sunny and sunny

Chapter 13

Zheng Xi sat on the toilet, looked at the mark on his underwear, and covered his face in shame.

He remembered the dream he had last night.

I don't know if it was because he slept on the same bed with Shen Feng that he actually had that kind of dream.The object of the dream was not Shen Feng, but he couldn't remember who it was.All he knew was that he was being pressed down by a man whose face was blurred and could not be seen clearly, but he kept calling him "baby." And he responded excitedly, even under the comfort of the other party...

He didn't know what happened to him, since he came back, he was different from before.This kind of hesitation made him seem to have returned to three years ago, and the empty place in his heart began to ache again.

He lacked memory for nearly a year, and he could still vaguely remember some fragments of his life when he first got into a car accident, but his memory got worse and worse afterward.He changed four doctors, each of whom spoke to him very similarly.It is nothing more than a car accident that injured the brain, affecting the integrity of the brain neuron connections, so that the memory is incomplete and missing.

He took a lot of medicine, it was good and bad, and the worst was waking up with no memory of what happened yesterday.He became more and more taciturn, but also more irritable and irritable than ever before.Later, Zheng Xueqing ordered a special drug that was not in circulation through the relationship of a friend, saying that it could stabilize the situation and prevent it from getting worse.

He ate for a while, and although he didn't remember the past, the situation was indeed much better.It's just that the medicine needs to be taken for a long time, so he keeps it in the bag all the time without interruption.

But so much happened this week that he forgot to take his medicine every day.Thinking of this, he rubbed his face vigorously.Maybe it's really because of the impact of not taking medicine for the past few days.

He sat for a long time before he sorted out his emotions, washed his underwear, dried them with a hair dryer, packed himself and opened the bathroom door.

It's just that as soon as he came out, he saw Shen Feng sitting up and talking on the phone in a low voice.

Shen Feng hung up when he saw him coming out, Zheng Xi looked at his serious expression: "What's the matter?"

"Something happened to the company, I might have to go back and deal with it." After Shen Feng finished speaking, he wanted to get out of bed, and Zheng Xi helped him to the wheelchair to wash up: "Then Miss Jin came to pick you up?"

Shen Feng put the towel on the sink: "Xiaoxi, do you want to stay in Bincheng?"

Zheng Xi hesitated for a moment, he ran out because of emotional problems, but the dream last night made him even more uneasy.Thinking about not taking any medicine this week, I thought it would be better to see a doctor for a checkup, so I said, "I'll go back with you."

Shen Feng's expression relaxed: "Then I'll ask Jin Jing to book the ticket immediately."

Seeing him go out to make a call, Zheng Xi also took his mobile phone and found the phone number of Matthew, the first doctor in charge of his treatment after the car accident.

Matthew is a private doctor. Although he didn't see him again after changing doctors, he still remembered Zheng Xi's situation and occasionally sent messages to greet him.He happened to have no patients this afternoon, so he made an appointment with Zheng Xi to meet and talk in the afternoon.

Zheng Xi didn't tell Shen Feng about this, he came out after washing, Shen Feng had asked the hotel service to bring up the clean clothes, and ordered breakfast.After Jin Jing arrived, the three of them went to the train station to take a train together.

Shen Feng was calling and sending messages along the way, and Jin Jing was also busy preparing materials for the noon meeting.Zheng Xi looked at the scenery outside in a daze, and felt sleepy after a while, and nodded lightly with his head.

The warm sun outside the window wrapped him like a layer of soft feathers, just like his mother's embrace when he was a child, and even Shen Feng's voice gradually became distant.

Zheng Xi fell asleep soon, Shen Feng lowered his voice, said a few words in a hurry, and hung up the phone.

Jin Jing picked up the laptop and told Shen Feng that she would go to the back to deal with things.

Shen Feng nodded silently, and waited for her to walk away before reaching out his arms, gently hooking Zheng Xi's shoulders, and hugging her into his arms.

Shen Feng's movements were very light, Zheng Xi was not woken up, but moved subconsciously, and leaned on Shen Feng's shoulder in a comfortable position.

Shen Feng looked down at him, his sleeping appearance was less guarded and alienated, as if he had returned to the past peacefully.The sun was dancing on that white face, warming the tiny fluff.

Shen Feng couldn't help but kissed the center of his brow, feeling sour again in his heart.

