Rich and negative

Chapter 115 Friends and Lovers

"Still leaving?"

"I didn't say no to leaving. It's very interesting outside, and I'm a bit reluctant to leave."

After staying abroad for a few years, I can use idioms quite smoothly.

It's a lie to say that I'm reluctant, but I can't hold back my face.I was the one who said we were going to separate, and it was me who wanted to stay. No matter how you look at it, I feel that I am seriously ill.Once, I couldn't help repeating it to Liu Zhihong. After all, in these long years, Liu Zhihong can be regarded as the witness of the whole process. I think he still has the right to speak to a certain extent. Tell me solemnly: Lin Yuan, if you are completely stumped, don't struggle anymore.

Well, I have to admit that it's all about fear of losing.When I was young, I looked forward to the future and feared the future.I don't know which chicken soup dog sent that sentence, but I happened to see it and remembered it in my heart.

Friends last longer than lovers.

There was a period of time when we quarreled fiercely, and we didn't know what went wrong, and often even a small matter was turned upside down.I became hysterical and he was as emotional as an adolescent.Because it cannot be made public, you must be careful when and where.The feeling of exhaustion that I have never had before made me think that being together was a mistake.It turns out that liking and being together are two different things. Friends and lovers also have restricted areas, and if you enter randomly, you will face the danger of being bombed to death.

I flinched helplessly, especially when I thought about facing both parents in the future, my only courage was exhausted.

The day before the car accident happened was the day when Yang Yuanming was going to leave. We saw each other for the last time on the plane the next day.Yang Yuanming hesitated to speak,

In the end, he said, "Lin Yuan'er, don't stay up late in the future, look at your dark circles, get a good sleep tomorrow, and don't come see me off."

I was a little confused at the time, I didn't know what to say, I just opened and closed my mouth, "Then when will you come back, I will pick you up."

"I do not know either."

Speaking of this, it is very clear that he is not going to come back.

At least, not for a few years.

Facing the separation again, I felt unreal and a little dazed.Until the familiar temperature came from the top of my head, Yang Yuanming gently stroked my hair with his hands, just like he did many years ago.His palm is big and warm, I have held it many times, I like the fleshy one very much.

"Don't worry, wait until you notify me that you are going to get married, you will arrive."

I thought Yang Yuanming must have been born to overcome me, and he could easily hit the bull's-eye anytime and anywhere, but at that time, I couldn't shed tears for no reason, and only felt a large area of ​​despair hit me.

"Slap!" The loud sound forced me to withdraw from my memory, and I looked into the bathroom, not knowing what happened.Yang Yuanming didn't come out after a while, so I went into the bathroom to see what was going on, and I must not do anything stupid!

Thinking of this, I really want to go up and hug him, but I can't do it, those poems called classics are not at all appropriate.The furthest distance in the world is not between life and death, but when I stand in front of you but you don't know that I love you.In fact, life and death are the farthest distance. They are two worlds. There is no communication anymore, and there is no chance to tell anything. Knowing and not knowing, loving and not loving, there is only eternal silence in front of death.

After tidying up everything, Yang Yuanming sat quietly by the bed with a calm expression, I don't know what he was thinking.

"Dinglingling" a burst of mobile phone ringing, finally calling him who is like a sculpture.

"Hello."

"Yes, no, I want to refund the ticket, thank you."

Why didn't you leave again?Why should you stay?Obviously there is no reason...

That's right, isn't there any reason to leave? Originally, he went away to avoid me. I'm gone. He can stay here. This is his home after all.

Not just self-pity and self-pity, but self-blame.I dare not really speculate on his thoughts, for fear that he will remember too deeply and care too much.

I now, sincerely, just want him to be happy.

I leaned over and gently held his palm with a near-transparent hand. There was no warmth or solidity, but it was still full of security.Like when I was on stage to receive an award for the first time many years ago, I was so nervous and scared that my legs trembled, and the pale lights on the stage made my eyes hurt, and I could feel how tense I was.When the name of the group was called, I was still thinking about which foot would be the most suitable first. Yang Yuanming handed it to me, and led me to take the first step, which became smoother and smoother.The frightening lights softened all of a sudden, projecting on Yang Yuanming's body like bright stars, dazzling and captivating.

It was also at that moment that I finally determined where my heart was going.

I'm in love.

After Yang Yuanming hung up the phone, he opened the suitcase in the corner of the living room, packed up all the things inside, and tidied them up one by one.I have a boring little habit. I like to watch Yang Yuanming's Virgo burst out. I am disgusted on my mouth, and I have an inexplicable joy in my heart. I always feel that his tireless cleanliness is a bit stubborn and cute. As long as I think that this kind of cuteness belongs to me One person is very satisfied.

Maybe Yin Xuan is right, my possessiveness is directly proportional to my appearance.I'm glad our imperfections are so well matched.

Yang Yuanming put the photo frame pressed at the bottom of the box on the head of the bed and finished the last tidying up.In the photo frame is a personal photo of Yang Yuanming. There used to be two people, but that was a long time ago. Maybe death has stretched the distance between time and space. I can hardly remember the day when we broke up, or it was my heart. Never thought that we would be separated, so I refused to remember.

Yang Yuanming picked up the photo frame again, and I secretly laughed at him as a narcissist.However, the next moment really made me dumbfounded. He disassembled the photo frame, took out his single photo, closed the photo frame and placed it on the bedside again. Xi Xi's smiling face is all too familiar to me.

The turbulent emotions were stuffed in my mouth and eyes, and I was so depressed that I couldn't breathe. I always thought that this group photo must have been lost long ago. After all, I was the one who broke the photo frame.The day we broke up was the most decisive moment in my life. Even I couldn't believe that I would do such a thing, let alone Yang Yuanming.His words became more intense, and so did I.Both keep pushing the other into corners, with no way out.

What it is for, I have no idea.