pig like age

Chapter 13

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But I don't have strange feelings for my friends of the same sex.And compared to boys, girls are too easy to care about every detail, and they are small-bellied.Often because of some insignificant things, they will be unhappy and form cliques.It just doesn't make sense to me.

But boys' minds are very rough, and they are not as delicate as girls in this respect.I think I combine the thoughtfulness and slenderness of a girl with the tolerance and generosity of a boy.So same-sex and opposite-sex relationships are not bad.

Saying I'm gay, I'm repulsive.Because at that time homosexuality was not as popular and acceptable as it is now.Besides, I have never been in love, to be precise, I have never been in love with a woman.Why do you suspect that I'm gay?Just because I have short hair and unisex clothes?Do you usually play well with boys?

I wear short hair for the convenience of playing golf, and I also wear neutral dress because I often exercise, and it is inconvenient to wear skirts, not because I don’t like it.Because I am tall and thin, according to my mother, "it is normal to look white and clean", if I can grow long hair, I will definitely be more imposing than those short people.

At night, I tossed and turned, deeply reflecting on myself, did it give people too obvious a lesbian atmosphere?

At night, I heard Ji Shuyu getting up to fetch water, and I couldn't hide what was on my mind, so I pulled her into my room under the quilt.

"Do you think I'm a lesbian?" You don't have to beat around the bush when talking to her, just get straight to the point.

Her eyes sparkled, especially bright in the night.

"Why did you ask so?"

"Let me ask you, have you ever thought about it?"

She thought for a while: "Li Yuchun is so popular now, you should be very popular with girls."

I didn't understand what she meant.She added: "So when people like you, maybe they don't like the real you, but they think you are cool and close to the current trend."

These words can be described as enlightenment!That's right, they alluded to me as an idol.What do other people think of me? Why do I care so much?They don't like me, they don't understand me, they only care about my "appearance".

After figuring this out, my heart was also opened.Sleepiness ensues.

"Ji Shuyu, do you want to sleep with me?"

"No." She turned around, and her slender neck and collarbone formed a soft curve. I couldn't help being stunned by the beauty of facing the blow.There is an inexplicable swelling in the heart.

The impact of Ji Shuyu's unintentional action that night still leaves a deep impression on me.Maybe it was from that night that a certain part of my body was opened, just like everyone's adolescence, it was burned hotly, turned into ashes and then fertilized myself.That, I think, is where my youthful flames began to burn.It is also the source of my imagination and interest in women's beauty.Of course, if you say that I am interested in Ji Shuyu, you are completely wrong.Her beauty is the beauty of being a woman, not her individuality.

From that night on, I began to pay attention to the way the girls looked at me.I found that they all liked to look at me.I couldn't help but feel smug and confident.On the other hand, I felt that they didn't understand me and just regarded me as Li Yuchun's substitute.

This contradiction made me paranoid and rebellious.

I know more and more how to give full play to my advantages, and be considerate and kind to every girl who likes to be close to me, so that they feel that I am completely different from those boys, and I am not exactly a best friend or a companion.I think the charm I exude can easily capture the hearts of most girls.

But it seems that from that time on, I was really full of joy for the girls around me.become different from boys.They are clearly defined, men and women.

Of course, these changes are subtle.Yao Ye and Ji Shuyu, the two people who brought me a huge psychological change, are very busy and have no time to talk to me, nor have time to discover my changes.

Until, there is one day before the show.

During the final rehearsal, one program was a solo street dance.A boy suddenly threw himself off the stage while jumping and jumping.The table was three meters high, and he was sent to the infirmary on the spot. Fortunately, he only dislocated his ankle.

By saying so much, I want to express that I never thought I would really be a firefighter.

When Yao Ye came to me, she said this: "Fortunately, I was prepared. By the way, do you know the electric guitar? I found someone to do it, and it solved your problem of amplifier."

I almost wondered if she kicked that person down, why did it look like it was premeditated?

My mind is so focused on self-discovery these days that I never even touch the guitar.Thinking of Yao Ye's dream again, I felt very uneasy.

I told Yao Ye that I knew how to play classical guitar, but not all of them.I do play electric guitar too.I have both performance experience and group performance experience.

Speaking of this, we have to go back to high school.

One day when I was a freshman in high school, I accidentally watched an inspirational movie, and I learned how to play the guitar.I remember that I bought my first guitar when I accompanied Ji Shuyu to Dong'an shopping mall.I bought it and quickly signed up for a class.I am usually very serious about whims, and I have been learning for three months, from you at the same table to Blue Lotus, from simple melodies to fancy chords.

Later I found out that there was an alumnus of mine in the guitar training class, he was a handsome guy with a Japanese style, he looked a lot like Bae Yong Joon.He changed to learn bass halfway through.Later, we formed an orchestra with a little fat guy who used to be in the primary school drum band, and a little beauty who won the third prize in the Red May singing competition.

When we had nothing to do, we practiced in the small warehouse where the sports equipment was kept, listening to Black Panther and Cui Jian, imitating and howling!By the way, the little beauty was still very fond of Luo Qi at that time.The song "Back" traveled through the torrent of history and returned to my field of vision today, more than ten years later, on a popular variety show.But the mark it left on me is indelible.It is wanton publicity, and it is immortal.