What is your choice? ?

Chapter 116 TRUE END: Our Future

I'm not too surprised that Yuan Yuan chose to deceive me.

The moment I saw my own features from the water, a seed of doubt germinated in my heart.But what really made me affirm that this world is not false is not the reflection in the water, let alone the rhetoric of world consciousness, but my understanding of the protagonist in the novel world.

I wrote this novel under moderate depression, and the lines between the lines reflect my unsatisfied demands for reality.

I am deeply attached to my stepfather, but the other party cannot reciprocate the same emotion, so I wrote him in the novel as an adoptive father who has a secret relationship with his adopted son.

I wish I had never had a childhood sweetheart, so I wrote him as a netizen who I never knew in the novel.

My student boy who loves sculpture always thinks that my body has all kinds of flaws and is not perfect, so I wrote him in the novel as a fanatic who is obsessed with my body.

The only difference between me and my partner is my unspeakable quirk, so I wrote him in the novel as a fellow with a special quirk.

I longed to meet a gentle and considerate man to soothe my emotional wounds after breaking up, so I wrote that pervert in the novel to be polite and considerate to me.

It’s just that on the way to write a novel, my subconscious mind doesn’t believe that reality can be as innocent and beautiful as the book, so when it is implemented into the world of the novel, everything is out of the original track, the plot becomes distorted, and the characters begin to collapse .

But the protagonist of this novel is special.

When I was writing a book, I always hoped that I could live in a Utopian world, away from all malice, and be carefully held in the palm of everyone.But in my heart, I don't think so-I don't believe that innocent people can survive in such a cruel world from the bottom of my heart.

What I really aspire to be is not the fragile porcelain that is carefully cared for. I aspire to be selfish, cold-hearted and unmoved by the outside world. I can stand up tenaciously in the face of setbacks again and again, and always keep my heart .

Yes, the naive and stupid protagonist in the novel was never what I wanted. What I really wanted to be was someone like Yuan Yuan——even though I was restricted by everything around me, I was still unswervingly looking for a breakthrough, even if The road ahead is full of thorns, and they are unwilling to succumb to reality.

The birth of his self-awareness was never a pure coincidence.

——He is my ideal, smashing all shackles of hope in despair.

When I look back suddenly, everything in reality has long been dissipated in the mist of the past like a bubble, and my love and hatred, dreams and obsessions have also been wiped out.

Whether my body is still alive, whether everything in front of me is true or not is no longer important, the only thing that matters is the destination of my soul.I couldn't let go of my complete opposite, the one who carried all my visions.

I can't abandon Yuanyuan.

I can't abandon myself again.

Yuan Yuan lifted my jaw with his knuckles, looked at my face condescendingly, trying to guess my mind through the subtle expressions on my face, so I looked at him calmly, and the atmosphere became stalemate in an instant.

"It seems that you still can't stand any blows like before, and you choose to escape from reality when you encounter something that doesn't go your way. I thought you would improve a bit after going through so many things, but I didn't expect you to be just as timid as before."

When Yuan Yuan said this, he pinched my chin with his thumb and forefinger, and pushed my face upwards, and those sullen eyes fell into mine in an instant.

"What I hate the most is your uninspiring look - if it were me, no matter how difficult it is, I will choose to return to reality."

"I know," I looked directly at Yuan Yuan, and said word by word, "but the reason why I chose to return to the book world was not because I was afraid of reality, but because I gave up you and the world consciousness to me. choice, chose the third possibility...a more ideal choice."

Yes, the reason why I returned to the world of novels without hesitation after seeing through Yuan Yuan's lies was not only because I couldn't give up Yuan Yuan, but also because I found a more perfect solution to let the two of us completely separate from each other. This desolate world leads to the next level.

I gently picked up the utility knife that sank in the water, and shook it slightly in front of his eyes.

"The power of one person can maintain the operation of the world, but the power of two people can break the original restriction and go to a new dimension. In the beginning, the world consciousness was bound to me through the act of cutting my wrist. I was pulled into the world in the book. If I choose to cut my wrist again, and you are bound to me like the world consciousness, then we can break through this world and reach a brand new world."

I slowly inserted the utility knife into the invisible gap between me and Yuan Yuan's cheeks. The cold knife almost touched the tips of our noses. One side reflected my resolute eyes, and the other side reflected There was an expression of disbelief on Yuan Yuan's face.

"Impossible." He let go of his fingers holding my jaw, and retreated back.

"I don't believe you can do it," Yuan Yuan stared into my eyes, the expression on his face was more serious than ever before, "I don't believe you would choose to risk yourself in a safe environment. "

"Why not?" I asked back, "Are you so timid?"

