Rebirth of the Boy Jinshi

Chapter 137 Dream Chapter Youth

"Shen Gu, let's go, what are you doing?"

Shi Leqin wiped the sweat from his forehead, squinted his eyes and looked at the boy not far away, "If you don't hurry up to the basketball court, you will be taken over by that group of people again!"

In the shadow of the lawn, there is a small orange cat the size of a palm, meowing in a milky voice.There is another small nest made of cardboard boxes under a shrub tree. I don’t know how long it has been there. This little orange should also be abandoned.Shen Gu patted Xiaoju's head, causing it to make a small whining sound from its throat.

Xiaoju is not afraid of people, she loves Shen Gu's caress, and rubs against human palms with her eyes closed.

"Shen Gu! Hurry up!"

Shen Gu withdrew his hand reluctantly, picked up the basketball and got up to leave, "Wait a while, I'll come to see you after I finish playing."

He whispered a few times, and quickly ran towards Shi Leqin, "Calling the soul! Here I come!"

The summer sun has no tenderness at all. It embraces the earth with the greatest enthusiasm, releases its own strong light and heat, and scorches everything.The sun is dazzling and the cicadas are singing, which is a standard feature in summer.The green and green vegetation is all wilted, not to mention people who are afraid of heat.But there are always those fourteen or fifteen-year-old teenagers enjoying the warm sunshine and giving the most positive response to the sun.

There is no shortage of people on the basketball court. There will always be a group of enthusiastic basketball fans who come here to release their sweat under the sun, even if they are burned into coals.

After finally taking two days off, Shi Leqin invited Shen Gu to play basketball.In such hot weather, the basketball court was already occupied when they went, and there was no extra basketball stand.But this is not a problem for boys, everyone is familiar with each other, and after a few words, they join in, and the beating is hearty, sweat dripping down.

I dare not sit on the ground when I am tired. The scalding temperature is not a joke, after all, no one wants to roast their ass.Panting on my knees, I rested enough before going on.

When the sun was about to set, a group of people went back in twos and threes.Shen Gu's clothes were drenched with sweat, but he felt very comfortable.During this period of time, the sulking in my heart dissipated with the exercise.

Shi Leqin murmured and complained beside him, "Gu Shen, what's the matter with you these days? You don't look for me anymore, you hang out with Fei Jing and the others every day. It's not like you don't know who Fei Jing is, you don't Is it bad to learn from him? Don't do this, see how good your grades are, if you keep at it, you can go to the first middle school, and see how you have degenerated recently. Old Shen, what's the matter with you?"

Shen Gu lowered his head and said nothing, the setting sun stretched his figure very long, he stepped on his own shadow step by step, silent.

After a while, he raised his head, and when he was about to say something, he froze.

There was a teenager squatting in front of him, sitting on the grass with Xiaoju in his arms.He still has a bag of milk in his hand, feeding the kittens bit by bit.The boy was not very good-looking, but he looked very comfortable, with baby fat cheeks that were rosy, and a pair of glasses on the bridge of his nose.The warm yellow light of the setting sun hit his side face, and the fine fluff on the other's cheek could be vaguely seen.

Seeing that he didn't leave, Shi Leqin asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Shen Gu stared blankly at the boy, grabbed Shi Leqin's arm, "Who is he? Do you recognize him?"

"Who?" Shi Leqin looked in his direction, shook his head, "I don't know, I haven't seen it before."

Then he said: "The school uniform on his body seems to be from Renzhi Middle School, which is not far from our school."

"Oh." Shen Gu let go of his hand and responded.

Shi Leqin looked at him strangely, and then at the young man not far away, "You've been acting weird recently, isn't it just a guy, what's so good about him? Do you recognize him?"

Shen Gu answered irrelevantly, and handed him the basketball, "You go first, I have something to wait for a while."

Shi Leqin frowned and said, "What's wrong?"

Shen Gu stared at the young man and kicked Shi Leqin, "Go away, leave me alone, go fast."

