Root sound

Chapter 21

When Luo Xuan missed the best lyricist for the first time, he began to believe that there was a shady scene in the Golden Melody Awards, and deliberately dragged him to run with him.

After going through this incident again for the second time, the youthful and energetic man immediately left the scene with a black face. His angry back was captured by the media and became a picture on the headlines the next day.

This immature behavior caused him to be criticized by many netizens.

In the old news, many people compared him with the two-time award-winning Yin Zhezhi, insinuating that "everyone with insufficient ability likes to blame the judges for being unfair".

This year, I don't know if the organizers did it deliberately to create public opinion, or it was a coincidence that the two who were used to be stepped on by the media in the past were only separated by an armrest, and the atmosphere condensed into ice in Luo Xuan's cold snort.

Luo Xuan kept a gloomy face and said nothing the whole time, while Yin Zhezhi sat on pins and needles in embarrassment.

Fortunately, his Alpha was by his side, Yin Zhezhi exhaled heavily, stepped over the handrail, and gently hooked his little finger in the dark.

Yin Zhezhi, who was forced to become a "other person's child", was also very helpless.

Luo Xuan's hair was cut very short, and the stubble reminded Yin Zhezhi of the delinquent boy who smoked in the corner of the wall when he was in school.

The stars gradually took their seats, and Yin Zhezhi smiled politely at everyone around him. He was hesitating whether to skip Luo Xuan, but the other party turned his head to look at him, as if he had sensed something, with a strange look in his eyes.

I don't know if it was a psychological effect, but Omega suddenly felt an uncomfortable feeling of bugs crawling up his arm. He let go of the string and rubbed his left arm.

The rival's malice was too strong.

Even if Yin Zhezhi cared more about the Golden Melody Awards than anyone imagined, he wouldn't be hostile to anyone because of it.

Because his line of sight was blocked, Xie Xian couldn't see Luo Xuan's eyes. He only knew that Omega would glance to the side from time to time, as if he was quite interested in the people around him.

Xie Xian felt a sticky uneasy feeling in his heart, he pretended to be nonchalant and covered the back of Omega's hand, staring at the stage intently and said: "It's about to start, concentrate on it."

In recent years, there has been an endless stream of fresh blood in the Chinese music scene. The entertainment industry is much more prosperous than it was seven years ago. In the fast food era, all the famous faces are changing with each passing day. The winner of many awards, Yin Zhezhi, has never even heard of his name.

When the award ceremony reached the best composer stage, Yin Zhezhi finally caught a glimpse of a familiar face in the VCR, and he, who thought he was abandoned by the times, was relieved.

The finalist named Zhuo Qu is now considered one of the best figures in the composition world. Many lyricists are eager to cooperate with him, but in recent years, Zhuo Qu's solicitations have been full.

Back then, Zhuo Qu debuted at the same time as Yin Zhezhi, because they were about the same age and won the same Golden Melody Awards. The two had a good talk backstage and agreed to find a chance to cooperate.

It's a pity that Yin Zhezhi disappeared from the music scene before he could fulfill his promise in time. Zhuo Qu, on the other hand, persisted in his dream, and finally changed step by step from a budding rookie to a senior with the right to speak.

Zhuo Qu stood on the podium, full of free and easy style. He bent slightly to hold the microphone, and made a joke to amuse everyone. He has a tough outline, and his gestures are casual. The blushing newcomer who keeps forgetting his words.

Yin Zhezhi applauded enthusiastically, tilting his head and unwinding the string with emotion for a long time.

Yin Zhezhi said that the contact information of the partners in the circle he knew before is gone, and he will have to go to the backstage to ask Zhuo Qu for a WeChat ID later, so that he can cooperate when he is free.

Xie Xian glanced at him sideways, and said with something in his words: "I remember that you...didn't have much contact with him back then?"

This is a wild guess.

As a former 24-year-old boyfriend, he did not dare to bind a young talent in the name of love. Seven years ago, no matter who Yin Zhezhi went out to see, he would forcefully smile and tell the other party to "go home early". The strong desire for control has nowhere to go catharsis.

