Embrace each other

Chapter 10

Inscription: From the moment I fell in love with you, I wish we were strangers more than ever, because it is better than you being so close to me but feeling so far apart.

After the third child left, I locked myself in the room, trying to adjust my restless state.I can't remember which song has such a line: that kind of pain that I want to see but can't see makes me miss you more and more. It's really suitable for me at this moment.And Bai Yu's serious and affectionate face when he kissed me before leaving came to mind at this moment, no matter how he looked at it, he seemed malicious.And the tingling feeling that still existed at the corner of my mouth made me subconsciously reach out and stroke it, and then there was a throbbing in my heart.Hey, I was an ordinary person when I arrived, and I didn't resist Bai Yu's beauty back then, or because of his meanness to me, I would be crazy to like him, and I have liked him for so many years.

Outside the door, my mother's impatient urging made me even more restless.Come to think of it, I was pretty smart when I was a child, so why didn't I learn martial arts skills, such as escaping from the ground, and if I don't even learn the invisibility technique, it would be better than just resigning myself to fate now.If I had known that there would be a day when we would meet again, I should have restrained my greed for him and pushed Bai Yu away rationally. I really shouldn't have greed, and there will be retribution in the end.

"Wei Xiaoduo, why are you dawdling with the door locked? I haven't seen you for so many years. You have the nerve to make Xiaoyu wait for you for so long. You really don't have any hospitality at all. Fortunately, you still grew up together." I said Mom yelled impatiently, the voice obviously increased several decibels, so I had no choice but to bite the bullet and open the door.

"What have you been doing in the house for a long time? You didn't even change your clothes." As soon as I entered the door, my mother frowned and looked me up and down.

"No, you still think you are teenagers, wearing pajamas everywhere, you make people laugh at Xiaoyu, such a big girl, why don't you know how to dress yourself up at all." Amid a series of spit from my mother , I opened the closet and took a pretty good dress and put it on my body. I was relieved until my mother's face became cloudy and sunny in June.Fortunately, she also knows that I am not a teenager anymore. When she scolded me for being able to write a sentence without drafting, why didn't she realize this.

"How is it? Am I okay?" My mother stared at me expectantly and asked.

"Mom, you're so good!" I looked at the dress embroidered with red peonies on Ms. Sun's body. Walk out in light, small steps.My dad curled his lips at me helplessly and said: "Hey, the aesthetics of elderly women needs to be refined."I hurriedly "shh" my dad. If my mother hears the words "elderly women", it will not only be as simple as starving us to death.

"Just be happy, just be happy!" My dad quickly straightened up, looked at me solemnly and said.

As soon as the front foot entered the yard of the aunt's house, I felt the eager atmosphere coming from the house.

"This alley has not been so lively in a long time. Speaking of it, it was when you were young." My dad looked at the back room and smiled gratifiedly. Just my dad's smile, there is still a little bit of time to make people old or women's college students. There is no sadness left in it.As soon as I entered the gate, my mother couldn't restrain the excitement in her heart, and ran all the way into the house, just like seeing her long-lost son.However, with her like this, I'm not surprised at all. My mother loves Bai Yu, and my aunt loves me. This has changed since childhood.

"Xiaoyu, you are back. All these years, my aunt has always been thinking about you, afraid that you will not adapt to the outside. Ouch, you have grown so tall, the child has grown up." He rushed to Bai Yu who was sitting on the sofa. Before Bai Yu had time to stand up, he was burned by my mother's enthusiasm.Presumably my mother is also afraid that she is old and confused. She has returned to her own home, so there is nothing to say that she is not used to being outside.However, now that he has adapted to my mother's personality since he was a child, Bai Yu is not at all embarrassed or flustered. He has a more handsome face than before with a kind smile on his face, allowing my mother to greet her with tears.People who don't know really think it's a touching mother-son meeting.

Under the urging of my aunt, my mother finally stopped this bitter scene, wiped away her tears and went to help in the kitchen.

Only then did Bai Yu regain his senses, bent slightly towards my dad, and shouted lightly: "Uncle".