Shi Leqin was staggered by his kick, and left first cursing, "You must be sick, it's getting weirder."

But it was impossible to tell him to go. He walked forward for a certain distance, then retracted into the bushes, and poked his head out to look.

Shen Gu swallowed his saliva, suddenly a little afraid to step forward.He took a deep breath and walked towards the boy step by step.And every step made his heart beat faster, and the closer he was to his breathing, the more disordered his breathing became. When he was closest to the boy, his heart almost jumped out of his throat, and his back and forehead sweated a lot.He suddenly understood the meaning of the phrase "closer to the country is more timid".

"You, hello."

Hearing the voice, the boy raised his head in a daze, and pushed the glasses that had slid to the bridge of his nose.A pair of big eyes, black and white.He smiled shyly, "Hello."

so cute!

Shen Gu felt that he was about to lose his ability to speak, and his face was flushed red.But one summer had made him tan like black coals, and the redness on his face was hardly noticeable at all.

The little Naimiao was full and smashed his mouth down from the boy's legs, and staggered towards Shen Gu, it seemed to recognize him.

The boy looked at him for a while, then took out a pack of tissues from his pocket and gave it to him, "Are you hot?"

Shen Gu froze, "What?"

The boy smiled slightly, "Your forehead is full of sweat, wipe it off."

Shen Gu didn't dare to pick up his tissue, and lifted the hem of his clothes to wipe his forehead. As soon as he made a move, he felt that it was indecent, and suddenly he felt ashamed to face others, so he ran away sullenly. "sorry!"

Shi Leqin looked confused, so he must be crazy, why run?

Shen suffered from insomnia that night.He was lying on the bed, with his eyes closed, the boy's smile, the boy's voice, the boy's voice and smile seemed to be engraved in his mind, and he would never forget it.Really unable to fall asleep, he got up quickly, took out his sketchbook, and drew until dawn.The boy holding the little orange cat will always remain in his sketchbook.

He originally wanted to squat to guard the boy again, but when he went there the next day, Xiaoju disappeared, and the boy didn't come back either.He was disappointed, sad, and lost, and regretted why he didn't ask the boy's name yesterday. He didn't even know the boy's name, and he didn't have any contact information.In the days that followed, he went to Renzhi Middle School for several days, but he couldn't see the boy.

When meeting the boy once, Shen Gu couldn't help feeling the thing of fate.It is said that there is a destiny to meet thousands of miles away, but it is difficult to hold hands if there is no destiny. He feels that he and the boy are destined.

Shen Gu likes painting. While learning to paint, he also goes to the square to sell his paintings.This is also for fun, one is to improve his painting skills, and the other is to see how others evaluate his painting skills.He will draw portraits of people, and also draw some anime surroundings, or draw some cute little animals.

He remembered that it was a cool night, the young lovers went out for a walk holding hands, and the old man chatted with the children.He listens to MP3s and songs, and in front of him are his paintings. He greets people who come to buy them, and sits and reads his comic books when no one else comes.

"How do you sell this painting?"

When someone asked the price, he replied without looking up.

"Oh." The man was silent for a while, and then said, "Get two for me."

Only then did Shen Gu raise his head, his eyes widened when he saw the person coming, and he stood up abruptly, "You're here!"

The boy was a little confused, "Yeah, I'm here."

After Shen Gu finished speaking, he wanted to slap himself.He tore off the earphones, stuffed them together with the MP3 into his pocket, grinned and said, "I'll give you all of those you fancy."

"No, no need." The boy took a step back, pointed to the two paintings and said, "I only want those two."

One is a picture of a little orange cat with different shapes, and the other is a popular anime character.Shen Gu took out the two paintings, thought for a while and asked, "I'm giving you this painting. Can you, can you tell me your name?"

"Ah?" The boy was even more confused, blinked his eyes, and whispered: "Xu Muyang, my name is Xu Muyang."

Shen Gu grinned even more happily, "Thank you! Here it is!"

