Depth can be seen

Chapter 111

After finishing speaking, Luo Tan closed his eyes deeply and panted slightly, as if he was exhausted from talking for a long time.

His thin shoulders were shaking.Shan Yufei looked at him and thought for the first time that "he is going away".

After a while, he inhaled hard, said "goodbye" in a low voice, then turned the wheelchair around and drove towards the ward.

The wheelchair was not moving fast, and the two wheels ran over the mottled light and shadow on the avenue inch by inch.

Shan Yufei stopped to look, his eyes narrowed slightly under the dazzling sunlight, watching his figure get farther and farther away, getting lighter and weaker, as if he had slipped into the light, diluted and watered down.

After a brief moment of daze, Shan Yufei quickly caught up, even ran, stopped the wheelchair, and picked him up again involuntarily.

Light, too light.

His face is only thin and pale, and he has not lost his appearance due to the long-term treatment, but there are some places on his body that are so thin that the bones can be easily touched.

Leaning in Shan Yufei's arms, he didn't struggle or speak as when he was carried out, his eyes stared at one place without blinking, only his chest was still heaving quietly.

Struggling and rejection also consume energy.

And the little mental strength he has left is only enough for him to live like an empty shell.

Can't afford to toss.

Back in the ward, it was time for an examination again.

He needs to take off part of his clothes and let the nurse stick various instruments on his body.

Usually, Qin Xuanwen would leave the ward at such a time.

But Shan Yufei had no intention of leaving.

He whispered, "Mr. Shan, I'm going to have an examination."

Please avoid it for a while.

Shan Yufei stood where he was, "Yes."

"You..." He said it with difficulty, "Can you avoid it for a while?"

Shan Yufei was silent at first, and then said: "You do it, I won't affect you here."

He looked away, feeling tired.

He couldn't resist what Shan Yufei insisted on, and it would be a waste of effort to go on.

"Okay." He nodded, indicating that the nurse could start.

During the whole inspection process, he didn't look at Shan Yufei again.

But he could clearly sense that Shan Yufei was looking at him.

That gaze was so powerful, covering him with a strong sense of presence, staying on the scars that hadn't disappeared.

He suddenly felt sad.

And the beating of the heart pumped this sadness to the whole body.

He hates scars, they wrap around his body like a gu, as long as he takes off his clothes, they will be fully exposed.

Shan Yufei once said that the scar on his calf was like a phoenix.

He secretly looked at it later, and the more he looked at it, the less it looked like.

Shan Yufei should be comforting him, or teasing him.

Now that he has so many new injuries, no one will make up lies to lie to him.

Even if Shan Yufei said that the wound looked like a phoenix, or something else, he would never believe it again.

Today's examination seemed to be a long time, he counted the time, and finally got through until the nurse said "OK".

He hurriedly put on his clothes, and accidentally made eye contact with Shan Yufei again.

Shan Yufei's eyes darkened to the extreme, and his expression was also extremely difficult to see.

——Anyone who sees his current thin and scarred body will be disgusted.

Not surprised, he turned around and walked to the window, continuing to look at the leaves that he never tired of seeing.

Approaching footsteps sounded behind him.

He knew that Shan Yufei had come over.

"Mr. Shan." He said, "I'm going to rest."

The footsteps stopped abruptly.

Shan Yufei propped his forehead, and the ashtray was full of cigarette butts.

When Luo Tanshen took off his underwear in front of him, it was as if he had been hit in the temple by a fist.

When I hugged him, I only felt that Luo Tan was very thin, but I didn't expect that he was already so thin.

He didn't think the scars on Luo Tanshen's body were ugly, at first glance, all he felt was heartache.

He once pressed this body under his body, wantonly asking for it.Luo Tanshen never refused his request, even if he wanted to make Luo Tan deeply hurt, Luo Tanshen would let him go, looking at him with tears in his eyes, and satisfying him.

In just two months, that familiar, almost perfect body has already become like this.

It's not that he doesn't know that Luo Tan loves beauty deeply.

That's why I used to say "scars are like phoenixes".

In fact, it doesn't look like it, he just wanted to make Luo Tan deeply happy on a whim.

Luo Tanshen really laughed, which was beyond his expectation.

In the ward just now, he wanted to make up a few more lies.But when Luo Tanshen showed his body in front of him, he couldn't say a word.

After leaving the ward, he went to the attending doctor and the hired medical team.

The two parties agree that Mr. Luo has a negative attitude, does not resist, does not cooperate, and has a great impact on the later recovery.

"Sir." Qin Xuanwen said, "Maybe we can change the environment for Mr. Luo."

"Go home?"

"It's best to go back to China, but Mr. Luo said that he doesn't want to leave country G."

This place is the capital of country G, and the medical care conditions are naturally the best in country G, but big cities have disadvantages of big cities, the air quality is not good, and it is not safe anywhere outside the hospital, so it is not suitable for Luo Tanshen to recuperate.

"Go and check." He said: "Where country G is suitable for recovery and recuperation, we will take Luo Tanshen there."

"Us?" Qin Xuanwen asked.

He dusted off the cigarette ash, "I'll stay for a few more days."

Qin Xuanwen was extremely efficient in handling affairs, and within three days, he found a small coastal town that met all the requirements.

Knowing that he was going to leave the hospital, Luo Tanshen didn't show any emotion, like a lifeless and incapable object, letting people move it around, it doesn't matter where it is.

The small town itself is quiet, and the residents seem to sleep at sunrise and sunset. It seems to be remote, but it is only a two-hour drive from the second largest city in country G, so there is no need to worry about medical problems.

Besides, Luo Tanshen has now entered the recovery period and does not need to be hospitalized.