Yuan Yuan sneered, with a disdainful expression: "Don't provoke me, this set doesn't work for me. Successfully breaking the dimension is based on the mutual trust between the two parties. Ask yourself if you can completely trust me, the person who has repeatedly deceived you ?”

When Yuan Yuan said this, the corners of his mouth curled into a cold arc, and no light could shine in his dark eyes.

"I couldn't do it if I were you."

"But you are not me, but I am willing to believe in you," I stared stubbornly into Yuan Yuan's eyes, "Are you willing to believe in me?"

Yuan Yuan looked back at me with burning eyes, and smiled slightly after a while.

"Do you know why I choose to lie to you instead of working with you? Because I'm a selfish person at heart, I don't trust you, I don't trust the world, I don't trust anyone. I'm used to being alone , I can achieve my goal without the help of others.”

"My Creator, you have no idea what kind of heartless monster you have created."

"No, it is because I created you that I understand how much you yearn for the same kind under your egoistic shell." I clenched the utility knife in my hand, "Because we are all the same in essence, we I hope someone can take the initiative to put down their guard and approach us."

Yuan Yuan didn't answer, the expression on his face was indifferent, and there was no meaning, but I knew what he was worrying about.

This is a game. Once one party chooses to withdraw halfway, the other party will suffer irreparable damage.

All I needed to do was cut my wrist with a box knife.What Yuan Yuan needs to do is inject consciousness into that blade while I cut my wrist.

During the whole process, if I didn't cut my wrist firmly enough, Yuan Yuan, who voluntarily gave up his body and entered the blade, would be trapped in the utility knife forever.

On the contrary, if Yuanyuan didn't enter the blade while I was cutting my wrist, then I would lose consciousness forever after I successfully cut my wrist, and achieve spiritual death in the true sense.

Therefore, only when I am determined enough to cut my wrists, and Yuan Yuan can trust my determination, abandon my body and possess the blade, can we successfully jump out of this world and reach a new dimension.

"How did you find out that I still have the ability to possess reflective objects after leaving the mirror?" Yuan Yuan suddenly broke the silence.

"Mirror and glass." I replied, "I know that after you became Yuan Yuan, you are still spying on my life...even scaring me with that cheap little trick."

Yuan Yuan raised his eyebrows: "Only you would regard that kind of thing as a trick, I thought you would hate me."

"You underestimated me," I shrugged, and suddenly put the utility knife on my wrist, looking straight at Yuan Yuan, "Then I'm going to start."

Yuan Yuan's pupils shrank slightly, and he subconsciously held my shoulder.

"Do you know that I have concealed all kinds of things from you, and I didn't intend to tell you until the end? For example, when you first came to this world, your desire to survive was too weak. Only with the help of a third-party choice can you maintain your health function. For example, I knew from the very beginning that there was a third party, but I watched it coldly. In order to be able to liberate myself from the mirror, I set an encrypted option in their selection, which will only be triggered after you die. For example, if you believe My words return to this world, I will definitely lock you in the mirror in the end, and experience the feelings I had back then..."

I patted Yuan Yuan on the shoulder and showed him a bright smile.

"I know that some reservations are also something I appreciate about you."

I raised my wrist, and the tip of the knife pierced the skin with steady precision.I can feel that Yuan Yuan's strength in holding my shoulder has increased a bit, and almost all of his strength is poured into the knuckles of his fingers.

"Then you know that if I choose to stand on the sidelines now, you will no longer be able to say those innocent and ridiculous words. All your power will be passed on to me. After all, you have given up your life on your own initiative, and no one is forcing you."

"I know that too." I stared at my wrist with full concentration, and the finger holding the blade steadily swiped to the right. At this time, 1/3 of the word "one" was left on the white and tender wrist, and the blood was like red paint. Sparsely leaked from the cut paint tube.

"But life is a big gamble. Only when you make a bet can you know whether your choice is correct." I smiled slightly, "Are you willing to bet?"

At that moment, many pictures flashed across my mind—the picture of Yuan Yuan choosing to pierce his own throat with a toothbrush in the mirror, and the picture of walking out of the glass window of the small black room, which became the first time after Yuan Yuan The scene of confronting me in the elevator...

But in the end, all the scenes condensed into the scene where Yuan Yuan and I were discussing the script. At that time, we were discussing what kind of existence value the characters in the script had.

"But what if there is no audience? If the creator's purpose is selfish in the first place, what about the created character?"

"What is the meaning of the role?"

Yuan Yuan once asked me that.

At that time, I replied, "Characters carry the creator's hope and vision, and they are dreams that escape the shackles of reality."

So the role itself is where the value lies.

