Yi Xing

Chapter 36

Fu Fu urged me to take a shower and dried my hair.

After the lights were turned off, I lay on the bed and listened to the insects chirping outside the window before I felt scared.

If my knife is really cut down, Fu Yixing will witness with his own eyes that I become a criminal.

If I kill Zou Yi'an, my uncle and aunt, and Tang Cheng, they will all fall into boundless despair, they will know what I have gone through, and they will sigh with regret.

I don't want people to criticize this family for adopting a murderer.

But I really wanted to kill him at that time, I wished I could peel Zou Yian's muscles and make him ashes.

I almost killed him.

I can still imagine the scene of his blood gushing out—at the end of summer, on a humid night, outside Hua’an’s back door, under the plane tree, Zou Yi’an covered his neck with his hands, and the blood flowed from his fingers He kept rushing out, the whole air was filled with the smell of rust, he stared at me, and finally fell to the ground, his eyes were completely lost, and he died in front of my eyes.

When I close my eyes, all kinds of deaths emerge in the darkness—they are either bright red, or deep red, or flowing, or clotted blood, each scene is different, but in the end, They have all become my nightmares.

An irrevocable parting.

unforgivable sin.

These are my fates—fate from which there is no escape.

The thick night made me breathless, and the cicadas at the end of summer also became the end of their strength, and their singing was intermittent, which made people feel sad.

I was lying on the bed, looking at the board of the upper bunk, imagining the scene where I would meet my loved ones in the underworld.

Will they be disappointed in me?

I'm not kind - the moment I put the blade on Zou Yi'an's neck, my heart was full of joy, I hoped that he would lose his breath, and hope that he would disappear from this world.

I'm not strong either—I never learned to be brave, I've always been cowardly, I've always been scared.

They will be disappointed to see me like this.

A warm liquid slipped out of my eye sockets, along my cheekbones, and rolled into my hair.

I actually cried again.

I feel sad, but I can't tell what the reason is, I'm even sad because of my own tears.

It's sad to be alive, and it's sad to be dead.

Fate is too harsh on me.

I was crying and my nose was blocked.

I don't want to disturb Fu Yixing's sleep, but I feel that I will be suffocated to death if I don't blow my nose. I can only bet that he is a sound sleeper and won't be woken up by my movement.In the dark, I slowly groped to the table and found the paper. The moment I pulled out the paper, Fu Yixing lit up the phone.

He must have seen me crying, otherwise he wouldn't have locked the screen immediately.

That moment of light made me feel overwhelmed, holding the paper, not knowing what to do next.

Fu Yixing heard the process of my dispute with Zou Yi'an.

He saw me crying again.

He has seen everything I dare not reveal to the outside world.

"Sorry." Fu Yixing said.

I responded with a nasal thud.

He was still standing by the table. After a long time, Fu Yixing said, "Maybe it would be better to cry out loud."

I heard him coming towards me.

I don't know where the switch was triggered by his words. When he said this and walked towards me, I felt very wronged.

I wasn't raised to cry over ice cream that fell on the floor.

But I will also be wronged, and I will also feel reluctant.

As he approached me step by step, I cried louder and louder.

A mother would comfort a crying child.

I don't have a mother.

But I know that Fu Yixing will coax me.

I reached out in the direction he came from, and touched his chest.

He pushed my hand with his body and continued to approach me, pressed towards me, and came in front of me.

Fu Yixing's slippers touched mine. I bent my arms and kept my hand on his heart. I could feel the temperature of his chest, his strong heartbeat, and his tenderness. Breath falls in my hair.

He raised his hand, bringing a cool breeze.

"Want to hug?" Fu Yixing asked.

I dove headlong into his arms.

I know that fate does not favor me, I should stay away from this warm embrace, for his sake.But Fu Fu is a temperature I can't resist.

I was crying, and the tears couldn't stop pouring out, all seeping into the clothes on his upper body.

Fu Yixing stroked my back with his palm back and forth, and he said, "It's okay, it's okay, it's all over."

How can he be so good.

I don't know exactly how long I cried, but it must have been a long time. In the middle of the night, Fu Yixing said in my ear: "Drink some water, or the electrolytes will become unbalanced."

I nodded and he went to turn on the light.

The light made my eyes hurt even more. I wiped my face with my hands, and the small room became clear from blur. He walked towards me with water, and I saw a lot of wetness on his shoulders, and suddenly felt Excuse me.

I think I must look ugly now.

Fu Yixing handed me the water and said, "Want to talk to me?"

I nodded, "That's what you heard, Zou Yi'an, the one who killed my dad, he went to Jinghai Temple to find me, he kept showing guilt, let me forgive him, I really want to forgive him Yes. But he kept pestering me. Later I found out that he went to investigate me, so I asked the uncle of the police force. He said that Zou Yi'an should still be in prison. I didn't know that he was replaced. He has been diarrhoea. To me, I wanted to make a break today, but I didn't expect him to be like that, I don't know what I should do."

"Then, will he come again?" Fu Yixing didn't mention that I threatened Zou Yi'an with a knife.

I shook my head, "I don't know, but I have a feeling he won't come again."

Fu Yixing pondered for a while, "Don't you consider calling the police?"

"It's useless, he doesn't have that name anymore. And his family is very rich, so he must have used some kind of relationship to get him out. There may be people in the public security system who protect him."

He took out his mobile phone, "I recorded the audio. So this recording is useless?"

I wanted to press the start button, but he stopped me.

"I've heard it. It's very clear. Don't listen."

"I can give it to my uncle in the traffic police team, but the latter part..."

"I've cut it off."

I felt a little astonished, and it was at this time that I realized that Fu Yixing would definitely ask me about my next plan, if not tonight, it would be tomorrow, or the day I would like to tell him.He will keep the recording until I need it.

