dhibooks Chapter 20: Chapter 20
Chapter 20: Chapter 20
Tan Zhihuai is undoubtedly a proud son of heaven, and his journey has been smooth and smooth.Children who grew up with praise and admiration, no matter how humble their character is, they still have a bit of arrogance in their bones.
Although Zhou Qiaonan was not born with a golden spoon in his mouth, the young master raised by a well-fed family, the leader among his peers, always has a sense of superiority without knowing it.
Two equally outstanding men meet, cherish each other, and compete secretly. Even if they get together and become lovers, the aggressive factor in the male gene makes them love each other while still having the heart to compete with each other.
This kind of contest is not necessarily about who wins and who loses, who goes up and who goes down, but when you are struggling and making progress, I will also achieve a career.
Before Zhou Qiaonan and Tan Zhihuai broke up, they were all working together to achieve some decent results, but this pride became the reason for their breakup in the end.
The two were originally the figures who called the wind and rain among the students. They had just set foot in the society and experienced the cruelty of reality, so they inevitably fell from the clouds.But the self-esteem of the two did not allow them to lose to reality, so they could only devote 120 points of energy to work even harder.
The pressure on Tan Zhihuai is not only his studies, but also the Tan family. If he does not deal with it with extreme care, how can he have a place in the intricate Tan family?
And Zhou Qiaonan is not easy, he has to take care of the adaptation period when he first entered the society, the huge debts at home, and the family that has suffered a sudden change.
A person's energy is always limited, and it will not change 24 hours a day. When all the time is spent on life and work, how much romantic thoughts can be given to the lover?
In this love affair that started on campus, neither party is at fault, and their love for each other has not changed. It's just that after the pressure of life occupies the whole body and mind, love becomes the most easily sacrificed luxury.
So their contact became less unconsciously, and the topics of communication with each other became less and less. Zhou Qiaonan and Tan Zhihuai are two very similar people. They don't want their troubles to bother each other, so in the end, all they can say is nothing more. That is morning, noon and evening greetings.
But they all forgot that once the relationship lacks communication, it will become an ancient well without waves, and a heart lake without ripples will only end in death.
So when Zhou Qiaonan saw Tan Zhihuai talking and laughing with Miss Jiang Wu while eating, his first reaction was not jealousy or anger, but to realize that Tan Zhihuai had lost a lot of weight and his hairstyle had changed. Although he was still handsome and unrestrained, his temperament But more stable and tough.
Two days later, Zhou Qiaonan saw a photo of the two eating together that night on the gossip news, coupled with the rumors about Tan and Jiang's marriage in the news, he knew that Tan Zhihuai should be on a blind date that day.
Zhou Qiaonan didn't immediately question Tan Zhihuai or lose his temper with him, but just vaguely felt that the time had finally come.He never doubted Tan Zhihuai's feelings for him, but he also understood that for the sake of the family, he always had to do some face-saving things, such as having a blind date meal with the girl arranged by the family.
He can also guess that Tan Zhihuai will definitely hint to the other party euphemistically that the two are not suitable and there will be no development.But without Ms. Jiang, there would be Ms. Zhang, Ms. Li, and even himself. Before coming out to the family, he might not be able to avoid seeing a few "misses".
That night, when Zhou Qiaonan greeted Tan Zhihuai routinely, he tried to tell him interesting things he encountered at work. Can hastily end the chat with Zhou Qiaonan.
Zhou Qiaonan looked at the chat records for a long time, and suddenly found that the conversation between the two had become dull and forced, and there was no longer the tantalizing and aftertaste of the student days, so he realized that he and Tan Zhihuai... Maybe it's over.
After this idea planted a seed in my heart, no one knew when it would grow wildly, even Zhou Qiaonan couldn't control it.He never thought of breaking up, nor did he want to find a new love, he just mechanically maintained his love with Tan Zhihuai.
Until Tan's mother came to his house without warning, and his parents happened to bring his younger brother on summer vacation to visit him, Zhou Qiaonan was forced to come out of the closet without any preparation, and Tan's mother labeled him a "male vixen" label, accusing him of seducing his son, which caused Tan Zhihuai to disobey their arrangement and marry a woman.
The riot caused by Tan's mother ended in Zhou's mother's tears.Tan's mother, who is only imposing for 3 minutes, did not cause much trouble to Zhou Qiaonan, but the fact that he likes men and has a boyfriend is really a challenge for the traditional Zhou's father and Zhou's mother.
Zhou Qiaonan spent a lot of effort to appease his parents, and with the cooperation of Zhou Guanbei, temporarily convinced his parents that Tan's mother had only misunderstood him, which led to today's farce.
On the other hand, Tan Zhihuai, who had just returned from a business trip, learned of the good deeds she had done today from Tan's mother's complaints, and immediately rushed to Zhou Qiaonan's house.At that time, Zhou Qiaonan had just sent his family away, and when he saw Tan Zhihuai, who was covered in dust and dust, he felt infinitely tired.
He proposed to break up with Tan Zhihuai for the first time, but Tan Zhihuai naturally did not agree.Then the two pretended nothing happened and comforted and apologized to each other. After a night of tenderness, they continued to talk about the love that asked three times a day.
The seemingly peaceful life has lasted for several months. Although Zhou's father and Zhou mother have knots, the biggest thing for the family now is to pay off the debts. In addition, Zhou Qiaonan has not shown any "abnormal" behavior in their concept. The fact that his son likes men The matter was carefully hidden in the bottom of the heart by the family, and no one took the initiative to break it.