To prevent accidents, the medical team hired by Shan Yufei also invited over.

Luo Tanshen hesitated to speak several times.

Shan Yufei asked, "What do you want to say?"

"Mr. Shan." Luo Tan said deeply: "I think I've made it clear to you last time, we'd better not meet each other. You don't... really don't have to treat me like this."

"Now is not the time to talk about this." Shan Yufei said, "You are in poor health. I brought you here to hope that you will recover as soon as possible."

Luo Tanshen's eyes were blank, "I've recovered... so what can I do? Mr. Shan, leave me alone."

"When you get better, let's sit down and have a good talk again." Shan Yufei tried his best to be calm—even if he was not at peace, "I remember everything you said to me last time. But your situation is not good, maybe Still need to think about it.”

Luo Tan shook his head deeply, "I've thought about it."

"Your task now is to cooperate with the doctor and take care of your body." Shan Yufei said, "I don't want to talk to you about anything else for now."

Luo Tanshen seemed to be tired again, his eyelids drooped, and he stopped talking.

There are psychologists in the medical team, and Qin Xuanwen once thought that Luo Tanshen was unwilling to cooperate with the treatment because he was suffering from depression.But psychologists asserted that Luo Tanshen did not suffer from depression.

The pace of life in the small town was very slow, and Shan Yufei had to rush back to China to deal with the group's affairs after staying there for three days.After more than a week, I came to country G again.

Luo Tanshen didn't change much, but probably the small town was indeed more suitable for recuperation, and his complexion improved a bit.

"Mr. Luo now goes out for a walk every day." Qin Xuanwen said, "Go east, walk three streets, and you will reach the beach. The doctor said that it is good for him to walk around. Usually, the doctor and I take turns to accompany him. You are here, why don't you go with him today?"

In the evening, Luo Tanshen went out, and Shan Yufei followed.

"Mr. Shan." Luo Tan was deeply uncomfortable, "Why are you doing this?"

"I won't stay here forever." Shan Yufei said, "Come here once in a while. It's always right to take a walk with you. Do you like going to the beach? Come on, take me to see it."

Luo Tanshen couldn't find anything else to say, so he could only walk slowly along the established route.

He is used to living in country G. Even though he has never been to this small town before, he still has a deeper understanding of the local customs and customs than Shan Yufei. He knows that there are many bicycle boys who suddenly appear on the road, and he also knows that if he is hit and injured It will not be light, so always watch the road carefully and try to avoid places with many young people.

Shan Yufei didn't say anything until he reached the beach.

The two walked on the beach with a distance of one step.The sun sank into the sea, leaving behind a gorgeous glow.

Shan Yufei turned to look at Luo Tanshen, and suddenly felt the urge to hug him into his arms.

In the hospital, he carried Luo Tanshen to the boulevard, and after moving to the small town, he carried Luo Tanshen up and down the stairs many times.

Luo Tanshen never struggled.

But now, his desire to hug Luo Tanshen is not the same as before.

Maybe because he noticed his gaze, Luo Tanshen stopped, "Mr. Shan, it's getting late."

It was not yet dark, and the sky was beautiful sapphire blue and deep purple.

Shan Yufei was about to say "then let's go back", but Luo Tan's deep eyes drifted away, looking past him and looking at a certain place behind him.

He turned around and saw a steep cliff standing by the sea.

Luo Tan looked away deeply, his hair was messed up by the sea wind, covering his eyes.

Shan Yufei felt an inexplicable uneasiness, remembering that when he was in the hospital, Luo Tan melted deeply into the sunlight and almost disappeared from his vision.

In the next second, he instinctively took Luo Tanshen's hand.

It seems that as long as you hold hands, this thin man will not leave.

He didn't allow Luo Tanshen to leave.

Luo Tan trembled slightly, but didn't break free, and let him lead him back.

At night, there are more and more children playing wheelbarrows.

Shan Yufei was a little distracted, thinking of Luo Tan's eyes looking deeply at the cliff, his heart tightened.

Suddenly, Luo Tanshen, who was like a wandering soul before, turned around suddenly, so fast that he didn't look like a person who was still recovering from his injuries.

Luo Tan pounced on him with great strength, pushing with both hands.He was unprepared, and under the sudden impact, he ruthlessly fell to the side.

And Luo Tanshen fell beside him.

A rickshaw almost brushed past the two of them, and the young man in the rickshaw was so frightened that he dropped the rickshaw and rushed to apologize.

He had scratches on his elbows and back, but he ignored it, and quickly hugged Luo Tan deeply, "Where did you hit?"

Luo Tanshen turned pale, shook his head, "It's okay."

Fortunately.

I don’t know if it is—fortunately, you were not hit.

Still—I'm fine, I'm fine.

The wheelbarrow hit Luo Tanshen's calf and scratched the skin, but it was not serious.

After returning to the residence, Luo Tanshen didn't say a word, and locked himself in the room after the doctor treated the wound.

Shan Yufei stayed alone on the first floor, recalling the situation at that time.

The wheelbarrow was actually coming from his side, if Luo Tanshen hadn't been protecting him, he wouldn't have been hurt at all.

That momentary reaction must have come from instinct, he was in danger, Luo Tanshen stood in front of him, forgetting that his body was not as good as before.

He covered the upper half of his face and sighed heavily.

Two days later, he had to go back to the country again. After explaining to Qin Xuanwen and the medical team, he told Luo Tanshen, "I'll come see you again in a few days."

Luo Tanshen didn't speak, there was a trace of emotion in his eyes that he caught but couldn't tell what it was.

On the fourth day after he returned to Jiaocheng, bad news came from country G.

Luo Tan committed suicide by falling into the sea, and there was no possibility of surviving.