The longest road is your routine

Chapter 23

——She's mutated, it's not enough for me, she's like a radish.

These words, coupled with Mr. Ruan's serious expression, burst into a fiery aura.

Xiao Yu almost laughed out loud.

hold back.

Be sure to hold back.

Ouch hello.

Her President Ruan finally has the lively and lively appearance she had when she was a child. This is what she should be like.

Although Xiaoyu has good self-control, she didn't laugh out loud, but Mr. Ruan was still very angry. She called her grandma and sprayed her with words of disrespect, and then went back to the bedroom angrily. He didn't even eat the late-night snack made by Xiao Yu.

After closing the door, Ruan Yi sat in the room restraining her emotions. She hadn't been this angry for a long time. It wasn't that she was being petty, but that it was a matter of dignity.

After being silent for a while, Ruan Yi opened the pocket of the desk, rummaged through it for a long time, found a ruler, and carefully measured the length of her fingers.

No matter how other people are.

She just needs to be slender and taller than Xiao Yu.

When putting the ruler back, Ruan Yi paused for a moment, she lowered her head, looked at the photo frame she was holding and placed in silence.

The photo on the frame is of a happy family of five.

She was held in the arms of two mothers, and two grandmas and children were laughing and making noise beside her.

How happy they were at that time.

Little Yu didn't know what Ruan Yi was thinking, she was sitting on the sofa alone, reminiscing about Ruan Yi's embarrassment and anger, she wanted to laugh but couldn't help it, and finally rolled into a ball.

Love it so much.

She really likes being so flesh and blood, she can get angry and lose her temper, and she can be shy and honest.

A little closer, a little harder.

Now that she has decided not to leave, she should work hard to regain that lovely integrity.

But where is it so easy?Freezing three feet does not happen in a day.

Because Boss Ruan didn't drink soup, Xiao Yu drank it all by herself for fear of wasting it. She was a little thirsty at night, and she almost died of fright when she got up to drink water and go to the toilet.

Because of the dark light, she could only vaguely see a sitting figure in the living room, and the red glow of that little smoke.

Xiao Yu's heart was pounding, she walked tentatively: "Mr. Ruan?"

There were only the two of them in the house, if it wasn't for Ruan Yi, it would be a ghost.

"Ah."

Ruan Yi turned on the lamp, she turned around and looked at Su Xiaoyu.

Xiao Yu will never forget that look.

The night will always bring out all kinds of emotions that have been well hidden during the day. These days, Xiao Yu has seen a lot of Mr. Ruan smiling. For memories like hers, the tiredness and sadness in Ruan Yi's eyes seems to have not been seen for a long time. up.

But that look...

Ruan Yi's eyes were full of pain and sadness.

Xiao Yu looked into her eyes: "Why don't you sleep?"

Ruan Yi tilted her head, "Go to sleep."

Why doesn't she want to sleep?It's just that she couldn't sleep, and forced herself to lie on the bed for several hours, and finally the more she lay down, the more irritable she became. The day she didn't want to remember was getting closer and closer, and her heart felt uncomfortable as if she was being oppressed by something.

Xiao Yu wanted to chat with her, but Ruan Yi seemed to be able to read her heart. "I'm going to Yonghe Mountain Villa tomorrow, and you still have to drive to rest."

Semi-imperative tone.

Xiao Yu was silent for a moment, she thought about it, went to the kitchen and warmed a glass of milk for Ruan Yi and put it beside her, "Then you go to bed early too."

Ruan Yi didn't speak, but raised her hand and quietly took a puff of cigarette.

Women smoking can be very sexy sometimes.

Although Xiao Yu didn't want Ruan Yi to be like this, but I have to say that when her lips were pressed against the cigarette, and she gently pursed her lips, Xiao Yu was so sexy that even Xiao Yu envied that cigarette.

Xiao Yu finally left.

If the person in front of her was only upright when she was a child, she would probably put her arms around her waist to comfort her and let her go to sleep.

But she can't.

Although they had a childhood friendship, but after so long time, the two of them are no longer the same as when they were young, and now they are upright President Yifeng.

Xiao Yu left.

The temperature in the living room seemed to drop a bit.

Ruan Yi didn't go to get the blanket either, she just hugged herself quietly, staring at the glass of milk on the tea table in a trance.

