[Comprehensive] It's just time travel

Chapter 116

When I was submerged in the Atlantic Ocean, a feeling called "peace" actually rose in my heart.

The sea water is icy cold, as if there are tiny knives slashing randomly in the body, the pain makes people want to yell and cry.

I'm not one for pain, more so than you are.But at that time, I didn't feel any pain.

Because the "pain" in the body has been completely covered by the "peace" in the heart, the peace in the heart is too strong, and the rest of the feelings can no longer be felt.

A Shao, if you find out about this, you will probably feel very surprised!Before embarking on the journey, I never thought that one day in the future, I would sacrifice myself for the lives of others.

Not to mention that that person is not my someone at all. Strictly speaking, he is just the lover of the fiancée of the person I am possessing this time.

Oh, maybe we can count on a good relationship, but...

Sacrifice myself for others, when did I become such a noble person?

In fact I am not the case.

Surrounded by the icy sea, when the inner peace of blindness gradually dissipated, my reason regained consciousness.

In fact, even if I gave up that piece of driftwood to Jack Dawson, I don't need to sink myself into the Atlantic Ocean. I can just lie on the driftwood and keep myself afloat.

In the few seconds I let myself sink into the sea, I heard Mo's almost shrill cry—'Your boats are nearby, and it only takes 2 minutes to drive here, just 2 minutes! '

I am also clear about this.

It doesn't feel good to admit that you "saved people" with ulterior motives, especially when you just thought you were a noble act of saving lives.

Although part of the reason is that I don't want to watch Jack Dawson die, the life of the Titanic sinking also gave me some different insights.But to be fair, in fact, I really have ulterior motives, and I am very witty to achieve multiple goals.

Well, this kind of profit-maximizing approach is indeed my style.On the one hand, it was to calm his heart with the act of "sacrificing himself for Jack Dawson", as if he could refute his previous cruelty after doing so.

Wanted to use this gesture to tell myself, look, you're not one of those cruel people who would be thrilled to see so many people die.

But... In fact, this kind of behavior can probably be regarded as self-deception, right?

But as far as I am concerned, this reason should only be incidental.My main purpose is probably to test Mo!

Why do you keep trying to kill me?And why don't you want me to die in the Titanic shipwreck?

Mo's reaction during the sinking of the Titanic was much more urgent than myself.This point makes me a little concerned, and I really want to know, if I didn't die in the crossed world because of suicide...

What will happen?In other words, what bad influence will it bring to him?

Because of this idea, I made an attempt to see the difference between the Mo I saw in the next world and the Mo I see now.

In the final analysis, it is still for calculating people.Moreover, I will do this based on the biggest premise, that is, I know that even if I die here, I will not really die.

When the blind tranquility dissipated, I realized that I was not "sacrificing" at all, let alone being noble and kind.

After so many worlds, I am still the one who is good at calculating and weighing gains and losses. This point seems to be engraved in the bone marrow, and it has become an instinct.

I'm a selfish person, I admit it.

And the reason why I have such a big "conflict" with Mo - although it is only my one-sidedness at present, but I will definitely make him hate me in the future - is also because he, like me, is selfish activists, and our interests are clearly in conflict.

Well, this time it's not that I took the initiative to do something bad to others, it was entirely his fault, Ah Shao must not misunderstand.I really wanted to get along with him at first, but later I found out that he was using me completely.

If it's a win-win use, it's fine, but no matter how you look at it, it feels like I'll be destroyed after I use it.So, the things I'm about to do in the future are completely justifiable——

Speaking of this, I suddenly thought of myself.Every time a family is completely annexed, do they feel the same as I do now?If the world follows the law of the jungle and "survival of the fittest", is everything I do now just an excuse for the weak?

I found that since I started time-traveling, I always think about some questions that are biased towards the philosophy department, which I never thought about before.

the weak...

It should be put like this, Mo regards me as a weak person, a weak person who can be discarded after being used, and does not even have to worry about personality sovereignty.In fact, I can understand his approach. If the position is reversed, if it is me, although I will not do anything that invades privacy as much as he does, but I don’t mind taking full advantage of things that can be used. .

but……

If you use "competition" to describe it, the competition between us should not be over yet, right?Let go of your vigilance too early, but you will be in big trouble.The so-called rabbits will bite people when they are in a hurry, but I think they should be more aggressive than rabbits.

Although he didn't know that A Shaoqing didn't know about Xie Qingge's affairs, the small medicine bottle he got from Xie Qingge really helped a lot.After going through a few more worlds and defeating Mo more confidently, I will definitely tell him this truth seriously.

Underestimating the enemy is a taboo for military strategists.

