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Chapter 71 I'm sorry, I accidentally broke it

Chen let Lu Shiqing hold her, didn't speak, and Lu Shiqing didn't force her.

He quietly listened to Chen Fang's heartbeat, and hurriedly ran towards him through his chest, every sound seemed to be endowed with a certain meaning.

At least Chen Fang is by his side now, Lu Shiqing thought, it is always a matter of time to get used to the existence of a person, at least let Chen Fang not hate alpha, don't hate him... In any case, there is no rush, and the atmosphere should not be too much now Oops.

He and Chen Fang had a simple meal and filled the bathtub with warm water for Chen Fang to take a bath comfortably. Turn on the hair dryer and use the mildest wind to help Chen Fang dry his hair.

There is only one bedroom in the house, and there is only one double bed. Lu Shiqing put a night light beside the bed. He reached out and turned it on, and the warm yellow light diffused half of the room.

Chen Fang was lying on the bed, sinking into the warm quilt under the light, his eyelashes cast a shadow under his eyes, and the covered eyes suddenly brightened when he looked up at Lu Shiqing.

"Go to sleep." Lu Shiqing looked at Chen Fang, hesitated for a moment, fearing that his closeness would make Chen Fang reluctant, so he didn't hug him with the hand next to him, and didn't raise his head to kiss him.

Chen Fang looked at Lu Shiqing silently for a while, seemed to sense his restraint, pursed his lips, and finally closed his eyes obediently without saying anything.

Lu Shiqing saw the shadow cast by his eyelashes trembling, and it took a long time to calm down.

The weather in summer is cloudy and cloudy, the sun is still shining during the day, but it rains heavily at midnight.

The raindrops slapped the window glass viciously, and the crackling sound gave Lu Shiqing a headache, as if the strings in his mind that had been tense for four years were being fiddled with again and again, and he could not have a moment of peace.

It was difficult for him to fall asleep, and he was thinking of going to the desk drawer to find his sleeping pills after Chen Fang fell asleep, but now the noise of the rain made him completely lose his mind about going to sleep.

Turning over and getting out of bed, after turning around to confirm that Chen Fang was not woken up, Lu Shiqing quietly walked out of the bedroom and turned on the light in the study.The rain outside the window was getting heavier and heavier. He stood at the window and looked at it for a while, feeling suffocated and uncomfortable, oppressing his breath like drowning, frowning and closing the curtains impatiently, blocking out the noise of the rain for a while, he tried his best to adjust his breath, Started pacing aimlessly in the study.

Not long after the house was tidied up, there were no books in the study, and the bookshelves on the wall were empty.So when Lu Shiqing glanced around inadvertently, the cardboard boxes placed on the desk easily caught his attention.

That's Chen Fang's stuff.

Originally, Lu Shiqing was not a person who liked to pry into other people's privacy, but when he saw this dilapidated cardboard box, Chen Fang's awkward and nervous appearance when he hurriedly took the cardboard box away from him almost immediately appeared in his mind, and he even opened the box. Check that all turned their backs carefully, as if deliberately hiding something.

This is not a conclusion that Lu Shiqing made out of nothing out of distrust, after all, Chen Fang was not honest from beginning to end.He hides many things, such as time, scars, and himself.

Lu Shiqing approached the desk and looked at it. The opening of the cardboard box was repeatedly wrapped with many layers of tape, and there was even a gap in the corner of the cardboard at the sealing due to tearing and pasting back and forth.Through the turbid Scotch tape, a tiny bit of light leaked through the gap, illuminating a corner of the box and more darkness hidden within.

He hesitated and took out the knife, carefully cut the tape along the direction of the seal, and lifted the tattered and softened cardboard.

As more light fell into the box, Lu Shiqing's eyes froze, and unexpectedly saw many objects he was not unfamiliar with.

An answer sheet with flamboyant handwriting, two overlapping note papers, a long-burned firework stick, a circle of messy and twisted lantern wires, a model of a snow-falling Christmas tree, and a Christmas tree wrapped in two dead branches. paper bag.

Lu Shiqing was stunned.

That's not Chen Fang hiding.

It was Chen Fang who didn't want to lose him.

