My bamboo horse is a broken sleeve

Chapter 46

But these are not important, as long as you see him.For the past month, Lu Bingwen has been struggling alone, first Xue Yingfeng, and later Wan Jun, he just barely supported his fragile nerves, as if he had fallen into the boundless sea, unable to find a way to survive It's just that I have exhausted all my strength to prevent myself from sinking.

But now it's all right, you're here, I can rely on you.The first time he saw Mu Hongning, Lu Bingwen had only such thoughts in his heart.All the grievances, all the uneasiness, all the pain I have endured so far, finally you can help me share it.Thinking of this, Lu Bingwen's eyes turned red instantly, and his hands subconsciously wanted to hug Mu Hongning.But what was originally a humble hope has now become utter despair.

He was slammed to the ground by Mu Yuning, and a strong dizziness and pain came over him, but Mu Yuning still came forward relentlessly, grabbed Lu Bingwen's collar tightly, and lifted his upper body up. Get up and hang in the air.Lu Bingwen had no possibility of resisting at all, his physical strength was obviously exhausted, and he was so haggard that he seemed to faint at any time.

But in a trance, I still saw that person's disgusted expression and wanton abuse.

"I gave you Wan Jun with good intentions, but what about you, what have you done!" Mu Yuning's voice was deafening, drowning out all other traces.

Seeing that Lu Bingwen still didn't respond, Mu Hongning grabbed Lu Bingwen's shoulder again, dragged him to Wanjun's grave, and pressed his head less than an inch away from the tombstone, "Look at your current look Look, are you worthy of her?" Mu Hongning's tone of anger was still hard to get rid of.

Overwhelmed with grief, like a dike bursting, the tears in the corners of Lu Bingwen's eyes began to fall uncontrollably, tears pouring down his cheeks.The body also twitched slightly, but it still only got Mu Hongning's scolding, "Coward." After leaving this sentence, he walked away.

The sudden loss of strength caused Lu Bingwen to fall to the ground again, and the place that Mu Hongning touched before became painful.As if he was finally defeated, Lu Bingwen curled up in front of Wanjun's grave, and began to cry desperately. He had no strength, so he could only let out intermittent sobs, but the sleeves covering his eyes were already soaked and messed up. It's out of shape.

No one came to stop him, and no one came to comfort him.Too many sad things came too fast, they were dug into holes, and I no longer had the strength to continue struggling.

But now Lu Bingwen's heart is gradually beginning to become clear, he doesn't need to look for the direction anymore, just let himself sink down.

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When Lu Bingwen woke up, he found that he was already in the room. He was still a little confused. There were many people in the room, coming in and out, and it was noisy.

It seems that after Lu Bingwen fainted, he was rescued by the servants who had been looking for him. His pale and lifeless face really shocked Mother Lu, and he invited four or five doctors. Several servants watched, ginseng and Ganoderma lucidum were added to the medicine without hesitation, and within an hour, Lu Bingwen woke up.

Lu Bingwen was just a little weak, and didn't need such a big battle. When he woke up and saw the messy scene in front of him, he couldn't help feeling irritable.Thinking of what Mu Yuning did before, he felt endless pain again.Not wanting to pay attention to such commotion, he covered himself with a quilt and fell asleep.

When I wake up, the moon is shining and the stars are shining.The servants who were busy during the day have all dispersed.The lights can still be seen through the window, and the night is not yet deep.Lu Bingwen is still physically weak and weak. After sleeping, his spirit does not improve, but his head becomes more and more groggy, and he has to stop to rest after walking a few steps.But regardless of his physical discomfort, Lu Bingwen walked out of the Shangshu Mansion alone as if thinking of something.

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"Brother Han." At the end of Lu Bingwen's gaze was Han Yu who was drinking alone under the moonlight.All alone, sitting under the pavilion, with his back to the moonlight.The night had obscured his figure, his long black hair was hanging down, and his slightly thin clothes were a little loose, revealing the delicate outline of his collarbone inadvertently.If Yingfeng saw it, he would probably pounce on it, Lu Bingwen thought to himself.

"What's the matter?" Han Yan responded lightly, as usual, without any emotion.

"It's nothing, I haven't seen you for a long time, and I suddenly want to have a heart-to-heart talk with you." As he said, Lu Bingwen walked and sat down next to Hanyu, "Actually, I wanted to come to you a long time ago, but I was a little afraid, and I didn't dare until today." Come here." Lu Bingwen said to himself.

"It's nothing more than something about him, so why not dare, we've been brothers for more than ten years." Lu Bingwen was a little surprised that it was rare for Han Zhuo to say such a thoughtful thing for others.

"Are you still thinking about him?" Lu Bingwen looked up at the stars beyond the sky, his eyes wandering far away.