I'm really afraid that my dad will cry, after all, Bai Yu's short address contains too much sincerity.The way men express their emotions is always simple and subtle. My dad walked over and held Bai Yu's hand. If it weren't for those two exposed veins, he really thought it was a simple polite way.My dad patted Bai Yu's shoulder lightly with the other hand, and it took him a long time to say: "Son, it's not easy, just come back."In fact, compared to my mother's emotional tears, I feel that my father's is more moving.After all, when the love is deep, the words of Zaimei will appear incomplete.For example, now: "I miss you very much", no matter how you say it, it is not worthy of one ten-millionth of what I want to express.I can only stand there with a smile and let my thoughts flow into every corner of my body like a river. No matter how wanton they are surging, I have to pretend to be calm and calm, and say something easily:

"You've grown a lot taller"

It's so cruel to fall in love with someone who exists like a family member. After countless careful trials, if he happens to love you, you two are childhood sweethearts made in heaven, and you will be in harmony ever since.If he doesn't love you, you can only stop this feeling with your lips and teeth, and let him fend for himself.If not, you will really have no bones left, and this thought of staying by his side will really become a thought.So, how wise it is for me to choose the latter, at least, now I can stand here logically, at least in the eyes of others, welcome him without distraction.

Bai Yu lowered his head and smiled softly, and then walked straight towards me with two long legs. He has really grown taller, and he is also much thinner than before.Her fair skin hasn't changed at all, but her facial features are more three-dimensional than before.Looking at the immature Bai Yu, who is now wearing a black and white business suit and a pair of white dazzling sneakers, he is energetic yet steady.Doesn't time make people grow old? It seems that handsome people are treated kindly by time.

Bai Yu stood beside me, then folded his arms around his chest, put the thumb of his left hand lightly on the corner of his mouth, and looked at me calmly.It's exactly the same as when I asked him if the dress looked good when I was a child.I was puzzled and wanted to look up at him, and suddenly realized that he was more than simply tall.When I was young, he was at best a head taller than me, and when we quarreled with him, it was always easy to look him at the same level.Now, I want to look at him, and I have to lift my neck.

"You have also grown a lot taller, but you are still much shorter than me," Bai Yu said

"How can she compare with us, a girl like this is not short." Brother Cheng Wei came over, put his hand on my shoulder and smiled at Bai Yu.

"That's right, don't expect too much from her. At least, her face is much fairer than before."

Bai Yu looked at Brother Cheng Wei's hand on my shoulder calmly, and I was used to these small movements between each other, and I didn't think there was anything wrong.

You see, we are still the same as before. We haven't seen each other for so many years, and we can't see any strangeness at all.But God knows, how much I look forward to being different, even if Bai Yu can show a little unnaturalness towards me now, I can still seek that little bit of comfort for my emotions that have nowhere to rest, and it will not waste my whole morning because A kiss that was not meant for me was entangled for a long time.It seems that I really think too much, just like Bai Yu, a flower that attracts bees and butterflies, I don’t know how many times I have kissed in the past few years. An accident caused by drunkenness.It seems that whether I want to or not, I have to accept this cruel but real existence. From the beginning to the end, I am the only one who has malicious intentions.

Under the preparations of my aunt and my mother, the reception banquet at noon was really grand. Although it was commonplace, they all showed their housekeeping skills, and all the housekeeping skills that would never be used during the holidays Take it out.In the words of the third child: his strength has surpassed his one after the college entrance examination.In fact, his meal after the college entrance examination was not bad, but he just caught up with bird flu and had no meat to eat.

At the dinner table, the old and young people who finally got together, naturally had a lot of wine and joy, and we are all adults. The uncle always said: Finally, my son can drink some wine with me.My mother picked up the beer and generously put it in front of my third child and me.The third child and I naturally rejected it tacitly. "No, no, no, I haven't had a drink, I can't drink alcohol." Seeing that the third child was serious, I took a sip of the drink calmly. This kid usually plays too much, but now he has become a master.In order to get the money smoothly, and to prevent his parents from suspecting him of making good friends, he really worked hard.As for me, the main reason is that I know my mother's personality too well. If I really take Ms. Sun's seemingly loose but inwardly tight discipline method as the capital of my indulgence, then I really have lived all these years in vain.In my mother's expressive relief, the third child and I looked at each other and smiled, and we were relieved.I was secretly glad that my eyes happened to meet Bai Yu unexpectedly, the slyness in his eyes was inadvertently revealed, just like when I grabbed his pigtail back then.

"Xiaoyu, how long do you plan to stay when you come back this time?" Aunt asked while adding vegetables to Bai Yu's bowl.I also pricked up my ears curiously, listening to this important information to me.

