so be it

Chapter 15 This is what she insists on

Wang Yanyan rode a bicycle quietly out of the hospital, and when she got outside the door, she stopped the car, looked back at the dark building of the inpatient department of the hospital, and sighed deeply.

It was a bit funny at the beginning of this matter. I thought that after the child was sent out, the matter would pass like this. It seems that it will not be as I wished.

Wang Yanyan sighed again.She was a little worried.Worrying about the direction things are going.Haven't some things already been decided by yourself?

After being dazed for a while, she took a deep breath and let it out again heavily.He suddenly laughed at himself, only met a few times, and he began to worry about some things that didn't exist at all.Definitely let Pine Cone's "Dad" confuse me.

She shook her head, pedaled away.

The bicycle sprang far away and disappeared into the night.

Where will the wind and waves of fate blow the boat of life?

This, no one knows.

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Wang Yanyan is a "monster" who doesn't like to get close to people around him, at least that's what Wang's mother said.

Kindergarten, elementary school, junior high school, high school, university, and then work. She met a sea of ​​people during the period, but she didn't find one or two best friends.

There is also such a connection with college classmates, and there are several colleagues who have a good relationship, but it is impossible to have a heart-to-heart relationship with them.

Wang Yanyan always keeps a certain distance when getting along with others.The distance in the heart.This distance made her feel safe. "I don't need any attention from you, and at the same time, I don't want to cause any trouble."

As for why.

In addition to personality, there is also... Wang Yanyan's sexual orientation.

That's right, she's a LES.Maybe it was born.And slowly realize this problem in the process of growing up.Even after she realized her sexuality, she didn't feel uneasy, hesitant, or entangled. It seemed to be a matter of course.

From the first girlfriend she talked about in high school, she knew that she would not be able to escape from this path in the future.

It's just that as she grew up, some family responsibilities weighed on her, and after falling in love twice, she was confused and uncertain about her future.

However, some things are not like habits, which can be corrected.

Wang Yanyan couldn't imagine what would happen if Wang's mother knew about it.

Since Papa Wang passed away, too many things have happened in grandma's house.There is almost one less member in this big family every year.

Two years ago, Ms. Wang had another major operation. Wang Yinyan never dared to tell her that her illness was the same as her father's, which was lung cancer.Fortunately, it is in the early stage, and it has been kept very well in the past few years.There is no such misery as being dependent on each other, but it is also the two of them working hard to live.

Coming out is unlikely.Wang Yanyan would not joke about his mother's body.This is for sure.

How about getting married, having children, and raising children when you reach the age like other people?

She can't do this either.This road is too far away from my heart.

Sometimes, the hardest thing is to choose.There are thousands of roads ahead, but none of them is a choice that can satisfy everyone.

Yes, there is no one way that can make everyone happy!

Wang Yanyan's emotional world has always been pessimistic.

She felt that love was an extremely luxurious thing for her.

For someone like her, love is harder than others.There is no doubt about it.

Marriage recognized by the law at least has the power of restraint, but feelings without restraint may collapse at any time under the pressure of so-called morality and public opinion around them.

Being together so hard, and then falling apart due to various factors, just thinking about such a situation, Wang Yanyan feels endless despair.

I don't want to face that kind of desperate situation, so just don't be tempted, and don't be tempted. This is the safest way.

If you are afraid of the pain of losing, then don't have it.

Therefore, Wang Yanyan made up his mind to be celibate for the rest of his life, so that his mother would not be hurt too much, and he would not have to suffer too much.This is the only way she can think of with the lowest damage index.

For her mother who is eager for her to start a family, Wang Yanyan can only say that this is the only wayward and unfilial thing she has done to her mother.

No one wants to die alone.There is no way to have the best of both worlds, and I can only give up some things in my life. There is no way to do this, but it is something she insists on.

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The next day happened to be Saturday, and Wang Yanyan was off work.In the morning, she went shopping in the mall first.After seeing a bunch of plush dolls, I was dazzled.She thought to herself, the child is so happy now, why didn't I have so many toys when I was a child.Of course, these things don't come cheap either!

When buying things for the elderly and children, you must buy better quality ones. This is the principle.Touching his wallet, Wang Yanyan sighed, alas!Who made the little pine cone so cute, little friend!

Wang Yanyan chose a few plush dolls he liked and paid for them.Since you are buying it yourself, you must buy the one that looks pleasing to your eyes, and you can also play with it by the way.hey-hey.