only care about this life

Chapter 11

And the phone in his pocket started to vibrate again. Gu Jinsheng touched the phone through his pants, but he still didn't take it out.No need to answer, he also knew it was from Zhou Ziqian.

This morning, I smiled and told him morning, carefully got up early and made porridge for him to eat, hugged him and said "goodbye, be careful not to tire yourself", Gu Jinsheng even saw Zhou Ziqian laughing. There were already small fine lines, but this gave Zhou Ziqian a sense of stability that only accumulated over time.

Then, he couldn't remember anything, he only remembered that when he and Zhou Ziqian met for the first time, Zhou Ziqian asked his name before leaving, and praised him with style, "A good name, only care about this life, live in the present. "

Gu Jinsheng immediately remembered Zhou Ziqian, not because of anything else, but because he said the meaning of his name very accurately - regardless of the afterlife, only care about this life, live in the present, that is the third grade of primary school When he was writing an article about the meaning of his name, his grandma told him, and this name was given to him by Gu Jinsheng's grandma, who was a primary school teacher.

Then, the two have known each other for seven years and been together for three years. No matter what status he is with Zhou Ziqian, he has never lived up to his name-only care about this life, live in the present, live well, hard, and seriously , whether as Zhou Ziqian's friend or Zhou Ziqian's lover.

In the end, Gu Jinsheng did not live up to life, but Zhou Ziqian failed him.

When Gu Jinsheng returned to the police station, Li Xiao was sending text messages on his mobile phone. Seeing Gu Jinsheng coming back, he immediately asked, "How is it? How is the domestic violence handled?"

I can’t tell Li Xiao, Gu Jinsheng thought, at least not for the time being. To put it bluntly, this is a matter between him and Zhou Ziqian, so he forced a laugh and said, “It’s nothing, it’s just a quarrel between two men. gone."

"Yo! That rotten girl Han Qingqing will love to hear about this, so tell me more!" Li Xiao eagerly pulled a chair and sat beside Gu Jinsheng.

Gu Jinsheng pushed him away with a look of disgust on his face, "Stop coming, don't come, it's other people's privacy, don't pry into other people's privacy as gossip, it's too unprofessional for you!" Seriously continue to make records on duty tonight.

Li Xiao looked hurt, and said sadly, "Oh! Asheng, you, you actually dislike me! In order to retaliate against you, I decided to pry into your corner!" Only the two of them were in the office, and Li Xiao brazenly Said.

Gu Jinsheng's hand holding the pen trembled, but he didn't say anything. He squeezed the pen tightly and began to copy word by word carefully.

"I said, Asheng, aren't you sleepy tonight? Why are you busy with this as soon as you come back?" Li Xiao always felt that there was a sleepy bug in Gu Jinsheng's stomach. This guy sleeps very well, as long as he has a place , You can fall asleep as soon as you lean on it. Every time after twelve o'clock on duty, Gu Jinsheng has to catch up on sleep before he can continue to work.

"I'm fine, not sleepy." Gu Jinsheng said without raising his head.

The phone on the table started to vibrate again, and there was no one else who could call Gu Jinsheng at this point except Zhou Ziqian.Li Xiao waited for Gu Jinsheng to answer the phone with an uncomfortable face, but he didn't expect that after waiting for a long time, Gu Jinsheng just lowered his head and copied the materials in his hand, only the mobile phone vibrated on the table stubbornly until it stopped.Then, Gu Jinsheng stopped, picked up the phone with an extremely complicated expression, and long pressed to turn it off.

Li Xiao hugged his hands and leaned on the chair leisurely. Gu Jinsheng pursed his lips, his eyelashes drooped slightly, and was focused. He looked like a policeman at work, but a student trying to complete homework assigned by the teacher.

Li Xiao rubbed his chin and thought, handsome is still so handsome, but why does he feel something is wrong!

In the middle of the night, Li Xiao finally couldn't bear it anymore and went to rest for a while, while Gu Jinsheng sat quietly on the chair in the office, from dark to dawn, and finally the first ray of sunshine in the morning slipped into the Anran Police Station, next door Not far away, the birdsong in the park began to sound.

Gu Jinsheng thought to himself, the sky is finally dawn.

He didn't turn on the phone all night, and sat in a chair all night in a daze.

Really didn't think about anything, Gu Jinsheng just sat quietly on the chair, counting the time passing bit by bit, he never knew that the night of insomnia was so long, after counting this second, he looked forward to the next One second, after this one minute, wait for the next one minute, but the more you wait, the more you feel that the night is endless.

He only hoped that the sun would rise early, he had to brush his teeth, wash his face, ride along the park, drink a cup of sweet soy milk, and start with the fragrant golden horse ears fried by Aunt Zhang a new day.He still has 2000 yuan in his bag that he just took out yesterday, so he has to rush back to the suburbs to see his grandma, and pay the nanny this month's salary and grandma's living expenses.

Gu Jinsheng came out of the Anran police station after washing up. The old man walking the bird was walking towards the park with a cage and tea in his hand. The bougainvillea in the corner was still blooming enthusiastically, bright red, as if someone quietly replaced the city last night. Another stroke of thick ink and color.Those rushing to work and carrying schoolbags to school, the city is waking up after a night of lethargy with the rising sun.

Every day seems to start like this, every day seems to be the same, as if nothing has changed.Sometimes it is only the mood of the person that changes.

Gu Jinsheng took his bicycle and walked a few steps. The mango tree beside the tree was in bloom, and the strings of white flowers exuded the unique strong fragrance of mangoes.He couldn't help sneezing, but when he looked up, he was stunned by the bright sunlight cast between the leaves, and narrowed his eyes slightly.