I don't know how long it took.

She didn't move until the milk was completely cold.

Sometimes, Ruan Yi would hate herself.

She is so emotional that even she can't bear it, no matter who gets close to her, she will be exhausted.

Xiaoyu didn't know what happened, she was absent-minded, the next day she received a call from Surou saying that her parents had gone on a business trip, and she was afraid to live at home, and wanted her to accompany her for a few days.

When Xiao Yu talked to Ruan Yi, Ruan Yi listened silently.

Xiao Yu was a little nervous, in fact she was reluctant to leave, but Su Rou was the most important friend in her life, they used to accompany each other often, during this time, Su Rou had already complained a lot because of President Ruan.

"Ah."

Ruan Yi nodded, she looked at Xiao Yu: "Relax."

Although the person left, Xiao Yu was still in a bad mood. Even when she was sleeping at night, she patted on the mask and said to Su Rou: "What are you doing now, Mr. Ruan? Can't sleep again?"

Su Rou rolled her eyes and threw the pillow over, "You who value sex and despise friends, don't open your mouth and keep talking about you, Mr. Ruan, okay? If you are so tired before dating, if you really get together in the future How amazing."

Xiao Yu pulled the pillow away, "You don't understand, she has a wound in her heart, she must come out by herself."

Su Rou sighed, "I don't understand her, but I don't understand you much more."

This is so unlike Xiao Yu, who doesn't know that Xiao Yu's motto before was to enjoy yourself in time, be happy every day, be happy every day, even when the family went bankrupt, all kinds of pressure flooded in, and Su Rou often saw her smile, but now Now, she actually saw sadness and melancholy in Xiao Yu's eyes.

******

Early in the morning, Ruan Yi was still sitting in the dark living room with the curtains drawn, holding a glass of red wine in her hand and sipping lightly, the air was filled with the aroma of the wine and the sandalwood on her body.

When Ruan Qiu pushed open the bedroom door and saw her granddaughter, she felt distressed, but when she walked out of the room, she had already become lazy and stretched, "Didn't you sleep?"

Ruan Yi tilted her head and looked at her.

Although she is her granddaughter, Ruan Qiu turned her head away and did not meet her eyes: "Hey, honesty, don't keep everything in your heart, you don't want Xiao Yu to go to your friend, why don't you just tell her that you don't want to? "

Ruan Yibing said coldly, "I didn't."

Grandma's voice was very low: "I'll ask Lilo to come over tomorrow for a checkup, just to be on the safe side, you've lost weight again."

Ruan Yi remained silent.

Has she seen fewer doctors these years?Every doctor said that her "cause" was not physical, but from the heart.But what?She is the best psychiatrist.

How sad, how ridiculous, how ironic.

She can save many people, but she cannot save herself.

Ruan Qiu knew her granddaughter's personality, so she didn't dare to speak too deeply, so she ate breakfast calmly, and while Ruan Yi was changing her clothes, she called Alan.

Allen was usually idle, and when he heard the call from the old president, he immediately respected him.

Ruan Qiu: "Hurry up and call Xiaoyu back. On days like this, it's best for her to be by your side."

When Xiao Yu was around, the granddaughter looked like a person, but now?The whole person is so deserted, like the living dead, there is no warmth at all.

A Lun told the truth and told Ruan Qiu all of Ruan Yi's recent actions. After hearing this, Ruan Qiu hung up the phone in silence for a long time.

Ruan Yi tidied up her sleeves and came out of the room. She looked at grandma's expression, "Did you call Alan?"

Ruan Qiu: ...

Ruan Yi looked in the mirror, took out the lipstick, and it was still bright red on the lips that had lost all color.

The moment you put on your lipstick.

The tiredness and haggardness in her eyes were gone, replaced by a domineering and fierce look that despised the world.

Ruan Qiu looked at her granddaughter quietly, and after a while, she said softly: "Don't always suppress yourself so much, there are many things that have nothing to do with you."

Ruan Yi frowned: "Grandma, what do you want to say?"

Ruan Qiu was very calm, rubbing the cup with her hand: "You are my granddaughter, I watched you grow up, and I don't know what you are thinking? Grandma said that your mothers left, it has nothing to do with you , back then, your mother's operation was ahead of schedule, but she was not pregnant, maybe she—"

"You said maybe."

