pretend

Chapter 78

When the first day passed, the young master, who was about to vomit blood depressedly, could comfort himself by saying that it’s not a big deal to just bear with it and start over from the beginning...but after the third day, the fourth day, the fifth day, he Don't think so.

Because Yan Liang really didn't defend against Ning Xi at all, he was like a gentle and kind brother, facing his naughty younger brother, occasionally pinching his face and hugging his shoulders was a trivial matter.Once Qin Yuan was sitting by the bed, rushing to peel apples on a whim, but his technique was so poor that Yan Liang watched him peel the palm-sized apples so badly that most of the flesh fell into the apple with the skin. The rest of the trash can, with the core attached, was carefully cut off by Qin Yuan and put on the plate.

"Brother Yan, here it is."

Qin Yuan didn't have time to wipe off the juice on his hands, so he handed over the plate as if offering a treasure, and looked at the other party intently, eyes full of expectation.

Yan Liang's eyes flickered for a moment, as if touched, and after a while, he reached out and used a toothpick to fork a piece.

Qin Yuan was inexplicably nervous: "Is it delicious?"

"...Delicious." Yan Liang chewed the pulp slowly, feeling the sweetness bursting out of his mouth, and smiled meaningfully: "We, Xiao Xi, will take care of others when we grow up."

This sentence was meant to be a compliment, but when I looked at the plate and the leftover apples, I always felt it was ironic.

But of course the young master would not admit it, he felt good about himself, and when he was praised again, his tail was almost raised to the sky, and he said happily: "Then I will cut a few more for you!"

"...Do you want to feed me with apples?" Yan Liang smiled helplessly, picked up a piece and stuffed it into the other party's mouth: "Okay, you have worked hard for so long, you should try it too."

The tip of Qin Yuan's tongue caught off guard and swept across the sweetened fingers of the other party, but the soft touch seemed to be electrified, and it was poured into the heart densely, and even the blood began to boil.

He froze in place, he even forgot to chew the pulp in his mouth, only the pounding heartbeat rang in his ears.

"Xiaoxi?"

The slender five fingers spread out in front of his eyes, Qin Yuan suddenly came back to his senses, jumped up as if his tail was stepped on, and scattered the fruit plate on his lap all over the floor.

Yan Liang was startled by the other party's aggressive reaction, "What's wrong with you?"

"I..." The young master hung his head hesitantly, the flesh in his mouth was bitten open by his teeth, and the sweet and sour juice filled his mouth.He bent slightly, using the hem of his T-shirt to block his slightly reactive lower body, and was about to burrow into the ground in shame.

He doesn't know what's wrong with him, he has clearly made up his mind to start with the good brother in the other party's heart little by little, but after going through those things... no matter how much Qin Yuan wants to endure, but The body will always give the most honest answer.

He likes Yan Liang, the kind of liking between lovers, not the admiration for his elder brother.

If they hadn't had this dramatic reunion, or if he hadn't lost his childhood memories, then this relationship might have stopped within the scope of "friendship".But so many lingering nights, so many real or fake kisses, so many perfunctory or serious love words... It is impossible for those real and real things that happened because of one person's amnesia No longer exists, at least for Qin Yuan.

But now, he can only endure.

Because he didn't want those gray eyes to be clouded with so much effort, and he didn't want to see disappointment on Yan Liang's face, because "Qin Yuan" has already been denied, if "Ning Xi" is denied again... then What else is left for him in the other party's heart?

So even if he felt so uncomfortable that he was about to explode, he... had no choice.

"I'm... a little uncomfortable." Qin Yuan hung his head listlessly, not daring to look at Yan Liang's caring expression, for fear that his little bit of disgusting desire would reveal its clues and cause embarrassment to both of them. "But, maybe I'm too busy with work."

This is true.

Although he spends most of his time in the hospital with Yan Liang, as the head of the Qin family, he still has an unavoidable responsibility, so he has to secretly use his laptop to work while the other party is sleeping, even conference calls. Will run to the balcony for fear of disturbing the resting patients.

But this will not reduce the workload. After nearly half a month, Qin Yuan is obviously haggard, but in order to maintain his image, he still shaves regularly and does styling... This is his first time in Yanliang. Shouting tired in front of him.

Rather than showing weakness, it was more like a subconscious act of coquettishness. Hearing the latter's heart softened, he smiled and said, "I forgot, our Xiaoxi has grown up and is capable..."

As he spoke, his eyes gradually became melancholy, and even his voice became much softer: "I always feel that I missed a lot of things."

As an elder brother, he failed to see the other party grow up with his own eyes. This was a major breach of responsibility. Now that they meet again, it happens that they are in such a state of being on the same level.Yan Liang's eyes were a little dazed, he looked at Ning Xi who had matured too much, and asked in a low voice: "Will you blame me?"

