Tears of Thorns

Chapter 16 Silent PTSD

Evil man's home emergency call door

After returning to his room, under his repeated persuasion, Li Jinbiao had no choice but to go home.Ah Nan was lying on the bed, not planning to continue sleeping.He got up from the bed and went to the cabinet to search.Finally he dug out an old record, put it into the antique gramophone, unlocked the tonearm, and slowly placed the phonograph needle on the record.The sound of music slowly flowed into my heart, it was an old lover of Ouyang Feifei.The bedside lamp gave off a faint light, and he sat on the bed humming softly...

It wasn't until dawn that he gradually fell asleep.However, after falling asleep, he still tossed and turned.Maybe it's been suppressed all the time, so in the dream, those memories flooded out, trapping him in the isolated island called hopelessness.He was floating and sinking in the sea, without a straw to save his life, he could only drift helplessly on the sea.In a blink of an eye, he was deep in the muddy swamp, unable to move.He opened his mouth and wanted to shout, but found that there was no sound at all in his throat.All he can do is let the suffocation surround him...

"Ah!" He finally yelled, and he got up from the bed, sweating profusely.

It was already noon when Ah Nan got up, he went to the toilet and took a shower to calm down before going out and downstairs.

"Master is awake, I'll get you something to eat." After paying respects to Second Master Guan, Uncle Fei Long ran to the kitchen.

"Boss, why don't you take a break, your face looks so bad!" Lord Wei said holding the courier.

"It's okay, I'm busy with you." Ah Nan waved his hand, sat on his chair, and looked at the situation in the store when he was not there, until Uncle Feilong brought over the food.

"This is Sihong porridge, it nourishes qi and blood, try it quickly." Uncle Fei Long said excitedly.

"Thank you." Ah Nan took a sip, the taste was sweet.

"Uncle Feilong's craftsmanship is better." Ah Nan praised.After he ate half a bowl, he felt a little full.But under Uncle Fei Long's expectant eyes, he didn't want to worry the other party, so he ate a few more mouthfuls, and didn't stop until he couldn't eat any more.

After finishing cleaning up, Uncle Fei Long went into the kitchen again, and brought out a bowl of dark things after a while.

"Master, drink up the medicine. Dr. Rong said that your body can only be recuperated slowly by traditional Chinese medicine. Later, Longan will help you out to get some air, so that you will recover quickly."

"...don't be so troublesome." Ah Nan frowned. He didn't like the bitter soup with a strange taste, so he reached out and refused.

"No! Master, this must be drunk." Uncle Fei Long said seriously, he didn't want the young master to drink so much medicine.But his pale face is still very worrying.

"Uncle Fei Long, this..." Looking at the dark soup, it was really hard for him to swallow.

"Master, drink to make you feel better soon." Uncle Fei Long continued to persuade him without stopping.

"Alas..." Helpless, Tie Nan closed his eyes and wanted to down the bowl in one go.He almost wanted to spit it out after just one sip.But he endured it, and he swallowed it back.Pinching his nose, he drank the medicine in one gulp.The whole mouth is filled with the smell of Chinese medicine, which is really disgusting.

His stomach was churning up and down, and the discomfort made him frowned.After waiting for a long time, I finally suppressed the disgusting feeling.When he was about to get up, Uncle Fei Long immediately supported him.Ah Nan shook his hand, indicating that he could do it, then stood up and walked out the door alone.

"Master! Let Longan go with you." Uncle Fei Long said with a flirtatious gesture to Longan.

"It's okay, I can do it by myself. I'm busy with you, I'll be back after a while." Ah Nan stopped and said.

"Is it really not necessary?" Feilong asked again.

"Yeah." Ah Nan walked out of ZJD.

He didn't know where he was going, he was swaying aimlessly.The efficacy of the traditional Chinese medicine still seemed to have some effect, at least it made his complexion recover a lot.He walked slowly in the quiet alley, and with every step he took, childhood memories flooded his mind.There are funny ones, sad ones, and private fights. Those heartless days in the past were really the happiest time.I just don't know if I can live back.Does the original me still exist...

Suddenly something moved in the grass beside the road, but he didn't care.But then, a snake sprang out from the haystack. Although the snake was not poisonous, its whole body was snow-white.This scene made Ah Nan's face pale, and he backed up a few steps until he hit the lamp post.He slid along the lamp post and sat on the ground, sweating profusely all over. He told himself that it was just a snake and it was nothing, but his body was still trembling.

