When Bai Yueguang was disheartened

Chapter 108

Jin Jin was carried home by Qi Shanhe and Jin Shengzhe.

It was close to midnight when Yin Zhen was lying on the bed, he hadn't stayed up all night for a long time, probably because he had gone through such a storm, Yin Zhen didn't feel sleepy at all.

The mobile phone has been charged, looking at the missed calls and unread messages that keep popping up, it feels like a needle has been pricked in my heart.

The lights in the room were all turned off, except for the glimmer of bright moonlight penetrating through the veil, which comforted people in the dark night.

Yin Zhen couldn't sleep, he was upset, turned over, and remembered what he said to Zhou Yuan just now.

"We will be separated sooner or later, and you will have your own life in the future."

This is not the first time that Zhou Yuan said this sentence, and it is not the first time that Zhou Yuan replied to himself that he did not forget.

But why is my heart so blocked and uncomfortable, sour and astringent feeling, like watching a tangled and regretful movie, I want to cry, but the tears can't fall.

Yin Zhen turned over again, staring at the light outside the window in a daze.

What will happen if you leave Zhou Yuan?

From the age of 12, Zhou Yuan appeared in his life for the first time, love and resentment, falling in love, breaking up, cheating, concealing, hurting, even life and death...

After going through so much, going around for so many years, Zhou Yuan has always been by his side.

Is he an asshole?

The answer is yes.

The humiliation and injury suffered will be washed and diluted in the long river of time, but what has existed is what has existed.

Now Yin Zhen feels terrified when he thinks of those days when he persecuted and suppressed him.

But is Zhou Yuan treating him well?

The answer is yes.

In the past, at school, Zhou Yuan taught the topics he didn’t know, and Zhou Yuan woke him up in the morning. When the weather was hot, he would fan himself with a fan, and take himself for a ride on a bicycle, eating cheap but full of food. The smokey roadside stall will turn to remind myself to take medicine when I catch a cold...

Annual birthday gifts, holiday gifts, comfort and small surprises when you are depressed, and gentle companionship and care in your youth.

When he is kidnapped, when his life is threatened, he will not hesitate to protect himself.

As a father, Yin Jianfeng is good to himself, but he is busy all year round, and the person who really cares and takes care of him the most is actually Zhou Yuan.

Later, when his father was imprisoned, Yin Zhen changed from a noble young master to a down-and-out poor boy.

He lived a few months of hard life, tasted the indifference of human feelings and the bitterness of life.

At that time, Yin Zhen was very calm, and actually cried secretly many times. Every time he was wronged, his brain seemed to think of Zhou Yuan as if he lost control.

Thinking of Zhou Yuan's kindness to him, he was sad why things turned into what he is today, and why Zhou Yuan had to be so kind to him before. If he had been less kind to himself, maybe he wouldn't be so uncomfortable.

During those days when his hand was injured and lying in the hospital, Yin Zhen felt confused about the future, his face was calm, but he had the idea of ​​committing suicide in his heart.

Just when he didn't know how to live, Zhou Yuan appeared again.

He broke into his own home and forced Yin Zhen to be with him forcefully and domineeringly.

The threat of the photo and the life of his father made Yin Zhen have to agree, the canary he raised, and the little lover who was humiliated.

Yin Zhen thought that he would take revenge on himself in the cruelest and cruelest way, but Zhou Yuan didn't either.

Food, clothing, housing, and transportation are not lacking for myself, taking myself to see a doctor, taking myself to travel, spending money for myself to go to school...

The imaginary punching and kicking or confinement and confinement did not happen, and Zhou Yuan's temper was not much different from before in most cases.

He will even take the opportunity to say that Yin Zhen has no appetite and skip dinner, and then get up to make supper for Yin Zhen when he wakes up hungry in the middle of the night.

I will still remember Yin Zhen's birthday and various festivals.

Yin Zhen disliked him when he came back smelling of alcohol after a party, and he was not angry when he was beaten even if he insisted on intimacy. Instead, he went to the bathroom to take a shower in desperation.

In addition to the extravagant love affairs, as well as the Yin family and Yin Jianfeng in the restricted area.

Zhou Yuan's temper was normal at other times.

It’s not that quarrels didn’t happen. When Zhou Yuan was angry, he would find fault with various excuses in the company. If he could bear it, Yin Zhen would force himself to endure it. Cry, at this point Zhou Yuan will not provoke him again, and will bow his head and obey in a tacit way, and then the relationship between the two will always ease inexplicably.

Of course, there are also times when Zhou Yuan is angry, and Yin Zhen will always experience a period of torture in this situation. At this time, tears are no longer effective, and Zhou Yuan will use those photos and videos he took as a threat to force Yin Zhen to be obedient. submit.

Afterwards, Zhou Yuan's attitude was as if he was apologizing or as if he was afraid that the two of them would really have a rift, so he would think of ways to coax Yin Zhen into a good relationship.

The age of 25 years is divided into two halves, then the first half is Yin Jianfeng's doting, and the second half is Zhou Yuan's doting on himself.

After Zhou Yuan knew that he had leukemia, he was even more submissive in everything, humbled to the dust, and begged Yin Zhen to live a good life.

