1921

Chapter 22 Gap

I work part-time in the "Old Times" bookstore, and the boss Lin Jian is a humble, polite and considerate young man.He can run a bookstore by himself at a young age and the business is not bad. I admire him very much.

I called Lin Jian "Boss", but he said that he should just call him by his first name.I feel uncomfortable calling someone who is older than me and still my boss, but Lin Jian insisted, so I had to settle for the next best thing and call him Brother Lin, so he accepted it with satisfaction.

It rained heavily last night.

Summer rains come suddenly and violently.

Lin Jian was worried that the rain would affect the shop assistants going home, so he asked us to leave work early last night and leave him alone on duty.I was worried that he would be too busy alone, he said that there are not many people coming to the bookstore at night, so I don't have to worry.

"Although it is open [-] hours, I am the boss, so I still have the privilege to close it when I want." He put the book on the bookshelf, "Also, there is a rest room here, and I can just rest here."

Thinking about what he said, I left.

I took the bus to school, got off the bus but didn't want to go back to the dormitory.

Because it was a holiday, the school arranged all the students who applied to stay in one dormitory building for the convenience of management.The dormitory I am staying in now is in Building E, not my original dormitory.Ye Aichen was the only one in the same dormitory that he knew, and the others were from other departments, so they were very strange.Ye Aichen didn't know what he was busy with recently, and he always came back very late.When I got up, it was not easy to wake him up to ask questions. After coming and going, we rarely met and talked.

I walked aimlessly along the avenue of the school, went in through the library but walked out again without knowing what to do, walked around the lake to the back mountain, most of the lovers on the slope were lovers, so I had to go around again go out.After going around in a big circle, I returned to the dormitory.

I thought Ye Aichen wasn't there as usual, but I didn't expect to find him when I opened the door and went in, but the other two roommates haven't come back yet.

Seeing me coming back, Ye Aichen greeted me and went to take a shower. I sat on the seat and looked at his chair with a backpack hanging on it, thinking whether I should ask him what he is busy with now.Speaking of it, it is a private matter of others, and I have no reason to know, but I still want to know.

Ye Aichen's cell phone on the table rang suddenly, and I ran to the bathroom door to talk to him.Ye Aichen asked me to pick it up for him, and said he would come back later.

I answered the phone and said to the person on the other end first: "Hi, I'm Ye Aichen's roommate. Ye Aichen is taking a shower now. I'll call you back later. I'm sorry."

"Ah? Oh, okay." The other side was puzzled at first, then reacted immediately, and then hung up the phone.

I put the phone on the table for Ye Aichen, went back to my seat and sat down, fiddled with my phone, but couldn't help but think about the call I just answered.

That "Zhang Junyue"...it turned out to be a girl...

Ye Aichen thanked me after taking a shower, then picked up the phone and went to the balcony to call the other party back.

I got a change of clothes and took a shower.

The weather is too hot, after walking for so long, my whole body is sticky and greasy.

Not long after I washed it, I heard crackling outside, and it was only after I went out that I realized that it was raining.Rainwater poured in from the balcony, wet most of the place.

Ye Aichen had finished making the phone call, and was typing something on the computer.

I dried my hair, turned on the lamp, and picked up a book casually to read.

After a while, the sound of typing on the keyboard stopped, and Ye Aichen suddenly asked me if I wanted to move out next semester.

I have thought about it before, but the school’s accommodation is much cheaper in comparison. If I move out, the rent alone will be very expensive for me now, so I just gave up.

"If you want to move out, we can share the share, so it should be fine." Ye Aichen said. "If you live in a dormitory, there are still many inconveniences."

I didn't think about it, and Ye Aichen didn't urge me, saying that I could talk to him after thinking about it.

Now that Ye Aichen started the conversation, I also wanted to ask him what he has been up to recently.As a result, as soon as the words were out of my mouth, there was a loud noise and thunder. Ye Ai Shen couldn't hear clearly, and asked me what I said, I shook my head and swallowed the words.

Do it all at once, second time tired, third time exhausted.

That was Ye Aichen's own business. I was interrupted once, so I didn't have the courage to ask any more.

Today, an unfamiliar male customer came to the bookstore. He was dressed casually. After entering the store, he found a book on the bookshelf and sat down at the seat next to the floor-to-ceiling windows to read it.

He said he was reading a book, but I don't think he read it very seriously, as if he was waiting for someone.Because he would look at the door from time to time, and occasionally look at the cash register, which made me think that he felt that he would stay in the bookstore without buying books because he was afraid that the boss would be unhappy.

"Old Times" has set up a lot of seats for guests to read books, not just a place for selling books, so I don't think he should worry about it.

The bell on the door rang, and I looked up, and it was the forest.I was just about to say hello to him, but saw the guest sitting by the floor-to-ceiling windows walking towards him, and Lin Jian also had a smile on his face.

It seems to be an acquaintance in the forest.

