You are my proper foothold

Chapter 61

To be honest, Hui Xiaoyou was not surprised when he saw Pei Ran appearing at the door of his office with a serious expression on his face.

After talking about those things with Xiao He last week, Hui Xiaoyou thought about it seriously again, he felt that he should give this child more time to think about it.

People make mistakes regardless of their age, and whether they can be forgiven after making a mistake depends on the nature and size of the mistake.

From Hui Xiaoyou's point of view, in order to get the person he likes, the behavior of throwing the fact that the "potential love rival" is gay on the Internet is very naive and ridiculous, and it is indeed unacceptable to a certain extent, but it is still acceptable in the end. Not to the point of being unforgivable.

Hui Xiaoyou thinks he knows what kind of student Xiao He is, and what kind of personality he usually has.

He couldn't help thinking that if he really let Xiao He go to other teachers, then even if he didn't say anything, it was impossible for them to think about nothing.The student who has been with him for more than half a year suddenly wants to change tutors. It is a bit far-fetched to use the wrong major as an excuse. Others will inevitably think that there is something wrong between them.

Hui Xiaoyou is not afraid of being arranged by others, but Xiao He is still young and has a long way to go, Hui Xiaoyou doesn't want this incident to cast any shadow on his future.

What's more, since the last time it was revealed that he was gay, the teachers in the center looked at him no longer the way they used to.

Everyone is a highly educated cultural person, so naturally there will be no sarcasm in the quarrel, but Yan Xiaoyou can still see and understand the thoughts that are hidden in their hearts but inadvertently revealed on their faces.

He knew exactly what they thought of him.

Even Dean Chen, who had always been close to him, had a different attitude when he met him after this incident happened.

Hui Yue felt extremely helpless about this, but there was nothing he could do.

All the teachers here are at least 30 years old except him. They are different from his students. The students’ thinking is free, open and highly receptive. However, these teachers already have a relatively fixed thinking mode and their own set of values. and life concepts.

Once they think that something is wrong, they will keep leaning towards that idea until it is firmly etched in their minds and it is set in stone.Due to the lofty and stubbornness of intellectuals, as well as the blind admiration of their own cognitive system as academics, unless there is clear evidence to prove that they are wrong, their views will be extremely difficult to change.

The idea of ​​whether the existence of homosexuality is reasonable is an embarrassing existence that is difficult for people to come up with effective evidence to support.

No matter how much you say, in front of people who are not willing to listen to you at all, all your remarks will be deemed as "exaggerating".

Hui Xiaoyou knew this very well, so he didn't try in vain.

He doesn't care what other people think of him, or rather, doesn't care that much.

However, if he wants to recommend Xiao He to other teachers now, he has to care a little more.

Leaving aside whether the professor he hopes to accept Xiao He will help him, let’s assume that Xiao He can really get along with another good professor, but if this professor cannot agree with homosexuality, and Xiao He himself is also Gay, then will they have conflicts afterwards?Once Xiao He's sexual orientation is discovered one day and spread to the ears of his new supervisor, will he still treat Xiao He the same as other graduate students?

In the school, a mentor is like a small society, where the epitome of all kinds of human nature will be reflected.

Even though no real damage would happen under so many pairs of eyes, how would he feel if someone kept putting shoes on Xiao He and making trouble and he had nowhere to turn for help?Can he feel better?

Hui Xiao felt distressed when he thought about it.

Sure enough, he was still worried about letting him hand over the child he brought to others.

Therefore Hui Yue had no choice but to compromise.

He persuaded himself that in life, who hasn't made a mistake in his errands, who hasn't been stabbed one, two, three, four, five, six, seven or eight times by someone close to and trusted by him?

What's more, looking at his own growth experience, the stabbing was only a few knives... Xiao He's knives seemed to add one to the numerator of a fraction whose denominator is equal to infinity, and it had no effect at all. Why did he Can't give this kid another chance?

Hui Xiaoyou's enlightenment to himself was very effective. After he thought about it, he called Xiao He, told him everything he wanted, and finally told him that if he didn't want to leave, he could stay on. If similar things don't happen again, he is willing to pretend that nothing happened before, and he will not tell Pei Ran the truth.