The two of them are suspicious all day long and don't say anything clearly, and the other is busy realizing their music dreams and has no time to communicate with their lovers. As a result, many things have not been known until today.

The overwhelming grievances made Alpha dizzy.

"Well, it's so-so. I like the songs he composed." Yin Zhezhi turned over the schedule with a "wow", staring nervously at the schedule of the best lyricist in the near future.

He was stretched like a string that had been desperately tuned up, and it would snap if he twisted it harder.

"...The last time you were interviewed, you also said that my songs inspire you the most." Xie Xian drooped his head dejectedly, and said in a tone of displeasure, "You're bluffing me."

The frustration between Jie Xian's words was almost overflowing, Yin Zhezhi collected his mood, raised his eyebrows and looked at the other party strangely, and suddenly realized after a long while.

He stared at the tight chin of the other party, and said with a half-smile: "Are you three years old this year?"

Xie Xian dodged to avoid Omega's narrow eyes, he rubbed his face, and realized that what he said just now looked like a child playing with his temper.

Composing and writing lyrics is not about dating, so there is no reason for only one-on-one.

Yin Zhezhi wanted to tease a few more words, but Jiexian entered the state of not hearing anything outside the window, and no matter how Yin Zhezhi teased him, he stopped jumping out a word.

Today my Alpha is sweet and sour.

Yin Zhezhi put aside his irritability for the time being, he leaned on the back of the chair relaxedly, thinking happily.

When the shortlist for the best lyricist award was announced, the MV clip of the shortlisted songs was played on the big screen. Yin Zhezhi held his breath for a moment, and stared at the big screen with his back straight.

As soon as the first piece of music was played, he uncomfortably pulled his tie several times, and his left hand held by Jie Xianxu trembled slightly.

When it was his turn to participate in the song MV, there was a long commotion in the auditorium.

Although the MV was hastily recorded by a team led by five people, the production is not rough.

The scene in the picture comes from Yin Zhezhi's dream half a year ago.

In his dream, he walks through the darkness, stubbornly chasing the light, the scenery is dim, and the temperature is cold. Fortunately, there is always a shadow accompanying him step by step, relieving him of his unpredictable loneliness in the future.

In the MV, five people run quickly in a deep dark alley. They are dressed in thin clothes and have nothing. The only sound in the picture is the distressed panting of the teenagers.

On the way to find the exit, they inadvertently found musical instruments and music scores. The teenagers used music as a weapon to break through the silent darkness, and the music suddenly sounded.

In the clip captured by the VCR, Yin Zhezhi turned his wrist and flicked the microphone cable, turned his head and smiled at the members, and the picture suddenly changed from black and white to color.

The handsome and charming young man on the big screen was clenching his hands into fists on his lap at the moment, so nervous that he didn't even dare to breathe loudly.

The camera swept over him time and time again, Yin Zhezhi tried to smile at the camera, but his tense muscles and nerves had long since stopped listening to him.

His heart beat like a drum, and he always felt that there were countless pairs of eyes staring at him, waiting for him to fall from the tower to his death.

He hadn't been this nervous in a long time.

Even if he stepped into the door of the Golden Melody Awards for the first time seven years ago, at least he still has the fearless frivolity of a teenager, and he is not so concerned about gains and losses.

Human beings are often able to accept that their skills are not as good as others, but they cannot bear the pain of losing after having it.

When the follow-up lights and all the expectations were on Yin Zhezhi's shoulders, he recalled the tall and straight figure of the young boy standing on the podium, and he was a little out of breath.

The Alpha beside him also breathed very shallowly.

Before the opening scene, after the two kissed in the dressing room, Alpha buried himself in buttoning Omega one by one, then he hugged each other, and said loudly in Omega's ear, "I believe you will triumph."

What Alpha didn't know was that the accident five years ago led to Omega's self-denial time and time again overseas, and the self-confidence of the young talent has long been worn away by the years.