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Han Lu didn't answer for a long time, Lu Bingwen didn't care, drank Han Lu's wine, and said to himself: "I still miss him, I think of the many bets and vows I made with him before, and the many promises I made. A lot of things have not been fulfilled; I think of how he was forced to practice martial arts by you when he was a child, every time I was around, he winked as if I was begging for help, and always complained that you were too strict; I remembered that he and Mu Yuning teamed up The way he lied to you, after being caught out, he started running around the yard, fearing that you would hit him, but after a while, he would go over and admit his mistake obediently, fearing that you would ignore him; remembering the book he borrowed from me before, It hasn't been returned yet, and I don't know if he has opened it. Lu Bingwen's thoughts and his eyes wandered together for a period of time.

Han Zhuo listened quietly, seemingly calm, but every word of Lu Bingwen was like a bloody gash in Han Zhuo's heart, heavy and sharp.But Han Yu doesn’t blame him, it’s just a condolence to the old man. On the contrary, Han Yu is still a little grateful to Lu Bingwen. These days, Han Yu has never dared to recall the past. Whenever those scenes appear in his mind, Han Ye's breathing seemed to be frozen, becoming heavy and sad.Now that someone is sharing it, I feel a little better.But Han Yan was still laughing at himself secretly, it turned out that they had experienced so much between them, and he had never noticed it.

"Every day after the news came, I felt guilty and blamed myself, but I couldn't do anything, and I didn't even have the guts to make amends," Lu Bingwen said, and took a sip of wine. Lu Bingwen was probably the same as himself, regretting that he didn't keep Xue Yingfeng back then, "Mr. Wan is also gone, I think Mu Yuning and I will probably not be able to see each other again.

"He's right, I'm indeed a coward. Lu Bingwen started to choke, and he almost drank the wine in the pot.

After that, Lu Bingwen mostly wrote and spoke indistinct nonsense, and Han Yan didn't have the heart to listen to it. After he was completely drunk, Han Yan sent him back to the Shangshu Mansion.With the power of drinking, Lu Bingwen might be able to sleep well, but Han Zhuo had another sleepless night. After the snow left in the wind, this was not the first time.

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After the hangover, Lu Bingwen woke up early. It should be said that he forced himself to wake up. There was still one very important thing to do. Even with the help of alcohol, he still couldn't suppress the anxiety.

After ordering his servants, Lu Bingwen led a horse and left the city.She was still a little dizzy, and felt dizzy from time to time, but she still resisted the discomfort in her body and went to Suqing Pavilion alone.

Suqing Pavilion is an inconspicuous small pavilion beside the Baizhai River. The pavilion is mottled and hidden at the corner of the river.The pavilion had no name, but Lu Bingwen discovered it by accident.The whole pavilion is plain white, surrounded by ancient trees, glowing with a slight white light under the reflection of green shadows, and the clear stream passing by behind the pavilion sometimes brings coolness and refreshment, hence the name.

Lu Bingwen gently brushed off the dust on the stone bench, sat down facing the mild sunlight, and quietly waited for the man to arrive.

But until the sun became scorching and dazzling, the figure of that person was still not seen.

After three poles of the day, Lu Bingwen's physical strength was slightly exhausted. Although the temperature had risen significantly, cold sweat began to ooze from his forehead.His heart also began to gradually cool down, and he began to have the intention to retreat.

Just when he was about to get up and leave, he vaguely saw a faint shadow in the depths of the tree, walking towards him.

"Why do you want me?" Mu Yuning hadn't taken off his armor yet, so he must have come directly from the barracks, holding the hilt of his sword in one hand, and there were two unnoticeable bruises on his face.

"It's nothing, I just want to chat with you." Lu Bingwen resisted, hiding his imperceptible weakness.

"There's nothing to talk about, anyway, things are already like this." Mu Yuning still said angrily.

"There may be some misunderstanding between us." Lu Bingwen's tone gradually weakened, as if he was showing his favor.

"What misunderstanding is there? You killed Wan Jun, and we cannot get rid of Yingfeng's matter."

"I can't escape the matter of Yingfeng, Wan Jun's death. I don't have any reason to shirk it." Lu Bingwen's eyes gradually sank.

"That's it, you came to me to listen to these nonsense?" Mu Yuning began to be a little aggressive.

"Between us. It wasn't like this." It took a lot of courage for Lu Bingwen to suppress the choking in his throat.After saying this sentence completely, the grievance in my heart came out, and flowed through every corner of my body with the blood.

"Then you. What else do you want? In this situation, is it possible that I still have to smile at you every day? Are you being too selfish?" Mu Yuning said all the words that came out of his mouth without thinking. He spat it out, but as soon as he said it, Mu Yuning regretted it a little.

After Mu Hongning abandoned Lu Bingwen yesterday and left, he began to ask himself repeatedly whether that was too cruel and unfair to Lu Bingwen. Lu Bingwen's pale face and heartbroken expression really made him He couldn't help feeling distressed.He was also worried about Lu Bingwen's safety, so he went back to check and found that there was no one there, so he was relieved.This morning, I received a message from the servants of the Shangshu Mansion, subconsciously thinking of going to see him immediately, but it has been delayed until now because of military affairs.

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