Embrace each other

Chapter 9

Midsummer, the heat is steaming

Bai Yu and Cheng Weige were finally released from the exam cage. They were like birds that had been imprisoned for a long time, and their bodies were full of longing for the sky.In the evening, the alley that had been quiet for a long time finally became lively again. The adults who heard the news surrounded the two of them, asking how the exam was going. How do you feel?Are you sure? Don't give him a chance to breathe.We stood on the periphery and could only look at the two people who were overwhelmed by the sudden hospitality with sympathy.

The second child said: "In the near future, we will be surrounded by us. Don't say that if you really fail in the exam, you will really have no face standing inside and enjoying the scene that everyone is chasing after you."

The third child anxiously stood on tiptoe and kept jumping up.In his unremitting efforts, he finally found a weak point in the iron wall and copper wall. He quietly turned to Grandma Bai Yu and gently squeezed, successfully opened a passage, and he insisted on pulling He walked out two times, still muttering non-stop, hurry up and buy us something delicious.The adults were so troubled by him that they had no choice but to leave.

The five of us reunited felt like returning to our long-lost childhood, especially Bai Yu and Cheng Weige, who had just gone through the baptism of the college entrance examination, were extraordinarily excited.They took us to a snack bar on the street, bought a lot of snacks, and took us to an Internet cafe for the first time.It is completely different from when he secretly came to play games behind our backs before. At that time, he tried all kinds of tricks to get rid of us.

We came to the Internet cafe with a lot of enthusiasm, and there were quite a lot of people. Most of them were idle young gangsters playing games. They wore headsets, cheap cigarettes in their mouths, and had to take the opportunity to spit out a few dirty words.I looked at it in disgust, and pulled the third child to quickly go around them.Cheng Weige managed to find the location of the five row rows. He arranged us like baby dolls and couldn’t wait to play the game. The three of us who couldn’t play could only scroll down the webpage boredly and have a look. Movies or something.

Bai Yu sat next to me, wearing a red and white basketball uniform, looking fresh and clean.For me, who has been spying on him for a long time, if it is not seductive at this time, when will I wait.

Besides, as long as Bai Yu played the game, he was so focused that he couldn't be shaken, how could he notice my happy little eyes, thinking of me made him even more blatant and unscrupulous.

"Wei Xiaoduo, do I have flowers on my face?" Bai Yu suddenly said when I was fascinated by it.

Damn, I was discovered!

He obviously stared at the screen with his eyes motionless, and his nimble fingers moved quickly on the keyboard.

Being caught, I had no choice but to bite the bullet, nodded at him seriously, and said solemnly:

"Yes, foxtail"

"No, I don't dare to steal your name. Without you, the growth is so good and the wildfire is endless." Bai Yu turned and looked at me, then took off the headset, got up and walked out towards the toilet.

"Thanks for the compliment" I whispered to his leaving back.

As soon as Bai Yu left, there was a crisp sound from his QQ. I picked up the mouse, and without even thinking about it, I was driven by curiosity and did something that I still think is super immoral.

It seems that in the face of love, instinct is always greater than reason.

I watched the slightly restless little avatar jumping for joy in the lower right corner of the screen, ah, pretentious, the pink bow on the avatar immediately caused a strong sense of discomfort in my heart.

"April", let me go, can the screen name be a little more hypocritical, Lin Huiyin, who wrote the most beautiful April day in the world, didn't even care that she was called April, just pretending to be hypocritical.

Then I was born in December, do I still call myself the twelfth lunar month?

I quickly glanced at the message board. Although the text was easy to understand and harmless, I still grasped a hint of deep meaning hidden in it.

Excuse that the test is not good, pretend to be pitiful, and ask for comfort, so as to gain sympathy.

Tsk, he is not a welfare organization, if so many people who fail the exams every year come to him, can they come to comfort them?

Without even thinking about it, I deleted it in a fit of rage.

If I can stop my immoral behavior in time and don't let it develop, I won't let myself fall into the embarrassing situation later.

I clicked on Bai Yu's QQ, and found that he had more friends than expected. Before that, I always thought that he only had five of us, just like me, because in my opinion, if I have them, I have everything. No matter how good or bad other people are, it has nothing to do with me.

It turns out that Bai Yu's world is much wider than mine, and can accommodate so many people at the same time.Thinking about it, I couldn't help but feel sour in my heart.

I counted his friend groups, my friends, family members, classmates, basketball team, literature club, etc., and there was a column that turned out to be "Those Flowers".

My heart skipped a beat, and I almost choked to death with my breath.