"Sir, are you okay?" A passer-by on the side of the road asked Ah Nan who was sitting next to the lamppost and hugging his knees tightly and trembling.

"..." Ah Nan gritted his teeth, unable to make a sound, and there were bursts of humming in his ears.

"What's the matter, what's the situation?" Li Jinbiao, who was driving on patrol, saw the crowd in front of him, so he stopped the car and went to check.

"Ah Nan!" After seeing clearly, he was shocked. It was none other than Ah Nan who was sitting on the side of the road. He speeded up and ran over.

"What's wrong with you, what's wrong?" Li Jinbiao looked at Ah Nan, whose lips were pale and trembling all over, and became nervous.

"My God! Why are your hands so cold? You won't be sick. I'll take you to Rongrong's place!" Li Jinbiao touched his skin, and the cold touch made him very worried.

Perhaps seeing the appearance of a familiar person, Ah Nan, who was in a daze, seemed to be dragged back a bit.He held the opponent's arm tightly, and shook his head with difficulty after a long delay.

"No, it's good to take a break..." It seemed that it took a lot of effort to leak a slightly weak word from his mouth.

"Nonsense! You're still acting brave now." Li Jinbiao helped Tie Nan into the car without saying a word, and drove to Rongrong's clinic.

"Rongrong!" Seeing Rongrong standing at the door directing the members of the Bigfoot Gang to work, Li Jinbiao immediately helped Ah Nan and walked over.

"Brother Biao? Man! You all go back to me first, it's none of your business here." Rong Rong immediately waved her hand to make those people stop and leave.

She pushed away a few people who were in the way, and cleared the road so that Brother Biao could help Ah Nan in.

"Ah Man, what's wrong with you?" Rongrong asked while doing the examination.

"It's nothing...it's nothing. I'm just dead...too nervous. I'll just take a break..." Ah Nan said intermittently.It's just that before he said anything to me, there was a sudden tightness in his chest, and he felt a sense of suffocation oppressing him and he couldn't breathe.

"Ah Nan, you don't look like you're fine. If you're not feeling well, tell me so I can help you."

"It's really fine...just a little chest tightness." Ah Nan thought for a while and said.

"It's all right?! I want to give you a careful examination, tell me where you feel uncomfortable, don't hold back!"

After a long time, Rongrong helped Ah Nan and walked out from the inside.

"Rong Rong, what's wrong with Nan." Brother Biao stepped forward to take Ah Nan and asked.

"It should be chest tightness caused by not enough rest. Ah Nan, didn't I tell you to take a good rest and recuperate?!" Rongrong asked.

"..." Ah Nan was silent and didn't say anything.

"You! Forget it, I'll prescribe some calming medicine for you to take back." Rongrong said angrily.

Ah Nan leaned weakly on Li Jinbiao's shoulder, sighing slightly.

"You're tired, I'll take you back." Li Jinbiao looked at the tired Ah Nan and said.

"Thank you." Ah Nan nodded.

"Why are you being polite to me?"

After Li Jinbiao sent Ah Nan back, he left.After Fei Long put away the medicine, he made a cup of ginseng tea for Ah Nan and said.

"Master, next time you go out, let Longan and the others accompany you. Otherwise, if something happens again, what will you do!"

"Oh." Hu Tienan supported his forehead and replied.

After drinking ginseng tea and resting on the sofa for a while, Ah Nan felt a little tired, so he asked Uncle Fei Long to help him upstairs.

After returning to his room, he didn't intend to really go to sleep.After all, the world after falling asleep is full of nightmares.Turn on the phonograph and let it play music slowly.Back on the bed and sat quietly, staring blankly at the ceiling in a daze.My mind was empty and I couldn't concentrate.The heart was beating with the soothing rhythm of the music, and the whole person seemed to be frozen by time, motionless.At this moment, he is like a delicate doll, waiting for his master to touch it...

After an unknown period of time, the record stopped spinning.He still maintained this posture, without moving.It seemed to be the same as when he returned to the isolated island, so quiet that people ignored his existence.

The door was opened softly, and Li Jinbiao rushed over after work.He knew that Ah Nan had rested, but he was still worried and wanted to come up and have a look.But the scene in front of me...is this the so-called rest? !

