Who is the heroine?

Chapter 38

The night before school started, Guan Xi packed some things and returned to Guan's house early.

Lu Yun rejected her invitation and planned to spend his last holiday at home. This refusal made both of them feel embarrassed at the same time, and the atmosphere was a little stagnant.

The car couldn't drive into the narrow alley, Lu Jin helped carry Guan Xi's heavy bag, and went downstairs with her, Qiao Xin originally planned to go downstairs, but Guan Xi politely refused - the sky had already darkened , It's inconvenient to go downstairs, and it's not a big deal to go back - isn't there no one from the Guan family, so let Uncle Chen pick it up?

She only said that she wanted to have a few whispers with Lu Yun.

So Qiao Xin stood at the door of the anti-theft door, watching them change their shoes, and then gently hugged Guan Xi.

Lu Yun accompanied Guan Xi and walked down slowly. No one spoke that day, and the afterglow of the setting sun could not shine into the corridor of Tongzilou. The sound of footsteps echoed in my ears. Hearing the staggered and reverberating footsteps, they seemed to be lost in thought.

The driver, Uncle Chen, took the luggage.

Some people living nearby stretched their necks to look around. The mottled building corners were covered with moss, like Guan Xi's heart, obscure and difficult to understand.

Finally, it was time to part.

After the two adults finished speaking politely, they looked over at the two of them.Lu Yun still didn't speak, but he didn't really say "goodbye."

"...I'll go to Mingyu tomorrow morning." Lu Yun put his hands in his pockets and kicked the dust, "I don't know which class I'll be in...I'll send you a message when the time comes."

"I'll find you then." Guan Xi said.

"..."

"..."

Lu Jin was a little impatient, he took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, shook out one, and handed it to Uncle Chen—of course he was rejected, and he didn't care at all, as if this sentence was just a polite way to say it casually, Since the other party refused at this moment, he turned the direction of the cigarette case with a natural expression, took out one and put it in his mouth.

"Let's put our luggage in the car first." Lu Jin's voice was a little vague, his eyes drooped, softening the sharp and sharp face.

Uncle Chen followed him, and the two walked out one after the other.

Lu Yun scratched her head with an annoyed expression: "...Anyway, I'm going to move to Guan's house tomorrow, so I want to stay at home tonight...Actually, if you can, I think you can stay here too. One day, just one night, it will be difficult to come back after tomorrow.”

Seeing her trying to explain, Guan Xi was silent for a while: "Really?"

"Of course." Lu Yun said, "It's mainly because I don't want to part with my parents—"

"Do you know," Guan Xi said suddenly, "Actually... I always thought before that, among the two of us, I was the one who was more conservative and didn't want to change the status quo. I really thought so. After all, no matter from which point of view, I have gained more... At that time, you told me that you didn't want to change it back. I thought it was because you didn't really have everything you should have. To say that, I think even if we both want to stay the same, my desire must be stronger than yours. But I seem to be wrong."

Her eyes were heavy and fell on Lu Yun's cheeks. Those eyes looked so dazed, as if she was stunned by the sudden series of words. She clearly couldn't figure out the situation, and could only wait for her brain to gradually react in a daze.

—I should stop.

Guan Xi's rationality told her so, but she didn't want to, and couldn't.

"I was wrong," she paused, "You are the conservative, the one who clings to the past and is unwilling to change. The surface and the heart are completely opposite. In fact, you don't want the things you value to change even more than I do——Ben You don't want those things that should belong to you but now belong to me, not because you look down on those things, but because you refuse the possibility of exchange at all, so you would rather give up those things you don't have and choose to hold them now In the palm of my hand." Speaking of this, Guan Xi once again thought of the somewhat surprised but uneasy look in Lu Yun's eyes that day, and she felt a little tight in her chest, "I thought you would cause my uneasiness, But the fact...is that I make you feel uneasy?"

At this moment, everything seemed to be gone. She looked at Lu Yun stubbornly, wanting to get an answer.This problem has been in her heart for so long that every morning when she wakes up and sees Lu Yun lying on the bed and sleeping peacefully, she will feel unspeakable sadness——that sadness is not even hers. My own sadness, but the sadness derived from Lu Yun's sadness, like... The moss covering a corner of the wall is because of the decadence and withering of the wall itself.