I flicked my index finger, and the contents of the grouping column were completely revealed in front of my eyes.

Let me go, they are all girls, with all kinds of pink and tender little heads, and the names are even more strange. In front of them, Si Yue is considered strange.

At this time, the image of the wretched uncle who often appears in the legal channel immediately appeared in my mind.Bai Yu actually still has this hobby, click on one at random, and want to see their chat records, I swear, at this moment, I have no sour thoughts at all, and I just want to save the young boy in the blooming season and prevent him from straying into it. Wrong way of thinking, although the method is not correct, but the heart is definitely good.

However, the answer is obvious, I didn't find any unhealthy content, some were just simple greetings from others, and Bai Yu replied with a thousand-year-old indifferent smile.

Hey, fortunately, I am secretly glad.

However, after looking around, I was not in this grouping column. It shouldn’t be. Although I am not as charming as anyone else, no matter what kind of flower it is, it is still a flower. How could it not exist.

Just as I was browsing the grouping column quickly, my shoulders were suddenly held down by a pair of big hands, and Bai Yu's words came unhurriedly from above my head.

"What are you looking for, so fascinated?"

"How about I help you find it"

Before I could reply, he let go of my shoulders, slowly bent down, put his hand on my hand holding the mouse, slightly raised the corners of his mouth, and stared at me with seemingly harmless eyes.

We were so close that I could hear his sonorous and powerful heartbeat, and the breath exhaled by Bai Yu's nose fell on my ears intentionally or unintentionally.Just when I felt my face was burning and my breathing became messy, Bai Yu got up suddenly, took out the mouse in my hand, pushed me aside unceremoniously, and sat back in his seat as if nothing had happened. Played the game.

Later, as for what happened in the movie and how we left the Internet cafe, I don’t even remember. My mind was filled with the feeling of being surrounded by Bai Yu, and the sound of his breathing filled the air in my ears. The fragrance is pleasant.

It's over, it's over, it doesn't matter whether he is a wretched uncle or not, the important thing is that I have completely turned into a bad girl who snoops on Bai Yu's beauty.

After that day, as soon as I saw Bai Yu, I couldn't help but see a scene of the eighteen bans in my mind. In order to prove that I still had salvation, I avoided his gaze for a long time, Avoid making eye contact with him as much as possible.

I thought I was pretending to be flawless, but I hadn't realized it before.One day, we were helping grandma clean up, and the third child suddenly asked: Sister, what's the matter with you recently, why do you feel like you are afraid of Brother Bai Yu, and you seem to be hiding.I said no, I was afraid of what he was doing.

The second child said: That's right, I haven't quarreled with him recently, or the third child said that I really didn't notice.

Brother Cheng Wei glanced at me and didn't speak.

"What's so strange about this, as long as she is quiet, she must have done something I'm sorry for." Bai Yu looked at me suspiciously while cleaning the glass and said.

"Your villain's heart measures the gentleman's belly" I turned my head away and missed his gaze.

Look at how naive it was then, thinking that if you can't see it, you can't get it in your heart.

Seeing that the summer vacation is halfway through, the few of us have played almost everything we can, and gradually fell into a state of boredom.One day Bai Yu suddenly proposed to go mountain climbing. Although we were reluctant to climb the mountain in such a hot day, even if we didn’t die from the sun, we would have to peel off our skin, but the few of us couldn’t discuss anything interesting, so we had no choice but to agree.

If I hadn't seen the full moon at the rendezvous point the next day, I would have almost forgotten that such a person existed.From this point of view, she and Bai Yu are really good students with both character and learning. They were clearly in love and could keep a distance during the days of the college entrance examination. It's good to share half of this willpower with me.Full Moon wore a grass-green dress, with white lace dotted around the skirt, and her hair seemed to be shorter than before. She stood beside Bai Yu with a smile on her mouth, and greeted us generously.Just like when I was called Xiaoduo back then, I didn't have any sense of birth.It seems that they have known each other in the previous life, and I am just a passerby who was lucky enough to meet them again in this life.At that moment, a kind of emotion called sadness took root in my heart. It is not only manifested as tears in the corners of my eyes, but more importantly, it will infinitely deepen and spread in my heart until it spreads to every part of my body. Cells can only endure the pain, because there is no cure for it!

That day, I didn't feel interested in doing anything. Along the way, I just watched Man Yue talking and laughing with other people dryly.Then he held his breath and followed behind leisurely.When Man Yue climbed halfway, she felt a little exhausted, she generously reached out her hand to Bai Yu in front of her and said: "No, you have to pull me."Bai Yu looked back at her, probably because of us, he hesitated a little, but still held Man Yue's hand.At this time, the third child picked up a flower and handed it to me, saying, "Do you smell the fragrance?"I pushed his hand away irritably, and said impatiently: I can't smell flowers, I'm allergic!After speaking, he strode forward vigorously.

