when love is unforgettable

Chapter 1

Prologue 1

What is fate?Is it wishful thinking and self-indulgence, or is a tragedy about to begin?I am afraid of fate!I am afraid to own!When the fate comes, both parties will look forward to seeing each other immediately, but when the fate ends, there is only a cold back or a faint sentence: "I'm sorry, I did this for your own good." In my long and short gay life , There are several elders who said this sentence to me at the same time when the relationship between me and me is over. Is this the end of the relationship?This is clearly shameless abandonment!After owning, it is permanently lost, accompanied by endless troubles and endless sadness. People say that they don't care about forever and only care about what they once owned.Forgive me for never reaching this highest level, I am just a mortal, an ordinary middle-aged man.After experiencing many setbacks and ups and downs in my gay career, my heart was broken and I was afraid. I would just hide in a corner of the cash register and quietly lick the wounds brought by fate. Although the wounds were not fatal, But it's enough for me to remember.

I knew from a young age that I was different, when I was five or six years old to be precise.Other boys like to play house with little girls, but what I like most is going around behind my uncles. If one day an uncle hugs me, it will be enough to make me excited for a long time!

Back then, I didn't understand anything. As I grew older, I was surprised to find that I had sexual impulses towards middle-aged and elderly people when I was in junior high school!This is such a horrible thing, I am very afraid of letting others find out the secret in my heart, gradually I don't like to play with my classmates, I would rather hide in the back mountain of the school by myself in my spare time, unconsciously I Falling in love with loneliness, falling in love with loneliness, it seems that in this way, we can protect ourselves well.I don't want myself to be a monster in the eyes of my classmates, and I don't want myself to be the biggest joke since the school was founded!

In addition to the back mountain when I was a student, I also had another favorite place. I guess many people can guess it, yes, it is the bathroom!I was a boarder throughout my middle school period. When I happened to be studying late at night, I sneaked away in advance when there was no teacher. There was no way. I was sweating all over during the physical education class in the afternoon. Comfortable, you must take a good bath to refresh yourself.

Taking a bath is the most common behavior in life. I didn't expect that this bath would make me feel the impact of a naked old man for the first time. In the bathroom, I ushered in the first masturbation in my life.

Shang Jin still remembers that night, I hurried into the bathroom with a bucket in my hand, thinking that no one would take a shower in the bathroom at this hour, because the students were all studying in class at this hour, and I soon realized that I was wrong, as soon as I entered the door I heard the sound of splashing water coming from the third row. I am a very curious person, so I walked over to the third row with a bucket. I wanted to know who this person was, who dared to skip class like this young master. bath.

I walked on tiptoe soundlessly, and appeared in the third row like a ghost. I wanted to yell to startle the person who was taking a bath, but the yell came to my mouth, but it made me scream hard. Swallowing it back into my stomach, I was not scared but I was shocked. What a sad thing. I lay on the bed afterward and thought about it quietly. I thought about it again. What kind of sadness is this? It is simply a gift from God!

What appeared in front of me was the picture I dreamed of. A middle-aged man in his 50s was squatting and washing his hair with the water in the bucket. I looked down from the height and could clearly see his private parts.I recognize him, he is Teacher Lan who teaches Chinese in the second year of high school, he is from the Northeast, I heard that he seems to be an educated youth who left his hometown and came to the small town.

After sneaking a few glances, I carried the bucket to the bathroom in the fourth row. I didn't dare to stay any longer. At that time, my heart was beating non-stop, as if it was about to burst out of my chest!The scene tonight was too shocking, and if I walked a few seconds later, I didn't know if the nosebleeds would surge out on the spot. Besides, I had a wicked heart and no guts, and I was worried that Teacher Lan would find out that I was spying on him. , I can’t finish eating every minute and walk around.

When I was taking a shower, I deliberately tried to keep my movements as light as possible, and prayed that Teacher Lan would not find that I was next door. I don’t know how long I heard the sound of footsteps coming from the next door, from near to far, and I finally breathed out the backlog. For a long time, at this moment, I actually felt a sense of collapse.

After returning to the dormitory, I didn’t wash my clothes, and fell directly on the bed. I suffered from insomnia that night, and the bright moonlight sprinkled on half of my face through the window, like that invisible fate, half of which was bright and half was dark.

Bewildered for a long time, Teacher Lan's charming body dangled in my mind, I was very afraid of this feeling.I am a traditional man. Although I have that intention, I have been suppressing myself from thinking about those things. I know that I will get married and have children like all men.If I didn't do this, I would be an outlier in everyone's eyes. People would try their best to explore my inner world until I dissected my dark side. I was afraid of letting my secrets be exposed in front of people.

The temptation tonight is really too great, it is the first time to see the naked body of the elder, there is no cover!I really don't want to suppress my true inner thoughts anymore. For the first time, I used my hands in fantasy to completely vent out my long-hidden desire.

