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Chapter 151 Not the Favorite

Sometimes, children's ideas are actually very simple.

The greatest reliance is on parents, and the people I love the most are often my parents, so I am most afraid that my parents will not love me and will abandon me one day.

Most children naturally long for the love of their parents.

The same goes for Chu Shendu, for him Chu Yuezhi is his biological father, so he loves Chu Yuezhi like Si Zhuxi, and Si Yuanting is a respected elder to him.Si Zhuxi has always told him about Si Yuanting's past bit by bit, because he didn't want him to hear gossip about Si Yuanting from other people, and he didn't want him to have a crush on Si Yuanting one day. Having been a eunuch in the past, he had undue misunderstandings and views on Si Yuanting.Chu Yuezhi has always taught him that no matter what their status, everyone should be treated equally and not discriminated against. Therefore, in his mind, Si Yuanting has always been able to persist in his beliefs after going through ups and downs. tall image.

In a few months, Chu Shendu will celebrate his ninth birthday. He is no longer at the age of knowing nothing. He treats Chu Yuezhi and Si Zhuxi as a child's love and dependence on his parents, and he respects Si Yuanting. with admiration.He wants to become a king like Chu Yuezhi, and while accepting Si Yuanting's teachings to him, he also wants to become like Si Yuanting, who is knowledgeable, omniscient and omniscient.

They are all very important people to him, so when Chu Yuezhi confessed his relationship and part of the truth to him, what he cared most about was whether he would lose his parents, and whether he would be loved by his parents and uncle.

Chu Yuezhi didn't expect Chu Shendu to cry like this. He wiped the tears off Chu Shendu's face with his sleeve, then hugged Chu Shendu tightly, and comforted him softly, "No, how could Yuanyuan become innocent? What about the beloved child? Yuanyuan is so cute, how could my father and uncle not like Yuanyuan? We all like Yuanyuan, love Yuanyuan very much. And your mother, you are her sweetheart, how can she Can I let you go easily? It’s just that my father can’t guarantee it. Maybe one day your mother will really want to leave this palace, but Yuanyuan must understand that it’s not that she doesn’t love Yuanyuan or doesn’t want Yuanyuan anymore, but that your mother also wants to leave the palace. I want to have a little bit of my own life.”

"No! Yuanyuan doesn't allow the mother's queen to leave Yuanyuan! The mother's queen can't leave Yuanyuan behind! Father and uncle can't either!" However, Chu Shendu couldn't accept Chu Yuezhi's words, and his tender face began to turn red. It was in Chu Yuezhi's arms that he cried even harder.

Looking at Chu Shendu in embarrassment who was about to cry, Chu Yuezhi wanted to coax him, but felt that he didn't know how to comfort him. Chu Shendu was usually very obedient and sensible, and had never cried in front of him In fact, he didn't have much experience in coaxing children, so he felt a headache for a while.Subconsciously, he wanted to ask Si Yuanting for help, but when he thought about the cruel words Si Yuanting said just now, he didn't dare to look at Si Yuanting again.

Chu Yuezhi was feeling at a loss, so he could only gently pat Chu Shendu's back to keep him from crying. Si Yuanting had already come to him, and he stretched out his hand to hug Chu Shendu. Chu Yuezhi was stunned, and looked up. When he went, he saw that Si Yuanting had already strode to the door of the side hall with Chu Shendu in his arms.

"Yuanyuan, one day, we will all leave you. Uncle told you that birth, old age, sickness and death are the laws of nature that no one can escape." Si Yuanting spoke to Chu Shen alone in a low voice, and he did not wipe tears for Chu Shen alone , just hugged Chu Shen alone and stood in the sunlight that shone into the entrance of the side hall, and let him look at the sky outside, "You are still young now, when you grow up, you will meet more people, and they will be there Come to you at different times and become your friend, brother, courtier and even concubine. You will learn to love and be loved by others. But not everyone will accompany you to the end, because a person's life, It is a process of learning how to face and accept loss, life and death is a compulsory course for everyone.”

His cheeks were all wet, and there were still big teardrops on his eyelashes, Chu Shen looked at Si Yuanting with wide eyes alone, and hiccupped and said, "But, if you leave, you just don't love, no, don't you? "

"Maybe, or maybe not. Some people leave because they don't love; some people leave because they love them very much; some people still have love in their hearts, but they have other pursuits, so they choose to leave." Si Yuan Ting's voice was very low, but the tone was flat, as if he was just narrating the most ordinary thing, "Yuanyuan, even if one day, your mother, queen, father and uncle choose to leave your side one by one , that doesn't mean we don't love you, we will always love you, but love is different, now you are her favorite to your mother, as for your father and uncle..."

Si Yuanting stopped talking very slowly and did not continue, Chu Shendu wiped his little face that was messed up from crying, then nervously grabbed Si Yuanting's chest, and asked: "Father and uncle, are you really happy?" Don't you love Yuanyuan?"

