sunk into the earth

Chapter 29 Let's go, let's go

Zhang Licheng's operation was scheduled for the afternoon of the second day. When he came out, he was covered in tubes and even put on a ventilator.

Zhang Chen and Uncle Wei sat quietly on a bench in the hospital corridor, while Cheng Sheng sat on a chair farther away from them, thinking quietly.

As soon as the people left the operating room, Uncle Wei surrounded him first, while Zhang Chen sat on the spot with his shoulders drooped, glanced into the aisle, and when his eyes met the half-dead man covered in tubes, he tilted his head and didn't move again. .

At night, the hospital had to keep someone to take care of him. Zhang Chen sent Uncle Wei, who had been busy all day, home, and stayed in the hospital by himself.

There were only a few family members of the patient between him and Cheng Sheng, but it was as if they were in two different worlds, and no one had talked to the other since that night.

In the middle of the night, the family members between them all disappeared one after another. The two of them didn't sleep all night, and their bodies were reaching their limits.

Cheng Sheng was hiding something in his heart, and he didn't fall asleep even once, turning his head from time to time to look at Zhang Chen who was resting on the chair.Zhang Chen frowned, blinking his eyelashes non-stop, as if he had a nightmare.

Cheng Sheng got up lightly, and waved his hand in the air in front of Zhang Chen several times. Seeing that the man didn't respond, he sneaked towards the ward.

There are several hospital beds in the ward, all of which are workers injured in the explosion, some of them have already completed their operations, and some are still waiting to be scheduled.Cheng Sheng walked to Zhang Licheng's bedside in the dark and observed him silently.

The moonlight poured down from the gap in the curtains, and just happened to reflect Zhang Licheng's face into Cheng Sheng's eyes. From his outline to his facial features, he was nothing like Zhang Chen. This made Cheng Sheng feel much better. He stared at this unfamiliar face. , Stretched out his hand expressionlessly, under the protection of the night, reached for the ventilator covering his mouth and nose.

Cheng Sheng's trembling hands were already on the transparent mask. He was still wearing thin pajamas, but he was forced to sweat in the night after the beginning of autumn.

Just as he was pinching the ventilator pipe with his other hand, there was a sudden sound of hurried footsteps behind him. The next second, someone grabbed his clothes and the back of his neck, and the man behind him carried him out like a beast. Walking, the other hand was still stretched forward, covering Cheng Sheng's mouth tightly, not allowing him to make a sound.

Cheng Sheng's heart, which had just jumped out of his chest, fell to the ground, and the hand covering his mouth couldn't be more familiar. He knew that Zhang Chen had discovered it.

Zhang Chen carried him all the way through the back door of the hospital, found an open space where there was no one, and threw him on the ground with a strong push, without any energy left.

There are bricks and steel bars everywhere in a dark open space, probably an abandoned construction site.Cheng Sheng was thrown in the middle of a pile of bricks. The pile of hard things was attacked like this, and fell to the ground with a bang, and a few pieces of broken stones flew out and hit Cheng Sheng.

Cheng Sheng just sat on the ground in such a state of embarrassment, neither raising his head nor getting up.

A voice came from above: "You are murdering, you will go to jail."

These words made Cheng Sheng sober up. He supported the brick floor next to him with his arms, and slowly got up. His knee was cut with blood marks when he fell down. The pain was so severe that he couldn't stand upright. Can barely balance on one leg with a limp.

"You will be dragged to death by him."

Cheng Sheng raised his head this time, and stared straight into Zhang Chen's eyes, "Try your conscience and say, do you love your father? Don't you want him to die? Are you willing to leave him alone because of such a half-dead man?" Are you putting your whole life in it?"

Zhang Chen also stared back at him, "What does it have to do with you?"

The two of them were completely open, and no one was hiding anymore.Cheng Sheng suddenly felt very relaxed, limped towards Zhang Chen, poked his chest with his hand, and asked aggressively: "You can't be ruthless, I will come, and I was caught in prison, and I did it all." , what does it have to do with you?"

Zhang Chen looked up at the dark sky, and waited for the emotions in his eyes to dissipate before looking down at Cheng Sheng again, "Do you think we will have a future in this way? No, we have come to an end. I don't care about you Do it tonight, but you go back and pack your things right now, tomorrow is the 31st."

There was always a violent buzzing sound in the darkness, and Cheng Sheng couldn't tell whether it was some kind of unknown bug around him or the voice in his head, he squeezed out a few words from the root of his teeth: "You are too bad, what am I? I’m willing to do it for you, but you don’t answer the connection. Do you know what I’m thinking when I’m sitting in the corridor at night? I think I really hate you, and I can’t even kill you.”

"It's hard to die, it's hard to live."

Zhang Chen looked very tired. He felt that everything in the world was too heavy, even the illusory love. He couldn't handle it, so he could only repeat that sentence: "Go back."

After this sentence, Zhang Chen firmly stuffed his spare key into the pocket of Cheng Chengsheng's pajamas, didn't want to say anything extra, turned around and left.

Cheng Sheng looked at his back. He actually witnessed Zhang Chen leaving twice in just two days. way over.Looking at his straight back in the dark, Cheng Sheng clearly realized that if he left like this, no one would remember him. Zhang Chen would marry and have children in the future, and this shameful story would be slowly forgotten sooner or later.But if no one remembers, what's the difference between these two months and never existed?

