single team

Chapter 53

Mind was empty for a while, Shao Fei patted the snow on his legs, looking at the rolling snow-capped mountains in the distance.Whether that person is Xiao Muting or not, he is a benefactor in need.To him, Xiao Muting is more like a lighthouse that illuminates the way forward.

They are all irreplaceable people who have helped him.

By now, he finally realized the dilemma.

Knowing that Xiao Muting took care of him because of Shao Yu, loss is loss, but there is no disappointment at all, but there is even more admiration in his heart.The chief he likes is a good soldier who remembers the sacrificed soldiers. Although he didn't say anything, he hasn't forgotten it after 7 years, and he still cares about himself because of it.

At that time, he didn't understand why the man wore sunglasses, and why he stood blankly and without saying a word after passing the urn to him.He tried to look into the man's eyes through the man's sunglasses, thinking that the man's gaze was cold and emotionless.Only now did I realize that Xiao Muting was just covering up his sadness with silence.At that time, if he had been naughty, pulled the corner of the man's clothes, and begged the man to take off his sunglasses, he might have seen a pair of red eyes full of tears.

If so, he will recognize Xiao Muting at a glance, he will not lead a group of teammates to find fault with him, he will not listen to Xiao Muting's words, and he will not embarrass Xiao Muting in front of so many people.Even if Xiao Muting didn't call the roll call, he would still run to be a little follower.

If so, he must have discovered early on that he likes the captain.

Shao Fei breathed hard, and the cold air slid down the nasal cavity into the chest cavity, but it didn't cool down the agitation there, nor did it freeze the beating heart.

His face was hot, his hands were hot, his nostalgia for Xiao Muting was getting stronger and stronger, his "like" was heavier and heavier than before, maybe it had reached the level of "love".

However, he couldn't find a suitable place to put this "like".

In the past, I wanted to give all my "likes" to Xiao Muting, but now I hesitate.In the past, I thought that I would be able to catch up with Xiao Muting if I worked harder, but now I am not confident.

Because of my brother, but not only because of my brother.

Shao Fei couldn't figure out what kind of mood he was in, why he flinched at this moment, but felt that if he continued to cling to Xiao Muting, he would feel sorry for both his brother and Xiao Muting.

Yes, that's "sorry".

Xiao Muting treats him well, this kindness is the memory of the old man, but he wants to use this as a bargaining chip, hoping to impress Xiao Muting one day and become lovers with Xiao Muting.

He even imagined doing that kind of thing with Xiao Muting, and thought of Xiao Muting's self-defeating many times.

It should never be.

I'm also sorry for my brother, my brother definitely doesn't want him to become like this, he cares about his brother's comrades, seniors, maybe the captain.Before he became an excellent soldier like his elder brother, he was distracted and longed for the love that he shouldn't be chasing.

Brother will be angry.

Shao Fei paced aimlessly, his thoughts were mixed, and he didn't know what to do.

He likes Xiao Muting so much, even if he is rejected or hit, he can't extinguish the burning fire in his heart. Now that the fire is poured with oil, it burns even more vigorously, but his remaining rationality says: You must extinguish it.

He squatted down, poked his fingers into the crushed snow, and unconsciously scribbled. His fingers were numb from the cold, and he saw clearly that there was an ugly panda head drawn on the ground.

He smiled bitterly, touched back with his right hand, and really touched the panda water bottle.

I got used to it, and practiced physical fitness in the snow naked in the morning. When I put on my clothes just now, I instinctively picked up the water bottle.

In fact, Xiao Muting intentionally distanced himself from him these past few days and stopped asking him for a panda water bottle, he could feel it.But this didn't affect him, if Xiao Muting didn't come, he took the initiative to look for him, didn't say a word about his confession, didn't say he liked it, and still stuck to Xiao Muting as before.

However, he also has his own sense of propriety, and he will not give Xiao Muting a reason to drive him away.

Now I understand that Xiao Muting will not drive him away even if he goes too far, because he is Shao Yu's younger brother, and Xiao Muting will probably not embarrass him because of his excessiveness.

What is a word called?Be proud of being favored?

Shao Fei thought that if he took advantage of this, he would be proud of being favored.

Can't do that.

The lunch break was so short that he couldn't decide what to do in the future.When returning to the team, I saw Xiao Muting again, still in camouflage, but without sunglasses.

Shao Fei wanted to ask: Captain, do you know that I already know?

It's a mouthful, he thought uneasily, and it doesn't seem to affect the captain if he knows it or not.

But I still want to talk to Xiao Muting, I can't help it, I can't control it at all.

He gritted his teeth and ran up with the kettle, "Captain..."

Xiao Muting turned around with the same expression as usual, "Huh?"

"Drink," he stuttered suddenly, and the hand holding the water bottle was extraordinarily hard, with visible knuckles, "Drink water?"

The instructor of the frontier defense force just passed by, and said with a simple and honest smile: "Chief, your little soldier fetched water for you again?"

Shao Fei's cheeks were flushed, and he looked up at Xiao Muting quietly, but Xiao Muting didn't look at him, and was greeting the instructor with a smile.

There was another burst of uncontrollable joy in my heart, because of the instructor's sentence "your little soldier", and because Xiao Muting did not refute the word "your".