Ruan Yi's eyes turned cold, her eye circles were red, she gritted her teeth: "It's just maybe."

After saying this, she turned around and left. The moment she closed the door, Ruan Qiu slowly lowered her head.

The granddaughter was raised by two mothers.

They are loving, and once made a wish to grow old together.

But God failed, her mother left because of a heart attack, and the other mother converted to Buddhism sadly.

At that time, the whole family was immersed in great sorrow, and Ruan Qiu was even more exhausted from running around, and had no energy to worry about his granddaughter.

No one knows, a sigh from the attending doctor.

"If she hadn't been pregnant back then and had surgery before then, maybe... no, there's a great chance she wouldn't have left."

This sentence.

this sentence.

Ruan Yi seemed to be bound by a huge spell, no matter how hard she struggled, she couldn't get away.

She often thinks about it.

Without her...

Mom won't leave?Is Mommy not going to escape into Buddhism when everything is empty?Grandma wouldn't be so heartbroken?How old are you and still have to shoulder such a heavy burden?

He obviously didn't want to do this, but he couldn't escape the curse no matter what, and he grew up alone with Ruan Yi.

When she was a child, she was always used to hiding in a corner and crying silently.

Ruan Yi changed only when she saw her grandma, who had worked hard all her life and was still strong and optimistic even after a major family accident, shed tears secretly.

She is still in pain.

Just bury it all in the bottom of my heart.

******

In the past few days, everyone has discovered that Mr. Ruan's air pressure is very low.

There was a drizzle outside the window, not heavy, but densely packed with mist.

Accompanied by the sound of pattering rain, Su Xiaoyu was a little distracted. While mixing milk tea for herself, she looked at the closed door of the president's office.

Li Yan walked over from the side, holding a cup of coffee in her hand: "Mr. Ruan won't come today."

Su Xiaoyu froze for a moment, she looked at Li Yan.She thought about it all night and wanted to see Ruan Yi, but she didn't expect him to be there.

Li Yan leaned on the table and looked at the drizzle outside the window: "Today is her mother's memorial day."

Su Xiaoyu said "ah", she looked at Li Yan in a daze.

After Li Yan drank the last cup of coffee, she patted Su Xiaoyu's shoulder: "Go back, Xiaoyu."

Be it rain or shine.

As long as this day comes every year, she will go out alone, alone, without taking anyone with her.

In the past, "Mr. Ruan won't come today" was Xiaoyu's favorite, it could be said to be the sound of nature, but now, for some reason, her heart seemed to be pinched by something, and it hurt sorely.

The rain gradually became denser.

Ruan Yi knelt by herself in front of the cold stone tablet, her whole body was drenched, but she didn't move, her whole body was emitting a cold air from inside to outside.

She looked at her mother's photo on the tombstone for a long time, Ruan Yi slowly raised her hand, stroked the photo gently, and murmured: "Mom...Mom..."

Rain and tears mingled together, falling down his chin, Ruan Yi's eyes were fragile, and his body was like a leaf falling in the wind, fluttering and about to collapse at any moment.

After returning home from the cemetery, Ruan Yi fell ill.

She was lying on the sofa alone, covered with a blanket. Halfway through, her grandma called a few times, all of which were nonsense. She actually wanted to know if her granddaughter was doing well. Accompany her, can only adopt such a harassment strategy.

After Ruan Yi dealt with it a few times, her head started to heat up, and her whole body was as weak as a collapse.

She randomly picked up the medicine on the table and took a few, curled up on the sofa to sleep by herself.

In the afternoon, she was woken up by frequent knocks on the door, and Ruan Yi went to open the door irritatedly wrapped in a blanket.

This point, who will it be?

As soon as Ruan Yi opened the door, she saw Su Xiaoyu staring at her nervously.

Ruan Yi: ...

Why did she come back so early?Didn't you say you will stay for a few days?

Xiao Yu was also taken aback by Mr. Ruan's ferocious expression, she looked at Ruan Yi: "Grandma...Grandma asked me to take a look and said that you might not be feeling well."

Ruan Yi: ...

Grandma, the nasty old lady.