Every time Zheng Xi falls asleep, he has the illusion that time seems to go back.It seemed that nothing happened afterwards, Zheng Xi just had a dream in his arms, and when he woke up, he would still smile at him and rely on him.

When Zheng Xueqing came to confess that day, he really wanted to tell Zheng Xi everything immediately, but later he was glad that he held back.

He didn't understand what kind of changes Zheng Xi had experienced in the past three years, and the facts also proved that the current Zheng Xi was not the boy he knew back then.

Now Zheng Xi is sensitive and introverted, and is very resistant to the approach of strangers.It is completely different from the sunny, laughing boy before.

Shen Feng asked his friend who is a psychiatrist how he should get along with Zheng Xi now.My friend has never met Zheng Xi, so he can only give him a conservative opinion, which is to approach him step by step.After all, Zheng Xi is not a healthy person, he has memory loss.Such people are often very sensitive to the perception of the outside world, they will often be in a state of anxiety, and it is difficult to trust the people around them.A friend suggested that he take Zheng Xi here as soon as possible to evaluate his mental state before he can have a more professional opinion.

Shen Feng has been thinking about how to speak to Zheng Xi.

He didn't know about Zheng Xi's real condition, and Zheng Xueqing had always been in charge of the medical treatment.Although he could ask, he didn't trust Zheng Xueqing to know everything about him.

Zheng Xi's departure yesterday cast a shadow on Shen Feng's heart, and he understood that he should be more careful when getting along with him in the future.Not only do you have to restrain your desire to get close, but you can't stimulate him casually with words.

Shen Feng rubbed the fingertips in the palm of his hand, watching the scenery passing by outside the window, as if his heart was oppressed by something and he couldn't breathe.

He wasn't sure whether Zheng Xi could remember the past, whether he could return to him, but it was impossible for him to let Zheng Xi go.

For three years, he couldn't look at others for three years.That night, the moment I saw Zheng Xi at the entrance of the Fengherili Bar, he was like a patient whose heart stopped and was suddenly hit by a pacemaker. trembling.

It wasn't until that moment that he realized that he would still feel the pain, and it turned out that time hadn't diluted everything.

He wanted Zheng Xi crazily, but Zheng Xi's reaction caught him off guard, woke him up from the ecstasy, and reminded him of those things three years ago.

He hated himself why he didn't investigate, why he accepted the death certificate, why he believed that the person he loved was really buried under the tombstone?

Shen Feng closed his eyes, and the scene of Zheng Xueqing kneeling in front of him and begging him not to tell Zheng Xi the truth appeared in his mind.

Zheng Xueqing is a scholar. He has been respected all his life and has never bowed his head to anyone.But the moment he bowed his head, he didn't dispel the nearly out-of-control hatred in Shen Feng's heart.Shen Feng wanted to beat him up, but Xiao Sheng's words frightened Shen Feng to the point of tearing his liver and gallbladder.

At that moment, instinct drove Shen Feng to rush up. He was afraid that Zheng Xi would hear it clearly, and that Zheng Xi would not be able to face the truth and leave him again.

The person in his arms uttered a slight raving, pulling him back from his thoughts.He looked down and saw that Zheng Xi was leaning against his neck, perhaps because he was always exposed to the sun, his cheeks were slightly red with health, like two beautiful clouds.The soft lips touched the skin, and even the warm breath swept over it, making Shen Feng's breath a little hasty.

Shen Feng hugged him and sat for a while, feeling that this was not going to work, so he had to let him go and let him lean on the chair to sleep.

Shen Feng moved his stiff shoulders, and was about to continue working, but saw Zheng Xi's cell phone on the small table vibrate, and a message popped out.

He didn't want to peek, but the message jumped directly on the lock screen interface.He saw the sender's name at a glance: Dr. Matthew.

Shen Feng frowned, picked it up and took a closer look. The content of the text message was: "Mr. Zheng, I have something to do in the afternoon, so your appointment may be delayed by an hour. Please come back at four o'clock. I'm really sorry."

Shen Feng put the phone back on the table and sent a message for Jin Jing to come over.

He whispered something in Jin Jing's ear, Jin Jing walked away again, came back after ten minutes later, and whispered: "Matthew's full name should be Matthew Li Stan, he turned out to be from Renxin Hospital The authoritative brain department, and later opened his own clinic, specializing in mental illness."

Shen Feng: "Do you have his phone number?"

Jin Jing showed him a set of numbers displayed on the phone: "This is the number of the clinic, do you want to call now?"