swear by the wind

Chapter 16

Duan Yufeng's mailbox contains a lot of information, including the reason why Ling Tian commissioned him to investigate Ge Ziyan's mother.It turned out that everything just started with a very vulgar love story. Ling Tian's mother and Ge Ziyan's mother were close friends who talked about everything. Before Ling Tian's mother was about to marry her fiancé, she found that her best friend also It was Ge Ziyan's mother who was pregnant with her fiancé's child. Ling Tian's mother was disheartened by the double betrayal of her friend and lover, so she randomly found someone, Ling Tian's father, to marry.Marriage without love is not happy. As a businessman, her husband is away all year round. This poor woman spends most of her time alone with her son.But a few years later, when the woman had slowly let go of the past, the two people who had betrayed her appeared before her again, and this time, their appearance brought the woman not only harm, but also utter despair.

"Your parents didn't know where they found out that Ling Tian's father was doing a big business, and they shamelessly put the idea on Ling Tian's mother, planning to make his mother drink the wine mixed with drugs, and take pictures of her. Take a photo with your father on the bed, and then threaten her to redeem the photo with a huge sum. Hmph! If those two men and women could return the photo after taking the money as agreed, then such a tragedy would not have happened later. Ge Ziyan! You Do you know! Your shameless parents were greedy and threatened Ling Tian’s mother time and time again. Later, his mother couldn’t take it anymore and chose to commit suicide by jumping off a cliff! Ge Ziyan, do you think your parents are shameless and despicable? A person who is extremely filthy? Then their son—are you equally filthy?! I don’t know what purpose you have to approach Ling Tian, ​​but let me tell you, if you really love him , you will only bring misfortune and pain to him if you stay by his side! You are the cancer that reminds him of hatred all the time! Besides, you are not qualified to stay by his side!"

Duan Yufeng spoke extremely harshly, his ear-piercing voice resounded in Ge Ziyan's ears like thunder, and it was impossible to ignore it.

"No, no, no... none of this is true..." The truth told by Duan Yufeng completely overwhelmed Ge Ziyan's mind, he stood up in a panic, at a loss as to what to say. To clarify for his parents, but he has read all the information on the computer just now, and many of them are scanned copies of the records and files of the Public Security Bureau.But how could he believe that his parents were such people!In my impression, my father is very kind, and my mother is also very gentle, how could he be the kind of person Duan Yufeng said!He can't accept this fact no matter what!

"Why are you here!" A deep but indifferent voice sounded from behind, and Ge Ziyan, who was in a panic, froze when he heard this voice, and turned around slowly, it was Ling Tian.

It was still the familiar face, but in fact it was only a few hours since I saw him, but his eyes no longer had the gentleness of a whirlpool, but instead were as cold and harsh as a cold pool and abyss, and there was no longer any favor on his face. Smiling, the change of cloudy and sunny is just because I don't want to see myself.In Ge Ziyan's eyes, Ling Tian who appeared in front of him is already like a stranger.

"...Is it true? Ling Tian, ​​my parents killed your mother? Is it true?" He looked at Ling Tian helplessly, his eyes were red with fear, uneasiness, and pain. Sadness... All kinds of negative emotions were intertwined and emerged in those eyes that were originally clear like the moon. How much he wished that he could say "it's not true" from Ling Tian's mouth.

"..." Ling Tian looked at him indifferently, but didn't say anything.In fact, he didn't know how to tell Ziyan that he hated Ge Ziyan's identity, Ge Ziyan's "innocence" now, and what he hated most was that he found that he couldn't do anything to hurt Ge Ziyan.Habitually wanted to reach out to help Ziyan wipe away the tears on his face, but he raised his hand in mid-air but put it down.

But Ge Ziyan knew that Ling Tian acquiesced.

"...You, already knew my identity?...You...did you approach me on purpose? You said you loved me just for revenge?"

Ge Ziyan was sobbing, looking at Ling Tian in grief, praying in his heart that he could tell the answer he wanted to hear, his eyes were filled with tears like a spring, and some of the tears that ran across his face rolled into his mouth, bitterly Bitter, astringent.

"Yes." The answer was very straightforward, cold, without any emotional ups and downs.

--No!no!Yan Yan, I really love you!

