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Chapter 87

Each of the seventeen scars on his arm tells a story, and each one has nothing to do with Poker Ping, but they all have something to do with him.

Even at that moment, when my emotions were on the verge of losing control, when Poker Bottle grabbed my arm, I had already returned to my usual calmness.

"Hey, let go." I said, "It's just a scar, it's not performance art, it's nothing to look at."

Poker bottle ignored me, his hand had already touched my scar.

This is simply a poisonous move.

Pokerfing's hand was on my arm, and his fingertips ran across the uneven and protruding marks. In fact, I didn't feel anything, but just watching this scene, the high wall in my heart collapsed.

I am always reluctant to recall these things in the past ten years, the twists and turns are difficult and painful, and I even gradually feel that I have forgotten them.

Black glasses told me that this kind of feeling is called "repression", which is one of the fifteen psychological self-protection mechanisms of human beings. Simply put, people will suppress things that they cannot accept psychologically into their subconscious minds, and use this to protect themselves. Avoid pain.

"Do you know what will happen to you if you can't find him?" When I was learning kung fu with Hei Glasses, Hei Glasses used to sit under the eaves and asked while throwing small stones at me.

I was concentrating on avoiding the small stones flying from all directions, when the black glasses suddenly asked such a question, I froze for a moment and a stone hit my nose.

"Your uncle!" I yelled angrily, "No diversion!"

"I'm serious, have you ever thought about this?" Black Glasses continued to throw stones as he said.

I quickly adjusted my state, continued to concentrate on hiding the stone, and said casually while hiding: "I don't know."

"In the end you will forget about him." The black glasses said lightly.

A rock hit me in the face, and then another.

"Stop, stop." I wiped the blood oozing from my face, and walked up to the black glasses, "You don't have a fever, do you? How could I forget him?"

It would be too absurd to say that I will forget these memories.

"You can't forget, but you will force yourself to forget." Black Glasses played with a large handful of small stones in his hand, "People will take the initiative to forget things that are too painful. This is a kind of self-protection."

"Is this too painful for me?" I wondered.

"You're still looking, so you don't think so. But if you find it in vain, maybe you will." Black Glasses said.

"Will I be in vain?" I asked the black glasses with a tremor in my heart.

"He won't let you work in vain." The black glasses chuckled.

Then his stone hit me again, and I stood there in a daze, with a bruised nose and a swollen face, but I felt elated.

What Hei Glasses said sounded mysterious at the time, but now I gradually understand that Hei Glasses has the blood of the Zhang family's foreign race, and knows more about what Poker-Face is doing. If I get to the bottom of it, maybe I can know something about the Wang family earlier, although he may not tell me anything.

I have to admit that the phrase "he will not let you work in vain" is the driving force for me to move forward during the long journey.

"You have experienced many things in the past ten years." Pokerfoil's voice brought me back to reality.

"It's all in the past." I said, "Things that have a perfect ending, sometimes you don't need to look back at the process."

"What's a perfect ending for you?" Poker-Face asked, while he was looking at my scar while saying this, he never raised his head to look at me.

I was speechless for a moment, and I didn't know how to answer this sentence when he asked him.

In fact, at the moment when I was dragged into the dark room by the oil bottle behind the bronze door, the whole thing has already drawn a perfect ending for me. The huge obsession about a person for ten years will naturally be untied when I find him , the latter matter may still be dangerous, but as long as it is with Poker Ping, it will be a different feeling.

Like a comet that suddenly found its own trajectory, it no longer needs to wander alone in the vast universe.

But now I choose to hide more emotions in my heart instead of expressing them.

"My wish has been fulfilled if I can receive you." I thought for a while and said, "But according to the plot in the TV series, there should be another hug from the long-lost reunion."

Hearing my words, Poker-Face raised his head, his eyes were clear, and before I could react, he had already hugged me.

Damn, buddy, I was joking to ease the atmosphere.

Although I was complaining like this in my head, I still hugged Poker Bottle obediently with my hands. I was a little embarrassed, so I patted his shoulder like coaxing a child. I always felt that I would not be so nervous this way.

"You walked into my past." Poker bottle said, "For you, that road should be more dangerous than behind the bronze gate. I can imagine that you have suffered a lot."

I just felt a tremor in my heart. I haven't had such delicate emotions for a long time. Poker's words made me realize that he is also a person with feelings. My ten years of hard work have not been in vain.

I hugged him back vigorously. I used to be worried that I would put in so much effort to find the answer. When I finally received the Poker Bottle, he would lean against the bronze door and say to me lightly, "You don't have to. Do this", but at this moment I finally knew it wasn't true. He saw all the pain and sorrow I paid and sacrificed for him. I don't know how heartwarming it is for me.

"If you can say that, I don't feel bitter at all." I whispered in Pokerfing's ear, "What I'm most afraid of is that everything I do is a joke in your eyes."

Hearing what I said, Poker bottle let go of me, and I watched him sitting in front of me, still holding my arm with one hand.

He looked into my eyes and said to me word by word: "I will remember everything you have done for the rest of my life."

I stared at him blankly, not knowing how to react for a while, my heart was like thunder and roaring.Overjoyed, weeping with joy, probably two kinds of emotions that can exist at the same time.

Poker-Face once said, "If I disappear, no one will remember", I finally slapped him in the face with actions. Poker-Face also said that his existence is meaningless, but in the end it was I who wanted to use him It has to be a lovely coincidence that I exist to justify what I've done for the past ten years.

Everyone's fate is a thread, probably mine has been tied in a knot since I saw Poker Finger, and the number is unreasonable and unreasonable, and the thread around him is intertwined, more than ten years, until this moment , Poker bottle tied the line between the two of us into a knot with one sentence.

"Then let's talk about it." I felt like my little prince was acting coquettishly, "Even if you lose your memory, remember that I took risks alone for you, went through all kinds of disasters, and almost died alone in the snow."

Poker Bottle nodded: "I won't let you walk alone on the road ahead."