Before, Guan Xi never knew that he was such an empathetic person, that as long as he thought of the other party's uneasiness all the time, he would empathize with him.

...It seems that the two of them are twins with telepathy.

Lu Yun seemed to wake up suddenly from a dream, and looked at her in a daze. After a while, he showed a somewhat embarrassed expression: "I..."

Lu Yun was very embarrassed. The unprecedented embarrassment forced her to take a step back, as if she could completely escape this bewildered space if she did this.

Being hit by Guan Xi's words, she really did feel this way.

That kind of feeling that I don't want to change at all, and I don't want to exchange at all.

She remembered an incident a long time ago, when she was in elementary school, the class distributed books on the first day of school, because she was sitting in the last row at that time, and when the book was distributed to her, it happened to be the last book, and that book Being strangled by the book rope, she went to the teacher to change it, but the teacher said that if she wanted to change it, she would have to wait at least two days—she agreed, but after she had no choice but to use the book in class, she never wanted to change it. Changed.

Because that book became hers.

She, Lu Yun, tried her best to mend the book, and she was unwilling to exchange for a brand new and different book.

She wants what only belongs to her, and as a fair exchange, she will never change.

If another person pointed out her own eccentricity today, Lu Yun felt that she might take it for granted and even admit it with some complacency—but in front of Guan Xi, her sense of shame would always grow for no reason Several times, standing in front of Guan Xi at this moment, she felt as if she had become a child who had made a mistake. Standing in front of the teacher, she blushed and listened to those sharp comments, but she was speechless.

She wanted to deny it like last time, and then bring the problem to herself, telling Guan Xi "it will be fine, I'm just not used to it", but she couldn't deny her loss, anxiety and other things.

She kept silent because she didn't know how to explain it.

The overly long silence seemed to have caused another misunderstanding, Guan Xi's eyes gradually dimmed, she lowered her eyelashes, like a returning bird, folded its wings full of tiredness: "...I see."

She turned around without hesitation, and walked out quickly.

Lu Yun suddenly raised his head, trying to call her back.

But as soon as he opened his mouth, the words were swallowed back.

She lowered her head, as if she had nails growing on her feet, she couldn't move, she just stared at the shoelaces in a daze.

Guan Xi finally couldn't help but glanced back, and saw Lu Yun's pitiful appearance with drooping ears, motionless.

She pursed her lips, and an unknown fire rushed into her heart - this man!Don't you usually speak well?Why are you pretending to be dumb now? !

She even wanted to speak harshly.

"Lu Yun..." She opened her mouth, a lot of cruel words were circling in her mind, every sentence was a sharp arrow, waiting for her to pick out and shoot at Lu Yun, but, thinking of the consequences, she said the first sentence again and again. Can't do a single syllable--

Lu Yun raised his face and stared at her.

Guan Xi's chest heaved and fell for a long time before finally holding back the next sentence under such gaze: "...I will wait for you tomorrow."

After finishing speaking, turn around, without looking back, and leave quickly.

Guan Xi sat leaning on the back seat of the car, the brown leather back was slightly recessed. She rubbed her temples, looked around, and felt that everything was strange, whether it was the decoration in the car or the driver sitting in front. .

Uncle Chen glanced at her through the rearview mirror: "Miss, are you having fun these days?"

I was very happy at the beginning, but now I am not happy at all.

Guan Xi thought to herself, but said inappropriately: "I'm very happy." She unconsciously turned on the phone screen, but there was no new information.

The screen went dark, and she rested her chin and stared out the window.

The car passed by a familiar basketball court, and Guan Xi couldn't help but twitched the corner of his lower lip.

Uncle Chen noticed this keenly, and then smiled: "It seems that you get along well."

Guan Xi turned her head and glanced at Uncle Chen.

Logically speaking, since I said "very happy" just now, I should nod logically and politely now.

But for some reason, Guan Xi twitched the corners of her lips, but said the opposite: "No, we get along very badly."

In the rearview mirror, the two looked at each other.

Truth or lie?Maybe only Guan Xi knows.

"... Very bad," she said, as if her soul and body were separated for a moment, her soul hovered in the air, staring at the body calmly and making cold judgments, "because we are not from the same world at all— —In the past, present, and future, perhaps forever, we have no way to become people of the same world.”

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