Pain fetish

Chapter 16 "Why Did You Come..."

"Do you think that I will soften my heart?" Fu Ge directly pressed the utility knife to his neck.

"Don't be soft-hearted..." Qi Han looked at him with a wry smile, "I'm sorry, from the age of 17 to 23, my brother's best years have been delayed by me, without me, can life be better?"

He didn't know the answer, so he could only raise his hand tremblingly, and finally scratched the tip of his lover's nose.

"Let's do it. Leave everything to Chen Xing. No one will suspect you. From now on, my little song will live well and be safe."

Live well……

These four words were cut in Fu Ge's heart like a knife.

How can he live well?

For him, life is a puppet show made up of countless nightmares, and he doesn't even dare to close his eyes.

The blurred vision gradually melted into several halos, and the head that had been torn apart by hallucinations too many times became confused again.

"I'm sorry... so my seven years are only worth a word of apology in your heart, isn't it? A word of your apology and a miserable childhood can expose everything you did by yourself."

He sneered, the hand holding the utility knife trembled convulsively, and the water in his eye sockets rolled down unconsciously, "Qi Han, in your eyes, I am just so despicable."

"No, brother..." Qi Han couldn't help shaking his head, trying to prop himself up to sit up but fell down, so he could only support the bed in embarrassment.

"Isn't it? But they all say that..."

Fu Ge's vision was blurred by tears, his cloudy eyes were in a daze, and once again fell into a prison of pain.

"Everyone I met these days, your friends, your housekeeper, and even the bodyguard who shared a piece of fruit with me, they all said... they all said that Xiaohan had a hard life before, it's very pitiful, you guys Let go of those things in between, after so many years, it's already not worth mentioning."

Fu Ge laughed and repeated these words in a murmur, "It's not worth mentioning... everything I have suffered is not worth mentioning, only your suffering is real, you were imprisoned and arrested Doing experiments and being injected, you are so miserable and pitiful, but..."

He paused, and squeezed out a choked sob in his throat, and exhausted all his strength to complete the sentence: "I didn't do those things..."

"I didn't do it, it wasn't me, it wasn't me..." He pulled Qi Han by the corner of his clothes, aggrieved and desperate to prove to him, "You know it wasn't me, right? You know, you can testify for me. "

"I know, I know." Qi Han knelt on the bed and hugged him into his arms, feeling so distressed that the pain on his body was ignored, "It's not Xiaoge's fault, it's none of Xiaoge's business, it has nothing to do with my brother, I don't care knew."

The person in his arms trembled, raised his eyes full of fear and confusion, and asked in a hoarse voice, "Is it all right?"

"Then why are you still doing this to me..."

He still can't figure out the cause of that nightmare. Unwillingness and grievances are constantly fermenting in his heart, just like a poor child who is being bullied, but he has to wait for an adult to coax him before he dares to ask in a low voice: Why did they beat me? , I haven't done anything bad...

And Fu Ge waited for five years before finally waiting for the adult who came to coax him.

"Why should I bear the consequences of others...Why should I be arrested and tortured...Why should I let go of everything..."

He raised his fingertips tremblingly and pointed at himself, helplessly and sarcastically said: "Because I have no one to protect me, I don't even have the right to choose whether to forgive me, right?"

Fu Ge thinks this is the case.

He has no mother, no father, no family, no mark, and no alpha, because he has nothing, so no one turns to him, no one loves him.

It seemed that his crying was unreasonable, his tears were moaning for no reason, and even the unreasonable disaster he suffered again five years later was because he did not know what to do or to get close to Qi Han again.

"But I didn't come back on purpose, I lost my memory..."

Little Beta trembled, fear and helplessness permeated into his hair, he withdrew from Qi Han's arms, and said timidly: "Can I apologize to you, don't you come to ask for my forgiveness, I will come and talk to you instead." You apologize."

"Sorry, it's all my fault..." the desperate victim and executioner begged, "Please let me go..."

That night, the utility knife failed to cut the oxygen tube, because Fu Ge suddenly fainted, and the freshly stitched wound on Qi Han's body also burst open again.

Chen Xing rushed in with doctors and bodyguards, and the two groups of rescuers tossed about in the ward.

In less than a week, Fu Ge was pushed into the operating room for the second time.

The doctor gave him a comprehensive physical examination, and finally determined that the cause of the fainting was the sequela left by the operation to clean the mark.

If it is not cleaned, the residual marks will adhere to the inner cavity for a long time, which will cause his memory to be damaged and his mind to be disturbed.

And one of the sequelae is that he will go into shallow estrus after being stimulated.

"Can you change the treatment method and lock him in?"

Qi Han watched helplessly as little beta was pushed into the small and cramped isolation room, huddled on the bed restlessly and helplessly, daring not to move, like a bunny whose ears were being held.

"It's the only way to be in heat."

The doctor said: "The pheromones of AO outside will make him feel more uncomfortable. Besides, I had to hide at home when I was in heat with him a few years ago, but now it is much better."

Qi Han was punched in the heart and stopped talking.

He watched Fu Ge get out of bed through the one-way glass, carried everything including towels, paper towels, and energy bars onto the bed, then threw himself on the bed, wrapped himself up with a thick quilt, and took it again Put those things under your nose and smell them the same way.

His eyes were bright before he smelled it, as if he was expecting something, but after the tip of his little nose moved slowly a couple of times, the bright light would suddenly disappear, he pursed his mouth, and gently kicked those things off the bed in a childish manner.

Qi Han was puzzled, "What... is he doing?"

