dhibooks Chapter 50 "Let's try."
Chapter 50 "Let's try."
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After the air conditioner was repaired, Ji Mingyu didn't feel much better. The dull irritability was still lingering. Maybe he should talk to Fu Shi'an. This house is rented by Fu Shi'an. If someone really wants to move out, it should be him. .
Maybe you don't have to go this far if you can.
Ji Mingyu was in a daze when he received Zhou Xiaoyue's call. Since Qixi Festival, the number of times he was in a daze had increased significantly. Most of them didn't know what he was thinking, but it must have something to do with Fu Shi'an.
"Hey."
"What's going on? So sad?" Zhou Xiaoyue deserved to be the one who grew up with him, "Break in love again?"
How can you lose love without love?
Ji Mingyu was not in the mood to talk to Zhou Xiaoyue: "Let's get down to business."
"It's nothing serious," Zhou Xiaoyue said, "I'm just asking if you'll go back to Fengcheng for the Mid-Autumn Festival. If I do, I'll take the high-speed rail with you. I've brought a lot of things. We haven't seen each other for a long time."
Zhou Xiaoyue and Ji Mingyu lived in the same community, and the high-speed rail line between the city where she worked and Fengcheng happened to pass through Zewu. It was an excuse that she hadn't seen her for a long time. The point was that she had too many things and wanted Ji Mingyu, a free labor force.
"No." Ji Mingyu paused for a while before saying, "I promised Fu Shi'an to spend his birthday with him."
I just don't know if Fu Shi'an will change his mind.
Zhou Xiaoyue: "Oh, then I'll hang up."
Ji Mingyu: ...
"Wait a minute."
Zhou Xiaoyue: "Why did you change your mind?"
"No." Ji Mingyu stood up holding the phone, "I have something to ask you."
Zhou Xiaoyue is different from Ji Mingyu who lacks love experience. This guy has had a boyfriend since high school. He has rich experience in relationships and can handle any situation with ease.Ji Mingyu thought hard and couldn't find a way out, so he thought of asking this love master for advice.
"what's up?"
Ji Mingyu scratched the back of his head, thought for a while before saying, "I have a friend..."
As soon as he finished talking on the phone, there was a chuckle on the other side, Ji Mingyu: "What are you laughing at?"
Zhou Xiaoyue suppressed a smile: "It's nothing, you continue to talk."
"It's my friend. I found out that a good friend of his had a crush on him for a long time, and then my friend didn't know what to do."
"What should I do?" Zhou Xiaoyue said: "You can either accept it or reject it, what else can you do! You can't just pretend that nothing happened and hang others."
Ji Mingyu: "..."
has been connoted.
Zhou Xiaoyue on the phone didn't answer, and suddenly laughed again: "Is the friend you're talking about yourself?"
Ji Mingyu hung up the phone with a "snap".
Then within two seconds the call came back, Ji Mingyu hung up, Zhou Xiaoyue continued to call, Ji Mingyu continued to hang up, and after three or four consecutive calls, Zhou Xiaoyue changed her strategy and started WeChat bombing.
[Zhou Xiaoyue: Who is so closed-eyed]
[Who is not good to have a crush on you? 】
[Who is it? 】
【? ? ? ? ? 】
【Will you tell me?My curiosity that has nowhere to rest! ! 】
[Grass, you don’t have a crush on me, do you! 】
【Being around the bush just to test me? 】
Ji Mingyu:...
【Sun Rain: Get Out】
[Zhou Xiaoyue: Then who do you have a crush on?Confession?Rejected? 】
[Taiyang Yu: Can't others have a crush on me? 】
[Zhou Xiaoyue: Don't be kidding, you can count several of your friends on one hand, everyone knows who has a bad brain and has a crush on you? 】
[Taiyang Yu: Get lost, just be a father without your son.jpg]
【Zhou Xiaoyue:...】
[Zhou Xiaoyue: I'm not joking with you, just talk about business. 】
[Zhou Xiaoyue: It's still the same sentence, accept if you like it, reject it if you don't like it, it's too scumbag to hang on to others. 】
【Sun rain:......】
Accept if you like it, reject it if you hate it.
How simple, doesn't Ji Mingyu know?
He stared at those words carefully for a while, but only answered three words.
[Taiyang Yu: I don't hate it. 】
[Zhou Xiaoyue: Do you like it? 】
Ji Mingyu couldn't answer, he didn't know what his feelings for Fu Shi'an were.
Like it?There is no doubt that he likes it, but he doesn't know whether the liking he thinks is equal to Fu Shi'an's liking.
Fu Shi'an was so special that Ji Mingyu had no way to consider him as anyone else.
His only failed love experience can't help him at all. Fu Shi'an is different from Qin Mo. Even at this moment, Ji Mingyu can't remember what kind of feelings he had for Qin Mo at the beginning, but he knows very well that it is different from his feelings for Fu Shi'an. Feelings are completely different, another kind of feeling that he can't explain clearly but can't give up.