Xiao He was silent on the phone.Hui Xiaoyou seemed to be able to hear a faint choking sob, but he pretended not to hear it, and just said calmly to Xiao He: "Think about it yourself, I won't force you. If you are willing to accept my suggestion, then next The tasks that should be completed by Zhou still need to be completed earnestly, this time I don’t have a cold as an excuse, if I fall further, I will punish him.”

Xiao He remained silent, Hui Xiaoyou hung up the phone first.

He thought that Xiao He might have to struggle for a while, and also thought that he might be embarrassed to see him at the beginning of this week, and he might make up a reason for Pei Ran to speak for him, so when he saw Pei Ran coming, Yan Xiaoyou waited quietly. follow his explanation.

However, to Hui Yue's surprise, Pei Ran walked up to him with a heavy face, lowered his head, and the first sentence he said was: "Teacher, I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry?" Hui Xiaoyou was stunned for a moment, "Okay, what are you apologizing for?"

Pei Ran's head was still lowered, and after waiting for more than ten seconds, he slowly said, "I'm sorry... I didn't expect it to be him..."

Hui Yue understood, and couldn't help being surprised.

"What did he tell you?" Hui Xiaoyou asked.

"...All..." Pei Ran clenched her fists, standing there refusing to raise her head, with a guilty look as if he did it, "Teacher...I'm sorry...it's all my fault..."

Hui Xiaoyou: "What does this have to do with you—"

"It's all my fault!" Pei Ran suddenly interrupted him loudly, and lowered his voice full of self-reproach: "If it wasn't for me, he wouldn't have done this...and you wouldn't have encountered such a thing..."

"Pei Ran," Hui Xiaoyou sighed softly, stood up and walked to him and patted him, "The matter is over, and I have told Xiao He what I should say, there is no point in pursuing responsibility now. Besides, you really can't blame this matter on you, Xiao He and I are both adults, there is a problem between the two of us, you don't need to take the responsibility on yourself."

"Teacher..." Pei Ran suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed Hui Xiaoyou's wrist. The force was so painful that Hui Xiaoyou couldn't help but frowned, and quietly watched him without speaking.

Pei Ran originally thought that Hui Xiaoyou would resist, but after seeing him so calm, he became a little flustered, his hands loosened and then tightened, and he asked very anxiously: "Teacher... Xiao He should have told you... Did he talk to you?" I said... I told you..."

"Well, he said it." Hui Xiaoyou admitted frankly, then fixedly stared at the embarrassed Pei Ran and said, "Pei Ran, I want to ask you a question seriously, and I need you to answer me honestly. Is that okay?"

Pei Ran froze for a moment, then nodded: "Of course, you can ask."

"Okay." Hui Xiaoyou looked deeply into his eyes, and after a moment of deliberation, he asked slowly: "Pei Ran, do you really like me?"

Pei Ran didn't expect Hui Xiaoyou to be so direct, he was completely dumbfounded by the question, and stood there reacting for a long time before he could utter a word: "Yes..."

But Yan Xiaoyou then asked: "Really? Are you sure you really like it and not out of respect or admiration or other emotions?"

A little confusion appeared in Pei Ran's eyes, he shook his head slightly, but his tone was a little uncertain, "I...it should be true...although I do respect and admire you...but I shouldn't put these confused with liking..."

"Really?" Hui Xiaoyou looked at him inquiringly, then suddenly smiled and said in a half-joking tone: "Pei Ran, do you want to kiss me now?"

Pei Ran blushed when she heard that, subconsciously took a step back and said nervously: "How, how is it possible... You are my teacher..."

"Don't care who I am now, just tell me if you have any thoughts about me at this moment?" Hui Xiaoyou took another step closer to Pei Ran as he spoke, making the two of them almost stick together, and then Said: "To be honest, do you have the urge to take off my clothes and push them down?"

"..." Pei Ran stared blankly at him as if he had forgotten how to breathe, his body was so stiff that he even forgot to back up, only shaking his head numbly...

"That's right." Hui Xiaoyou smiled at him, and finally separated some distance from him, looking at his expression he was also relieved. "Pei Ran, you don't like me."

Pei Ran: "..."

