Religious Faith

10

"Li Jinze!" I wanted to go up and chase him, but my mother somehow got the strength to hold me back.I staggered, and when I turned around, another slap was thrown on my face, and my face was burning with pain.

I glanced at Li Jinze, he had already left and never looked back.I am afraid, I am afraid that he will stay for me.I don't want to stay, I want to go with him!I cried, this is horrible, I want to be with you: "Please don't go..."

Her face was flushed red, and she stared at her bloodshot eyes with intertwined tears.

"Aren't you ashamed?!" She yelled at me, "You come home with me!"

"I don't!!" I yelled, shaking her hand away.

"Jiang Cheng!!" She cried, "Jiang Cheng, let me tell you, if you leave with him, I will hang myself downstairs!"

I was stunned, I never knew she could make me so strange.Her hair was disheveled, her expression was agitated, and she was on the verge of collapse.She forced her to die, she said I was ashamed, that I was dirty...

I thought she was mistaken.I said: "Mom...I like him..."

Another slap came up, with a "slap", it slapped me back a step, my face was red and swollen.

Maybe she doesn't understand yet, so let me explain to her, she is my mother.I'm still holding on.

I smiled: "Mom, listen to me, I,"

"Slap!!" She slapped her backhand again, looking at me like an enemy.

My heart suddenly became cold.I get it, she hates this kind of feeling...

"You still don't admit your mistake..." She asked me hoarsely.

"deny."

Snapped! "Do you recognize it or not!"

"deny."

Snapped! ! "Do you recognize it or not!!"

I grinned and burst into tears: "Mom, stop beating me, it hurts me!"

I wasn't beaten and cried, no.But I am still a child.

……

Expelled from school and ordered to drop out of school.

When I was leaving, the female teacher who had a good relationship with him as I mentioned before came to me secretly.She slipped me a bar of chocolate and asked me, "Does it still hurt?"

I shook my head.

She tried her best to smile, stroked my hair, and said, "Listen to me, you are right, and he is right. It will be fine one day, I wish you happiness."

I nodded and said, "Thank you...sister."

Since then, I have a sense of fear and loathing for the school. From then on, I will only call him a teacher. I think it is a curse for others, or I have a prejudice against this industry.I have only one teacher and that is him.

I haven't bought the ticket to go home yet, so she took me to find a hotel to live in.Passing by the building where he lived, I glanced at the familiar window, but he was not there.

My dad didn't come with her because he was on a business trip, but I heard that he was asking for leave from the leader, so he rushed here as soon as possible.They had to beg the principal to give me another chance to continue my studies.They wanted me to "rehabilitate and start a new life".

I looked at the kitchen window and he wasn't there.

If he is there, I will run up desperately.

But he is not there.Li Jinze, you liar, I hate you.

It was hard to be with her, and she caught me several times when I wanted to call or sneak out.During dinner, she locked me in the room and brought me food from outside.

I tried to jump out the window, but it was on the fifth floor.

I took out a sheet, cut it into strips while she was away, and tied it up, ready to use it to run out the window at night.I even bit my finger and wrote on a piece of paper with blood: I am leaving, don't look for me, and don't pester him, otherwise what you will see is a corpse.I keep my word.I don't want to live without him. You will never understand this feeling.

I sucked on the wound on Yun's finger, no wonder people say that the ten fingers connect to the heart, it really hurts.

She came back after shopping, looked at my face, and suddenly asked me: "Does it hurt?"

I got angry and didn't talk to her.

She wanted to touch my wound, and I turned my head away to show my disgust.

Later I had a client who was engaged in sociology.After he heard me say this, he said: "The only way for children to change the world is to be angry. Their anger is not to express disgust, they want to express dissatisfaction in this way, and want the outside world to change their ways. That's all. That’s all.” And in order to thank me for inspiring him, he insisted on giving me some extra consumption.

Maybe so.

She said: "It's my mother's fault. In this way, if you tell your mother about the matter, she will never force you again, okay?"

I wanted to be with him so much, I thought she accepted it, and this was like a life-saving straw.I asked her, "Really?"

"real."

"Then you are not allowed to tell others."

"it is good"

I told her the whole thing, and she turned pale.

"Mom?" I called her.

"Ah..." She nodded: "Look, you'll be fine if you tell me everything."

I feel much better, Li Jinze, we can be together now.

I also ate the meals she bought, and sometimes talked to her.

At noon the next day, my dad came.

When he entered the room, he didn't say a word, his face was very cold.

I was eating the chocolate that my sister gave me by the bed, when he saw it, he came over and knocked it out with a palm.

"Eat? Do you still have the face to eat?"

I was taken aback, when my mother came back from buying food, she saw my father and did something that made me even more unbelievable.

She told my dad exactly what I said to her yesterday, but it completely changed from her mouth, and there was a lot of embellishment.

I turned a deaf ear to my dad's reprimand and just stared at her blankly.Standing beside my dad, she looked at me with complaints and reproaches, as if to say: "Look, it's all your fault, things have turned out like this, and you still don't admit your mistake?"

Angry, insulting, even punching and kicking.

I didn't say a word, but I made up my mind.

In the evening, when they were not paying attention, I took out all the books in the schoolbag and replaced them with the hotel's shower gel, shampoo, soap, toothbrush, toothpaste and other toiletries.

I stayed up late at night, dozed off and waited for the opportunity.

In the middle of the night, I heard them snoring. I gently took out a few hundred yuan bills from his wallet, pressed the written "blood book" under the ashtray, and tied one end of the rope to the indoor heater. Throw down the rope made of sheets.

As soon as the window was opened, there was a sound of wind. I had already thought of this, so I had already glued it to the window with double-sided tape.As soon as I came out, I took off the adhesive tape and closed the window.The windows are locked in the house and I can't close them, but the double-sided tape can stick the windows, which prevents them from being woken up by the wind for too long.When they wake up, I can't run away.

Looking down from the fifth floor, I was a little dizzy. It was also the first time I jumped out of the window. I didn't dare to let go of the rope, so I just hung there.

If you don't leave, it will be too late.I forced myself to be brave.

I rely entirely on my arms, my feet are suspended in the air, and my left and right hands are lowered alternately.

I dare not distract myself, because if I make a mistake, I will fall to my death.

After a long time, my feet finally hit the ground.My heart was pounding, and when I touched my chest, I suddenly felt a tingling pain in my palm, but it was so dark that I couldn't see clearly, and the street lights here turned off at 23:[-].

I knew where I was going was his home, and I was very excited as I ran all the way.

Li Jinze, don't try to get rid of me.

It would take half an hour to walk quickly from the hotel to where he lived, and I ran all the way without stopping.

In the middle of the night, the whole small city fell into a deep sleep. Occasionally, a few night trains passed by me, and a few drunk men wandered home.

There is only the sound of my running footsteps, and I tell myself that I am getting closer and closer to him.Li Jinze, my love.Let's run and never come back, we run away, we run away!

When I came downstairs to his house, my heart was beating non-stop, and I was about to vomit out of my mouth so fast.

I was going to take a break before going upstairs, but suddenly a person came down from the upstairs.

The voice control light came on, and I saw him walking down with the suitcase.