"I'm back this time, I don't want to leave." Bai Yu put down his chopsticks and said.

Everyone at the table was stunned by Bai Yu's decision, except Cheng Weige who was extremely calm.He must have known about Bai Yu's decision a long time ago.

"What about your parents and sister? Come back with me."

"What about work? I heard from Xiaowei that you did a good job in the Cardiology Department of the Shanghai Affiliated Hospital."

"Yeah, it's a pity to lose it. Shanghai is a big city after all. The second child doesn't even want to come back after graduation, so he has to stay there."

Everyone asked me one sentence at a time, regardless of whether the person concerned could remember these questions or not.

"My parents and my sister are used to living in Qinghai. Besides, I have been studying and working in Shanghai for the past few years, and I don't spend much time with them, so it's the same wherever I am. Work has made me Take my mentor and help me transfer to our city hospital, the doctors are there to save lives and heal the wounded, it's the same everywhere." Bai Yu said

"Brother, you don't want to stay in the big city, why do you have to go back to our small place?" said the third child

"You don't understand. You'll understand when you go out once. A small place is also a home." When Bai Yu said this, his expression was obviously calm, but I felt an urge to rush up to him and hug him.

"Xiaoyu is right, this is your home." After a lap, my dad was obviously drunk.

"By the way, where are you going to live?" my mother said

"I'm going to renovate grandma's house. If there is a dormitory in the hospital, let's live in the dormitory first," Bai Yu said.

"I'm back home, what kind of dormitory do I live in! We live in our house before the house is installed. We have a small family, and we have plenty of places to live."

My dad's words made everyone at the table stunned for a moment, and I was also coughing non-stop due to the sip of the drink that I hadn't had time to swallow.Brother Cheng Wei looked at Bai Yu, then at me, hesitated for a moment and said to my dad:

"Uncle, Xiaoduo is a girl after all, so it's inconvenient, you can stay at my house, there are many people and it's lively."

"What's the inconvenience? When I was young, I played together with bare buttocks. Don't argue, it's settled. Your aunt stays as long as she stays. Don't make your mother so tired all the time."

"Bai Yu, what do you think, will it be inconvenient?" Brother Cheng Wei couldn't say anything after listening to my dad being so persistent.

"No, what's the inconvenience?" Bai Yu said to Brother Cheng Wei nonchalantly after looking at me.

I always feel that Bai Yu is different when I come back this time, but I really can't see the difference, so I can only comfort myself and say that it may be because I haven't seen him for a long time.After making such a decision, I was in a state of fugue all afternoon.Well, I have to admit, the little excitement in my heart and the nowhere to be found in my inner iron shoes were all secretly happy without any effort.Watching my mom and aunt busy back and forth with the dishes that had been heated up several times on the table, while the few people who were drinking and getting happier seemed not to have enjoyed themselves enough, clamoring for more dishes.The third child, who was sitting on the side like me, was bored and said: Sister, when will we pretend to be the end, I want to have a drink with them too.I said: You have too much money to spend.The third child leaned on my shoulder and said helplessly: Sister, let your mother take your father away, I have a lot to say to Brother Bai Yu.Not long after the third child had finished speaking, the welcome feast that lasted from noon to night ended under my mother's urging.

My dad was so drunk that he couldn't walk straight. I wondered if he was drinking for a meal in Bai Yu's name.It's all like this, and I haven't forgotten to shout to Bai Yu who supported him: Cheers.My mother followed behind and watched Bai Yu keep sighing: "It's good to be young, I stayed with him all afternoon, but I didn't get drunk."I looked at Bai Yu silently, and the picture of him kissing me after drinking many years ago appeared in front of my eyes.It's just that Bai Yu doesn't look any different now. Could it be that as a person grows up, his drinking capacity also increases?Seeing the scene of Bai Yu supporting my dad, I felt a sense of happiness like a little daughter-in-law shamelessly in my heart.Of course, this feeling didn't last too long, and was ruthlessly killed by them.After finally helping my dad home, the old gentleman was still holding Bai Yu's hand until he lay on the bed, murmuring something vaguely.My mother even exaggerated. When tidying up Bai Yu's room, she took out the summer cool quilt that I had been thinking about for a long time.Seeing my mother busy back and forth, I said to Bai Yu with nothing to love: "Go home and look up the family tree, I think you were born by her."