Xu Muyang took the painting hesitantly, "No, it should be me thanking you."

He put away the painting, and still gave the money, "This is money for you to buy the painting."

"No need." Shen Gu smiled foolishly, "I'll see you off!"

"You should continue." Xu Muyang smiled softly, "Your paintings are beautiful, and they are the fruits of your labor. If you sell your labor fruits for money, I can't take them for nothing."

Shen Gu was stunned for a moment, he was obviously in a rage and had to restrain himself forcibly to calm himself down.Since Xu Muyang said so, he had no choice but to accept the money. "Then I'll take it, thank you."

"You're welcome." Xu Muyang was not polite, he always felt that this young man who was as black as coal was a bit strange, "Then I'll go first, bye."

"Bye-Bye!"

That night, Shen Gu couldn't fall asleep again.The smile on his face never stopped, he rolled over and over while hugging the pillow, his heart and eyes were full of that boy named Xu Muyang.

That year, Shen Gu was 15 years old, and he fell in love with a gentle boy at the beginning of his love. It was in that year that he knew what lovesickness was like.In that year, he never saw Xu Muyang again.

"Shen Gu, help me fight after school, what a fool, that idiot old man has long disliked him, this time he must be killed!"

Shen Gu packed his schoolbag with a cold face, "I have something to do after school, so I won't be with you, next time."

"Shen Gu, what the hell is going on with you!" Fei Jing spat on the ground, "Are you a brother who told you to do something and push back?"

A look of disgust flashed in Shen Gu's eyes, he pushed him away and walked out, "I said I have something to do!"

"Nima coin, stop!" Fei Jing kicked down his stool and cursed, "Are you going?!"

Shen Gu turned to look at him with a cold and stern expression, which surprised Fei Jing.

"I said I'm not going!"

He left after speaking.Fei Jing stood in place for a long time, then kicked the tables and chairs around him several times to vent his anger.

Shen Gu did have something to do, he didn't want to be with Fei Jing.With this kind of person, it's not interesting to fight every day, or to smoke and brag on the Internet.He couldn't stop looking for that young man who had the same sexual orientation as him.

He Zhi was cutting watermelon on the second floor, and when he heard the voice, he just raised his eyelids and glanced at him, "Here you come, you are blessed with iced watermelon just taken out of the refrigerator."

Shen Gu responded and sat down on the sofa.

Not only did he feel that he was a little too quiet today, he felt like he was going to have a long talk today.He divided the watermelon in half, took two spoons and carried it out.The other half was stuffed into Shen Gu's arms. "Eat it, it's very sweet."

Shen Gu shivered from the cold watermelon, and was a little speechless. Was he too late to eat half of such a big watermelon?But the other party had already started, so he didn't say anything else, and took a big mouthful with a spoon.

Not only did he take several mouthfuls in a row, he let out a long and comfortable sigh, "Tell me, what's the matter?"

Shen Gu slowed down his digging of watermelons, and slowed down his chewing. After a long silence, his face suddenly turned red.

It's more than just someone who has been there, what kind of person has never seen it.Looking at his black and red face, he laughed out loud, "Hey, you're thinking about spring? But you're thinking about spring too late, it's already summer."

Shen Gu glared at him angrily, "Get out."

Not only did he take a big mouthful of watermelon, he slurred his speech and said, "Tell me, which handsome young man do you fancy?"

Shen Gu was so angry that he stuck a spoon on the watermelon, "Shut up!"

He Zhi smiled and made an OK gesture, "I won't say anything, you say it."

Shen Gu was silent for a long time before opening his mouth, "I really want to like someone. His name is Xu Muyang, he is from Renzhi Middle School..."

He talked about the encounter between the two, the little orange cat that made them meet, and his lovesickness.The pain of lovesickness lingering in his heart these days made him restless. Really, liking someone is a sweet and painful thing.

More than just listening to it, he put down half of the watermelon he ate, "It's not easy, you go after it, if you like it, go after it, if you miss it, you will regret it."