Thinking of this, the chaotic sound of water in Cheng Sheng's mind reappeared. He picked up a steel rod from the open space next to him in a daze, and almost flew after Zhang Chen. Gao's back fell down.

The person in front visibly trembled, and managed to hold on to not fall.

Cheng Sheng threw down the steel rod, hugged Zhang Chen's back tremblingly, and tightly wrapped the green and mature back with his arms in front of his chest.They were still wearing the clothes they wore when they ran out from home last night. They were so thin that even the body temperature of each other was clear.Cheng Sheng put his face on Zhang Chen's back, and slowly felt the trembling of his body. After waiting for a long time, he tremblingly said: "I know we are completely impossible. I can go, but I can't bear you Forget me little by little in the long life in the future. If you get married and have children in the future, and your children grow up to seventeen or eighteen, will you still remember my face when I am seventeen or eighteen?"

Cheng Sheng choked up, "It's better if you blame me for hating me, it's better than forgetting me. I can't find anything to commemorate, so I can only give you the pain."

After speaking, he picked up the shiny steel rod again, closed his eyes, and hit himself on the back three more times.

He didn't expect the stick to hit his body so painfully, he snorted, and after he recovered, he slowly uttered a few words: "I won't forget either."

At four o'clock in the morning, it was like ink was splashed on the sky. A few wisps of chilly wind blew just at the right time. The wind was obviously weightless, but both of them felt that they were going to be knocked down, and there was no way to be whole again this night. Stand up unscathed.

Zhang Chen suddenly turned around and kissed him. If this was the last night, then nothing he could do was too much.

Cheng Sheng opened his eyes, and the steel rod in his hand fell to the ground with a bang.

The two hugged each other tightly, backed up step by step in the darkness, stumbled and bumped into a tree before stopping.

The leaves are very dense, almost covering the faint moonlight, and they are lingering together in the almost pure black environment.At this moment, all the surrounding sounds disappeared, Cheng Sheng thought, it turns out that a person is not as good as a grain of sand in the huge world, it turns out that he is so small that he can't keep anything if he tries his best, the only thing he can do is to make the current time last longer A little bit longer.

Cheng Sheng raised his head while panting, but it was too dark here to see anything clearly, so he could only touch Shen's face and said softly, "My back hurts, it seems like I'm bleeding a lot. "

Zhang Chen also held Cheng Sheng's face in the dark. Cheng Sheng's face was full of tears, and it tasted salty and astringent. Zhang Chen rubbed against his face for a long time, finally moved to it, and said against his forehead. : "I'm in pain too, you hit too hard."

They just hugged each other in the dark, closed their eyes in the impenetrable darkness, and seriously felt the last night they could embrace.

When the horizon gradually turned red, the first rays of dawn came in through the gaps in the leaves, and a few clear bird calls sounded in my ears, and the two of them slowly relaxed tacitly.

It was dawn.

***

At eight o'clock in the morning, Cheng Sheng stopped on the platform with the pure black suitcase he had brought. Zhang Chen didn't come, only his grandma came to see him off.

As usual, the train station was crowded with people working and doing business back and forth.The wound on Cheng Sheng's back was not treated, and the pain was so painful that his back was bent when he walked, and his steps wobbled.He resisted the pain in his back, threw the suitcase into the luggage rack, and then wobbled to the window seat and sat down.The glass window was blurred like a layer of fog. Cheng Sheng turned his head to look out. The platform outside was still bustling. Suddenly he seemed to see a solitary and slender figure standing in the bustling crowd with an uneasy expression on his face. The happy expression is incompatible with everything.

Cheng Sheng blinked, but the figure suddenly disappeared, and the car window was full of unfamiliar faces.

The sharp whistle sounded, and Cheng Sheng finally came back to his senses. He watched the gradually receding scene outside the window without any waves. The scene was also gray and mixed with human voices, like the theme of a certain rock disc.The train drove for another seven hours, and he was going to follow the rails and return to his bright and bright life.

On an old bridge not far from the train station, there was a man sitting on the railing smoking a cigarette, with his legs hanging in the air, and he could jump off with just a light jump.

The moment he heard the whistle sound, he put out his cigarette on the railing, touched his heart with his left hand, and counted his heartbeats following the sound of the train starting.

Someone told him that the sound of a train departing would merge with the sound of a person's heartbeat, but that person always lied to him. He didn't believe it at first, but this time he accidentally touched his chest, and in the cool, dusty morning wind Feeling carefully, I found that what the man said turned out to be true.

He opened his eyes again, staring closely at the green leather train that was fading away. When its tail completely disappeared from sight, he turned back from the railing and walked slowly towards the hospital.

The wind in the morning was too cool, and there was an illusion that it was winter overnight.He walked slowly, thinking slowly, this summer vacation is too long, like going from summer to winter, so long that he thought that his 17-year-old self was getting old.

But everything was over, and he returned to his life, the most ordinary life.

But what he didn't know was that in the green leather carriage that was getting farther and farther away, someone was lying on the dirty table, writing strokes in a diary-everything he said before was a lie Yes, until today, when I hated him so much and wanted to kill him so much, it was only at this moment that I knew that I really loved him.