"I can't tell, it's really good for Xiaoduo to be so thin!"

"Well, she has been crazy with us since she was a child, she is no different from a boy," Bai Yu said

You are a boy, and all of your family are boys!I cursed secretly in my heart.

When Brother Cheng Wei came up, I was already sitting in the gazebo on the top of the mountain to rest, slowly rubbing my sprained foot with my hands.Brother Cheng Wei squatted next to me, looked at it seriously and said: There should be nothing wrong, and there is no swelling, just take a rest. "Going so fast, it's no wonder you don't get sprained," Bai Yu who came after him looked at me expressionlessly and said.Their hands still holding each other hurt my eyes.

If this incident is enough to make me sad, then what happened next will deeply hurt the hearts of each of us.The sudden death of my grandma made me instantly understand that what is more heart-wrenching than not having it is losing it.

That day, when we dragged our exhausted bodies and ran into the hospital, Grandma Bai Yu was already out of breath.The adults in the alley gathered around the bed, covering their faces and sobbing.Grandma was lying on the hospital bed, as if she was asleep, quiet and peaceful.The person who was still concerned in the morning and told us to be careful, left suddenly.Bai Yu ran over like crazy, knelt by the bed, didn't cry heartbreakingly, just stroked grandma's cheek with trembling hands, calling softly over and over again in a choked voice: grandma, grandma.Seeing Bai Yu's appearance, everyone in the room held back and sobbed silently.I'm afraid that if I'm not careful, I'll disturb grandma's reincarnation path.My dad walked up to Bai Yu and said distressedly: Son, just cry when you feel uncomfortable, don't hold back.Grandma loved you the most when she was alive. If you have something good or bad, she might not feel at ease to leave.It is also a blessing that grandma passed away peacefully without suffering.Maybe it was his father's words that helped, and Bai Yu also hoped that grandma could go on the road with peace of mind, so Bai Yu burst into tears, until the doctor urged her several times to no avail, and Bai Yu stopped crying after forcibly pushing grandma to the morgue.

Because of the sudden incident, Bai Yu's parents won't be back until tomorrow.Bai Yu insisted on staying at grandma's house again, and refused to live at aunt's house, so that night, we sat with Bai Yu in grandma's room until dawn.I clearly remember that that night, none of us spoke, and we didn't feel sleepy.That night, a bitter seed was planted in each of us.After that night, we seemed to grow up all of a sudden.The originally bright youth began to understand sadness.

Grandma's funeral was finally arranged after Bai Yu's parents came back.Originally, the uncles and aunts wanted to bring grandma's ashes to Qinghai, saying that it would be convenient for the funeral, but Bai Yu refused to agree. He said that grandma didn't want to go when she was alive, and she wouldn't go after death.This is where she lived with her grandfather all her life.No matter what his uncle persuaded, Bai Yu insisted on refusing.Uncles and aunts already felt that they owed their sons, and they were even more unwilling to deepen Bai Yu's prejudice against them at this time.Following Bai Yu's wishes, he buried grandma here.Seeing that the old man was finally buried in the ground, everyone felt at ease.

Bai Yu is not close to his parents. In the past few days since I came back, I haven't even heard him call my parents.When I secretly blamed him for being ignorant, I overheard the grown-ups' comments and realized that things were not as simple as I imagined.And Bai Yu is not as cynical as I have seen since childhood.It turned out that Bai Yu's grandfather was a soldier and had fought in wars before. When he passed away, Bai Yu's father was only in his teens, and his grandmother never remarried and raised Uncle Bai with painstaking efforts.Later, Grandpa Bai Yu was posthumously named a martyr, and Bai Yu's father, with the help of the state, went to work in Qinghai.Back then, grandma didn't agree to go there, but Uncle Bai didn't want to stay here anymore, so he went to Qinghai alone.Later, when I got married and started a business, I also thought about taking my grandma, but my grandma declined.Bai Yu was only three years old when he was sent here.On her white and tender face, with a pair of black eyes, she is very cute.Grandma also complained that they were cruel, but it was hard to say anything.Since then, he has devoted all his attention to Bai Yu.It turned out that Grandma Bai Yu's health had long been in bad shape.During the time when Bai Yu was preparing for the exam, he fell ill several times.In order not to affect Bai Yu's exam, grandma insisted not to speak.My mother said: Hey, the old man is old, and his own body knows best, so he just holds his breath and does not delay the child. However, Xiaoyu has lived up to his grandma in the end. He is a child who attaches great importance to emotions, unlike his father.