I didn't know I was sleepy last night, but now I'm really exhausted and tired, but I don't feel sleepy at all.

Gu Jinsheng rubbed his eyes, the familiar Audi was parked at the corner, and Zhou Ziqian was getting out of the car and closing the door, walking towards him.

Gu Jinsheng looked at Zhou Ziqian, who was always well-dressed and well-groomed, but now the clothes on his body were ugly, not to mention his face, which was more wrinkled than his clothes. The scary blood from last night had stopped, and he was just like himself. His hair was shaved extremely short, so at this moment, there was a big scar on his forehead that had scabbed with blood.Half of his face was swollen, and his eyes were darkened.

Gu Jinsheng thought to himself, this is really the first time he has seen Zhou Ziqian like this, even when Zhou Ziqian once failed in business and the two of them were so downcast that they had to buy Hongfa for instant noodles, they did not see him like this downcast.

Zhou Ziqian walked up to Gu Jinsheng in a few steps, his expression full of pain. Apart from regret, his biggest feeling now was fear—Zhou Ziqian never thought about what it would be like if Gu Jinsheng left him one day.

Today, this person is still standing in front of him, wearing that straight uniform, his light-colored eyes are clear, except for the blue eye circles around them.The yellowish hair is long again, and the middle part is particularly prominent, like a small fuzzy chestnut.

Zhou Ziqian gently wiped the chapped corner of his mouth with his index finger, and said with an extremely ugly smile, "Asheng, your hair has grown again." After finishing speaking, he raised his hand habitually to touch it.

Gu Jinsheng turned his body slightly to avoid Zhou Ziqian's hand, and the latter's smile froze there with his movements.

Zhou Ziqian stared at Gu Jinsheng. Gu Jinsheng first attracted him to his pair of brown eyes. Compared with Chinese people, Gu Jinsheng's eyes are lighter in color, just like he is not as dark as most Chinese people. Gu Jinsheng, who is introverted, has bright eyes and a smile when he is happy, and always lowers his eyelashes slightly to cover those beautiful eyes when he is not in high spirits. His whole person is gentle like a plush toy.

But at this moment, Zhou Ziqian found that he couldn't find any expression or warmth in Gu Jinsheng's eyes, as if he was frozen like a piece of warm jade.

"I'm sorry, Asheng, I, but you have to trust me—" Zhou Ziqian grabbed Gu Jinsheng's hand holding the head of the bicycle and said, however, after waiting in the car all night and thinking about what he said all night, he suddenly couldn't say it What did Gu Jinsheng believe?Believe that he really just slept with Cheng Jiazhou, not talking about feelings?Or let this life believe that the one I love the most is still him.

Gu Jinsheng took Zhou Ziqian's hand down, and looked at him silently, "Ziqian, I want to have breakfast now, and then go home to rest and pack up, and go back to see grandma. No matter what happens, we will talk about it later."

Zhou Ziqian stopped Gu Jinsheng, he knew Gu Jinsheng's character, he was not a person who said anything, many times, the things in Gu Jinsheng's mind, he would rather be alone, Zhou Ziqian spent a lot of energy It was only then that Gu Jinsheng began to trust him, and began to regard him as someone to confide in, but just as he watched, Gu Jinsheng shrank back into his shell overnight.

"I'll accompany you to see grandma later, and I'll take you there, but, Asheng, I'm wrong this time, no matter what I say, it's useless, so don't hold back, what can we say? You You can do whatever you want, the only thing is, don't reject me." Zhou Ziqian said.

Although this corner is relatively remote, there are still occasional people passing by and looking at this side from time to time.Gu Jinsheng stared at Zhou Ziqian indifferently for a while, only to feel that the person in front of him who he was most familiar with and who was most familiar with him seemed to be separated by thousands of mountains and rivers overnight, "Since you know that saying anything is futile, Then please don't say anything now, I have something to do, please let me go."

He didn't sleep all night, got up early in the morning, and didn't eat any food. Gu Jinsheng just felt physically and mentally exhausted. The only thing he wanted to do now was to have a good meal, take a bath, rest for a while, and go see his grandma.Thinking of his grandma who was looking forward to going home every day, Gu Jinsheng just felt that Zhou Ziqian was just wasting his time here.

When Zhou Ziqian heard the end, he had already noticed the impatience in Gu Jinsheng's tone.

In this world, he knows Gu Jinsheng better than his parents——Gu Jinsheng's temperament seems to be the same type as his appearance, gentle and refined, as if you poke him, and there will be no trace .Cotton-like balls and amiable.But in fact, the people who seem to have the least temper are the most stubborn. It's not that they don't know how to express their emotions, it's just that they haven't reached that point.And Zhou Ziqian knew that the current Gu Jinsheng was not something he could poke at will.

He knew that he needed to give Gu Jinsheng some time now, and give the two of them some space to digest this matter.And the only thing Zhou Ziqian can do is to wait.

"Okay, Asheng, I don't bother you. I just want to say one thing. From the beginning to the end, you are the only one I love." Zhou Ziqian said bitterly.

This is not the first time Gu Jinsheng is on the night shift, but it is the first time Zhou Ziqian waited for him outside the police station overnight. Of course, Gu Jinsheng will not hypocritically think that the other half must guard him when he is on the night shift. He is not a criminal police officer. It's not dangerous, but I didn't expect Zhou Ziqian to wait for him all night for the first time, maybe the only time, so that after he ran into him cheating on him when he was out of the police, he ran over and said that he loved him from beginning to end.

Gu Jinsheng lowered his head and thought for a while, then swept away a mango leaf that fell on the bicycle, looked up at Zhou Ziqian's expectant eyes, and said, "It's ridiculous."

After all, he rode his bicycle across Zhouzi and moved away.