After the two of them talked a few words at the door, Lin Jian told me that he would go out for a while and be back in a while.I nodded to show that I understood, and then Lin Jian and the guest left together.

It was still early after the shift change, so I wandered around and ordered a bowl of rice noodles for dinner.When I passed the bookstore on the way to the bus station, I subconsciously looked there, and found that the previous customer had come again, standing at the cash register with a thermos in his hand, talking to Lin Jian. After a while, Lin Jian In no time, he led him to the rest room at the back of the store, leaving another clerk there to look after the store.

I wiped the sweat from my forehead and stood in the shade of the platform waiting for the bus.

It was almost six o'clock in the afternoon, the sky was still very bright, and the air was hot with the sun.The bus arrived late like an old man, and I felt a lot more comfortable after I got on the bus and felt the air-conditioning in the bus.

I took the materials for the second-level computer exam to the library to review.There are not many students in the library during the holidays, and the closing time is relatively early. It feels like I haven't watched it for long before the closing music starts.I stretched, tidied up, and left the library.

I walked back to the dormitory, thinking about the suggestion of renting a house that Ye Aichen made yesterday, but I still haven't made a decision.

Anyway, there is still some time before the next semester starts, so I'll talk about it when I think about it.

The phone vibrated in my trouser pocket, and I just turned off the ringer in the library.The word "Mom" was displayed on the phone. After I connected, my mother's voice came from the other end of the phone, as usual.

"Aren't you coming back this summer vacation?" Mom asked me.

I said: "Yeah."

She was silent for a few seconds, and asked me if I had enough money, and if not, she would call me.

I hastily refused.

"Enough is enough, you don't need to send me money, I am also working part-time now, you don't have to worry."

My mother talked to me again, and finally she said in a slow tone: "Xiaozi...it's my parents..." She choked, and then said: "If you have time, let's go home and have a look. It's been a while. See you, mom misses you a little bit."

"Um……"

What does mom want to say?

Whatever was going to be said, I thought it wasn't what I wanted to hear.

I looked up at the sky, the summer night sky was very clear, the stars twinkled, as if they were breathing regularly.I suddenly had an urge to buy a house, and it was very strong.The house doesn’t need to be too big, just enough for me to live in, one bedroom and one living room or two bedrooms and one living room.There are no other extra people in it, it is a house that belongs only to me.

In that way, do I also have a home?

Passing by the overhead floor of the dormitory, I glanced at it, and saw someone standing inside. Looking at the figure, it was probably a man and a woman.When I walked to the door of the dormitory, those two people seemed to have finished their conversation and walked out from the overhead. I could see their faces clearly by the lights in the dormitory building.

It turned out that one of them was Ye Aichen.

The other one is a girl with long hair.

I stood at the door for a few seconds, walked in and went back to the bedroom.

I showered, changed, and climbed into bed.One of the other two roommates has come back and is playing games, and the other hasn't come back yet.I leaned against the wall, looking at the empty white ceiling, and there was a small spider web in the corner, I don't know when it was formed.

I don't know what to feel in my heart, it's a mess.

Ye Aichen opened the bedroom door and walked in, glanced around, and finally looked up at me. "Wu Zi, was that you just now?"

I looked down at him and nodded.

"Didn't you see me?" Ye Aichen asked me.

"I see." I said.

"You go first, I thought you didn't see me."

I was silent for a while, and explained: "I saw you talking to someone, so I don't want to disturb you, so I'll come back first."

"Oh, that was my classmate just now, tell me something." Ye Aichen said, "Is anyone using the bathroom? No one, I went to take a shower."

I used it, and after the roommate who played the game said "no", Ye Ai sank into the bathroom.

I lay on the bed, feeling empty in my heart.

I realized that I might be a little too dependent on Ye Aichen.He is my friend who has been with me for the longest time. We have known each other since elementary school, and we have known each other for more than ten years.I don't have any friends who have maintained such a long relationship.I classified him as the most important category in my heart, subconsciously thinking that we could always be good friends.But now I know that he may be the only one in my world, but he is not mine alone.He's such a great guy, he'll meet a lot of people, and it's normal to have other friends.What I know about him is not necessarily what I know alone, other people may know too.The kindness I received from him was not necessarily mine alone, other people may have it too.

I hate this sense of gap, and I hate myself for thinking this way.

Ye Aichen is not like me, he is introverted, he is not good at talking, he refuses to communicate with others, and he always stays alone in the corner.He is a person who can shine, and he will naturally attract many people who are as good as him, so how can he only circle around a worthless person like me?

I can't impose on Ye Aichen my idea that I want to be the only one of the other party, it's unfair to Ye Aichen.

I can't be possessive.

In the future, I have to learn not to rely on him so much.

I, I... have to learn to get used to being alone.

I was originally alone.

I want a house of my own, I really want it.

I need to save money quickly.

The author has something to say:

Well, let Lin Jian and the others come out to make soy sauce.