is vivid in my mind, from Yin Nuo apologizing to me to discovering that Representative Xiao is Shang Muxiao at night, the intensity of the incidents made my brain overload and shut down.

Others are easy to say, it's not too bizarre, it's just that Xiao represents this... It's beyond my imagination.

I don't understand, how could he be Shang Muxiao?How could he be Shang Muxiao?

If it wasn't too late yesterday, I would have called Tang Yuan immediately to find out what the relationship between this free exoskeleton equipment and Shang Muxiao was.

After tossing and turning all night, my sleep was intermittent, and I almost didn't wake up this morning.

I really couldn't resist, so I had to take a bite of the meat bun with Shang Muxiao's hand. The outer skin was soft, and the inner filling was delicious and juicy. It was indeed delicious.

"It's delicious." Satisfied, he took another big bite where I had bitten. "I accidentally discovered that this bun shop is the best nearby."

I took out my mobile phone and gave it to him, and said, "I dropped it at my house last night."

He glanced at it, took it, and said, "Oh, I thought it was dropped at the wedding scene yesterday."

"Did you bring the card? Give me the card number, or take a photo and send it to me."

He bit the bun and replied almost without any pause: "Forgot, I'll give it to you tomorrow."

This set again?

I started the vehicle, and I didn't speak again.

Everywhere is crowded on Monday morning, stop and go, arousing people's drowsiness.Turn on the radio, and the cheerful and energetic voice of the male anchor came out from the stereo.

"Welcome to "Hello, Morning!". Every morning we will choose some questions from the audience's mailbox to read to everyone, and then seek everyone's opinions. The first letter today is like this. A Miss Mao said:' I broke up with my boyfriend during the Chinese New Year because of a little conflict. After the breakup, I missed him very much, but I couldn’t find the face to find him. I’m not sure if he has the same idea as me. Should I? Looking for him to get back together? I hope everyone can give me some advice.'”

"Since you miss him, let's get back together..." Shang Muxiao said while gnawing on the steamed stuffed bun.

I turned on the radio mainly because I wanted to have a little sound so that I would not get sleepy. Even if I heard what the anchor said, I didn't bother to think about the content inside.So when Shang Muxiao suddenly expressed his opinion, I spent some time recalling what the anchor said.

The front was blocked, and I took the time to glance at the man beside me.He was straight and confident, and he didn't feel that there was anything wrong with his words, as if he was not the one who kept saying "If you are unhappy, you have to withdraw decisively and leave, and the pain will only happen when the root is broken" a few months ago. .

"Let's take a look at the thoughts of other listeners... A Mr. Wang said: 'Since the man didn't take the initiative to get back together, most of them don't want to get back together. It's better not to go to the other party, so as not to be hurt again'."

Shang Muxiao stopped eating, and his chewing speed slowed down.

"Ms. Lina said: 'The man hasn't expressed anything for a few months. Maybe he has a new partner. It's not very optimistic'."

Shang Muxiao didn't move at all, staring at the radio, wishing he could light it with his eyes.

"Ms. Chen said: 'It's better to create a chance encounter first, or think of another way to reconnect the two people. If the other party is not interested, there is no need to rush to find it.'"

The car in front gradually moved, and I quickly switched to another frequency band. When I heard pop songs playing, I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

When I arrived at the school, because my department and I were in two directions, I put him down at the nearest intersection.

Before leaving, I told him not to miss any more classes, otherwise I would still fail my elective this semester.

He held on to the car door and smiled wantonly: "Hang it up, I don't plan to get on it anymore..."

I was stunned for a moment, thinking that he was no longer attending my class, and immediately scolded him for his misbehavior.

"...I may withdraw from school."

As a result, the words were still blocked by his next sentence.

I parted my lips slightly, not knowing how to react.

Since yesterday, one after another, when is the end?

"You say it again?" I hoped that I misunderstood what he meant, even if the possibility of this was slim.

Shang Muxiao explained: "Not long ago, a professional motorcycle team approached me and offered me an olive branch, hoping that I could join them. I don't like finance, and I don't intend to inherit my father's company..." Speaking of this, he faced Lu mocked, "Of course, he may not have such a plan. I want to do what I like, what I really like."

"What do you really... like?"

The morning light was just right, and the warm morning sun shone on him, dyeing his hair a golden brown.

"Well, I don't want to live for others anymore." A breeze blew by, and he smiled brighter than the sun, "In the future, I want to live for myself."

I watched his back gradually go away, my heart was in a mess, and I couldn't figure it out.

He is about to graduate in one year, but he has to give up his degree at this time and pursue what he really likes... I don't know what Shang Lu and Shang Yunrou will think, but I...

Wait, I stopped in time.

Why me?I shouldn't be here.