When I looked into Fu Yixing's eyes, it was as if I saw an ice field reflecting sunlight, which was vast and clear. The ice field was ten thousand years ago, and the sunlight was eight minutes and 16 seconds ago, but Fu Yixing was within my reach.

When Zou Yi'an and I clashed today, Fu Yixing was just a few steps away.

He could obviously stop that conflict, he could see the cold light on the blade, but he didn't do anything.

I didn't stroke deep into Zou Yi'an's neck, but I still felt scared.

But Fu Yixing, why can he watch from the sidelines calmly?

"Fu Fu, aren't you afraid when you see me holding a knife? I might really kill him. Why don't you stop me?"

Fu Yixing said, "I don't think you can."

"But I really thought about killing him."

"But you don't, do you?"

This is a question, but he said it very firmly.

Fu Yixing stared at me and repeated "You will not kill him."

It only takes a second to make a decision, and Zou Yi'an's life and death are decided in an instant.

I don't know what restrained my cruelty, but I know that that kind of thing didn't come about suddenly, maybe it was the goodwill I have felt for a long time, maybe it was the education and influence of many years, maybe it was the only reason left, and there was also a trace of it. Subtle possibility - I still look forward to the future, I hope that I can still be Tang Cheng's younger brother and Fu Yixing's friend, and I still want to stand by their side and not bear any crimes.

I drank the water in the glass, and suddenly thought that I might not be what I thought, and Fu Yixing might know a person named Ren Ke better than myself.

He believed in me, and has always been adamant that I am a good person.

We talked until dawn that night.

I felt sleepy watching the morning light sneak in through the window and fill the space.

"Just don't sleep. The more you sleep, the sleepier you get." Fu Yixing said.

I smiled and nodded.

Before entering the classroom, I looked at the class card of Class [-], Senior [-], and thought of having to take a math test again, so I became tired of studying.

don't want to go to school.

Don't even want to pretend to be positive.

I've just been through a catastrophe and need time to recover.

I did not enter the classroom.

"Help me ask Boss Xie for a leave of absence, saying that I'm sick and can't go to class today." I said to Fu Yixing.

"I'm sick today, too," he replied.

Fu Yixing has always been self-willed in class, he can go out with his schoolbag in the middle of class, but I dare not do that.

I don't have the capital to do so.

I wondered whether I should go to the classroom or ask the teacher for leave.

Fu Yixing dragged me directly to the door of the office.

"Then how should we say, we are not sick..." I refused to go in.

"Who says you can only ask for leave if you are sick?"

Boss Fu knocked on the door of the office very politely. He told Boss Xie that he was in a bad mood today and wanted me to accompany him out to relax.

Boss Xie nodded, filed a leave note, and asked us to pay attention to safety.

I was still in shock until I walked out of the school gate.

"Why is it approved so casually? I have never heard of such a reason to go out and relax."

Fu Yixing smiled and winked at me, "Although I don't want to say it, it's a privilege, a real privilege. It won't matter if I take you out, or I go out alone, or you go out alone. But if I want to take a poor student out, Boss Xie will not agree. This is the privilege of a good student.”

I laughed, "How cruel."

I followed Fu Yi to the bus station, only to realize that my beloved car is still parked in the shed, and I can ride it today.

"Boss Fu, I want to ride a bike."

"No. Follow me today."

It was rare for him to say no, so I followed him on the bus resignedly.

Fu Yixing took me to Xiaoying Village, the terminus of Metro Line [-] in the south of the city.

It is almost deserted here, and there are still stretches of fields in the distance.

The subway track hangs high above the ground, becoming a symbol of the city's radiation to the periphery.

Fu Yixing stepped on the upward elevator, turned around and said to me, "This is the starting point."

I nodded ignorantly.

As the trains headed north, farmland was turned into factories, high-rise residential buildings rose from the ground, and construction sites were filled with dust.

The sun shines through the glass and casts dazzling light spots in the compartment.

In Canbai's dizziness, the subway stopped above the University City, and more and more people got on the train, filling up the orange-red seats on Line [-].

I looked at Fu Yixing, he didn't say anything, and he gave me an earphone.

"When you become blurry

has morning come

The mist is gradually scattered

you go with it

There is no return date for this farewell

The first half of my life has passed..."

The journey on the surface is over, and the train goes underground.

It was pitch black outside the car window, and the glass became a mirror. A few meters away, I was sitting by myself.

The subway kept speeding up, slowing down, speeding up, slowing down, stopping at many stations, and then came to the center of the city, and my left ear was filled with "Excuse me", "Can you get off", "Thank you", and my right ear There is still the low and vicissitudes of the male voice.

The compartment was crowded with people and it was warm.

Fu Yixing and I gave up our seats to people with disabilities and stood in the corner.

The people on the platform were in a hurry, and I, who was wearing a school uniform, didn't know where he was going to take me.

Fu Yixing set that song into a single cycle. On the journey north, I heard "a wild flower, swaying with the wind, I fled my hometown on a boat. I tore up the past, And the lie you sent."

The stop meter above the door kept flashing, and the train passed such stops as "Muxiyuan", "Chengzu Mausoleum", and "Dazhongting", and then the green lights below them all went out.

I suddenly understood what Fu Yixing wanted to express.

Before the terminal, the subway broke through the darkness and returned to the light.

I was a little uncomfortable with the change of light and dark, so I covered my eyes with my hands, and when I looked out the window again, the Yangtze River was right in front of me.

After taking the subway, I seem to have finished my life.

Born in the south of the city, growing up in the university town, passing by the bustling, old and quiet ancient city, the end point is the wide and calm river.

Fu Yixing took the earphones back and said, "This song is called "North"."