Their time was broken and dying, and they were kept in the darkness by Chen Fang, and now they were cut open again by Lu Shiqing, the dusty memory was dripping with blood, and the scenes were vividly staged one after another, as if they had experienced a revolving door.

Empathizing with the feeling of dying, Lu Shiqing could barely feel the beating frequency of his heart, as if he was stagnant in mid-air, afraid that the next time he beat, he would rush through his chest eagerly.

He rummaged through the large and small items in the box, not daring to miss the smallest details, until he found a ball of red curled up in the corner of the box.

He took one end and pulled out the ball of red and put it in his hand, the curled shape was strangely stiff.After careful identification, Lu Shiqing vaguely recognized that this unrecognizable red ball was the red string he asked for from Yuelao Temple and tied around Chen Fang's wrist with his own hands.

The fastened knot couldn't be untied, but it was cut off from the middle, leaving two loose ends, the bright color has become different shades, soaked in dark red liquid, mottled and embarrassed.

The sound of rain outside the window was endless, Lu Shiqing's thoughts were shaking, and she was drawn back to countless midnight nightmares by a strand of red rope.The bewilderedness in the dream at that time seems to have clearly found the reason now, even clear and sharp, like a bloody knife.

Standing in the rain, he saw the blade cut the red rope, fit into the scar on Chen Fang's wrist, and then fell into the mud with dripping blood, staining the rain into scarlet.

"Brother Qing."

Lu Shiqing suddenly recovered, and turned to see Chen Fang standing at the door of the study.

He held the door frame with one hand and looked at him fixedly. The corners of his eyes were red and his chest was heaving violently. Bruised and in shock, Lu Shiqing looked like he was alive after a catastrophe.

The scene in front of me overlapped with the tragic memory for a moment, and then quickly dissipated.

Lu Shiqing was in a daze for a moment, grabbed the red rope in his hand, walked over and touched the corners of Chen Fang's eyes, there were some inconspicuous traces of moisture, if it wasn't rain, it should be Chen Fang's tears.

The tears at the fingertips are warm, and only those who are misunderstood as having never shed tears in the rain will be so cold that they will give people the illusion of being ungrateful.

"Why did you wake up?" Lu Shiqing tried to calm his breath, but his voice was still hoarse.

"I just found out that the bed next to me is cold..." Chen Fang replied sullenly, his eyes were scattered and scattered, all falling on Lu Shiqing.

Lu Shiqing was startled when he heard the words, and opened his mouth. After a long time, he gave a consoling smile and said softly, "I didn't leave."

"Why don't you sleep?" Chen Fang's eyes focused a little bit, looking at Lu Shiqing with soft eyes, as if he was cautiously worried about the pain of touching taboos.

"...can't sleep." Lu Shiqing sighed softly, "The rain is too loud, too noisy."

"Then you..." Chen Fang seemed a little at a loss, his eyes swayed, saw the broken cardboard box on the table, and then looked at Lu Shiqing, his head sank slowly, and suddenly became a little frustrated, "You... Are you looking at my stuff?"

"That's mine too." Lu Shiqing spread out his palms, and the deformed red rope lay in his palms.

"Don't look." Chen Fang seemed to be stabbed by the sudden appearance of red, and he had a conditioned reflex, trying to snatch the red rope from Lu Shiqing's hand, but he was held in warm hands together with his cold fingers.Lu Shiqing's strength was not strong, but he was unable to break free, holding the red rope tightly with his fingertips, and digging his nails into Lu Shiqing's palm.

"I'm sorry. I accidentally broke it." Chen Fang felt as guilty as if he had done something wrong, his frowning brows were mixed with despair, "It's stained with blood...it's dirty."

When the blade sank into the wrist, the red rope was also cut, and the blood stained the skin and the knot.

At that time, Chen Fang almost escaped death, unable to keep his marriage and himself.

Lu Shiqing looked down and saw the hideous scar on the inside of Chen Fang's wrist, and the stiff texture of the red string in the palm of his hand, and suddenly felt very regretful.

Is it because he is not dexterous and pious enough, and the red rope is missing a link, so the gods will punish him. If he wants to be consummated, the gap must be filled with Chen Fang's blood.