Yin Zhezhi tried his best to restrain himself from the sun on weekdays. He pretended to be nonchalant, and his acting skills were so superb that he even deceived himself.

He is still full of enthusiasm for music, but what scares him is that music may not be willing to accept a person who may be deaf at any time.

Because of his anxiety, he needs to use external affirmation to numb himself, but waiting for others to give him confidence is not a long-term solution after all.

The more Yin Zhezhi wants to absorb energy from the outside world, the more likely he is to worry about gains and losses, and the balance becomes more unbalanced.

This is the reason for Yin Zhezhi's recent insomnia.

Xie Xian thought that he loved music so much that he became obsessed with the Golden Melody Awards, so he got a little too nervous.

Actually not.

Yin Zhezhi is no longer the passionate young boy chasing dreams.

He has become an adult full of burdens, afraid of feeling sorry for the shining self he used to be, and even more afraid of feeling sorry for his lover's adoring eyes.

When he walked to the cliff, he didn't know whether he would step on the ground or be taken to the sky by the clouds.

"The XX Golden Melody Award, the winner of the best lyricist is..." The song that came to present the award deliberately dragged out the end of the song, and the fans who bought tickets in the auditorium yelled Yin Zhezhi's name wildly, and the atmosphere was so hot that it was about to explode pot.

Yin Zhezhi couldn't bear such a heavy expectation, he was full of cowardice and his breath became short of breath, and he was familiar with tinnitus coming quietly.

His back was drenched in sweat, staring at the opening and closing mouth of the song queen, but his body sitting on the spot seemed to be thrown into the deep sea, and all sounds became distant and empty.

It's been too long since he has studied lip language, and he can no longer tell which three words the other party said.

The spotlight hit his body, illuminating Yin Zhezhi's dull face with wet eyes open. He was like a little sika deer at a loss, not knowing where to jump next.

The people around stood up and applauded, and the venue was full of voices. Yin Zhezhi became that lonely little dust in the boundless universe, floating in the galaxy without any support.

His smile faltered, as if he was about to cry.

No one noticed his abnormality, except for unwinding.

Alpha clapped frantically until his palms turned red, and he frowned and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong?"

what happened?

Yin Zhezhi's uneasiness was like a flood that had opened its gates, surging out in an instant.

The roaring applause became sparse, Yin Zhezhi, who was the focus of the audience, was fully exposed under the light, and the whispers of the people around became louder and louder.

Not far away, the staff looked at each other in blank dismay, a person in charge hurried over, and after two steps away Chi asked, "Singer Yin?"

Xie Xian's expression froze, he raised his arms flat, and made a push-off motion with his palms facing outwards. He wrapped his other hand around Yin Zhezhi, signaling him to wait a moment.

Alpha couldn't care less about the cameras besieging the two of them, Omega's anomaly made him raise his voice instantly.

He put his arms around Yin Zhezhi, and patted Yin Zhezhi on the back a few times.

He tightened Omega tightly, and the two people's exquisite suits were wrinkled at the same time. He leaned close to Omega's ear and asked tremblingly, "What's going on?"

Yin Zhezhi didn't answer.

He dazedly moved the tip of his nose to Alpha's exposed neck, trying to let the gentle Alpha pheromone soothe his great anxiety, but unfortunately, it had little effect.

He clenched the hem of Jiexian clothes tightly, crumpled the fabric with his fragile fingertips, he felt the hot breath sprayed on the ears of the other party, the deep and hoarse voice was separated by a glass window, which seemed hazy and unreal.

He wanted to force himself to hear it clearly, but the mosquito-like voice was quickly lost in the air.

Yin Zhezhi's eyes were empty, and he hung on Alpha's body weakly. He seemed to see the dazzling flash of the shutter being pressed wildly. He hugged his Alpha for too long, so long that everyone realized that something was wrong.

He should push the other party away, but now he can't do it at all.

Yin Zhezhi buried himself in Jie Xian's shoulder, like a distressed ostrich, murmured in a daze, "Ah Xian...I can't hear you."