That's right, he is Xiao Muting's little soldier, everyone is watching and everyone knows it.

Sensibility gained the upper hand for a moment, the corners of his lips raised, and a smile instantly spread to his eyes.Reason suddenly rushed out, blaming him for thinking wildly again.

The corners of his raised lips curled down, his eyes dimmed a bit, and he sneaked a glance at Xiao Muting again, this time meeting that familiar and deep gaze just in time.

"Let's go to training." Xiao Muting took the panda water bottle, raised his chin toward the team, neither affectionate nor alienated, "We're going to form a team, we're all waiting for you."

Shao Fei stared at Xiao Muting's chin, and his Adam's apple moved.

If it was before, the team leader might have said "Small team leader, hurry back to the team", Shao Fei stood in the team and thought sullenly, since he confessed his love that night, he has never heard this cute title again.

The intensity of the training in the afternoon was not high - because the altitude was too high and the oxygen content was low, it was uncomfortable to stand still. The intensity of training in the plateau was not as strong as that in the plains, and the team members had more rest time.Xiao Muting watched Shao Fei wrestle with his teammates, and there was an indistinct line between his brows.

Although Shao Fei tried his best to behave as usual, Xiao Muting could still see that he had something on his mind.

I'm afraid he recognized it.

Xiao Muting didn't want Shao Fei to know that he was the one who returned Shao Yu's urn back then.He had some unspeakable guilt, and he didn't want to uncover that old scar again.

Casualties are inevitable in special missions. Since wearing armbands, special forces are not afraid of death.But if he had been more cautious and thoughtful, Shao Yu would not have sacrificed, at least he would not have sacrificed in that mission.

He was responsible for Shao Yu's departure, not because he couldn't let go of the past and insisted on shouldering the burden on himself, but as it should be.

After returning from the mission 7 years ago, after returning Shao Yu's urn, he began to accept a series of isolation investigations.

It is normal for someone in the special forces to sacrifice, but no one will ignore life just because death is commonplace, from the leader to the new soldier.Every soldier who leaves will be awarded posthumously—whether they are non-commissioned officers, field officers, or generals, and the cause of their death will be investigated to the bottom.

With a conscience, no one withholds details.

Because of improper employment and hastily sending recruits to the battlefield, Xiao Muting was suspended from his post, imprisoned in confinement, and then demoted and restricted in his actions.During that time, he stayed in the confession room of the headquarters, and he didn't even see his father who came to visit him. He only asked someone to bring a message to his father: don't intercede.

The Xiao family has a strong background, but he insisted on asking for a heavy punishment, and even petitioned to go to southern Xinjiang to carry out the most dangerous mission.

When the punishment was finally handed down, he didn't complain, he just felt it was too light.

He was just demoted by one level, and Shao Yu, that promising new recruit, was no longer in this world.How precious is a person's life?Besides, behind Shao Yu was an elderly woman and a young boy.

When a person leaves, a family falls apart.

This cost too much, too painful.

Because of Father Xiao's interference, Xiao Muting was not sent to southern Xinjiang.Behind his father's back, he asked General Yin Jianfeng, who was in charge of anti-drugs in the Golden Triangle at the headquarters at the time, to go to the southwest.

He was 27 years old that year, and he cooperated with Ning Jue, the deepest undercover undercover in the military. After completing his first mission, he was considered to have performed a crime and made meritorious service, and he no longer had to be restricted by restrictions on movement.He went to Shao Yu's hometown again, only to find out that the grandmother of the two brothers had died of illness, and only the helpless Shao Fei was left at home.

From then on, he supported Shao Fei in the name of Shao Yu's comrade-in-arms, until he was seriously injured and unconscious when he went to Burma to rescue Ning Jue privately two years ago.

In fact, after all these years, he has almost paid off what he owed Shao Yu, but every time he thinks about it, he still regrets and feels guilty for the loss of his fresh life.

How can you tell Shao Fei that your brother died because of my failure to fulfill his duties?

When Falcon first met, Shao Fei didn't recognize him.Back then he was wearing sunglasses and a hat, and the short Shao Fei raised his neck to look at him, that small appearance was burned into his eyes, but Shao Fei obviously couldn't see what he looked like.

All Shao Fei can remember is his chin, lips, and those exaggerated black sunglasses.

So after the joint training competition, when Shao Fei gave him a pair of sunglasses that were very similar to the pair back then, he once thought that Shao Fei recognized him.But Shao Fei's subsequent reaction and actions dispelled his doubts.

It's just a coincidence.

But maybe not by coincidence.Shao Fei probably subconsciously remembered the sunglasses, that's why he caught them at a glance when choosing them.

Xiao Muting doesn't like wearing sunglasses very much, for him, sunglasses are like another form of black gauze.Compared with the five major special forces, the Special Operations Headquarters sacrifices more soldiers every year. During the funeral, many team members will wear sunglasses.

The sunglasses and the mirror case were put together in his pocket. Xiao Muting rubbed his thumb on the mirror case, and saw Shao Fei propped up from the ground, looked up and looked around, and then looked in his direction.

Because they are far away, their eyes cannot be touched, but Xiao Muting knows that Shao Fei is looking for and looking at himself.

Xiao Muting sighed - since when did this child only follow him?