Mountain Stream Autumn

Chapter 39

Zhang Chengbo came back this time to spend the Mid-Autumn Festival with his family, so after eating, he chatted with He Qiuming about his work, and then he went home by car, letting the two young people have fun.

The two walked out side by side.

He Qiuming looked down at the road, thinking about the question Chen Nanshan asked in the morning, but he was not going to talk to Zhang Qiuyan beside him.It's just that it's impossible for Zhang Qiuyan to keep the atmosphere going like this, not to mention that he asked He Qiuming out today for a purpose, and the two of them are together now, and the environment is more suitable for what he will do next.

The two went to Zhang Qiuyan's car, and He Qiuming sat in the passenger seat.

He Qiuming took out his mobile phone and fiddled with it as soon as he got in the car, not surprised that Zhang Qiuyan didn't drive yet.Zhang Qiuyan glanced at He Qiuming, not satisfied with him lowering his head to play with his mobile phone, so he called his name, "Qiu Ming."

He Qiuming replied to Chao Nian's last WeChat message, put away his phone, and then looked at Zhang Qiuyan, waiting for his next sentence.

Zhang Qiuyan was a little embarrassed, rubbed his palms together, and looked at He Qiuming who was right in front of him. The thoughts of the past few years were piled up in his heart. Since graduation, he had no chance to look at He Qiuming seriously like this.Zhang Qiuyan showed a smile that he thought was very gentle, then reached out to grab He Qiuming, and said seriously, "Qiuming, I like you, please stay with me."

He Qiuming lowered his head, fixed his eyes on the hands they were clasping, and finally broke free, rejecting Zhang Qiuyan's confession, saying, "Don't call me Qiuming next time, we are not so close."

Zhang Qiuyan opened his mouth to refute, but He Qiuming continued, "As for being together..." He Qiuming smiled, "You know I don't like you."

Hit the nail on the head and show no mercy.This is He Qiuming. He is not gentle in nature. He is even more cold when rejecting people. He doesn't consider the feelings of the rejected people at all. In high school, many people were sad because of his attitude.But in front of Chen Nanshan, He Qiuming couldn't even say a word of indifference, and often wanted to hold it in his hand and it hurt.

All his tenderness in love was given to Chen Nanshan.

Zhang Qiuyan's expression changed immediately, and he looked at He Qiuming without moving for a moment, refusing to let go of the subtle expression on his face, "Is it Chen Nanshan?"

Before He Qiuming could answer, Zhang Qiuyan continued to ask, "Is he the one you like? Or are you with him?" He Qiuming didn't respond, so Zhang Qiuyan glanced at him and said, "Qiuming, he's not suitable for you." you."

He Qiuming's face darkened, and he said in a bad tone, "Whether it's suitable or not is my business."

"Could it be that you are really together?" Zhang Qiuyan said in surprise, "He is younger than you, so there are too many chances."

"He is only one year younger than me." One year is only 360 five days old, and he is only two grades older than him.

Zhang Qiuyan sneered, looked at the different He Qiuming in front of him, and said with thorns, "Children love to play, how do you know that he will be with you at ease, and won't give up on you someday because of something. "

He Qiuming's heart twitched.

"Feelings are not enough for you to be affectionate alone." Zhang Qiuyan noticed the change in He Qiuming's face and continued to say coldly, "Maybe one day I will come over to say goodbye to you, and leave you alone where I am. ..."

"That's enough," He Qiuming growled, and looked at Zhang Qiuyan with a sullen face, "That's also my business. If he is really like this, I will be willing to join in."

Zhang Qiuyan didn't expect He Qiuming to say this, and before he could take back the surprise on his face, he stared blankly at the person next to him, and asked, "What am I inferior to him?"

He Qiuming sneered, lost his previous good attitude, and said directly, "No one will be Chen Nanshan."

In his heart, Chen Nanshan is unique, the only one in the world.

The grief and indignation of the failed confession slowly welled up in his heart. Zhang Qiuyan couldn't help but twitched his mouth when he remembered the words he had heard before. ?”

He Qiuming looked at him and remained silent.

Zhang Qiuyan thought that He Qiuming was on his mind when he mentioned it, and based on the principle that he would not make He Qiuming feel better, he said word by word, "When that person comes back, will you still choose Chen Nanshan? You Are you willing to let the person on top of your heart be wronged?"