Seeing that he hadn't recovered from the astonishment just now, Hui Xiaoyou continued to enlighten him and said, "Pei Ran, human emotions are very complicated, sometimes even so complicated that we can't tell the difference." But, I personally feel that liking is a very pure one among these emotions. It may be the most difficult to distinguish, but it is also the best to distinguish.”

"Are you trying to say... I made a mistake?" Pei Ran came to her senses.

Hui Xiao nodded his head, and said with a smile: "When you like someone, there's actually nothing much to say, you just want to possess him, want to possess him completely and thoroughly, let him belong to you only, and don't allow others to have a little bit of it." You don't feel that way about me, do you?"

Pei Ran was startled for a moment, then shook his head silently.

Hui Xiaoyou couldn't help laughing even more easily, "So, you don't like me at all. It's just the two of us here. Let me tell you something shameless. In fact, every time I see Jiang Xin When I was young, I still wanted to get out with him every minute, this is probably the so-called instinct of a man, it can be controlled but cannot be ignored."

Pei Ran's expression seemed to have figured something out, but he was still a little confused. After thinking for a while, he asked, "But teacher, is this the only way you like it? Isn't there any other way?"

"Yes, of course there is. But other methods are completely different from this one." Hui Yue looked at him kindly, "For example, I like you and Xiao He very much, but I don't like you. My liking is mainly due to the teacher's love and appreciation for the students. To describe it in a more literary way, it has nothing to do with Fengyue."

"Then you mean, I like you because it has nothing to do with Fengyue?" Pei Ran asked seriously.

"What do you think?" Hui Xiaoyou smiled at him, "You don't have any 'unreasonable thoughts' towards me, how can you still have something to do with Fengyue?"

"This... seems to be also..." Pei Ran lowered her head and said silently.

Hui Xiaoyou gave him a little time to think, then changed the topic, and finally asked what he wanted to know, "Pei Ran, how do you feel about Xiao He?"

"Xiao He...?" Pei Ran was stunned again.

"Well, Xiao He." Hui Xiaoyou asked with restrained eyes, "Do you like him?"

"I..." A trace of tension suddenly flashed in Pei Ran's eyes. He licked his lips before he hesitated and said, "I don't know about him...he is now..."

Hui Xiaoyou saw that his expression was not quite right, so he couldn't help frowning slightly: "How is he now? After telling you the truth, he must be very uncomfortable, right? Where is he now?"

Pei Ran paused for a few seconds, and when he spoke again, there was more concern in his voice that could not be concealed: "I don't know where he is now...he told me these things last night...after he finished speaking, the two of us There was a dispute, and then he went out and didn't go back to the dormitory all night..."

"Then why don't you go find it quickly?!" Hui Xiao jumped up from the edge of the desk.

Seeing his reaction, Pei Ran became even more nervous, but he still comforted himself: "It's okay...just go out for one night...he's such a big man that he can't lose it..."

"What are you talking about!" Hui Xiaoyou hastily put on his coat, dragged Pei Ran out, and said as he walked, "Don't you know how sensitive Xiao He's character is? How much does he think of you?" Don’t you know?? What he was most afraid of before was that you would know about it, which shows how much courage he used to tell you this time, but you quarreled with him, how uncomfortable he was! He was afraid that you would not be able to forgive He... What if he ran out and couldn't think of doing something stupid?? No, we have to find someone as soon as possible! You call!!"

Pei Ran was also completely anxious at this moment.

He took out his mobile phone and pressed the quick call button, but when the call was connected, the prompt "the other party has turned off" sounded on the other end.

"Teacher..." Pei Ran looked at Hui Xiaoyou with a pale face, feeling like her heart was about to jump out.

Fortunately, Hui Xiaoyou was still calm, so he patted him and said, "Don't worry, you should go back to the dormitory right now to make sure if he has gone back, if not, then ask your classmates, and look for the places he often goes to in school one by one. Once you find it, let me know immediately."

Pei Ran nodded quickly, "What about you?"

"I'll look outside the school." Hui Xiaoyou wrapped his clothes tightly, and couldn't help but think of the time when he went all over the world to look for Jiang Xin.

I hope this time, Pei Ran can find the person he is looking for like he did back then.

Find Xiao He.