You are my proper foothold

Chapter 56

The "exposure door" incident was considered to be over, but in Hui Xiaoyou's mind, this incident was not completely over yet.

Because the person who posted the post made him feel very incomprehensible and a little chilled.

He didn't say anything in class yesterday, and told everyone not to speculate about this person's identity, but he still cared about it.

Because he couldn't figure it out, he didn't understand why the man would do this.

Hui Xiaoyou was very preoccupied when he went to work the next day.

He went to the office and retrieved the timetable for him and Xiao He that Pei Ran had given him before, and found that they had no class this morning, so he sent a message to Xiao He: Come to my office some time, don't tell Pei Ran .

Xiao He should have realized something, came very quickly, and didn't say a word after entering the door.

Hui Xiaoyou silently looked at this student who had always been quiet and sensible in his eyes, sighed slightly, pointed him to the chair in front of the table and said, "Sit down."

Xiao He shook his head, still standing.

Hui Xiaoyou didn't force it when he saw this, clasped his hands in front of him, looked at him quietly for a while and said, "Xiao He, you are very proficient in using computers, and you can master the programming tasks I taught you and Pei Ran. Much faster than him. Interested in this?"

Xiao He looked up at him and nodded lightly.

Hui Xiaoyou hummed, and said to him, "I'm also very interested in programming. I thought I almost took another degree in computer science. But then I felt that my interest was mainly in quantitative finance, so I didn't take it. When I’m free, I still like to think about it by myself, and I have basically studied a little bit of things that hackers like to do.”

Xiao He pursed his lips and remained silent.

Hui Xiaoyou stared at him for almost half a minute, and suddenly said: "Although the proxy IP is safe to a certain extent, the premise is that there is no one more powerful than the user to track it down. And I personally think that in my own It's really not smart to use your own computer in the dormitory to do this kind of thing."

Xiao He clenched his hands violently when he heard this, and pinched the corner of one side of his clothes in his palms, holding on tightly.

Hui Xiaoyou couldn't help sighing softly, and looked at him lightly, "I'll give you a chance to admit it voluntarily, tell me the truth."

Xiao He lowered his head and said nothing, slender blood vessels were winding on the back of his somewhat pale hands, glowing faint blue.

Hui Xiaoyou found that he still couldn't bear to push him too hard, so he asked in another way: "Xiao He, is there anything I did that dissatisfied you?"

Xiao He was stunned for a moment when he heard the words, looked up to see him and then lowered his head again, shaking his head.

Talking to a child with this kind of temperament would feel very tiring, Hui Xiaoyou had to make his voice sound more imposing, and asked again: "Really? Why do you do it if you don't have any opinion on me?" This kind of thing? I'm not asking questions now, I just want to know the reason."

Xiao He remained silent without any response.

Hui Xiaoyou was not only tired, but his whole body was not well.

Xiao He refused to speak, so he had no choice but to say it himself, racking his brains to guess: "Do you think I usually assign too many tasks to you? You feel too much pressure and want to replace me? But I didn't say that if you If you feel overwhelmed, you can come and tell me at any time, and we can take a completely different solution."

"Or do you think I'm biased? Do you think I'm better for Pei Ran?" Hui Xiaoyou couldn't help standing up from the chair, pacing back and forth: "It's possible that I usually communicate with Pei Ran better. A lot, but that's just because he's more outgoing than you, but I've always treated you both equally in my heart."

"Teacher..." Xiao He finally raised his head at this moment, looking at him with complicated eyes, "You really...can't see it?"

"See what?" Hui Xiaoyou was so anxious that he couldn't bear to get angry when he was facing Xiao He, so he could only patiently say: "Can you tell me directly? This way we can both relax a bit."

Xiao He looked at him silently for a few seconds, as if to confirm the authenticity of his words.

Then Xiao He suddenly let out a long sigh, and said softly with a wry smile: "So you really don't know...you don't know that he likes you, just like he doesn't know that I like him..."

Yan Xiaoyou: ...? ? ?

"Who do you say likes whom??" Hui Yue asked in shock.

Xiao He looked like he didn't know how to face him. After a pause, his chin hooked back, "Teacher, Pei Ran likes you, and I like him."