I have never been able to understand why Yuan Yuan was so stubborn on this question, and why he showed such a complicated expression after listening to my answer.

But now I understand - because the topic we discussed is the meaning of his existence.

The moment I affirmed his value, his eyes burst out with joy and emotion, emotions that could not be concealed under his seemingly cold appearance.

Yes, I believe Yuan Yuan can be moved by me, as long as I am sincere enough and work hard enough.

…With less than 1/3 left, the cut marks on the wrist are about to be completely complete.

At this moment, my fingertips holding the utility knife burned suddenly, and a soft but firm force gradually filled the entire blade, and even the wound that was bleeding continuously was relieved a lot.

My tense heartstrings suddenly loosened, and a burst of ecstasy surged into my heart like a rising tide.

——I bet right!Yuan Yuan finally trusted me!

I closed my eyes and lay down in the bathtub with full body relaxation.The water in the bathtub was already cold, but it was as warm and submissive as mother's amniotic fluid, tightly wrapping me naked.

But I know I'm not alone—I'm about to be born again with Yuan Yuan.

Lying in the bathtub, I lightly rest my right wrist, with its snaking cuts, on my left hand, which is gripping the box knife.I can't see myself at this moment with my eyes closed, but there must be a happy and expectant smile on my face.

In an instant, the smell of blood lingering at the tip of my nose had completely dissipated, the scar on my wrist no longer hurt, and my naked body could not feel the existence of the walls of the bathtub or the water flow.

My body is getting smaller and smaller, and my consciousness is getting lighter and lighter. Like the mud in Nuwa's hands, I rubbed it smaller and smaller, and finally turned into a small ball of meat and curled up obediently in a small and safe space.

I gradually lose my sense of my five sense organs, to be precise, even my internal organs, but while I am losing all senses, I am also regaining them.

When my consciousness was completely silent, everything from the past suddenly replayed in my mind. There were painful memories and happy memories... But in the end, they all turned into warm water around me, nourishing my young child like nutrients. Body, wash away excess melancholy, wash away the haze in my mind.

Yuan Yuan, what are you like now?I thought happily, but I don't know why I am so happy.The complex emotions that have been deposited in my heart for a long time have long been regarded as dirt and cleaned up, so my personality has once again returned to a blank sheet of paper.

When I completely lost consciousness, I suddenly thought of those unknown friends, how they brought my negative consciousness back to life step by step, like the most amazing painter in the world, using colorful eyedroppers in my soul Inject color.

The more I thought about it, the more I was amazed, and the more I thought about it, the happier I was, so I kicked my short legs vigorously, and danced proudly in an unknown direction, as if saying goodbye to those kind friends.

Thank you, unknown friends!

These were my last thoughts before my mind blurred.

At the same time, a series of brisk laughter came from the B-ultrasound room.

"Look, he's waving at you!" The doctor frowned, pointing at the fetus on the screen and smiling.

The woman with a big belly smiled, patted her belly lovingly, turned her head and asked her husband who was standing aside with a smirk on her face: "Sister Zhen who lives next door is due on the same day as me, and she is also a boy. Do you think they can get along happily?"

The man held his wife's hand very lovingly: "Of course, they will become best friends!"

As he spoke, he pressed a resounding kiss on his wife's smooth forehead.

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The protagonist's thanks are also my thanks to everyone. I am really grateful that you can walk with me all the way and tolerate my various imperfections.There are really too many emotions, too many things I want to share with you, but I don’t know where to start (I’m really a waste snack orz while typing and crying) Please forgive me for finishing it for the first time, and it’s still so long I'm really a little bit in love with a book, incoherent...

After finishing it, I decided to write a postscript to write about the creative process of this article. The process of writing multiple-choice questions is really a very unusual experience. This postscript can be regarded as a souvenir for my writing career~

In addition, I plan to write a chapter of Q&A, that is, if you have any choice to know, you can ask me, and I will try my best to answer!If there are too many questions, I can only choose my more clued answer, please forgive me (bow)

Of course, there are special episodes, not sweet and free of money! (Yes, the baby next door who is due on the same day is our Yuanyuan~)

I have already opened a new hole, called "Malicious slander", it is a completely different subject matter from multiple choice questions (pure emotion)!The pre-acquisition is now open, and the update will start around 10/11~ I value the next book I will write very much. I hope everyone can continue to pay attention to my new pit. I will definitely strive to write better and bring you better stories!

ps: Having said that, in the multiple-choice questions, if you are weak and ask for a wave of starfish and collections for the new pit next door, will you be beaten qaq... (dog head saves your life)

The author has something to say: I will post a lottery on Weibo later to repay everyone for their support along the way! ! !Bow again, I really really love you all! ! !