I saw that Ah Nan was motionless, staring blankly at the top in a daze.He didn't even notice when he opened the door and came in, what was he thinking so preoccupied.It wasn't until he approached that he realized that the other party wasn't in a trance at all, but lost his soul.The record on the gramophone had skipped a needle, and it seemed that he should have remained this way for a long time.Would a normal person do this?Just lying motionless on the bed and looking at the ceiling, his eyes are still so dull.If it was like this normally, he must have thought that the other party had run into something evil!

"A Nan!" Li Jinbiao shook Ah Nan, but the other party still didn't respond.He shouted a few more times, and gradually Ah Nan's fingers moved.He mechanically turned his head to A Biao, but his eyes were still empty.

Ah Nan's thoughts were pulled back, but his brain seemed to have not fully adapted, and he was still in a trance.He closed his eyes, and the dry eyeballs turned a few times in the eye sockets before opening them again.

"Ah Biao...how are you?" Ah Nan's voice was very hoarse.

"Fortunately I'm here! I'm still wondering why Rongrong said you didn't get enough sleep. So, is that how you sleep?!" Li Jinbiao's face was very ugly.

"I'm just... thinking about something..." Ah Nan didn't know how to explain it, he was really just in a daze.

"Thinking about something? Then tell me, what are you thinking? Why have I called you for a long time and there is no response!" Li Jinbiao was furious, and he was angry that he let him go like this.How could he believe that the other party would take good care of himself? This appearance is getting worse and worse no matter how you look at it!

"I..." Ah Nan was blocked and had nothing to say.

"I asked Uncle Feilong to decoct medicine for you. After drinking it, I will watch you sleep." Li Jinbiao turned and left after speaking.

Ah Nan was paralyzed on the bed like a deflated ball. He thought he had suppressed it well, but he accidentally exposed his most fragile and most unbearable secrets to this man bit by bit.Facing him, I lost all the ability to pretend and the courage to defend myself.

He used to be able to give his sincerity completely, but now, this broken thing that has rotted and even started to emit a stench, how can he get rid of it?He hid his purest love in the deepest corner of his heart, only that can be regarded as clean...

After drinking the medicine, Ah Nan gradually fell asleep accompanied by Li Jinbiao. Maybe the tranquilizing medicine had worked, and he fell asleep soon.At first he slept soundly, but not for long.In the middle of the night, he tossed and turned, and a nightmare came to him.He saw the white leather whip with a cold light dangling in front of his eyes, and his body tensed, just at the moment when the whip was about to be pulled down.

"Ah Nan?" Seeing that his forehead was covered with cold sweat and his face was full of pain, Ah Biao woke him up.

Ah Nan opened his eyes and saw Li Jinbiao in front of him. He didn't say anything, but hugged him tightly.The scene in the dream frightened him. What is more painful than death?It's that damn waiting.Only waiting can drive people crazy...

"It's okay, it's okay." Li Jinbiao comforted him by stroking the other person's shoulder.

After Ah Nan slowed down, he glanced at Li Jinbiao who was still wearing a police uniform and asked.

"You... haven't left yet?"

"Well, it seems that my decision is right. Do you have nightmares every time I leave?" Li Jinbiao asked with his arms around him.

Ah Nan nodded, but did not speak.

"I'll move here." Li Jinbiao stated.

"What! No...not good." Ah Nan was startled by the other party's serious expression.

"It's nothing bad, I'll be with you. At least someone can wake you up when you're having a nightmare."

"But, but my room is full!" Ah Nan thought for a while and said.

"Sleeping in the same room with you, I don't choose." Li Jinbiao said with a smile.

"Laughing fart, I'll pick!" After Li Jinbiao made such a fuss, it seemed that the scene in the nightmare just now gradually faded away.The atmosphere became much more active, and after arguing with him for a while, Ah Nan had no choice but to compromise.

"Then I'll ask them to buy a bunk bed." Ah Nan sighed.

"No, this bed is big enough for two people to sleep." After finishing speaking, Li Jinbiao took off his police uniform and lay down on it.

"Hey! This...isn't that good..." Ah Nan frowned.

"What's wrong, it's not that you haven't slept. Besides, I've seen you without clothes, so there's nothing to be shy about." Li Jinbiao raised his eyebrows and smiled.

"..." Ah Nan was speechless again.

Facts have proved that when the police play hooligans, they are more hooligans than hooligans...