"..."

It was as if Hui Xiaoyou had been punched in the air unexpectedly, although it didn't hurt anywhere, but his head was a little dazed.

He forced himself to spend nearly a minute digesting Xiao He's words.

Some fragmentary memory fragments were suddenly strung together in his mind, and some things that had once puzzled him were suddenly explained.

Pei Ran likes him? ?oh my god god lol...

Hui Xiaoyou's heart was undergoing a strong shock, and at this moment he suddenly thought, Pei Ran liked him and Xiao He liked Pei Ran, what did it have to do with Xiao He blasting him as gay on the forum?Aren't they all three? ?Xiao He has no reason to dislike homosexuality...

unless……

"……what."

Hui Xiaoyou finally reacted belatedly.

He looked at Xiao He with some embarrassment, and asked tentatively: "Is it because you are jealous?"

"..."

Xiao He had a look of lovelessness, neither admitting nor denying it.

"Is it really because of jealousy?!" Hui Yue felt that there was a problem with his cognition of the world, and he said dumbfoundingly: "Isn't it? It's because of this reason? Do you think you are still a primary school student? Just because of jealousy doesn't count." Do you think it's right to do something that could hurt someone else because of the consequences?"

"Incorrect..." Xiao He said in a low voice, "But I... I just want to gamble... If you leave, maybe... maybe he can see me..."

"If you really want him to see you, then you shouldn't use this method." Hui Xiaoyou suddenly became strict, staring at Xiao He and said: "You want him to see you, don't tell me that's what you want him to see? Is it you? If he knows that you did this, what do you think he will think? What will he think of you? Is that what you want?"

These few questions from Hui Xiaoyou made Xiao He's pupils, which had been calm since the very beginning, suddenly had a few strands of panic and fear. Authentic: "Teacher, I did something wrong...you can punish me however you want...but...but please don't tell him, okay?"

"I'm still punishing you?" Hui Xiaoyou was angry and helpless, "If I really punished you, maybe Pei Ran couldn't think of the reason?"

"Then... what do you want to do..." Xiao He's fingers tightly twisted the hem of his clothes, the circles of his eyes turned red again, and he couldn't tell whether it was regret or fear.

Seeing his appearance, Hui Xiaoyou couldn't help sighing softly, "Xiao He, you're a man. If you're a man, don't be so submissive. Be brave. I saw your words when you wrote that post and replied to other people's comments. They are all quite sharp, and they can be said to flow like clouds and flowing water, in one go. How can you be cowardly when it is your turn to speak face to face? If you said those words to my face from the beginning, not only will I not be angry, but I will respect you. but now……"

Xiao He clenched his lips, his dignified and apprehensive expression seemed to be waiting for Hui Xiaoyou's final verdict on his fate.

"I'll give you two options now."

Hui Xiaoyou finally walked up to him, patted him on the shoulder lightly, and said to the student whom he regarded as his own child: "The first choice is that you take the initiative to tell Pei Ran about this, and talk to him about it." Say everything that should be said clearly, ask for his understanding and forgiveness, and then we will turn this page completely and never mention it again.”

Xiao He's pupils tightened immediately, and he subconsciously asked, "What about the second choice?"

"The second is that I will help you keep this secret. As long as you don't mention it, I won't leak a word here. But at the same time, you can no longer stay with me. I will help you find a reason to put you Transfer to another professor, as for whether Pei Ran stays or leaves, let him decide for himself."

"Teacher..." Xiao He's eyes turned red, and a look of regret finally appeared on his face, he looked at Hui Xiaoyou timidly and asked in a low voice: "Can you let me stay, but don't tell Pei Ran... "

"No." Hui Xiaoyou resolutely refused. "People pay for their mistakes. I hope you will always remember this from now on. Never take chances and think that you will not be punished if you do something wrong. This idea is cowardly and shameful. .”

Xiao He's eyes widened slightly, Hui Xiaoyou saw the watery light floating in his eyes, knew that he had spoken seriously, and he didn't want to bear it, but he continued cruelly, "This matter There is no room for compromise, you have to choose one or the other. Choose now."

Xiao He gritted his teeth tightly, his expression looked very tangled and depressed, Hui Xiaoyou's internal organs were also tightly pulled into a ball.