Ah, I can't help talking a lot when I'm facing A Shao.Compared with A Shao's words that seem to contain the great truth of life every time, I am more like nonsense.

Well, forget it, don’t worry about this kind of thing, it’s actually very tiring to worry about it, I feel that since I started thinking about philosophical issues, I don’t know how much more time I’ve been irritable than before.

I always think about it, what is the purpose of doing this, what is the purpose?On the one hand, I don't want to believe that I'm really that cruel and selfish, but on the other hand, I'm a little embarrassed to say that I am a kind and noble person.

How can I be kind, how can I be noble?These two adjectives have nothing to do with profit first. Even if I shamelessly advertise that I am a kind and noble person, those who have lost a lot of wealth because of my annexed family have no choice but to become ordinary people from high society. Guy, probably yelling "this man is lying"?

Well, their opinions are not very important, but I won't be so hypocritical and put on a hypocritical face when facing myself and A Shao.

Ah, by the way, during this time travel, I met very interesting people.For the first time, I experienced the feeling of "like", love, it is so beautiful.

That person is called Akashi Seijuro, seems to be a character in a manga?And what I like is one of the two of them, the part that exists as the second personality.In fact, when I think about it occasionally, I find it incredible. Love, liking, etc., I originally thought that such things should not exist in me.

I once imagined my own future, including marriage - I think I will probably marry a young lady from a certain powerful family. I can still accept this so-called marriage relationship.All my personal requests are nothing more than the hope that the future mistress of the Yu family will not be too weird in terms of outlook and personality, and it is better to be quiet, a little girl full of fantasies about love is fine...

As for the ideal partner, in fact, it was originally based on A Shao's personality.Although it may make you feel strange to say this, what I mean is that a character like A Shao is more compatible with me, and it doesn't mean anything beyond friendship.

And if A Shao has watched "Kuroko's Basketball" or watched it because of what I said, he can probably understand that no matter what personality Seijuro Akashi is, he is nothing like A Shao.

That's why I said incredible, love at first sight or something.After meeting the person I like, all the previous thoughts of "what kind of person I will be with in the future" become meaningless.

Regarding the ending between me and him, we didn't go to the end, nor did we end the relationship because of either party's boredom.He disappeared, I mean Akashi Seijuro with the second personality.

It was also at this time that I discovered that those things that Mo was hiding under the surface, although it was just a clue, made me start to treat Mo rationally. To be honest, I have always had a natural closeness to Mo before, probably because of him. The word "companion"!

It doesn't really make sense, does it?Looking back now, I was really emotional at that time.

Then what I want to say is-

When I sank into the sea, besides A Shao, another person appeared in my brain for the first time.

And compared to A Shao who thought of the word "Gu Rongshao", the red-haired boy with red golden eyes and different eyes that came to mind is probably a more specific image!

I originally thought that I had let Akashi Seijuro go. After all, so long has passed, the other people in that world, the so-called "generation of miracles" who can be regarded as "friends", now I don't feel much about it in retrospect.

But the fact does not seem to be the case, although I don't know whether I care about Akashi Seijuro or the happiness of having love, but I have decided that no matter what the reason is, I want to try to find Akashi Seijuro Juro.

Even if it's for my own happiness - at this time I once again realized my selfishness.

However, if we talk about utilitarianism, no matter what my purpose is-take the example of "giving up my life to save Jack Dawson" before, the end result is that I saved Jack Dawson's name, my Keep him alive, no?

and so……

The purpose is probably not that important——

When I said this, I was actually a little hesitant.I don't know if this idea is right, but there is still a long time for me to think about this issue.

Well, it looks like by now I'm used to thinking about philosophy department questions.

After talking so much, in fact these words will probably never be conveyed to you!And even if I convey it to you, A Shao, who doesn't know what I've been through, probably won't be able to understand what I mean.

In fact, I don't know the purpose of wasting my efforts here, maybe it's just a desire to expose myself, and the only person I can expose myself to is A Shao.

So, even if A Shao is not around at all, I can only say these things to A Shao——

The author has something to say:

I don’t know if I have written about the sense of confusion before death. After all, I don’t have this kind of near-death experience ＿(:з」∠)＿

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The confession to A Shao when he fell into the icy Atlantic Ocean is roughly like this, although these confessions will never be conveyed to Gu Rongshao.

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Next articleSquad leader extra, um...

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Finally, thank you 77, Quan Qingmeng, and my cute little angels for mine =3=

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In fact, I’m probably more touched by everyone’s kindness than the benefits of landmines, but I still want to say that it’s a waste of money, and I bow 90 degrees to thank you.