"Brother Yan..."

Qin Yuan's throat tightened a little.

He wanted to say how could I blame you, I like you so much... I can even suppress this liking for you.But he couldn't say anything, Ning Xi's straight-talking frankness has long been worn out by time, and now he forces himself to be naive and sunny, and the torment in his heart is only He understands... But even so, he doesn't want Yan Liang to know.

"We...we still have a chance." At the end of the sentence, Qin Yuan finally choked out such an endless sentence, "As for the past, I can tell you everything."

"Shall I tell you?" He asked carefully and repeatedly, "As long as you want to know."

Yan Liang raised his head, his eyes became deep for a moment, and soon, he bent his eyes, revealing a gentle and easy-going smile.

He said, "Okay."

……

So Qin Yuan spent several days telling how he was taken away by the Qin family and how he experienced those messy things.This is the deepest and heaviest scar buried in his heart - but if Yan Liang wants to know, he is willing to uncover it with his own hands.

"...Actually, I didn't intend to compromise at the beginning." When Qin Yuan said this, he found an apple out of nowhere.He seemed to be on the hook with this matter. He brought a fruit basket when he came today, and he was carefully turning the blade at the moment.

The apple peel fell into the trash bin intermittently, but it was much better than before, at least the flesh attached to the peel became thinner.

The eldest young master concentrated on the work in hand, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "You know, when you are young, there are always some... well, whimsical, always feel that you can get through it, or wait for someone to come. save."

"But it's a pity that I didn't hold on." He skipped those scenes that he couldn't bear to recall, and picked up the key points: "Later, later I compromised, and I said I could cooperate with you. But what I thought at that time Yes: Fuck it, I’m called hypocrisy, it’s a wise person’s choice..."

——And the result of naivety is naturally tragic.

Qin Yuan's hand shook, and the apple peel broke again, this time longer than before, and it even made a little sound when it fell into the trash can.

"Later I went to school," he changed the beginning again, "The school is... anyway, better than before, and there are rich people on the left and right. At that time, I... got sick, and my head may not be sober. It was taken awry."

"But later——later when I became sober, I slowly changed back...so you don't have to worry about me." Qin Yuan straightened his back, but still didn't hide his guilt, because he knew that as long as he went through these things, he would no longer be the same person. That Ning Xi...but he still didn't give up and wanted to cover it up.

So it was a bit difficult, Qin Yuan showed a smile that he had practiced many times in private, as if as long as he smiled like this, everything could go back to the past.

Yan Liang looked at him silently, with sadness, melancholy, and heartache in his eyes.

He raised his palm and wobbled it on the opponent's head. Qin Yuan lowered his head specially and rubbed against the opponent's palm with his hair.

The moment he heard Yan Liang say: "I believe in you," he felt an urge to cry, as if after so many years of unwillingness and grievances, at this moment someone could finally confide.

... But Qin Yuan didn't cry after all, his eyes were slightly red, and his voice was choked with sobs: "In two days, you will be discharged from the hospital."

"I'm in... I bought a house in a good location, we live together, okay? Yan Mo, Yan Mo will also have a good place to go, she can choose to stay with us, have a separate room and an independent The studio, or I bought an apartment near her school, the environment is very good, and there will be regular visits for medical checkups..."

He rambled on, revealing the things that had been secretly arranged during this period, only hoping that his sincerity could impress the other party.

"And your career, I have also arranged it. If you want to continue to act in movies, then there will be two big projects in the future...Of course, you still have to wait until you recover and can act. I said this I don't mean to control you, I'm just a little worried..." Qin Yuan took a deep breath when he said this, "In short, I will learn to respect all your decisions."—even if you reject me at this moment.

He didn't dare to say the last sentence, after all, he was really afraid of being rejected.

Qin Yuan felt the palm on top of his head move away.

He raised his head in a panic, almost forgetting that he was still holding a fruit knife in his hand, and the apple that had lost half of its peel had already begun to oxidize and turn yellow... like an outdated promise.

If he had had memories from the very beginning, they wouldn't be where they are today.

But now it seems that these deliberate ingratiations are too ambiguous, and have even crossed the boundary called "friendship", so Yan Liang looks a little surprised and a little relieved.

He said: "Xiao Xi grows up, she will think of her brother..."

"I'm happy, but I feel like I can't depend on you for everything," he said.

"Those forgotten things, I will try to pick them up, my career, my life... the same should be true."

"So, thank you very much for your kindness."

"But I still want to... try it myself."

The author says:

A soft knife is harder than a hard knife [x