Shen Gu poked the flesh of the melon and said in a low voice, "I dare not."

Not only leaning on the sofa to watch him, I can understand his mood very well.If he said he liked a girl, Shen Gu would not be so cowardly.But Shen Gu likes boys, which is different among the crowd, even if homosexuality is the same as heterosexuality, knowing this truth is different from what happens to him.Especially in this small town, many people don't even listen to homosexuality.

It is a big step for Shen Gu to recognize his own sexual orientation. Now that he likes a boy and let him chase him, it takes a lot of courage.And the most important point is, he likes that boy, does that boy like him?If the other party is straight, it is an offense, and if the other party hates homosexuality, it is another injury to Shen Gu.

Thinking about it carefully, more than just feeling that what I said just now was a bit reckless, and I didn't think thoroughly.He said with deliberation: "If you dare not, let yourself be brave."

Shen Gu looked up at him, "What should I do?"

He Zhi laughed, "You need to make yourself good enough. In this world, there are two kinds of people that people can remember, one is very good and successful, and the other is heinous and disgusting. People. The former will make everyone admire and want to know, while the latter will make people avoid. It depends on what kind of person you want to be."

"As long as you are good enough for everyone to see and know you, then you can get in touch with that boy more easily, and he will be more willing to be friends with you. After all, everyone wants to get along with good people At that time, you can observe the boy's attitude. If you can, you can try to chase him, and the chance of success will be higher. If he doesn't like you, rely on your excellence. You can go outside world, meet better people, and find the right half for you.”

"Excellence is the only way to make you brave, strong, and out of trouble. So, now, you have to ask yourself if you are good enough."

It is ashamed to say these old stories.In the past, he could barely say that he was good enough, but now he has fallen.He learns badly from others, gets into group fights, skips class and skips school, smokes and surfs the Internet, his grades plummet, and the teachers can't help him.If it is any worse, it will really become a punk.

He clenched the spoon in his hand, and plunged into the flesh of the watermelon, "I understand."

"But having said that." He Zhi teased and said, "Look at you, you are usually a villain, you can say anything, you are also very courageous, how come you talk about love like a little girl."

Shen Gu was just aroused by his words just now, so he kicked him angrily, "Shut up, shut up!"

Afterwards, Shen Gu broke away from Fei Jing's small group, gradually got on the right track, and entered the best high school in their town.He always remembers what he said, as long as he is good enough, he can be seen by others.Fortunately, he met Xu Muyang again in No. [-] Middle School. Unfortunately, they were not in the same class, and he was still not so brave to know him.

On Christmas Eve, he mustered up the courage to write a love letter to Xu Muyang, but he was afraid of leaking, so he didn't write his name.He expects the other party to see his name, but he doesn't want the other party to see it, and he is afraid that the other party will feel disgusted, but there is still a glimmer of hope in his heart, maybe he can accept him.

It's a pity that he was disappointed, Xu Muyang didn't see the letter, but gave it to someone else.This was a blow to Shen Gu, the courage he had worked up with great difficulty disappeared.Since then, this shady feeling has been deeply buried in his heart, and he only dares to look up to that person from a distance, but dare not approach him.Until he died with a secret love that he didn't have time to tell.

When Shen Gu woke up, tears were streaming down his face.He suddenly felt that he had a dream, but in the dream he died, and an uncontrollable sadness hit him, making him shed tears unconsciously.Is it a dream?Why so real?He turned his head and saw the familiar face of the person next to his pillow, and the sadness in his heart was dispelled by the tranquility.

He let out a long breath, hugged Xu Muyang into his arms, and kissed Xu Muyang's hair.The temperature of the person in his arms told him that everything just now was just a dream.

Although there were many twists and turns in his life, Xu Muyang was by his side. They went through high school and college together, and now they live together, living like an ordinary couple.This is the most real life that belongs to him.

He is fine now, with a family and a lover. Those pains and sorrows are just a big dream, and it will be fine when he wakes up.