He hated the stiff relationship with Fu Shi'an, and even more hated that Fu Shi'an avoided him, and even planned to move out without saying a word.
【Sun Rain: I don’t know】
【Zhou Xiaoyue:...】
[Zhou Xiaoyue: You idiot, you don't even know what you know? 】
He is not a fool.
The phone screen went dark and bright again, and Zhou Xiaoyue's news appeared before her eyes again.
[When you hesitate to feel it, your heart is already biased. 】
Ji Mingyu laughed, as if he saw a ray of light in the mist.
[Zhou Xiaoyue: I don't hate her, and I'm not willing to reject her. Isn't that just because I'm interested in her, and I'm still pretending to be reserved. If it's a man, I'll go for it! 】
[Zhou Xiaoyue: What are you waiting for to meet such a blind... no, such a deeply affectionate person?Waiting to regret it? 】
The cold wind dissipated the residual heat of the end of summer, and the cicadas were no longer noisy. The dark clouds in Ji Mingyu's heart seemed to be dissipating. He stared at the phone page, and called Fu Shi'an for a long time. "The sound, and the heartbeat also echoed.
Fu Shi'an didn't answer.
Didn't call him back either.
Ji Mingyu was sitting on the sofa to relax, and at some point, the bright sun climbed out from the dark clouds, the gray clouds were illuminated brightly, the sun crossed the gray and obliquely leaped into the balcony, and the elongated afterimage happened to be cast on the corner of the coffee table, where There is the apartment key left by the landlord.
When the door was opened, the sunlight had already left, and the living room was in darkness. Ji Mingyu was sleeping in the afterglow of the dusk, and the screen of the mobile phone was emitting a faint light. Fu Shian paused, and the person on the sofa opened his eyes and sat up.
"I'm back." His voice was hazy as if he had just woken up, and he was in a relaxed gesture that he hadn't seen in a long time.
In the past, Fu Shi'an would criticize Ji Mingyu for sleeping in the cold wind, and then turn on the fan blades of the air conditioner, but now he just said "um" and walked into his room in silence.
Ji Mingyu rubbed his eyes, got up and turned on the light in the living room.
"Yuan... Yuanyuan, let's talk."
Fu Shi'an's footsteps stopped, and the moment the light was turned on seemed a little stiff, Ji Mingyu stood under the chandelier, watched Fu Shi'an turn around, just stood there and looked at him, for a few seconds Ji Mingyu felt that Fu Shi'an was actually I missed the timid one, but he still came over and sat down on the single sofa.
"Talk about what?"
Ji Mingyu sat down on the couch, and the cold wind blew over him to Fu Shi'an's forehead hair. Only then did Ji Mingyu realize that Fu Shi'an's hair had changed a little. Gentle, more capable.
"You cut your hair."
Fu Shi'an looked up at him, and Ji Mingyu knew that he was distracted, so he said again: "The landlord came to repair the air conditioner today, did you ask him to come?"
Fu Shi'an: "Yes."
He's talking crap and they all know it.
"The landlord said that you asked him if he had any vacant houses, and he sent you the keys to the apartment." Ji Mingyu shifted his gaze from the bunch of keys to Fu Shi'an's face, "Why are you looking for a house all of a sudden, to move out?"
Fu Shi'an lowered his eyes, and he naturally saw the extra key.
Ji Mingyu: "Why do you want to move away all of a sudden?"
Fu Shi'an remained silent.
Ji Mingyu: "Because of me?"
Fu Shi'an: "No."
"why?"
Fu Shi'an's silence made Ji Mingyu feel very uncomfortable. If there was one thing he hated most about Fu Shi'an, it was that he kept everything in his heart, and it was difficult to ask.
Ji Mingyu reached out and took the bunch of keys into his hand: "I cut you off."
Fu Shi'an raised his eyes and looked at him suspiciously. Ji Mingyu said, "You rented this house. If someone really wants to move out, it should be me."
"That apartment is on Wuyuan Road. It's a one-way street to your company. It's more convenient for you to live here." Fu Shi'an said, "It's more suitable for me to move out."
Ji Mingyu pinched the center of his eyebrows: "Fu Shi'an, do you have to talk to me like this?"
"You accept that I share the rent with you. You feel that I am uncomfortable now, so you move out without saying hello. It is also to make it more convenient for me. You take care of my emotions everywhere." Ji Mingyu couldn't control herself He raised his voice involuntarily, took a deep breath and continued, "What about you? Don't I need to worry about your mood?"
"No need," Fu Shi'an answered indifferently, and before Ji Mingyu could speak, he continued, "I crossed the line, and I had thoughts about you that I shouldn't have. You don't have to, let alone have the obligation to do anything because of my feelings." If you regress, you don’t need to worry about my mood and wrong yourself to endure.”