But why did I say those two words without emotion?Why do you have to hurt him? !Ling Tian roared in his heart, his chaotic thoughts were rampaging like a wild beast, but the vicious words didn't stop, "Otherwise, you think I'll treat you so well for no reason? Why? With a beauty like yours, I can just wave Hit! If I didn't want you to experience my mother's pain back then, I wouldn't even look at you even if you were naked and delivered to your door!"

As soon as he finished saying this, Ling Tian paused, startled by his irrational indiscretion.He didn't know how he would say such hurtful words in front of Ge Ziyan, obviously he didn't know Ge Ziyan's identity at the beginning, obviously he really fell in love with him.But having said it all, Ling Tian, ​​who is now in a fit of anger, will not point out that his words are just out of his anger because he is reluctant to really take revenge on Ge Ziyan.

Ge Ziyan stared at Ling Tian in disbelief, the tears rolling in his eyes were actually forced back by the last sentence, the tears were like a burning iron, burning his heart into ashes .It turned out that in Ling Tian's eyes, he was just an object of revenge, yes!What the hell are you!

It turns out that those are all true!Even Ling Tian admitted it, so why would he want to defend his parents?It turned out that he was the son of the murderer who killed Ling Tian's mother!But he and Ling Tian became lovers, no!Not lovers, this is just Ling Tian's way of revenge.It's ridiculous and ironic enough!

"...I'm sorry. I'm too self-righteous, I'm too self-righteous, I don't understand good and bad, I'm sorry, I deserve it, it's my fault..."

Forced back by Ling Tian's unfeeling harsh words, Ge Ziyan suddenly felt as if his heart had been pierced by thousands of sharp knives. It gurgles out, and the pain is paralyzed to the extreme.

Ge Ziyan didn't know what to say to Ling Tian who was unfamiliar to him. He was sad for Ling Tian's mother, Ling Tian, ​​and his parents who committed an unforgivable crime, but he didn't feel sad for himself. ... He, forgot that there is another himself.

I've been hurt badly,...it doesn't matter anymore.Ge Ziyan retreated from the study step by step in a numb manner, and finally couldn't bear it anymore and rushed out of the room that was too heavy for him, stumbling, staggering, and recklessly all the way to the place that was originally full of warmth and love. run home.

Seeing Ge Ziyan running out so frantically, Ling Tian opened his mouth, but didn't say anything, the hand that wanted to hold Ziyan slowly clenched into a fist.He didn't know why he said those words just now to provoke Ziyan, he knew how cruel and ruthless those words were, and obviously it was not his original intention, but he said it so openly, was it really for the sake of his heart? Can he hurt Ziyan like this so soon?

--Can't!How dare you, Ling Tian!

Looking at the door that was closing slowly, Ling Tian's mind was full of Ge Ziyan's face that was about to cry and almost collapsed.He knew that Ziyan was the son of the enemy, and the simple and kind-hearted him must have lived worse than death after undergoing such a great change, and he was in pain, but why didn't he feel any pleasure after revenge, only deep heartache and reluctance.

--Is this kind of revenge interesting?What is the difference between what you did and what his parents did back then?

Ling Tian stared blankly at his hands. He felt that just now, he personally crushed the sunlight that warmed him, and he might never see that crystal again in his own world... like sunshine...

"Ling Tian? What's wrong with you?"

Duan Yufeng's soft call came from next to his ear, Ling Tian put down his hands weakly, sighed heavily, and didn't want to say anything, turned around and left the study silently, and went back to the upstairs room.

Duan Yufeng looked at Ling Tian's somewhat desolate and slumped back, feeling sore in his heart.Why?You and Ge Ziyan have already gotten into trouble like this, but you still can't take good care of me?Why?Are you just refusing to let me love you?

With a cold face, Ge Ziyan walked alone on the empty street in the cold and biting night, dragging his numb and ignorant body and his heart riddled with holes.When I saw the home not far away, I finally pulled out a stiff smile from the corner of my mouth, but this smile was full of sadness and bitterness.This day was the most intense day in his life. The once sweetness turned into poison, the former lover became a stranger, and the former heaven became hell... It turns out that all the joy and pain are just a thin line away.

"Ah!" Ge Ziyan suddenly stopped and put his head in his hands. The sudden pain in his head made him unable to stand still for a while, and his body fell obliquely and fell heavily on the ground.