During those days in the aseptic warehouse of the hospital, Zhou Yuan was the one who accompanied me every day.

During the recovery period after being discharged from the hospital, Zhou Yuan did not relax, he still took care of himself with 12 points of energy, and did his best for himself wholeheartedly.

But I said to him, "We will be separated sooner or later, and you will have your own life in the future."

after……

future……

After today's thrilling experience, these two words are surrounded by fog.

What would my life be like without Zhou Yuan?

Yin Zhen recalled the days when he went to the border city H alone, the icy wind and snow, the unfamiliar environment, everything needed to be done by himself, and he had nightmares in the middle of the night, no one around him comforted him, telling him not to be afraid.

In a completely unfamiliar home, there is no trace of Zhou Yuan's existence, but Yin Zhen thinks of him when cooking, when he takes a bath, when he is in a daze, sleeping, going for a walk, etc...everything will be thought of Zhou Yuan.

Yin Zhen didn't tell anyone about these things, he also hated his own mentality, wanted to escape, wanted to get rid of it, but there was nothing he could do.

He is like a bird that has lost its direction. In the past years, he has long been entangled in Zhou Yuan's weaving, a net called love.

What should I do if I leave Zhou Yuan?

Yin Zhen didn't dare to think about it.

Maybe I can't leave at all.

After tossing and turning on the bed for a few times, Yin Zhen finally fell asleep.

The experience in the bar at night made him dream of the dirty rain alley back then, the smell of rain mixed with the stench of the sewer.

The momentary pain when his right hand was broken, the ridicule and disdain of those people.

Bitter cold, like purgatory.

Yin Zhen was awakened by this dream, and he slept for a long time.

The biological clock was completely messed up, it was bright outside, Yin Zhen looked up at the time, it was already afternoon.

When he stretched out his hand, he suddenly touched a warm body, Yin Zhen's body froze, and he turned around in horror.

The person sleeping next to him turned out to be Zhou Yuan? !

Am I still dreaming?Why is Zhou Yuan here?when did he come back

"Zhou Yuan..."

Yin Zhen was stunned for several seconds before opening his mouth in a daze. He just spoke after waking up, but his voice was not clear enough.

Zhou Yuan responded, a little indifferently.

Yin Zhen sat up in a daze, looked at him and asked, "You, why are you back?!"

Zhou Yuan didn't speak, just stared at him.

Yin Zhen reacted very slowly, and gradually noticed the anger in his eyes, and subconsciously wanted to escape, he changed the subject, and said vaguely: "I'm hungry after sleeping for a long time, I'll go...ah!"

Zhou Yuan, who was lying on his side, threw Yin Zhen who was about to get up, and his movements were as swift as hunting a large beast.

The posture of the two suddenly became that Yin Zhen was lying on the bed, while Zhou Yuan put his hands on both sides of his ears, tightly encircling him in his arms.

Zhou Yuan looked at him condescendingly, Yin Zhen's heartbeat accelerated instantly, and his breathing became short and panting. He swallowed dryly, looked at Zhou Yuan, and was startled by the aura of the other party.

He didn't understand what Zhou Yuan was going to do, and the other party didn't speak, nor let him go.

Yin Zhen cautiously wanted to get out of his arms, but Zhou Yuan would catch him back and imprison him as soon as he made a move.

The atmosphere is really depressing and weird.

Yin Zhen couldn't take it anymore, and finally plucked up the courage to say: "What are you going to do..."

Of course he knew in his heart that the other party was angry at him for sneaking out yesterday, and Yin Zhen himself was very guilty, but he had already apologized last night.

"Yin Zhen..." Zhou Yuan said, "Sometimes I really want to tie you with a chain."

As soon as these words came out, Yin Zhen shrank his neck subconsciously, and looked into Zhou Yuan's eyes vigilantly and timidly.

His eyes are still so beautiful, deep and sharp.

"If I wasn't afraid that your body would be unbearable and that you would cry, I would definitely do this, I would."

He almost said this through gritted teeth.

It's not that Yin Zhen has never seen Zhou Yuan's crazy posture, and he was really afraid. He promised, "I have already apologized to you."

"It's not just this!" Zhou Yuan interrupted him.

After hanging up the phone yesterday, Zhou Yuan was in a state of disarray, and after hastily dealt with the business partner, he directly changed the ticket and flew over. What he was afraid of was that after Yin Zhen woke up, he would run to City H as if he had cheated on him with Feng Qi before.

The bone marrow transplant was successful, and Yin Zhen was like a lost and recovered treasure, it was absolutely impossible to let go.

"What else is there besides this?" Yin Zhen looked at him, knowing what he was thinking, and asked back.

"I..." I lied to you, I will never let you go.

But Zhou Yuan couldn't say those words, he frowned and looked at Yin Zhen.

Yin Zhen was not afraid anymore. He looked up at Zhou Yuan, looked him in the eyes, and asked him suddenly, "Zhou Yuan, you didn't know I was sick when you went to look for me in H City, did you? I betrayed you and let you down. But why are you still looking for me?"