"Farewell, if this is a mistake, let it go forever! I don't want to have a sister like you"

If this was left in the past, it would become the cause of our quarrel again, but the current situation is obviously not good for me, so I had no choice but to hold back and say in my heart: be safe and don't be impatient.

"Accompany me for a walk? By the way, dilute your inner resentment." When I was about to go back to the house, Bai Yu suddenly looked at me and said.

"Let's go, it's not good to sleep with resentment, and it will be troublesome if you accumulate depression and become ill after a long time." Bai Yu didn't wait for me to speak, he just dragged me out the door.

To be honest, I really don't want to go.Because the current Bai Yu has a fatal allure to me, I found that after drinking, Bai Yu looked much softer, with a slight blush on his fair skin, two buttons of his shirt were open at will, his eyes There will always be a little sentimental affection inadvertently, but the greed hidden in a certain corner of my heart has successfully defeated the remaining reason. I follow Bai Yu's pace and follow behind him leisurely.

In fact, this street is not very long. When we were young, we could run back and forth in one breath, but today, Bai Yu walked very slowly, taking every step seriously.Following him, looking at his thin back, I faintly felt that there was always something called sadness in his heart, which had not dissipated for a long time.When he passed Grandma Bai Yu's house, he finally stopped and stared at the closed door with deep eyes.By the moonlight, the patches of rust on the gate are like longings corroded by the years. Although they are old, they are as solid as brand marks.Bai Yu took out a cigarette from his pocket and put it in his mouth naturally. Following the crisp sound of the lighter, Bai Yu's lonely expression followed the flickering sparks that burned my eyes.

I suddenly remembered the conversation between my mother and my aunt when I passed the kitchen at noon. My mother said: Xiaoyu, this child, can't let his grandma go.You said that everyone has left, so why come back and watch over it?The aunt let out a sigh and said: After all, grandma raised her with her own hands. This temperament is exactly the same, and she values ​​love and righteousness.

It turned out that the seemingly cynical and unreasonable Bai Yu I knew had another completely different self hidden in his heart.

"When did you start smoking?" I asked, sweeping the drifting smoke with my hand.

"I can't remember exactly," Bai Yu said

"Is your life not going well, or is your relationship frustrated? No, it should be someone else's business!" I really didn't want him to be so sad, so I pretended to be puzzled and joked.Then I thought about it, if I took the opportunity to go and hug him, it might have a completely different effect.

Bai Yu looked at me and couldn't help laughing, then blew out a smoke ring at me, and said jokingly:

"Think what you think"

"By the way, Wei Xiaoduo, didn't you study interior design? I'll leave this task to you." Bai Yu changed the subject, looked at me and said, the bright smile on his face dispelled all my emotions, like The lonely person just now was not him.

"No problem. As for the time, I'm afraid you have to wait. After all, as the chief designer of this city, I'm still very busy." I looked at Bai Yu pretendingly and said

"It doesn't matter. I have plenty of time. Anyway, I have a place to live, and I can enjoy meticulous care. Take your time, don't worry, chief designer!" Bai Yu patted me on the shoulder solemnly, with great concern. Seriously.

"No, why didn't you smoke when my dad smoked today?" I asked when I went back.

"Yeah, then when they were drinking today, you pretended to be pretty." Bai Yu said as he walked home.

"Wait a minute, the law is not passed on to the six ears?" I grabbed Bai Yu who had already stepped into the gate, and stretched out my little finger to look at him earnestly.

Bai Yu turned around and looked at me quietly, his eyes were full of emotions that I couldn't understand. When I looked at Bai Yu, I suddenly understood that his eyes were softer than before. I can clearly see his emotions towards me, no matter whether he is happy or disgusted, he has never been soft, and this kind of softness is what I have been thinking about day and night but never dreamed of.

Bai Yu was silent for a while, stretched out his little finger and said:

"Does this count as collaborating with you!"

"Don't say it so ugly, you can't help yourself when you are behind the enemy, the Kuomintang and the Communist Party cooperate, each gets what it needs! Each gets what it needs!"

This is the first time Bai Yu and I have reached a deal peacefully without fighting with each other.From this point of view, growing up is not bad, at least I have learned how to live in peace with the people I like.

In this way, under my dad's unintentional arrangements, Bai Yu and I really lived under the same roof. Although it wasn't the kind I wanted, we were separated from each other and finally separated by a wall.However, if my dad knew about my little thoughts about Bai Yu, would he have the feeling of putting the sheep into the wolf's den?