dhibooks Chapter 20 Snooping
Chapter 20 Snooping
Jiang Miao was sitting at Lin Sen's desk playing with her mobile phone. The buzzing sound of the hair dryer made her look in Lin Sen's direction - Lin Sen was helping her to dry her freshly washed clothes.
Jiang Miao put down her phone and walked up to Lin Sen. Lin Sen looked up at her and said, "The clothes are too wet. They won't be able to dry tomorrow morning. Let you blow them dry first. You can probably wear them tomorrow morning." After blowing it, Lin Sen picked up Jiang Miao's underwear to dry it.
Jiang Miao saw her underwear in Lin Sen's hands, grabbed it in a panic and held it in her hands, lowered her head and said embarrassingly, "I can do it myself."
Lin Sen didn't realize it, and suddenly felt a little embarrassed. She handed the hair dryer to Jiang Miao, gave some instructions, and left quickly.
In the middle of the night, the rain was still falling, the dull thunder made people feel very depressing, and lightning flashed across the air from time to time, illuminating the room.Jiang Miao frowned, and cold sweat kept breaking out on her forehead.
"Don't...don't go...I don't want to leave you..." Jiang Miao muttered in his sleep. With a "boom", Jiang Miao was awakened by the thunder, "No!" She yelled and sat up suddenly.Jiang Miao sat on the bed, panting heavily. She listened to the sound of rain outside the window, as if Yun had let her sorrow slip through her mouth.Bad emotions came to her heart again, and she tried her best to control herself, afraid of waking Lin Sen up.
At this time, Lin Sen had already woken up. She felt as if she heard Jiang Miao say "no" just now, but she was not sure if she was hallucinating, so she just lay on the bed without moving.She was lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling, and suddenly remembered that Jiang Miao was woken up by the thunder and cried in the middle of the night. She felt uneasy, so she got out of bed and wanted to confirm Jiang Miao's current situation.
Lin Sen tiptoed down the ladder, and then came to Jiang Miao's bed, "沝沝?"
"Lin... Lin Sen, did I wake you up? I'm sorry." Jiang Miao's voice was trembling, and she tried her best to hold back her tears, not letting them flow down.
Lin Sen sensed something was wrong with Jiang Miao, and asked tentatively, "Can I go up to accompany you?"
"Ah."
Lin Sen took a pack of tissues from the table and climbed onto the bed. Jiang Miao moved inside to make room for Lin Sen.Lin Sen looked at Jiang Miao, she knew that Jiang Miao's situation this time might be the same as last time, but she didn't know why Jiang Miao was like this?Looking at Jiang Miao's appearance, it was not because she was afraid of thunder, because in the afternoon and evening, there was no sign that she was afraid of thunder and lightning.But why in the middle of the night... Lin Sen wanted to find out.
"Why do you..." Lin Sen still hesitated, she is not the kind of gossip person, she has never been interested in other people's affairs, especially other people's private affairs.But Jiang Miao was an exception to her, she really wanted to peek into Jiang Miao's heart and past, to see her real self.
"I..." Jiang Miao raised her head, looking at Lin Sen full of thoughts but hesitating to speak.
"For some things, burying them is not a solution, but they will take root and sprout, and grow bigger and bigger, do you understand?"
Jiang Miao lowered her head and gave a soft "hmm".
"So... can I?" Lin Sen asked.
Jiang Miao looked at Lin Sen in the dark and nodded.Lightning pierced the sky again, illuminating Lin Sen's face.At this moment, she finally decided to take off her mask to protect herself.
Lin Sen pulled Jiang Miao to his side, and rubbed her arms around Jiang Miao's back, so that Jiang Miao could relax.Jiang Miao gradually relaxed her body. She sank down and rested her head on Lin Sen's shoulder.Jiang Miao took a deep breath, organized her words, and said, "When I was seven years old, my father left me and my mother."
"I still remember that night, it was raining like this, my father came home drunk, he stood in the living room and yelled, he started to smash things, he resented that he gave birth to a daughter... I was disturbed by the messy voice in the living room When I woke up, I was so scared that I hid in my room and dared not come out.
Later, my mother came out of her room and wanted to stop him, but he hit my mother. I was very angry, so I mustered up the courage and rushed out, trying to protect my mother.
I yelled at my dad to stop hitting my mom and then... I felt the heat in my face and he slapped me and my mom rushed over and hugged me and I felt my head buzzing , When I slowed down, my father had already slammed the door and left. My mother held me tightly in her arms and comforted me non-stop. I felt her tears dripping on my neck.And then... I never saw my father again..."
