Chapter 39
Chapter 39
Jiang Xuecheng personally accompanied Huo Kun to prepare Miao Miao's funeral.
After everything was over, Huo Kun seemed to have peeled off a layer of skin, his cheeks were thin, and his spirit was listless. Jiang Xuecheng felt uncomfortable when he saw it, and worried that Huo Kun would feel uncomfortable alone, so he brought him to his house to take care of him.
The days when Miao Miao just left were very difficult for Huo Kun. He stopped crying, but couldn’t eat or sleep, didn’t talk much, and refused to communicate. Most of the time he just stayed in the room alone in a daze.
Jiang Xuecheng stood outside Huo Kun's room, smoking non-stop. He had nothing to do with Huo Kun, and he knew that Huo Kun should sort out his emotions and calm down slowly, but he couldn't do anything when he saw the young man's thin and lonely back leave it alone.Jiang Xuecheng could only ask Jason to hug Mimi, stretch out his hand to make trouble for Mimi, quietly opened the door of Huo Kun's room, and sent Mimi in to accompany Huo Kun.
Mimi flicked her tail lightly, walked into the room with catwalks, jumped onto Huo Kun's bed lightly, squatted beside Huo Kun, gave a delicate "meow", and looked out the window together with Huo Kun.
One person and one cat move exactly the same, and they don't know what they are thinking.
After two days like this, one day after dinner, the butler, Uncle Jiang, suddenly asked, "Xiao Kun couldn't sleep these two nights."
Jiang Xuecheng paused while drinking water, "What's wrong?"
Uncle Jiang said: "I woke up last night and saw Xiao Kun standing on the balcony on the second floor lost in thought. I went back and looked, it was two or three o'clock in the night. Jason told me that he also saw him the night before yesterday."
Jiang Xuecheng frowned, Huo Kun couldn't eat at first, and now he didn't have a good rest at night, how could his body bear it.
"Has he had dinner?"
Jason was coming down the stairs when he heard the words, "I moved twice."
The lines between Jiang Xuecheng's eyebrows deepened by two points. He was waiting for Huo Kun to come out after digesting his emotions, but watching Huo Kun's speed of digesting sadness was so slow that it made him irritated.
That night Jiang Xuecheng still went to bed at the usual time. Jiang Xuecheng lay on the bed with his eyes closed for half an hour without any sleepiness. He suddenly opened his eyes and looked at the dark ceiling, and what Uncle Jiang said during the day rang in his mind.
When Jiang Xuecheng thought about it, he felt that there was something in his heart, and he couldn't help worrying about it, which made him sleepless.Jiang Xuecheng was tossing and turning on the bed, watching the time on the phone go by little by little, and he couldn't fall asleep at around one o'clock in the morning.
Jiang Xuecheng sighed, but suddenly heard movement in the corridor outside, his heart skipped a beat, he sat up, could it be Huo Kun?
Jiang Xuecheng sat on the bed for a while, but did not hear Huo Kun's return for a long time. Jiang Xuecheng didn't wait any longer, got out of the bed and opened the door, and walked to the balcony on the second floor according to the old housekeeper.
Hawkun was indeed sitting there.
The weather in June was a bit hot, the French windows of the big balcony were wide open, and the evening breeze with the residual temperature was blowing into the villa. Huokun sat barefoot against the wall in a black T-shirt and black trousers.
When I got closer, I found that Huo Kun was looking up at the sky, and he was holding a cat in his arms that had been wagging its tail leisurely.
The moonlight sprinkled on Huo Kun's body like water, outlining the beautiful figure of the young man. No matter how you look at this scene, it is a beautiful scene, but the people in this scene are shrouded in a lonely and desolate atmosphere, which makes people feel uncomfortable.
Jiang Xuecheng stepped forward, the footsteps startled Mimi, she jumped out of Huo Kun's embrace and looked at Jiang Xuecheng.
Huo Kun then turned his head and saw that it was Jiang Xuecheng, he paused slightly, "Brother, why didn't you sleep."
Jiang Xuecheng walked closer, the moonlight shone on the young man's face, and his outline was clearly outlined. He lost a lot of weight, his chin became sharper, and most importantly, his eyes no longer had the bright look before, as if they were blindfolded. A layer of hazy gauze has dimmed, and it no longer has the sharp and unassuming vigor it had before.Such Huo Kun seems to be peaceful, but he feels that he is farther away from the smell of fireworks and people in the world.
Jiang Xuecheng originally thought that as long as Huo Kun digested his grief, he would be able to return to his original state, but at this moment Jiang Xuecheng suddenly realized that the sadness can fade and the wound can heal, but the blow and change brought by the death of his relatives really cannot be erased or reversed.
Jiang Xuecheng was silent, he felt very uncomfortable, he still liked Huo Kun's bright eyes, even though he wanted to resist and plot against him.
Jiang Xuecheng followed Huo Kun and sat cross-legged on the ground, stroking the cat casually, Mimi flicked her tail and swipe Jiang Xuecheng's hand, jumped onto the railing, squatted on the railing and looked at the moon, suddenly turned into a literary cat .
Jiang Xuecheng laughed, "This cat has been taken away by you."
Huo Kun couldn't help but also smiled slightly, seeing that Mimi didn't speak.
Jiang Xuecheng looked at Huo Kun, and there was distress in his tone that he didn't realize, "Why do you always come here to look at the stars?"