"No."

Ruan Yi turned around and walked back, Su Xiaoyu looked at her back and said no, she felt like she was about to lose her footing, but luckily she didn't chase her away.

After Su Xiaoyu went in, she washed her hands first, Ruan Yi was still lying on the sofa with her eyes closed.

She could feel Su Xiaoyu approaching her.

Her weak body was a little tense, and even her heart beat a little faster.

Su Xiaoyu squatted beside her, looking at the medicines seriously: "What are these? It seems that they are not taken right, Mr. Ruan, have you taken your temperature?"

In fact, she really wanted to touch Ruan Yi's forehead to feel her warmth, but Xiao Yu didn't dare.

Ruan Yi closed her eyes and looked restless.

Su Xiaoyu didn't dare to provoke her, so she got up and opened the curtains first, and opened a gap in the window.

She really didn't understand why Mr. Ruan liked to draw the curtains no matter at home or in the office.

On such a day, the air smells moist, mixed with the fragrance of flowers and plants, which smells very nice.

Xiaoyu went to the kitchen, her hands and feet were quick, she cooked sweet porridge and brought it out, "Drink some porridge, you can't take medicine on an empty stomach."

Seeing Mr. Ruan like this, he knew he hadn't eaten.

Ruan Yi didn't move, she lay down like a corpse, Su Xiaoyu was a little worried: "Is it burning badly?"

She squatted beside Ruan Yi, looking at her worriedly, Ruan Yi kept her eyes closed and ignored her, Xiao Yu was very distressed, she whispered: "Be honest, don't do this."

Ruan Yi's body trembled, her closed eyes suddenly opened, and she stared blankly at Su Xiaoyu.

Su Xiaoyu's heart jumped into her throat.

Mr. Ruan, who was ill, had sparkling eyes, weak eyes, but still deep.

Looking at it like this, people's hearts are softened.

Maybe it was because of his illness, Ruan Yi was surprisingly quiet, although he kept frowning, but fortunately he was not as cold as usual in the company.

Su Xiaoyu got her a pillow and leaned on her back, "Have some porridge, huh?"

That tone is simply coaxing a child.

Ruan Yi remained silent.

Su Xiaoyu took the spoon and smiled. For the first time, she felt that Boss Ruan was quite childish and cute, "Let me feed you."

Seeing Mr. Ruan's weak appearance, he might not even be able to hold the spoon steadily.

Ruan Yi remained silent.

Su Xiaoyu has gradually gotten used to Mr. Ruan's personality. She took the spoon, blew it cool one by one, and fed it to her patiently.

She fed a bowl, and Ruan Yi ate a bowl.

There was something in her stomach, and as expected she gained some strength, Ruan Yi lay down again, Su Xiaoyu knew that she was very clean, so she went to the bathroom to fetch a basin of water and wiped her face and hands.Originally, she wanted to change Ruan Yi's clothes, but Xiao Yu didn't have the courage.

The strength of the medicine came up.

Ruan Yi fell into a drowsy sleep, Xiao Yu was by her side, she was sitting on the carpet, fiddling with the Lego she bought.

She is a beginner, the kind who coaxes children.

The light rain was serious, and the rain outside was pattering. After an unknown amount of time, she felt Ruan Yi on the sofa suddenly move. Voice: "Don't... don't go..."

Xiao Yu was taken aback, she quickly put down Lego and grabbed Mr. Ruan's hand: "Mmm, I'm here."

Ruan Yi didn't open her eyes, her chest heaved rapidly, and tears fell in rows.

Su Xiaoyu looked very distressed.

At this moment.

There is no status or status to panic and fear.

She stretched out her arms, pulled Ruan Yi into her arms, pressed her face against hers, and said in the most soothing and gentle voice: "I'm not leaving, I'm here, I'm here."

After repeatedly comforting her, she didn't know what was wrong, Su Xiaoyu's tears suddenly fell, dripping onto Ruan Yi's face.

Ruan Yi opened her eyes and stared at her blankly, feeling the cold tears running down her cheeks, after a while, she sat up, stretched out her arms tentatively, hesitated for a moment, then gently hugged Xiao Yu.

This is the first time she has taken the initiative to hug someone since she grew up.

It turns out that hugs are also warm.