Lin Sen held Jiang Miao's hand in his own, and stroked her hair with the other hand.Jiang Miao closed her eyes, and then said: "In my impression, Dad is obviously not like this... I remember that they are very affectionate, and many people envy the relationship between them. Dad used to be very good to me, Our family always eats together happily, goes shopping together, and plays music together. But I don’t know when, my father started to drink alcohol, he always doesn’t come home at night, and he doesn’t care about me anymore. I have Whenever I call him, he always ignores me...
Since Dad left, Mom has been depressed.I felt like she was getting old all of a sudden, she had a lot of gray hairs on her head, and her skin condition was not as good as before.She used to love being pretty and dressing up so much, but later she even forgot to wash her face.A few months later, my mother quit her job, sold the house, and took me back to my grandmother's house.
Then one night, my mother held me in her arms, and I could feel her crying. She told me that if one day she was no longer by my side, I must take good care of myself. She told me that in this world , the most reliable and trustworthy person is myself.I didn't understand why my mother said this to me at the time, but I still kept her words firmly in my heart.
As a result, in the next few days, I didn't see my mother. I looked for her everywhere at my grandma's house, but I couldn't find her.Later, my grandma cried and held me in her arms. She told me that my mother left and committed suicide because of depression. "
Jiang Miao stopped at this point, she hugged Lin Sen tightly, leaning against her side, tears streaming down her face.
Lin Sen felt very uncomfortable after hearing this. Jiang Miao's tears dripped onto her arms. After Lin Sen felt the warmth, he took out the pack of tissue that he had just brought up, handed it to Jiang Miao, and asked distressedly: " Are grandpa and grandma treating you well?"
Jiang Miao took the tissue and wiped away her tears, then blew her nose, and said, "Grandma treats me very well, but grandpa doesn't like me very much. He is a patriarchal person like my father, so he also I have always disliked my mother, and of course I am also bored with it. He always said that I was an idiot... Grandma has no status in the family, so she often has no way to defend me.
In the third year of high school, my grandmother suddenly fell ill.In front of the hospital bed, she gave me an envelope - which contained a bank card, a pair of rings, a letter and a wad of cash.The bank card, ring and letter were left to me by my mother, and the wad of cash was secretly saved by my grandmother.She said that the ones she was most sorry for in her life were her mother and me. Before she left, she had been confessing, and she had also confessed many things to me.
After my grandma left, I couldn't stay there anymore, so I took the things my mother and grandma left me and left, and never went back.Of course, no one would want me to go back, after all, that place doesn't belong to me..."
Lin Sen hugged Jiang Miao tightly, she felt resentful for Jiang Miao's experience, and felt distressed for her strong optimism.Lin Sen didn't speak, she didn't know how to comfort Jiang Miao, she felt as if what she said was meaningless, because everyone's present is bearing their own past.
After Jiang Miao finished talking, she felt extremely relieved, and the big stone that had been pressing on her heart for more than ten years seemed to suddenly disappear.She never mentioned this to anyone, because she didn't want to make her embarrassment known to everyone, and she didn't want to use it to win other people's sympathy.
Jiang Miao suddenly felt a drop of warm liquid dripping on her arm.Is Lin Sen crying?for me?Jiang Miao thought.She let go of Lin Sen, and tentatively put her hand on Lin Sen's cheek.The moment she felt Lin Sen's wet face, she was sure that Lin Sen was crying, crying so quietly.
Jiang Miao wiped Lin Sen's tears with his hands, and comforted him softly, "I'm fine, it's all over."
"Yeah." Lin Sen sniffed, "I just feel wronged for you."
Jiang Miao stared at Lin Sen for a few seconds, then suddenly threw herself on Lin Sen and hugged her tightly, "Thank you, Lin Sen, it's great to have you."
The feeling of being understood is probably that someone held a lantern and saw you squatting in a dark corner!
"You're welcome." Lin Sen patted Jiang Miao's head.
The rain stopped and the moon came out.
"Can you stay and sleep with me tonight?"
"Well, I'm going to wash my face first."
Lin Sen didn't go back immediately after washing her face. She stood alone on the balcony and watched the moon in the sky for a while.The moon after the storm was so bright that the originally dark sky was illuminated to reveal a dark blue.
She climbed onto the bed lightly, and Jiang Miao was already asleep at this time.She carefully lay down next to Jiang Miao, and the silvery moonlight outside the window shone on Jiang Miao's face.Lin Sen looked at Jiang Miao's face, and couldn't imagine that such a sad past was hidden behind this lovely face.She stretched out her hand, put it on Jiang Miao's face, and secretly swore in her heart: This is the girl I want to hold in my palm.
She helped Jiang Miao cover the quilt, and quietly left a kiss on Jiang Miao's forehead.She looked at Jiang Miao and said in a low voice, "Jian, good night."