Until he heard Xiao He's trembling voice say: "I choose... the second..."

Hui Yue felt his heart go blank for an instant.

He looked at Xiao He in silence, and it took a long time before he said a word softly: "Okay."

Xiao He's head was completely lowered, his fingers were twisted together, and he looked at the ground with his eyes, "Teacher... Are you disappointed in me..."

"No." Hui Xiaoyou looked at him, leaned back and sat on the edge of the desk, and after a long while said lightly, "Xiao He, I'm very sad."

Xiao He's body froze when he heard the words, "Teacher..."

"Xiao He, although we haven't been together for a long time, I always feel that our relationship should not be limited to a simple teacher-student relationship. I don't know what you think of me, but I have always regarded you and Pei Ran treats him like his younger brother." Hui Xiaoyou's gaze fell on him lightly, but Xiao He felt that he could not lift his head up because of the gaze.

Hui Xiaoyou paused for a while, then continued: "I thought you would at least have a little confidence in me, and a little confidence in Pei Ran. Even if you did this, as long as you are honest, I won't blame you. I believe in Pei Ran. Of course not."

Xiao He didn't dare to look at him, but still lowered his head: "Teacher, I can't take the risk...I can't let him know..."

"Now I'm afraid he knows, why didn't you think about it when you did things?" Hui Xiaoyou looked at him seriously, "Raise your head."

Xiao He raised his head subconsciously.

Hui Xiaoyou looked at him firmly, and said in a deep voice: "I still say the same thing, a man must be brave. If you can't do it now, I won't force you. But Xiao He, you have to remember , You must change your temperament that dare not take responsibility, otherwise you may suffer a lot from this in the future."

"teacher……"

"Teacher? Is it convenient now?"

As soon as Xiao He opened the door, Pei Ran's voice suddenly came from outside.

Xiao He's face turned pale in an instant, and he looked at Hui Xiaoyou beggingly, Hui Xiaoyou's heart was heavy, but he still nodded slightly to him.

"Come in." Hui Xiaoyou said to the door.

"Teacher——" Pei Ran pushed the door open with a smile, and unexpectedly saw Xiao He when he opened it, and was a little surprised for a moment, "So you are here, and I still wonder where you were in the morning, and I didn't answer your calls. "

Xiao He dodged his gaze, looked sideways at the ground and said, "I might have turned on the mute..."

"What's wrong with you?" Pei Ran sensed that his expression was wrong at this moment, looked at him and then at Hui Xiaoyou with some worry, and suddenly asked with a clear face: "Have you been criticized by the teacher? Haven't finished reading?"

After asking Pei Ran, he turned to Hui Xiaoyou and said, "Teacher, he caught a cold last week, so the task is a bit behind, don't be angry."

Hui Xiao nodded a little, acquiesced to this statement, and smiled at Pei Ran: "I know, it's because he feels sorry for himself, so you turn around to comfort him. By the way, what do you want from me?"

"Oh, I'm here for next week's recitation class." Pei Ran took out a schedule, pointed to the space on it, and said, "I saw a lot of students on the forum today saying that next week our recitation class has legal and economical time." I learned the main class, because Teacher Bai went abroad before, and I lost two class hours, so I arranged to make it up at that time next week. So the students asked if they could adjust the time of the recitation class?"

"Okay, you can arrange this matter, find a time that most people can accept, and those who can't come can go back and download the courseware online."

After Hui Xiaoyou finished speaking, he looked at Xiao He again, "If there is nothing else, you two can go back together. I see that you still have classes in the afternoon, so go eat early."

"Well, do you want to go with us?" Pei Ran asked.

Hui Xiaoyou looked at him, thinking that Xiao He said that Pei Ran liked him just now, he couldn't help but sigh silently, shook his head and said: "I still have something to do, I'll eat later, you guys go."

Pei Ran seemed a little disappointed, but he didn't say anything, patted Xiao He and dragged him out together.

But for the sake of Xiaoyou, he kept thinking about what he said to Xiao He just now, and his heart seemed to be shrouded in a haze, which made people extremely depressed.

He felt that as a teacher and educator, he had suffered from Waterloo in terms of educating people.