"It hurts! Ah--!" My mind felt as if it had been struck by an axe, as if it was about to explode, and it seemed to be repeatedly stirred by a stick.Ge Ziyan grabbed his hair desperately with both hands, trying to use this pain to relieve the inexplicable headache.The wings of the nose opened and closed quickly, and the mouth was opened wide, breathing in the air rapidly, like a fish on the verge of dehydration.There was a buzzing sound in my ears, as if there were countless pairs of wings vibrating, and I couldn't even hear my own heavy breathing clearly for a while.

……what happened?Why does my head hurt so much?Ge Ziyan, who huddled against the tree, closed his eyes tightly, enduring the severe pain painfully.

The night has not yet passed, the sky is still dark, the empty streets are silent, and a few withered neon lights flicker weakly, telling the silence of being alone in the dark, disturbing the night like black silk.Trembling with pain, Ge Ziyan held his head and buried it deeply in his knees. Cold sweat soaked his hair and flowed down his forehead. Drops fell to the ground and disappeared in the ice and snow.

--Ling Tian, ​​why...

After a long time, Ge Ziyan gritted his teeth after he recovered, and finally stood up tremblingly.Looking at the home that is getting closer and closer to the front, walking staggeringly... the home that brings infinite warmth and love to me.

--The happiest time in my life was spent in this home, Ling Tian, ​​I really want to keep this home.

At this moment, Ge Ziyan still deeply feels that if he misses this home, then his future will never be sunny again.

"Ling Tian, ​​will you come back? You must come back!" Thinking to himself, Ge Ziyan took a deep breath and walked forward with vigor.

"Plop-" His foot seemed to be caught by something, and Ge Ziyan was so weak that he rushed forward, his forehead hit the edge of the flower bed in front of him heavily, and a streak of blood immediately flowed down his forehead.

"-Ah!" The head that was a little dizzy due to the severe pain before was awakened by the stimulation of the wound.Ge Ziyan didn't know what happened to the wound on his forehead, he just felt drops of blood dripping down before his eyes.There was a sudden panic for no reason, and his heart was beating rapidly. He covered his forehead with one hand, and quickly got up from the ground and rushed to his home.

Pushing open the door hard, Ge Ziyan endured the pain and pulled out the first-aid kit. He ran to the bathroom to disinfect himself first, but he froze when he saw himself in the mirror.Inside was a pale and pale face, with a deep layer of black and blue under the lifeless and empty eyes, the chapped lips were purple from the cold, and the hole on the forehead that was still bleeding was like a ghostly eye. The ground is staring at him, the bright red blood flowing out of it seems to be the tears flowing from that ghost eye... Is that person in the mirror himself?That is obviously a ghost that just climbed up from hell!

"Batt!" A drop of blood fell on his left eye, and Ge Ziyan suddenly felt that the world on the left was stained red by a large amount of blood, the blood-red self and the blood-red everything...

The familiar scene—the smell of blood filled the nostrils, and the eyes were covered by blood. When did I see this scene? It was so familiar and frightening!

"Ah!!" Ge Ziyan suddenly felt that the head was about to explode in pain, and it seemed that there were countless ants gnawing inside. The clear pain like peeling cocoons made him scream out uncontrollably.At the same time, countless pictures unexpectedly flashed in his mind, which were very messy, but these strange pictures made his face show a terrified expression, as if he saw the purgatory on earth, his eyes were bulging, and the veins on his forehead He jumped up, his hands clinging to the edge of the sink, his breathing became more and more rapid, and his lips kept trembling because of fear.

--How could you forget!How can I forget!That is your sin!

Ge Ziyan suddenly hugged his head and screamed like crazy. The miserable cry was enclosed in this small space, constantly stimulating his nerves.

...Finally, I remembered...that part of the past that I had forgotten...

Ge Ziyan was 7 years old that year. Like all children, he was a carefree child loved by his parents in every possible way. He was innocent and happy.Before that day, he thought that his future would be in this peaceful and warm environment.After that day, he knew, hell opened the gates for him.