Ji Mingyu almost laughed angrily at him, "Fu Shi'an, you've done well for yourself."
This seemed to be the first time that Fu Shi'an spoke to him in such a blunt tone, saying 'no need, no obligation, no need' with confidence.
"You like me, you don't need me to respond, you think I'm uncomfortable, you let me not worry, you think it's more convenient for me to live here" Ji Mingyu emphasized the subject of "you" in every sentence, the more he said, the more angry he was He hummed: "You are my father, right? I have to listen to whatever you say."
He was angry.
Fu Shi'an pursed his lips, and it was difficult to control his breathing. It took a long time before he could say: "I'm not your father."
Ji Mingyu: ......
Now he was really laughed at by Fu Shi'an.
But what Fu Shi'an said next made Ji Mingyu's smile froze at the corner of his mouth.
"I can't take back the feelings I gave out." Fu Shi'an's voice was very low, trembling slightly, and he raised his eyes to meet Shang Ji Mingyu's wrinkled eyebrows: "You can't pretend that you don't know anything, and you can be as natural as before. get along with me, don't you?"
What he said is right, when something happens, it happens, and when a secret is revealed to the world, it is no longer a secret, and new veils are born after piercing the window paper, no one can ignore it.
"You hate this uncomfortable relationship the most, don't you?"
"Yes, I hate being uncomfortable." Ji Mingyu raised his hand and wiped his face, took a deep breath and said, "Then can I hate you too?"
Perhaps it was the three words 'hate you' that stabbed Fu Shi'an, he was shocked fiercely, and suddenly raised his head to stare at Ji Mingyu.
"Yuanyuan," Ji Mingyu sighed softly, and called out this intimate nickname naturally again.
"You know, I can never hate you."
When Ji Mingyu finished speaking, he saw that Fu Shi'an's eyes were red.
He walked up to Fu Shi'an and knelt down, raised his hand and lightly touched the end of his eyes.
"Let's try."
After he finished speaking, the air conditioner stopped immediately, and a needle could be heard in the living room. Fu Shi'an looked at Ji Mingyu in disbelief. His long eyelashes trembled, and Ji Mingyu's finger itched slightly when he swept it.
"You... what did you say?"
Although there was impulsiveness in saying this sentence, since Ji Mingyu said it, he didn't give himself a chance to regret it, he licked his lips and said: "I said, let's try to get along in a way that makes each other comfortable. .I also try to accept...accept your feelings...”
The daze in his eyes dissipated, Fu Shi'an woke up from the dream, pursed his lips and asked in a cold voice: "Do you know what you are talking about?"
"know."
"If you just feel guilty in your heart, you don't have to force yourself so much. My liking for you belongs to me only. I didn't think about letting you accept it, and I don't want you to force yourself to accept it."
Every time Fu Shi'an said something, Ji Mingyu's expression darkened, "Do you not understand human speech?"
Fu Shi'an recklessly said to himself: "I like you the same way a man likes a woman. I want to kiss you, hug you, and even... you can accept that a man or even your good brother loves you Such an idea?"
Even Fu Shi'an didn't say anything clearly, but Ji Mingyu was an adult after all, so he naturally understood.When Fu Shi'an expressed his desire for him without hesitation, Ji Mingyu did hesitate for a moment, so he remained silent.
Fu Shi'an was not at all surprised by the silence with Ji Mingyu. Ji Mingyu was not gay, and he didn't like men, so what he said was trying more because he didn't want the relationship with him to become rigid, or maybe he just got sympathy for a moment.
The suffocating silence spread again, and it took a while for Ji Mingyu's voice to sound:
"How do you know if you don't try?"
When Ji Mingyu said this, his eyes kept fixed on Fu Shi'an's eyes. He could clearly observe Fu Shi'an's emotions through those dark pupils, but the next development was beyond his expectation.
Those eyes approached suddenly, and Ji Mingyu only had time to discern a ray of desperate determination, and then there was a soft touch on his lips, warm and vivid, as if something exploded in his mind, when Ji Mingyu came back to his senses He had already pushed Fu Shi'an away violently.
It was just their lips touching, so Fu Shi'an's lips were still dry, but the almost ironic arc was like a knife slashing Ji Mingyu's heart.
"Look, you can't accept it." Fu Shi'an stated almost indifferently.
"I don't need your pity."
Ji Mingyu was short of breath, he didn't know whether it was shock or anger, he stared at the curvature of Fu Shi'an's mouth, and what Zhou Xiaoyue said flashed through his mind.
'Wait for what?Waiting to regret it? '
The lips touched again, this time the surprised person turned into Fu Shi'an, Ji Mingyu bumped into his lips recklessly, the lips pressed together, and the breath intersected, Ji Mingyu didn't make any other movements, after touching for a second or two, he backed away on, and he said softly:
"I don't pity you, I just love you."