Red plums reflect youth

Chapter 111

"Where are you going?"

Liu Qiaoyang pushed open the door of the west wing, but found that Ziqing had tidied up his room and looked like he was about to go out, so he couldn't help frowning.

Ziqing drooped her long eyelashes and said softly, "My typhoid fever is almost healed, I should go back."

"Where are you going back?!" Qiao Yang raised his voice with anxiety in his tone: "This is your home, where do you want to go back?!"

"I..." Ziqing sat down on the edge of the bed, looked down at her feet, but said in a calm voice, "I've been self-willed enough these days... After all, you already have a wife, we...we don't Can……"

Qiao Yang strode over and sat down, stretched out his hand from Ziqing's back domineeringly and forcefully, and hugged him tightly, not allowing Ziqing to struggle: "My wife is you!"

"But..." Ziqing bit her lips tightly, tears welling up in her eyes.

"No but!" Qiao Yang said firmly and forcefully: "Do you still want to continue to make mistakes?! More than two years ago, you left without saying a word... I can't bear to blame you, blame you, but this It doesn't mean I'm not angry! Liu Ziqing, let me tell you, I'm very angry, and I can't let it go until now!"

"I..." Ziqing thought of the moonlit night when she left, and her heart ached.

When I left at the beginning, it was because I couldn't calmly face the fact that I fell in love with a man.Parents' opposition, the eyes of the world, the inability to extend to children, will be each other's burden and pain.I thought... Qiao Yang must be very unfortunate if he chooses to be with him.Only then is he willing to let him marry a woman, at least, at least let him be happy.

But the reality seems to be different from what you think.

The fact that I like men was finally exposed, but I survived in the end. Although I couldn't stay in Qingcheng Pavilion any longer, but there was a red-sleeve troupe willing to accept me, and... I was really happy to make music for Changsheng.

As for Qiao Yang, she rejected him again and again and pushed him towards the happiness he thought.But it made him more unfortunate and more painful.In fact, every time I refused, I was exhausted and made Qiao Yang extremely painful, and there was a million points of retribution on myself.

Now that Qiao Yang knew his feelings for him, everything seemed to be back to the original point.The only difference is that this crime has affected many innocent people.

"From the beginning to the end, my feelings for you have not changed. I have never been afraid or backed down. But what about you? You just encountered a little obstacle, and you can just leave. When you come back, you can still Lie to me time and time again! Is our relationship really so difficult for you to face?" Qiao Yang put his head on Ziqing's shoulder, and there was an indelible pain in his sharp and deep eyes.

"Qiao Yang, I'm sorry..." Muttering, two lines of tears rolled down her cheeks, Ziqing secretly clenched her fists, choked up and said, "I was so cowardly back then. I love you, but I don't know How should I love you. I love you, but I resist the fact that I fell in love with a man from the bottom of my heart. I can't even accept myself, so how can I protect this relationship wholeheartedly." Ziqing said, There was a slight hint of bitterness: "When I finally accepted myself, accepted this relationship, and knew that I should protect it, everything seemed irreversible. If it happened again... At that time, I would definitely not Walk."

"Then you are not allowed to leave now!" Qiao Yang tightened his grip on Ziqing, as if he wanted to squeeze Ziqing into Ziqing's body. He wanted to hurt Ziqing so that he could understand the pain in his heart: "I can't go back We won’t go back, we’ll start over.”

"But..." Ziqing was in pain from Qiao Yang's hug, but she didn't frown. This was the punishment he deserved, and he was willing to bear it.However, there was a trace of clarity in the tear-filled eyes: "This way, isn't it too cruel to Jingyun? She really loves you, and... you also accepted her..."

"Are you proud?" Liu Qiaoyang said bitterly, "In your most difficult moment, you never forgot to deceive me. Hmph, you even made you succeed! Should I praise you?" As he spoke, he pulled Ziqing away He bit his shoulder hard, and blood oozed from his fair skin in an instant: "Ziqing, I really hate you!"

"Ah..." Ziqing gasped in pain after being bitten.

"Alas~" Qiao Yang sighed, then gently kissed the blood oozing from Ziqing's shoulder, and said helplessly, "But, I love you more than hating you. You are the catastrophe of my life~ Even if you I really don’t love me anymore, and I don’t plan to continue with Jing Yun. It should have been like this long ago. I was soft-hearted at the beginning, and I couldn’t bear to be cruel to her with my own mouth, so I dragged it until now. Now I understand that it’s right to tell her the truth with my own mouth. She is cruel. But if you don't tell her, it is even more cruel! She is a woman worthy of happiness, I can't give her the happiness she wants, if I drag her down again, I will be punished by God. "

As he said that, Qiao Yang held Ziqing's head towards him, and said to him seriously: "Ziqing, we have already made mistakes, and we can't continue to make mistakes. Come with me and make up for our mistakes, okay?" good?"

Is this... really okay?Ziqing leaned her head on Qiao Yang's arms, tears streaming down, wet Qiao Yang's lapel.Mistakes...is there really time to make up for it?

"Don't cry," Qiao Yang wiped Ziqing's tears away, "If you cry any more, my heart will be broken. If you still have strength, help me change my wound medicine."

Hearing this, Ziqing left Qiao Yang's arms quickly. Her tears wet Qiao Yang's skirt, and must have wet the gauze wrapped around his body, soaking into the wound.

"Yeah." Ziqing held back her tears and nodded, "I'll bring you a change of medicine."

His cold was cured, but Qiao Yang's injuries hadn't healed yet.Ziqing untied the gauze wrapped around Qiao Yang's wound, her hands trembled involuntarily, and even her eyelashes trembled.

Qiao Yang's injuries were all for himself.

Those two stab wounds at the beginning, the arrow wounds he suffered in the Luofu hall later, and the countless holes pierced by the sharp thorns on the ground when he fell to the ground...

One by one, one by one, one by one... It made his originally smooth and strong body hideous and frightening.

How can I reject him again?How to reject him?

He was even willing to die for himself!

My fate has long been bound up with him, entangled, even if I leave now, what about next time?What about the next time you're in danger?He will definitely come forward.

And what about yourself?

In fact, from the beginning to the end, I loved him, so why not die for him.When I left at that time, in order not to be so painful, I repeatedly lied to myself that I didn't love, I didn't love, I didn't want to.But this kind of deliberate forgetting against the original intention is just a kind of numbness. If you don't love, your heart will hurt.As long as there is a slight disturbance, the turbulent emotions will clamor to burst out.This is actually more painful.

what about love

There has never been any reason at all, it doesn't care if you are a man or a woman, it doesn't care if it will cause fatal damage, it doesn't care about your family status, your status, your morals, ethics, and the three cardinal principles and five constant principles...

It is in full swing, hot and vigorous, vigorous, growing in people's hearts, rushing, clamoring, has no purpose, does not seek results, and only wants to fulfill love itself.

He (she) loves him (her), he (she) does not love him (her), there is no way to force it, in the world of love, there is never should or should not, and there is no right or wrong, just ask you, do you want to or not? willing.

Trembling, Ziqing applied the wound medicine to Qiao Yang, feeling restless.

Jingyun, I'm sorry... Actually, I'm not that magnanimous. I have never been able to calmly face the combination of you and Qiao Yang.I'm very selfish, really selfish, I've always wanted to be with Qiao Yang, but I'm too cowardly to say it out, to fight for it...

sorry……