Covered by half-drawn eyelids, Si Yuanting's gaze was silent, like a world outside the hall where heavy snow had fallen, and everything was covered by that icy white snow. He shook his head lightly and said, "It's not that I don't love you, it's just that I don't love you. Not the favorite. Yuanyuan, uncle and your father, love all people in the world, and love you too, but the people who love the most have always been each other these years. In this life, uncle has lost a lot and has very little. What he has now Everything is given by your father. If it weren't for your father, uncle would have left this world long ago. So for uncle, the most important and favorite person is your father; and your father It is also very clear that if uncle is not his favorite, he will not be able to keep uncle. Therefore, the person your father loves the most can only be uncle. All along, uncle has never kept the past from you, you know very well , Uncle is a handicapped person, in this world no one can accept uncle except your father, and the only thing that uncle can do willful and selfish in this life is that uncle and your father love each other.

"Yuanyuan, if you want to become an emperor like your father, you must understand that an emperor is the loneliest person in the world, and there will be fewer trustworthy and lovely people around him than ordinary people. Moreover, you will face More losses and departures. Even in some cases, you may have to send your loved ones to dangerous places with your own hands, or lose your trusted people unsuspectingly. Many people say that the emperor must Ruthless, but uncle does not want to train you to be a ruthless emperor. Uncle hopes that you can learn to love the people and become an emperor who understands the suffering of others. So uncle also hopes that you can learn to be fulfilled and let go, which will be very difficult , It will be very painful, but don’t be afraid, because uncle and your father will always be with you until you learn all this and learn how to be a wise and loving emperor.”

Except for giving lectures, Si Yuanting seldom talked so much with Chu Shendu in one breath on weekdays, and more often, he was gentle and calm in front of Chu Shendu but said little.Now that he has talked so much with Chu Shendu, he knows that Chu Shendu will not be able to digest and understand his words for a while, so he also softened the expression on his face, took out a towel and wiped Chu Shendu's face clean, and finally said: "These principles , It doesn’t matter if you don’t understand now, just remember one thing, whether you are by your side or not, your mother, queen, father, and uncle, we will always love you and protect you forever in a clean place in our hearts.”

Chu Shendu didn't cry anymore, he just pursed his lips and looked at Si Yuanting, and when Si Yuanting put him down, he ran back to Chu Yuezhi, took Chu Yuezhi's hand and asked cautiously, "Father?" Huang, is what uncle said true? Will you really love Yuanyuan forever?"

Chu Yuezhi was looking at Si Yuanting, who was still standing at the entrance of the side hall, and lost his mind because of what he said to Chu Shendu. Hearing Chu Shendu's question, Chu Yuezhi let out a low "ah" and hurriedly Concentrating his thoughts, he held Chu Shendu's little hand and replied, "Of course it is true, we will always love Yuanyuan."

Hearing Chu Yuezhi's answer, Chu Shen turned his head to look at Si Yuanting, and then turned back to look at Chu Yuezhi, his little face was full of struggles, he pursed his lips and thought for a long time, although there were still many things he couldn't figure out , but as long as father, queen mother and uncle love him, it is enough not to abandon him now.So he nodded, Chu Shendu still wrinkled his small face, and said reluctantly: "Well, Yuanyuan can accept that the queen mother will also find someone she loves in the future, and the emperor should live a good life with his uncle, and he can't bully his uncle. Uncle is sad."

Chu Yuezhi choked suddenly at Chu Shendu's words, and said in astonishment, "No, why did Emperor Father bully your uncle and make him feel sad?"

Shaking his little head, Chu Shendu took it for granted and said: "Father is the emperor, the most powerful person in the world. It is also said in the book that accompanying a king is like accompanying a tiger, and my uncle has such a good temper. Usually, my father is not happy. It's all coaxed by my uncle. How could my uncle bully my father? I'm sure my father can only bully my uncle. My uncle only has my father, but my father also has his mother's queen and Yuanyuan. No matter how you look at it, it's my uncle who suffers, so, my father Be nice to uncle, don't bully uncle anymore."

Looking at Chu Shendu speechlessly, Chu Yuezhi really wanted to ask, who is the eldest son of the emperor who loves the most in his heart? Is it the father or the uncle? Why does he feel that his status is not as good as Si Yuanting? ?

In the past, when he was nine years old, he sent a jade pendant to propose marriage and engagement, and now there is Chu Shendu, who is more than eight years old, doing his best to protect Si Yuanting. That's right.

Out of the corner of his eye, he glanced at Si Yuanting, who had already turned his back and didn't look at him. Chu Yuezhi, who knew that after Chu Shen left alone, he would have to plead guilty to Si Yuanting, said with a little pain and difficulty: "Yuanyuan, do you want to see me?" Believe me, for so many years, Father has never bullied your uncle."