With grandma buried in peace, the return day of uncles and aunts also arrived as scheduled.However, Bai Yu was also leaving this time.I always thought that even if we quarreled, we would never be able to break up.I also thought about the worst outcome, nothing more than, I will continue to love him, he does not love me as always, but I never thought he would leave.

This summer vacation is really full of sadness. God didn't leave me any time to breathe. In his way, he eagerly urged me to grow up.We haven't been relieved from the farewell, but we have to experience a parting from life.This summer vacation, I seem to have lived my whole life.

I remember, the night before Bai Yu and his parents returned to Qinghai, the few of us came to the street corner stall that we would patronize almost every day.It was the first time in my life that I drank beer that day, and the bitter taste ran through my mouth. When I think about it now, I still feel bitter in my mouth.That night, we chatted excitedly about the past, the past when we could go back as soon as we turned around.However, at this time, every memory is like a sharp knife, deeply cutting a hole in the hearts of each of us.We didn't fall silent until it was bloody and bruised.It turns out that the warmer the memory, the more it will become a sharp knife that hurts people.

That night, when everyone else got up to go to the bathroom, Bai Yu suddenly smiled at me, with a sad and helpless smile.When my mind was full of what I wanted to say to him without looking hurt, he got up quickly, and quickly put his lips on mine when I was unprepared.I looked at Bai Yu in astonishment, and everything around me suddenly became quiet. When my eyes met, it was the first time I felt tenderness for me from his eyes.Bai Yu in front of me, under the print of the black shirt, has fairer skin and more handsome facial features. I restrained my strong heartbeat, and even my breathing was half a beat slow, for fear of disturbing the beauty of the moment.

"Will you wait for me?" Bai Yu's thin lips parted slightly, and he looked at me with affectionate and sincere eyes.

"Bai Yu, I..." I opened my mouth, but the words behind me were like a stone blocked in Hou's room, and I couldn't say anything.Just as I was trying to restrain my flustered heartbeat, Bai Yu yelled lightly:

"full moon"

His tone was clearly gentle, but it instantly froze my heart.

Facing the wind, I tried my best to hold my eyelids, no matter how the tears swayed in my eyes, I still forced a smile to Bai Yu stubbornly.After a gleam of brightness emerged from the corner of his mouth, he turned around and strode forward.The tears that had filled my entire eye sockets burst out the moment I turned around, and all my stubbornness and persistence collapsed instantly with the tears.After going back, my mother looked at my red eye sockets, and couldn't bear to blame me for the smell of alcohol.

On the day Bai Yu left, I stood at the entrance of the alley, watching the third child and a group of adults say goodbye to him tearfully.I didn't cry, maybe because last night, I cried all the reasons I could cry.Anyway, today, I just want to send him away with a smile, because this period of time will eventually be mottled in the years, even if there have been tears and quarrels, it will eventually become the brightest memory in our youth .And I, even if I can't forget him, I will gradually forget him in the process of thinking about him in the days to come.

After Bai Yu left, we soon returned to an orderly school life. Cheng Weige did well in the exam and was admitted to a university in Beijing with a score of 670. He majored in architecture. My aunt said that Cheng Weige said that Bai Yu also did very well in the exam. It seems that he went to a famous university in Shanghai to become a doctor. It is hard for me to imagine that Bai Yu acted like a doctor to treat patients, but fortunately, he learned a proper job and did not become a wretched uncle.The second child and I are about to usher in the first important turning point in our lives, so we are often too busy to meet each other. Only the third child will occasionally come to my house to complain to me. As the summer quietly passes away, this seemingly An unchanging hutong is also unconsciously changing.

After more than a year of our closed-door training, my second child and I were both successfully admitted to our favorite universities. The second child also went to Shanghai, but I insisted on staying in this city and chose a tepid interior design. .I thought my mother would be disappointed, but she said, why is a girl running so far away? It would be nice if she could guard a home and live a comfortable life in the future.I thought to myself, if I knew you were so generous, I wouldn't have to work so hard to learn Bara day and night.The second child didn't understand and said: I really don't understand, back then you squeezed into the No. [-] middle school with a lamp and boiled oil, what exactly were you planning.I said: Who is still fighting every time when the fighting spirit is passionate.Only I understand that without Bai Yu, it is the same for me wherever I am, even if it is the same as before, so what if I catch up with him, I still can't walk into his heart, although there is no him here, but There are footprints that we have walked since we were young.