That day, like the dream that Ge Ziyan often had, his parents took him to the countryside to play.Fishing, barbecue, mountain climbing, the family is happy, warm and happy.Later, when they climbed to the top of the mountain to rest, they met a woman, who was very beautiful and elegant.At that time, Ge Ziyan was still young and didn't know much about the world. Now that he thinks about it, he realizes that the woman met them not by accident, but as if she was waiting for them on purpose, and carefully recalled the woman's appearance and Ling Tian has some similarities, and now Ge Ziyan knows that that woman is Ling Tian's mother.Ling Tian's mother seemed to have been talking with his parents for a long time, but Ge Ziyan didn't pay attention at first, so Ge ​​Ziyan just played alone on the top of the mountain, until later he heard his parents and Ling Tian's mother start to argue , he was a little scared, he wanted to go over to pull the adults who were pushing each other, but when he walked up to the three adults, he was accidentally pushed down by his mother, and Ge Ziyan, who was still a child at that time, could not stand firmly , Rolling and rolling on the sloping hilltop to the edge of the cliff at one end...

"... Woo... Woo... So it was me, so everything was caused by me! Ling Tian's mother died because of me! Dad died because of me! Mom became what she is now because of me...I That's the source of that sin... As expected, I was the beginning of all misfortunes..."

Ge Ziyan slumped on the ground helplessly. Although he curled up into a ball, his uncontrollable trembling became more and more severe.I kept thinking about the past bits and pieces in my mind, and guilt, pain, and despair came up in waves.The deep sense of guilt weighed him down like a heavy stone, and his chest hurt like suffocation. He always thought that he was a clean person, but he didn't think he was the dirtiest person.

Crying alone in this empty room, the felony he bears, the oppressive self-blame, and the emotion of grievance, all gradually merge into a water mirror at his feet along with the broken teardrops—a mirror that is easy to break but hard to recover.

No one knew how ironic the accident was at the end—it was Ling Tian's mother who rushed over to grab Ge Ziyan without hesitation.However, due to the steeper slope near the edge of the cliff, Ling Tian's mother didn't hold back her feet, and slid down the edge of the cliff with Ge Ziyan in her arms.Ge Ziyan's father tried his best to pull the two of them, but in the end they were only dragged down the cliff together.In Ge Ziyan's last impression, it was Ling Tian's mother who hugged him tightly and gave him a warm smile on the way to hell...that smile was stained with blood...

Ge Ziyan stared at the ghostly self in the mirror, and the scene after falling off the cliff emerged in his mind, just like the feeling now, with blood red everywhere, distorted body, and broken organs exposed... He heard it in his ears There was no sound, but there was a bloody purgatory in front of his eyes. Time seemed to freeze at that moment forever, and the image of blood flowing into rivers and fragments was deeply imprinted in Ge Ziyan's mind forever.

Fortunately, Ge Ziyan, who was protected by two adults, did not cause fatal injuries after falling off the cliff. After several major operations to repair organs, he finally survived with a glimmer of hope.It's just that the tragic scene at that time caused a huge psychological shadow on him who was only 2 years old, and it was so serious that he had suicidal tendencies in the end.His mother had no choice but to travel to major hospitals in the country, trying to cure his mental illness, and even sent him to a mental sanatorium for treatment.After seeking medical treatment many times without any results, he was introduced by others to go abroad, and chose deep hypnotherapy, which is extremely risky.

However, remembering everything does not mean that it can end all this, the repayment has just begun...

Ge Ziyan stared blankly at his blood-stained hands. His red and swollen eyes had already dried up from crying. He stood in front of the mirror like a puppet without a soul. The wound on his head and the pain on his body , the sadness in his heart, it seems that all this has disappeared, his world has already returned to the day when the accident happened when he was 7 years old.The soul has been stuck in that day, and it can't be pulled out no matter what.

I don't know how long it has passed, until the dark sky outside has already turned white, and the warm sunshine shines into the house as usual, Ge Ziyan is still standing stiff like a wax figure, the blood on his forehead has been frozen, which makes the picture even more beautiful. His bloodless face became paler and paler.

Raise your hand slowly, unscrew the faucet stiffly, and scoop up a handful of water. The cold water hits your face, irritating the wound that has just solidified, and also irritating Ge Ziyan's nerves that are about to collapse.right!That's it!The more pain the better, the more injury the better, besides this body of flesh and blood, what else can I give to repay it? …Ling Tian, ​​what am I going to give you to repay you!

"Ding--" There was a rush of ringtones in the empty hall, abrupt and weird, which made Ge Ziyan, who was in a mental state just now, feel a little uneasy. He subconsciously felt that the call was full of ominousness, and he didn't want to answer it. .

