i don't think i will love you

Chapter 34

Lin Yu came to see my performance and naturally saw us on the stage. Wuyou quickly left alone after the performance. I looked at her back and ignored Lin Yu who had already walked in front of me. If Miss Lu was not so coquettish I haven't noticed the livid-looking person standing in front of me.

"You're here." I greeted Linyu softly, she hummed for a moment and opened the door of the car parked beside her. Before Linyu got into the car, Mr. Gao held her hand and said a few words to her. Then he took Ms. Lu and got into the car in front of her. When the car started, there was no sound in the car.

"Do you have anything to explain to me?" Linyu stood on a high place as soon as she opened her mouth. Instead of explaining anything to her, I told her in a calm tone, let's break up, these few days a word.

She slammed on the brakes and heard a huge friction sound between the wheels and the ground. Linyu was obviously angry. She raised her eyes and asked me, "Ji Ruobing, why don't I treat you better than abandoning you and not wanting you? People who hurt you for their own benefit. Ji Ruobing, have I ever treated you a little bit badly in the past few years when you have been with me? I haven’t satisfied you at all when you say what you want. Ji Ruobing, you must be conscientious in life. Do you think this is fair to me?"

What Linyu said made my heart hurt, and then I said: "Linyu, I know you are very good to me. You found a job for my brother, helped my family change a house, and took good care of me. I always want I want to live a good life with you, but... Feelings are not something that you treat me well. You think you love me, so you ask me to return your love to you in the same way. Linyu, I know it hurts me to say these words Man, you have always told me that love must return to peace in the end, but I can’t see love in a peaceful life, I can’t control my own heart, I can’t stop thinking about her, she is sorry for me, but when I How much do I feel distressed when I see her living alone in a foreign country. Linyu, you understand feelings better than me, you must be able to understand how I feel now, she once abandoned me, but so what, I Don't care, it really doesn't matter."

"It doesn't matter, you are really generous, then let me ask you, what do you take me for, since you love her so much, don't choose to be with me in the first place, Ji Ruobing, how should you pay back what you owe me, tell me me."

"I don't know, Linyu, I really don't know, I'm messed up, really messed up." Linyu, don't force me, I really don't understand, I really owe you, yes I'm sorry for you, it's me.

That day Linyu originally wanted to take me to celebrate with her friends after my performance, but it was a happy thing but I got into this situation. Under the booing of people, Linyu pinched my neck and kissed me for about ten minutes.I was pinned on the sofa by her and couldn't move. When her lips left mine, my face was slightly pale due to lack of oxygen, and there were reddish fingerprints on my neck.

Linyu was in a particularly bad mood that day. She was very self-cultivated and finally got drunk by herself. Mr. Gao had a deep talk with me alone after sending the two of us home.

"You and Wen Wuyou really got back together."

"no"

"Ruobing, Linyu gave you everything she could. She doesn't care about money, she only cares about you."

"I……"

"Ruobing, one person has intentions to be nice to another person. Do you understand what I mean? Linyu has paid so much for you and has been with you carefully for the past few years, but you have hurt someone for the sake of another person. Do you think it’s right to hurt Linyu because of your people? Ruobing, you’re all emotional now, calm down and you’re talking about it, okay, we don’t need to tell you how Linyu treats you, you know best in your heart, don’t hurt People who love you, okay?"

"Okay, I'll try my best."

After Mr. Gao left, I went back to the bedroom to take care of the drunk. When I was changing Linyu's pajamas, Linyu rolled over and pressed me under her body. When she resisted, she questioned me, "Are you worthy of me, Ji Ruobing?" Then I closed my eyes and ignored her actions. That night Linyu entered and exited my body several times. Want to sleep and not wake up.

The next morning when Lin Yu woke up, I was still lying on the bed. She sat up with her head on her back and took a while to come to see me. When she saw my cracked lips, red marks on my neck, shoulders and collarbone Apologize to me for teeth marks and dark red hickeys.If Wuyou treated me like this, I think I would definitely slap her in the face, but I chose not to react to Linyu.

Seeing that I was indifferent, Linyu hugged me in a flustered manner and said softly, "Ruobing, I lost my head yesterday. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. Don't worry about the outside affairs. I will take care of them. Bing, I believe you will not let me down."

Linyu said she believed in me, what did she believe in me, I don't even believe in myself now, how can I make her believe in my loyalty to her.

Wuyou’s words came to my mind before I entered the competition. She said: "Ruobing, believe me, you are the best, believe me." It turns out that believing is a difficult burden, and it turns out that those who are believed have to bear more burdens. Is this the responsibility of Wuyou? Why do I only understand what you mean now.

Lin Yu resigned from the position of editor-in-chief and returned home to take over her own business. She locked me in the room and was not allowed to go out without permission. She said to me: "Ruo Bing, the world is too chaotic now, so I can rest assured, you Stay at home and call me if you need anything." Linyu was still very gentle and cared for me, I hid when she kissed me, she was not angry but just smiled lightly , then locked the door with the key and left.

"Linyu..." When Wuyou called me and told me that her master was here and wanted to see me, Linyu grabbed the phone from my hand and smashed it to pieces. Then she pointed to my nose and asked Me: "Ji Ruobing, what on earth do you want to do?"

"I just went out to meet the master. If you are worried, just follow me, Linyu, do you really think we can live on like this now? Don't torture yourself, please make me feel that I am It's like an executioner who insists on executing you regardless of your life or death. Linyu, you are such a sensible person, let's sit down and have a good talk."

"Rationality, Ruobing, there is no rationality at all in front of love." Linyu's words made me feel ridiculous. Linyu was the one who told me the so-called love maxims, why now you want to overthrow yourself with your own hands theory?Linyu, I can't say no to you, so I choose to remain silent, but Linyu, if people's hearts are really so easy to control, then how can there be the collapse of the empire and the opening of a new era.

Linyu, we have all made a fatal mistake, that is, we believe too much in ourselves and believe that we can control our hearts and behaviors.

I rejected the master, Wuyou asked me why I didn’t know how to cherish such a good opportunity with deep regret. At that time, Lin Yu was sitting next to me and I said to her: "I am not like some people. Pursuing fame and fortune is more important than anything else." My eyes were red after I hung up the phone, because Wuyou said faintly after a moment of silence on the other end of the phone: "Ruobing, I just hope you can be even better. Nothing else. You are right, I am blinded by interests and selfish."

Linyu often takes me back to my mother recently, and she will mention Wuyou in front of all of us. My younger brother dropped his chopsticks when he heard Linyu talk about how Wen Wuyou harassed me, and often called me to have an affair. , my mother also shook her head frequently and then would talk to me after dinner.

"Ruobing, Linyu has treated you well these years, you can't let her sincerity down, Linyu is a really nice child, you see that you often contact Wen Wuyou and don't say anything, if this is replaced by Others have already quarreled with you."

"Mom, you didn't see it. How do you know? We can handle our affairs by ourselves, so don't get involved."

"Look at what you said, isn't mom afraid that you will be confused by that Wen Wuyou? What a wonderful child Lin Yu is. You have to know how to cherish it. It's not easy to know when two people are together."

"Mom, sometimes it doesn't matter who talks more, whoever speaks louder is right. I don't understand the things between me and Jing Linyu. How can you know better than me? Just leave it alone. It's just that, no matter what I do in the future, you must believe in me, just believe that I am not an ungrateful person."

"You're going to..."

"Mom, don't ask, I don't know either."

My mother who knows me so well naturally understands the helplessness and deep exhaustion in my words. I think this is what I should experience, and I should bear it. Since I made a wrong choice, I should bear the consequences, right?