Smells

Chapter 20 Soul Belonging

"I like men, that's why I think it's out of proportion for a gay to keep staring at another naked gay."

Yu Ying's gaze was very candid, he admitted his sexuality frankly, and the result was as expected by Xiao Chen.Xiao Chen grabbed his shirt a little nervously, worried that his outspokenness would offend Yu Ying.

However, if some things are not disclosed to the public, their relationship will always be so lukewarm and ambiguous.

Xiao Chen lived to this age, and it was the first time that he truly experienced the ambiguous feeling. It was very attractive, but it was far from enough.It was the first time he fell in love with a person, but he was no longer a fledgling boy. Age was a factor, and people's mentality and desires were different in different age groups.

Xiao Chen thought that he might have really offended Yu Ying, because after he left the fitting room, he talked less, and the atmosphere between the two became a bit dull.

Boredom is temporary, the two of them picked up irrelevant topics one after another, and tacitly turned over this article.

What adults are best at is self-digestion and self-reconciliation. Things that were considered big in adolescence may not be worth mentioning when you look at them when you are older.

Xiao Chen couldn't help thinking that if he met a boy who was so attractive when he returned to high school, and he offended him by saying a bunch of inexplicable things, he would be so embarrassed that he would not dare to meet him for several days up.

But this article cannot be turned over, Xiao Chen secretly thought, he must find a suitable time to turn over this article again.

After shopping for clothes, Xiao Chen invited Yu Ying to eat at home, Yu Ying didn't hesitate, and agreed graciously, but after the two went to the supermarket to buy vegetables, Yu Ying said that she would cook by herself.

"I still owe you two meals, forgot?" Yu Ying put on Xiao Chen's apron, "What am I going to do if I ask you to cook again, I'm a beggar."

Xiao Chen squinted his eyes with a smile, and it hurt when he squinted. Remembering that he was hit by a metal chain in the fitting room during the day, he went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror, and found that the end of his eye was still red and swollen.

While waiting for dinner, Xiao Chen sat on the sofa and searched Baidu for things to pay attention to when going to Tibet.He often goes abroad, but this is his first time in Tibet.

Not long after, Yu Ying came over and handed him a peeled boiled egg: "I just checked the refrigerator, and there were no ice cubes." He pointed to his eyes, "You are still swollen here, put an egg on it .”

Xiao Chen took the egg: "Thank you."

There is a book in the corner of the sofa. The cover of the book is a little faded, and the corners are also tattered. It must have been read many times.Yu Ying has also read this book. He looked at the book and asked, "Brother Chen, do you like "The Outsider" very much?"

Xiao Chen followed his gaze.

Yu Ying picked up the "The Outsider": "The cover of this book is faded, do you read it often?"

Xiao Chen shook his head: "I haven't read it often. I just took it out for a second brush recently. This book belongs to my younger brother. It's been a long time."

Yu Ying opened the cover of the book and wrote the word "Chu" with a pen in the lower right corner of the title page. This is Xiao Chen's cousin's name.

"Your brother read this kind of book when he was so young? Can he understand it?"

Xiao Chen smiled: "I just gave it to me because I don't understand it, and it's a good thing I don't understand it."

Yes, it's a good thing that I can't read it, and it's a good thing that it doesn't resonate.His younger brother smiled when he closed his eyes, his short life was full of sunshine, no matter how reluctant he was to this world, he still didn't want his parents to see a trace of sadness on his face when he said goodbye.

"It's a good thing if you don't understand." Xiao Chen said, "It shows that he is positive, at least when he is alive, he thinks life is very beautiful."

"When did you understand it?" Yu Ying couldn't help asking.

"After my brother left." Xiao Chen lit a cigarette, "For a moment, I felt that life was really boring. For a while, I always felt that the hero in it was me."

When he said this, his emotions were very light, and there was no expression on his face.

Life is fragile, his parents' lives are fragile, and so is his brother.Sooner or later, he has to leave, but why can't he stay by his side for a little longer?

"Do you feel that life has no meaning?"

"Really." Xiao Chen frowned slightly, biting a cigarette in his mouth, and looked down at the book.

"Positive nihilist?" Yu Ying sat down beside him.

Xiao Chen raised his eyebrows and looked at him: "Boss Yu is really a man of culture."

He looked very naughty with raised eyebrows, and it was even more so with a cigarette in his mouth. Yu Ying stared at him for a while: "No wonder you are so cool."

Xiao Chen was taken aback for a moment, he thought Yu Ying would deny his attitude towards life.

Xiao Chen bit his cigarette and was stunned: "Don't you think I'm too negative?"

"Why?" Yu Ying looked at him, "Everyone has a different definition of life, and of course the lifestyle they choose is also different."

There is no real empathy in this world.If you don't, you are not qualified to judge others' outlook on life.

Xiao Chen stared at a certain page in the book for a long time. After a long time, he closed the book with a "snap" and turned to look at the man beside him.

It is really a wonderful thing to belong to each other, which can be met but not sought after.

Yu Ying's gaze was still clear and gentle, and the corner of Xiao Chen's mouth curled up: "I don't feel it for a long time."

"Huh?" Yu Ying didn't respond.

"I don't feel like the hero in the book for a long time."

after meeting you.

Yu Ying stared at him for a long time, then smiled slightly: "That's also very good."

Xiao Chen broke out in his heart, thinking how the hell this man can be so gentle.

Yu Ying stood up abruptly: "It's over, the soup is still cooking on my pot." After saying that, she hurried to the kitchen.

Xiao Chen smiled and covered his eyes with the peeled eggs, rubbing them gently.

Yu Ying's cooking skills are very good. After the two of them had a full meal, Yu Ying didn't stay for long.

"Rest early." Yu Ying said goodbye to Xiao Chen at the door.

"Next Monday, the plane at eight o'clock in the morning, going to Tibet, don't forget."

"will not."

"When the time comes, contact us on WeChat and go to the airport together?"

"Ok."

Yu Ying looked up and took a look into the room, and found that the "The Outsider" on the sofa was gone, so he asked softly, "Have you put away the book?"

"Ah."

"Since it's put away, you must keep your word." Yu Ying smiled with the corners of her eyes crooked, "Don't think of yourself as Meursault, you are Xiao Chen, the Xiao under the boundless fallen trees, the enthusiastic Chen."

Xiao Chen's throat choked: "Boss Yu."

"Well, what happened?"

"In the fitting room today, did what I said offend you?"

Yu Ying said: "No."

"What if I said that I deliberately offended you?" Xiao Chen supported the door frame with one hand, Yu Ying's shadow fell on him, and he looked up at him from his shadow, "Can you guess that I am gay, you should be able to guess that I am interested in you, right?"

Xiao Chen pursed his lips and waited for Yu Ying's answer. After a while, Yu Ying nodded: "Yes."

"I wanted to think about some things before I said them, but I can't wait until then." Xiao Chen lowered his eyelashes slightly, "I'm very interested in you, I guess you can see it too, if you don't think Offended, I want to ask, do you consider talking about a boyfriend?"

Before Yu Ying could speak, Xiao Chen suddenly raised his head: "You—you don't need to answer me now, my mind is a little messed up, and I guess you are also messed up. things come."

Yu Ying hummed lightly: "Then I'll go first?"

Xiao Chen thought to himself that you can't be calm like this, his ears were a little hot: "...see you on Monday."

"See you."

The man's tall figure disappeared at the elevator entrance, Xiao Chen touched his hot earlobe, and exhaled lightly.