"Nesting and estrous BOs are used to surrounding themselves with things that smell like their mates. They subconsciously imagine themselves as little birds waiting for their mother to feed them."

Hearing this, Qi Han immediately walked to the door, a little anxiously, "Then can I go in? I'll release the pheromone to him."

"Of course not!" The doctor was also a little embarrassed, and tried to explain to him in a professional way: "It's his instinct to find a partner's smell, but your beta is a bit special, he...well, hates your pheromone."

"Sudden fainting is the stress response of his body after he smells you too much. Now you are... unable to appease him."

The movement of opening the door stopped, Qi Han was silent for half a minute, and said "um", the fingertips holding the handle turned slightly white.

Perhaps because it was only a shallow estrus, Fu Ge's reaction was pitiful, and there was no feedback other than restlessness, nesting and daze.

No rush, no self-solve, not even a touch there.He shrank at the foot of the bed, like a little mushroom that no one picked, tremblingly hugging his not-so-fat umbrella.

Qi Han observed for a long time, only to find that Little Beta's lips were trembling slowly, as if he was chatting with someone, he picked up the phone outside the isolation room, and his eyes turned red after hearing only one sentence.

Fu Ge said: "Ahan, I hate heat, because I don't have inhibitors, and I don't have the money to book an isolation room."

He seemed to be schizophrenic. When he was awake, he wanted to cut Qi Han into pieces. When he was confused, his mind was full of hallucinations related to Mr. Xiong.

"The doctor said that going to the isolation room would make me feel better, but it costs 3000 yuan to make an appointment. I tried to draw pictures for tourists on the street, but I couldn't draw well."

Fu Ge was stunned for a moment, as if someone in a hallucination asked him why he couldn't draw well, Little Beta thought for a long time, and said: "If you draw, you will be burned, so don't dare to draw anymore."

Qi Han outside the isolation room stood there stiffly, feeling severe pain in his chest.

Fu Ge continued to share his only experience of "enjoying" the isolation room.

"It took me a long time to save enough money. After another half a month, the doctor gave me a very small room at the end of the corridor. It was very dark inside, but I felt very safe. For the first time, I felt, Estrus isn't that scary either."

As soon as his voice changed, the end of his eyes drooped again, "But I didn't use that isolation room."

Qi Han's heart went into a frenzy, knowing that the other party couldn't hear him, he subconsciously asked, "Why didn't it work?"

Fu Ge said: "Because the alpha next door said that beta was in heat strangely, he was afraid that I would harass his lover, so he used money to black out my quota."

He pursed his mouth in a low voice, even after many years, he still couldn't forget the grievance at that time, "I know it's strange for betas to be in heat, and I don't want to, I swear I won't affect them, why should I be kicked out...then I managed to get an appointment..."

There was a thin and soft cry in his voice, as if he would die at any moment, Qi Han pressed against the glass and closed his eyes tightly, sobbing in his throat.

The person in the hallucination seemed to coax him, and little Beta laughed again, "But I was lucky that day, and used the best isolation room, because an omega's estrus ended early, and he left the room for me."

Fu Ge still can't forget the little O who helped him. He is very beautiful and well-behaved. The big life mark on the back is exposed from the dropped bathrobe. It is a crimson crane bird.

His alpha held his butt and hugged him the whole time, kissing the back of his neck and gently calling him "baby."

From the door of the isolation room to the front desk, during such a long journey, little O's feet never touched the ground, and she nestled in her lover's arms obediently and softly, drowsy, as if the sky fell and there was no need to be distracted and afraid.

That was the first time Fu Ge knew how pleasant the estrus period can be when he is comforted by his lover.

"They love each other very much, and his alpha also loves him very much. After they left, the doctors and nurses sighed that little o was so good..."

As Fu Ge said, he raised his eyes, looked at Mr. Xiong in the hallucination, and begged in a low voice: "I will be very good, too. Give me a hug, okay?"

He held his breath nervously, and slowly stretched his hand into the air, reaching for the corner of Mr. Bear's clothes.

"Hold me for a while, just once, I feel uncomfortable...It's really uncomfortable, can you coax me..."

Qi Han's whole body was stiff, and the blood all over his body was flowing backwards to the top of his head. He wanted to yell to stop Fu Ge from reaching out, but he could only watch helplessly as the fingertips grabbed at nothing, and little Beta leaned over, all expressions were frozen. On the face, like waking up from a beautiful dream.

"fake……"

He muttered these words, straightened up and looked around, like a bird that couldn't find its mother in the cold winter, pleading desperately.

"Don't go...I don't want to hug..."

"I'll be good... I don't need sex/love, and I don't want pheromones... I don't want anything... Just talk to me... Please, don't leave me alone..."

The clothes on the back were soaked in the fine sweat of passion, and the fabric of the trousers was also deeply dyed. He was tortured and drenched by the heat in the early morning, but he still endured it without saying a word, because he knew that no matter how much he cried and begged, he would No caresses.

The door of the isolation room was suddenly opened, Fu Ge turned his head slowly, and was hugged into his arms before he could see clearly.

"...Ahan?"

"it's me."

"Is it... fake?"

The person holding him choked up, "Well, it's fake."

Tears slid down in an instant, and Fu Ge rubbed into his neck like a kitten, "Why did you come..."

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Doctor: Beta will imagine himself as a bird waiting for his mother to feed him during that period.

Seven Dogs: Good Mama is here! ???????

No prize quiz: Who is the little o with the pink crane bird imprint on his back! ! ! ! (Please if no one knows I will really be sad?o????·?o??????)