Since then, I have a new secret and found a good way to let myself release desire and pressure.Also, I found that every time I fantasized about Mr. Lan, I fell in love with Mr. Lan's type of Northeast man. The tall and bold Northeast man became my first choice for making friends in the future.

Time passed quickly, and I officially started working a few years later. During the entire school period, I still controlled it very well. I wanted to go back and think about it, but I never took the first step.It was different after work, the desire became stronger and stronger, I was very scared, afraid of the day when it would explode!

The things in the world are so strange, the more afraid they are, the more they will come, and they will come in a menacing way!As the old saying goes, what will come will always come.

At that time, there was only one Green Shadow Park in the small town. Where there is a park, there will be people, and where there are people, there will be comrades.Without exception, comrades often haunt Luying Park. In those years, comrades were very confused. Many people thought they were sick, and they dared not tell others, let alone go to the hospital.Lonely people are shameful, comrades also need to seek psychological comfort, of course, physical pleasure is also necessary, or word of mouth, or eye contact, or inadvertently looking for, haunt the green shadow park There are more and more comrades, and gradually it becomes a hidden gay gathering place.

I like to go for a walk after dinner, and the fatigue of the day is gone under the gentle breeze. I am a person who studies medicine, and I understand the importance of walking after dinner.

The coconut stewed old hen soup at home that night was very delicious. I actually drank three bowls. I blame this soup for being so delicious, otherwise I wouldn’t have taken the first step into the complex by accident. gay circle.

At that time, there were not many people walking at night, not to mention that there were no street lights in the area of ​​Luying Park, which made it even more sparsely populated.

Caressing Yuanyuan’s belly, I suddenly felt a little pooping. Seeing that there were no pedestrians nearby, I really wanted to unzip my trousers and pee, but I was still a little embarrassed. I admit that my personal quality is not very high, but things like defecation anywhere I really dare not do it.

I remembered that there was an open public toilet in front of me, so I ran all the way.I didn't expect that there are still people urinating in such a secluded public toilet. When I approached the urinal, someone was already having fun!

When the man saw me standing next to him, he smiled at me with a meaningful smile.At that time, I was so panicked that I didn't care so much about peeing, and I vented to my heart's content. I didn't expect that person to grab my dick with lightning speed when I was shaking it. I was stunned, and for a while Before I could react, the man rubbed it a few times, and then I came back to my senses, pushed him angrily and scolded him loudly: "Hey! What are you trying to do? Crazy!"

After the man let go of his hand, I immediately pulled up my trousers and walked out of the toilet angrily. Unexpectedly, the man followed him like a shadow. Damn, the hooligans played on me. I stopped and turned around to teach him a lesson. pause.

There was a small [-]-watt light bulb at the door of the toilet. Even though it was so dim, I could still see the man's appearance clearly. I really didn't expect that the man turned out to be an old man, and he looked very kind.

I couldn't help but calm down and didn't show too much anger: "I touched you too, why are you still following me?"

When the old man saw that I stopped, he might be afraid that I would hit him, so he took two steps back and said, "I didn't follow you on purpose, I have to go home."

Think about it too, is it wrong to ask people to live in the toilet?That's the toilet, you go in and you come out.Looking at his kind appearance, I don't want to embarrass him anymore, and it's also meaningless for an old man to beat him.

The old man is very good at making things happen, seeing that I didn't pursue his intentions, he even took the initiative to chat with me.

"Would you like to take a walk in the park, young man?"

I took a serious look at him, and found that he should be a bit of cultured person, and his clothes are quite elegant, and even the leather shoes under his feet can still feel a light in the dark night. Forget it.

"Yes, I walk here every night."

In this way, I got acquainted with Uncle Zhao, and I blamed my lack of concentration. After getting to know him for a few days, what should have happened naturally happened, and even what should not have happened also happened.

I naively thought that Uncle Zhao was my one and only, and I was his everything. Now that I think about it, I was too naive and stupid. It’s not that there is no true love in the gay circle, it’s just that you can’t find it.

One day a few months later, in that toilet, I witnessed something that I should not have seen. The toilet was still the same toilet, and Uncle Zhao was no longer the Uncle Zhao I knew!

In those few months, under the enlightenment of Uncle Zhao, I quickly became a member of the army of comrades. After taking the first step, I was like an arrow shot out and could not turn back. under my control.

Unwilling to be lonely after Uncle Zhao left, I took the initiative to strike out. As long as I had free time, I would show up in Luying Park. When I met an old man I liked, I would strike up a conversation, regardless of whether he was gay or not.

In this way, I met a few old people intermittently, but none of them lasted long. I found that the few old people I knew were very carefree, always eating what was in the bowl and looking at what was outside the bowl.Before going to bed, he thought I was a treasure, and after going to bed, he got tired of it, and then tried to kick me away.

The saddest thing is that they don't understand my heart, as if there is only sex between comrades, what a sad thing, but what I really want is a father's love!