Huo Kun blinked his eyes, looked up at the stars, and in his mind were Miao Miao's words that day, "...become energy and exist around people, or float up to the sky and become an energy star. I will make one in the future Energy star, continue to accompany brother..."
Obviously what he said was childish, but now that he thinks about it, he feels extremely sad.
Miao Miao is a smart and sensitive girl, she may have expected all this, she is giving him hints and comfort.But the more sensible Miao Miao was, the more uncomfortable Huo Kun was.
Miao Miao, who is so sensible and good, deserves better things, but he is not capable of giving Miao Miao a better life at the moment. Huo Kun blames himself and suffers. He has imagined that Miao Miao will go to high school, go to college, make many friends, and maybe change. He must love smug beauty, and he likes many beautiful clothes, and he will buy them for her.Miao Miao is beautiful and smart, and many boys should like her. She will fall in love, then do the job she likes, and then get married.He will protect her, give her planning and support, let her go smoothly, and her life will be happy and happy in the future, so all the grievances she suffered in her childhood can be made up for.
But now everything was in vain, so the more Huo Kun thought about it, the more uncomfortable he became, and his eyes turned red again.
Jiang Xuecheng looked at the distant sky, "Miao Miao must be the most beautiful star."
Hawkun looked at the sky and thought, it must be.
Jiang Xuecheng held Huo Kun's hand, and said in a deep voice, "Huo Kun, you have been depressed for too many days."
Huo Kun knew, but suddenly everything changed, he became a person with nowhere to return and nowhere to go, he would not be able to slow down for a while, at a loss as to what to do, so he became more and more addicted to the past.
"Brother, I can't sleep."
Huo Kun's voice was very low and soft, but it made people feel pain in the heart.
Jiang Xuecheng's heart twitched, "Why?"
Huo Kun closed his eyes, and his voice seemed to tremble a little, "As soon as I closed my eyes, I felt that my body was dark and empty, as if I had fallen on my back into a bottomless pit. I kept falling, falling."
"Then sleep with me. I'll hold you, so you won't fall." Jiang Xuecheng stood up and stretched out his hand to Huo Kun.
Huo Kun tentatively put his hand on Jiang Xuecheng's.
Jiang Xuecheng led Huo Kun to his room.
Looking back at Huo Kun who was following behind him, Huo Kun's blank eyes were full of unreserved trust in him and the hope of being pulled.Jiang Xuecheng's heart suddenly trembled violently, and he suddenly wanted to hug him into his arms and give him everything.
Jiang Xuecheng sat on the bed, "Come on, brother sleeps with you."
Huo Kun got into bed from the other side, and lay beside Jiang Xuecheng. The two lay face to face, without saying a word, looking at each other with their eyes open for a moment, as if the two souls were connected through the intersecting sight.
Jiang Xuecheng touched Huo Kun's hand, grasped it tightly, "Do you still have that feeling of falling?"
Hawkun shook his head.
"You are not some duckweed," Jiang Xuecheng shook the hand held by Huo Kun, "I am the rope that holds you and the world."
Huo Kun's pupils trembled, and his inner world trembled violently. During the tremor, the ruins were being rebuilt. His soul floating in the air returned to the ground, and everything became solid and peaceful.
Huo Kun suddenly closed his eyes, rubbed forward like a puppy, put his forehead against Jiang Xuecheng's shoulder, and closed his eyes.
Jiang Xuecheng looked down at Huo Kun's long eyelashes, stared steadily for a while before retracting his gaze and closing his eyes.
Jiang Xuecheng slowed down his breathing, creating the illusion of falling asleep, but in fact he had been secretly paying attention to Huo Kun's reaction.
Huo Kun was motionless, breathing long and evenly, as if he was asleep.Jiang Xuecheng moved his neck, which was itchy from Huo Kun's blowing, and wanted to push it away, but was hugged by the sleeping man and moved closer.
The weather in June is very hot. Even though there is a central air conditioner in the villa, the temperature is not very low at night in order not to catch cold. Huo Kun is young and strong, and his body is hot. Jiang Xuecheng felt a little hot when Huo Kun held him in his arms .He struggled slowly twice, but didn't move, so he could only change to a comfortable position and continue to sleep.
Huo Kun entangled Jiang Xuecheng very tightly, even more clingy than Dabao when he was a child.
Jiang Xuecheng originally thought that it would be difficult for him to fall asleep tonight, but he did not expect that he fell asleep very quickly, and he did not even have a dream when he woke up. Jiang Xuecheng was very surprised, he seemed to have not had such a high-quality sleep for a long time up.
Jiang Xuecheng opened his eyes following the biological clock, he was still hugged by Huo Kun, but his posture changed, his back was facing Huo Kun, Huo Kun hugged him from behind, Jiang Xuecheng's entire back was pressed against Huo Kun's warm chest He could almost feel the beating of the young and powerful heart in his chest.
Jiang Xuecheng was about to take Huo Kun's arm away and stand up, when the breathing of the people behind him changed, it meant he was about to wake up.For a moment, Huo Kun's eyelashes trembled, and he opened his eyes. He blinked slowly twice, his eyes gradually became clear, and looked at Jiang Xuecheng who had woken up in his arms, and showed his first clean smile without sadness in these days , "Good morning, brother."
This smile is like the first ray of light breaking out of the heavy dark clouds after a long rainy day, so bright, so dazzling, so touching.
Jiang Xuecheng heard his heart beating, and he unconsciously laughed, "Good morning."
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