If I were his professional teacher, I should feel sorry for him and try my best to persuade him to pursue his dream after finishing his studies.But I'm just his elective teacher, and he didn't even get a credit from me, so what qualifications do I have to judge this matter?

Even if, even if we haven't broken up, as a lover, I shouldn't stop him from doing what he likes, just like I don't want him to persuade me to give up philosophy.

Although some things cannot override any emotion, they are equally important to life.Emotions are blood, and they are flesh and blood, supporting the framework of life.

I got out of the car with a lot of preoccupations, and when I looked up, I saw Yu Xixi standing not far away, shrinking her head and looking around, sneaking around.

Meeting my eyes, she trotted over and greeted me: "Brother Bei, good morning."

"Morning. What are you looking at?"

Yu Xixi withdrew his gaze and said, "Look at the handsome guy, brother Bei, do you live with Shang Muxiao?"

I paused and said, "No, we don't stay together. He lives in the same community as me now, so I just took him along."

She nodded: "Oh."

We walked side by side on the sycamore avenue. From winter to spring, the bare sycamore branches grow green leaves again, and the crowns on both sides are almost connected.

Fragments of sunlight leaked from the gaps in the leaves, shaking gently with the breeze.

"The most special weakness of human nature is to care about what others think of you. Everything exists is rational, and rationality is fact." Yu Xixi finished reading softly, and hurried forward with the handout, and ran into the teaching building in a hurry.

I stopped in astonishment, it is difficult to describe my mood at this time.

The first sentence of Yu Xixi comes from Schopenhauer, and the latter sentence is from Hegel.If she discussed these two sentences with me from a philosophical point of view as usual, I would not have any doubts, but she fled after throwing these two sentences, which was unusual.

She didn't mean to discuss with me, she said this specially for me.She told me specifically, asking me not to care about other people's opinions, and telling me that everything that exists is reasonable.

At this point, I couldn't lie to myself that she didn't know anything about my sexuality.

She got it.

Know about me and Shang Muxiao, know about my sexual orientation.

Maybe I knew it a long time ago, but I just kept trying to pretend I didn't know it. Today I really can't stand my clumsy concealment, so I want to expose it.

this girl...

I laughed dumbfounded, and continued to walk forward.

Throughout the morning, Yu Xixi didn't dare to look at me when he was talking to me, he looked more like a person whose secrets had been revealed than I was.

"Yes, I'm lying."

Yu Xixi looked up in surprise and stared at me blankly.

When the class bell rang, I pointed to the back of the classroom and told her to sit there.

"I'm lying" is Russell's classic paradox. Just by discussing this issue, one can eloquently go from antinomy to Kant's "thing in itself" theory.But just like Yu Xixi conveyed her thoughts through Schopenhauer and Hegel, I say this, but I use Russell to respond to her—yes, I am lying.I was born different, but I tried hard to hide that difference.I lied, every minute, to everyone.

"Brother Bei, you are the best!" Yu Xixi tacitly gave me a thumbs up and ran away happily.

[There is a spare battery, 40 a piece. 】

Representative Xiao responded to my message.

【Do you want it?Can I give you a discount? 】

Staring at those two lines, I was a little dumbfounded.

You give me a discount, what do you use to give me a discount?I didn't reply to him and just quit the app.

There were always classes in the morning, and I didn't have time to call Tang Yuan. Now that I finally had time, I called him.

"Hello? Beijiao, what's the matter?" He was probably eating, and there was some noise around him.

I cut to the chase and asked, "What the hell is going on with my exoskeleton?"

There was silence at the other end, and a small movement sound could be heard. After a while, Tang Yuan spoke again, and the environment was much quieter.

"You know everything?"

"Yeah." I fooled him, "Shang Muxiao said everything."

"Then you still ask me."

"He won't go into too much detail."

"Hey, you two..." Tang Yuan sighed, "Why do you have to make it so complicated for a simple thing? He wanted to give you an exoskeleton, but he was afraid that you wouldn't want it, so he teamed up with me to let it go." A white lie that you're getting a free exoskeleton when there isn't any."

Although I had been prepared for a long time, I was still a little dizzy when I actually heard what Tang Yuan said.

No wonder Shang Muxiao cares so much about who I lend the money to...

Recalling his strange words and deeds after drinking last night, I asked anxiously: "Then does he know the reason for my recovery?"

"Reason? Are you talking about dancing?" Tang Yuan didn't give me any leeway, "Yes, I told him. He said that he is a rich second generation who admires your academic demeanor, and he is very willing to provide you with a set of watches for free. Skeletal equipment, I hope I can keep it a secret from you. I just told him that Beijiao has worked hard on his rehabilitation, and his hands have blisters, just to dance with the person he likes for a minute. What is this? This is What an overwhelming love!"

"..."

I closed my eyes and said, "Well, I'm touched, I'm so touched."