After Tan's mother made a fuss, Tan Zhihuai changed from prevarication to direct rejection. Tan's mother didn't dare to confront her son, so she asked Tan's father to put pressure on his son.This trick is indeed effective. Under the pressure of Tan's father, the fledgling Tan Zhihuai's work has become much more difficult. If he does not compromise, he can only wait to be squeezed out of the Tan family.
Under heavy pressure, Tan Zhihuai approached Zhou Qiaonan to confide, Zhou Qiaonan analyzed to him indifferently, breaking up may be the only way out for the two of them now.
This time, Tan Zhihuai didn't resist these two words. On the contrary, he didn't get comfort from his lover, full of grievance and sadness, he got angry and agreed to break up.
Father Tan, who was satisfied with the result, withdrew his son's obstruction.Tan Zhihuai found it ironic and absurd. With a wounded heart, he flew abroad for a three-month business trip, but he couldn't stop his missing Zhou Qiaonan.
After the foreign project was successfully concluded, Tan Zhihuai returned to China and immediately went to find Zhou Qiaonan, but he didn't propose to get back together. He agreed to break up at the beginning, but now he has to take the initiative to bow his head, and he always feels that he is at a disadvantage.So full of longing, he finally became an invitation to run friends awkwardly, and Zhou Qiaonan actually agreed!
This was the beginning of the deformed relationship between the two, and it lasted three years beyond expectations, until Tan Zhihuai was forced to leave the Tan family and find Zhou Qiaonan.
"Zhihuai, have you ever thought that for the past three years, we have maintained...that kind of relationship, just because we were too unwilling at the time, so we didn't want to let go easily." Zhou Qiaonan leaned back in the chair relaxedly, and opened up with Tan Zhihuai It seems like a good choice indeed.
He paused for a while, and then said: "Even if we gritted our teeth and insisted not to break up, would there be a good result? At that time, don't say that we met less and less. After meeting, we even talked less and less except for sex. I have to be perfunctory, do you really think this kind of feeling can last forever?"
Tan Zhihuai slowly straightened up, looked down at Zhou Qiaonan with a slumped face, turned around, and kneaded between his brows in pain.
He has always admitted that Zhou Qiaonan is the smarter one in their relationship, calmer and more ruthless than himself.
Zhou Qiaonan was right, if the love continued, the two families would always be in conflict between them, his parents would not approve of Zhou Qiaonan; and Zhou Qiaonan's parents certainly did not want their son's partner to have such a domineering mother.
No matter how deep the relationship is, it will be exhausted in the face of this irreconcilable conflict. What's more, Zhou Qiaonan was right. At that time, they were all tired of coping with the changes brought about by the environment, and the relationship that had long since become peaceful, Couldn't stand the ravages of the storm.
"We have always had each other in our hearts, why have we come to where we are today?" Tan Zhihuai looked up and laughed, love may not be able to stay together, staying together may not lead to old age, it turns out that none of these are lies.
"Yeah, we both have each other, so why..." Zhou Qiaonan repeated subconsciously, and at the end of the day, he still felt that this was a misunderstood question.
Both of them were silent, not knowing what to say or what to do.The silent embarrassment was not broken until Zhou Qiaonan's mobile phone rang a WeChat notification tone.
"Go take a shower, I'm going back to my room first." Zhou Qiaonan went into the room with his mobile phone.
But Tan Zhihuai stopped him again, and asked unwillingly: "Qiaoqiao, you still have feelings for me, don't you? If that's the case, why didn't you agree to me?"
Zhou Qiaonan stood at the door, smiled at Tan Zhihuai, and said bitterly: "Three years have passed, and many things require more courage. At least I am... not brave enough yet."
"Is it after that..." Tan Zhihuai asked eagerly.
"We might as well talk about the future." Zhou Qiaonan answered him quickly, and then closed the door, expressing that he didn't want to talk any more.
Tan Zhihuai walked back and forth in the living room twice in frustration, and finally went into the bathroom to take a bath helplessly.
At least... Zhou Qiaonan didn't block the way forward, he is not completely hopeless, is he?
Tan Zhihuai comforted himself in this way, but he still couldn't stop tossing and turning all night, so that the next morning, when Zhou Qiaonan came out of the room with the suitcase, he woke up and jumped off the bed: "You... have to go ?”
Zhou Qiaonan pushed the suitcase to the door, and answered him while changing his shoes: "Business trip, send Hu Yuesi into the group, and stay for a few days by the way. I have already told Kong Li to take care of your recent work. You should record the program carefully. Don't try to take advantage of it." I'm not being lazy."
The itinerary of this line of work is so erratic, Zhou Qiaonan has long been used to it, Tan Zhihuai understands it somewhat, but still can't hide the loss in his heart.
He didn't want to interfere with Zhou Qiaonan's work, so he could only scramble to ask Zhou Qiaonan to take care of himself.
Before going out, Zhou Qiaonan looked at Tan Zhihuai pawing on the door frame like an abandoned Samoyed, couldn't help but softened again, and then blurted out without thinking, "We'll be apart for a few days, we are all calm Let's take a moment, maybe this way we can see more clearly whether we... can really still be together."
The "Samoyed" with gloomy eyes suddenly seemed to have been lit a bright light on his head, nodded happily several times, and watched Zhou Qiaonan enter the elevator before closing the door.
Now that everything that should be said has been said, it is also time for him to continue doing what should be done.