After Bai Yu left, we never contacted each other again.All the news about him was heard after going through several channels. Sometimes I also wonder whether the full moon, which he was so obsessed with back then, was also admitted to Shanghai with him, or broke up without escaping graduation. of doom.Actually, when it comes to falling in love, Qin Hai and I should have had a certain period of time. On the way to send me home again in the third year of high school, Qin Hai suddenly said to me: Xiaoduo, can we try to fall in love? .I thought about it seriously, the so-called seriousness was only a few seconds, and then I nodded in agreement.At that time, Qin Hai looked at Rongruo in shock and said: Are you being too hasty?I said: "We haven't known each other for a day or two, and you can accept my bad temper. Besides, what does it feel like to fall in love early? If you don't try again, it will pass." In this way, two young people who knew nothing about love People just so hastily decided to catch the tail of puppy love and started a love that was destined to have no future.The reason why there is no future is because from the moment I agreed to him, I had my own selfishness in mind. I just wanted to try, if it is not destined to be Bai Yu, then is it possible for others.

Thinking about it now, in this relationship that was destined to end in tragedy, Qin Hai was much more active than me. He would take me out to watch a movie after the boring study, and buy some snacks for children to amuse me when I lost my temper. happy.Qin Hai went above and beyond to buy back the snacks that Bai Yu owed me back then.After Cheng Weige and Bai Yu left, Qin Hai became my full-time driver as a matter of course, taking me home halfway around the city every day, rain or shine. In this relationship, I am an accommodating recipient. Originally, all this was beautiful, but with the filling of the volunteer form, the two of us did not escape the ending of Lao Yan's separation.Qin Hai said: Why can't you go to the same city with him, your grades are not bad.I said disapprovingly: My mother wouldn't let me go, because she was afraid that I would leave, and he and my father were alone and left alone.When I saw Qin Hai's disappointed eyes, I knew I was done.Qin Hai didn't say anything, turned around and left, but I could still feel a trace of hatred towards me from his determined back.I can only comfort myself by saying that this relationship ended decently, no matter what, they all went their separate ways for the sake of their own futures.Later, when Brother Cheng Wei came back during the Chinese New Year, when he heard the second child mention my relationship that ended without a disease, he said silently: That child is really pitiful, he has been a driver for several years for nothing.Only then did I suddenly realize that Qin Hai treated me much more than just trying, and I also unintentionally made a love debt.

This story between me and Qin Hai also made me put away my curiosity about dating in the days to come. From college to work, I always kept boys and girls within the safety line of classmates and colleagues, and did not accept They took the initiative to show their kindness, let alone others. After a long time, everyone lost patience with my incomprehensible style, so that later I overheard them discussing whether I was gay or not behind my back.Fortunately, Brother Cheng Wei would visit me at school every time he came back, and only then did he break that ridiculous statement.

Speaking of it, it’s no wonder everyone misunderstands the relationship between Cheng Weige and me. Whenever he comes back, he will bring Beijing’s delicacies and wait for me at the school gate with big and small bags.Some female students would say enviously: Wei Xiaoduo, your boyfriend is back to see you again.I am very happy with them, not only breaking the rumors but also gaining face.There is such a person who is misunderstood as a boyfriend, why not do it.And brother Cheng Wei's kindness to me made the third child couldn't help being jealous. I remembered that I told him before that the candied haws in Beijing was delicious.The next winter, the old man really brought me a few strings.I looked at the candied haws wrapped in ice packs, my eyes filled with excitement, and I almost flew over.The third child yelled from the sidelines that I was Cheng Weige's sister of the same mother.The second son didn't take it seriously, and said while eating candied haws, whoever gave birth to it, the key is to eat good things.I even licked the candied haws and purposely annoyed my third child until he was teased by me and sat aside angrily and ignored me.In fact, when we are running around for our own future, the only thing that can make me relax completely is when a few people get together like this. At this time, we seem to be back to our childhood, because we are fighting for a bite and not giving in to each other. .It's just that at this time, I can't get around Bai Yu's name in my mind. I can't help but think that if he is here, he will definitely scold me for not knowing anything but eating.

After passing through the locked door, I saw that the paint on the door had long been rusted, but the memory locked inside was not forgotten in the days I never forget. It is still in my heart, as clear as yesterday, and the reason why the memory hurts People, it is nothing more than because we clearly understand that even if you read it to the bottom of your heart, it is the past that cannot be returned and the future that cannot be reached

Bai Yu left, but he never left my heart.