"Ding--" The phone continued to ring relentlessly, and it could be seen that the caller over there should be very anxious, and he made several calls in succession.

Ge Ziyan picked up the microphone tremblingly, "...Hello?"

"Ah! Thank God! Finally someone answered. Hello, I am a rehabilitation hospital here. Is Ge Ziyan there?" There was a woman over there who obviously let out a long breath when she heard someone answering the phone. It seemed that she was making this call. It's not once or twice.

"...I am. You are?..." Ge Ziyan was filled with uneasiness, and he seemed weak even when he spoke.

"You are?! I've been calling you since last night, but you haven't answered. I'm so anxious. Well... I'll let you know, you have to be mentally prepared." There was a pause All of a sudden, this pause made Ge Ziyan's heart pause for a few seconds, and the feeling of uneasiness in his heart became more and more intense.

"Your mother suffered from massive organ failure in the middle of the night last night. Although we have tried our best to rescue her, but... I'm sorry, we did our best. If it's convenient for you, please come here to deal with the funeral. In addition, some fees still need to be paid. "

"Pa-ta!" The microphone in his hand slipped, and Ge Ziyan was stunned by the sudden bad news. His body collapsed and he couldn't move.

"It's gone... Ling Tian is gone, Mom is gone, they're all gone... Finally, I'm the only one left..."

Not in the mood to take care of the mess on his body, ignoring the strange eyes cast on him by those people in the hospital, Ge Ziyan just quietly went to deal with his mother's funeral by himself.There are no relatives, no friends, and no condolences, so I sent my lonely mother away.Ge Ziyan looked at the small black box behind the glass, although he was heartbroken, he accepted it calmly.Perhaps such an ending is also his own.

Mom, did you ever hate me too?If it wasn't for me, all of this...wouldn't have happened?

Ge Ziyan found a funeral hall to store his mother's ashes, and returned home after paying homage seriously.Looking at the somewhat messy house, he couldn't support himself anymore. He lay on the cold floor and cried hoarsely, venting his tears to his heart's content, until finally he was tired of crying, so he lay down on the ground and fell asleep. It's just that falling asleep like this is not safe, and the tears still keep slipping slowly from the closed eyes, gradually forming a pool of grief on the floor.

"Cough cough" A burst of violent coughing suddenly pulled Ge Ziyan back from that bleak sleep, his red and swollen eyes slowly opened, and the sore eyes couldn't adapt to the direct sunlight on his face for a while, so they could only dodge slightly.

Ge Ziyan tried his best to stand up with his sore body and looked around. Except for the slight flow of cold air, there was no life in the huge room. It was no longer as warm and cheerful as before. A very different world.When all people have their own beautiful thoughts and love and are working hard to live under this sky, what can I rely on to support myself alone?Stretching out his hand to touch the empty air, Ge Ziyan smiled sadly, desperate but hopeless.

-- This home is actually not my own!I have never owned anything at all!isn't it?

Ge Ziyan wandered around the room in a daze, looking at the familiar layout, stroking the soft sofa, as if the sweet smell of the past still remained on it.

Ling Tian,... Actually, I really want to wait for you to come back!

But, thinking of everything, what reason and qualification can I have to stay by his side?What an ironic identity!

Originally, the grievances and grievances towards the elders were only based on the information I saw at Duan Yufeng's house before, but now I have completely remembered the events of that year. Those blood and hatred are not just a few words and time. can be eliminated.No wonder Ling Tian hated himself so much, thinking that he must have been in great pain all these years, but he, the chief culprit, completely forgot, what position and qualifications did he have to resent Ling Tian for betraying and ruining his feelings?Even if Ling Tian could forgive himself, he couldn't convince himself.

Ge Ziyan felt that he was like an ant thrown into a frying pan, struggling hard, but unable to break free from all this, he could only watch helplessly as his body was torn apart inch by inch, and his reason was stripped away. , Thousands of deaths and thousands of lives, life is better than death.

yes!Maybe... I should have disappeared in that accident long ago. Ling Tian's mother and his father lost their lives trying to save him. Her mother tried her best to save her, but left a tragedy in vain. What a superfluous person to bring misfortune to others... I didn't realize how ironic my own existence was until now!

It's time to leave...