Based on what he knew about He Qiuming, he knew that He Qiuming couldn't do it.

However, He Qiuming just smiled, and the irony in his eyes was obvious. Although Chao Nian and the others knew about his emotional experience back then, and knew that he had an ex whom he loved very much, no one knew who that person was.Now Zhang Qiuyan knew that his predecessor was the existence on the tip of He Qiuming's heart, so he used his predecessor to stalk He Qiuming's letter, but he didn't know that the so-called predecessor was Chen Nanshan.

He Qiuming thought about the person he had been with for over ten years, and it was the same person from beginning to end, that person was Chen Nanshan.

He Qiuming's attitude of ignoring him angered Zhang Qiuyan. He looked at the person in front of him who he had liked for several years, and when he thought of the rejection of his voluntary confession just now, a surge of anger arose in his heart for no reason, burning out his reason.Zhang Qiuyan held He Qiuming's shoulders and rushed over.

He wants to kiss.

He Qiuming pushed Zhang Qiuyan away with a black face, not letting him succeed, and then glanced at Zhang Qiuyan, who seemed a little irritable because of his refusal, and felt that Zhang Qiuyan's image in his heart had been destroyed in recent years It was clean, so he didn't have a good temper and said, "Zhang Qiuyan, don't fucking forget how you got here in the first place."

As soon as the words fell, Zhang Qiuyan became visibly stiff for a moment, then fell down on the chair with all his strength, and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sorry."

……

When He Qiuming was a graduate student, his supervisor was Zhang Chengbo. At that time, because he was afraid that he would miss Chen Nanshan when he was free, he spent most of his time working on projects with his supervisor, and Zhang Qiuyan was one of the participants in the same project.

Zhang Qiuyan at that time was very good, but at the same time he was not very good.

Zhang Chengbo thought that the two of them would work on projects together, they would spend a lot of time together, and they might be able to make friends, so Zhang Chengbo intentionally or unintentionally revealed the information that he wanted them to get along well.It's just that He Qiuming didn't have the time to think about it at the time, so he was completely unaware of what Zhang Chengbo had done. He just thought that Zhang Qiuyan was excellent.

Without the latter incident, He Qiuming and Zhang Qiuyan would not have met each other.

It was a dinner party after finishing the project. Zhang Chengbo only sat with them for a while and then went back to school, leaving time for the two young people.He Qiuming had nothing to do with sitting there drinking with Zhang Qiuyan, occasionally chatting a few words, and this is where the accident started.

Zhang Qiuyan, who had always been gentle and elegant, suddenly became very manic, and he didn't know that it was He Qiuming's words that touched his scales. After a burst of manic venting, Zhang Qiuyan became very quiet again, falling into a self-sabotage environment.

He Qiuming didn't dare to deal with it arbitrarily, he just sat next to Zhang Qiuyan, tried to soothe his emotions, and then called Zhang Chengbo to ask what was going on.

Zhang Chengbo said that Zhang Qiuyan has mania, and he will attack when he is stimulated by the outside world, and he will continue to be depressed after each attack, and he looks down on his state.

He Qiuming was silent and did not speak. Zhang Chengbo on the phone said that there was nothing he could do about the disease. He could only take medicine to stabilize it. Because Zhang Qiuyan was very defensive, they couldn't let him see a psychiatrist, that is, there was no way to cure it. He had a knot in his heart, so seeing Zhang Qiuyan like this, his family members were also very worried.

It is the wish of many Chinese parents to wish their child a success, and Zhang Qiuyan's parents are no exception.They had high demands on Zhang Qiuyan since they were young, and hoped that he would become a master in the future, and Zhang Qiuyan was also very sensible, and had always been the best in school from elementary school to high school.

The accident occurred in the third year of high school.

At that time, the school had a recommended quota, as long as you won a certain provincial competition, you could get that quota.Zhang Qiuyan didn't intend to recommend the spot, he just won the award, and he firmly believed that he could win the award, so he spent a lot of time preparing for it.

However, when the final results came out, not only did Zhang Qiuyan not win the prize, but his ranking was poor.After that, the head teacher frequently talked to him, and rumors spread in the class. As for Zhang Qiuyan's parents, they were also a little disappointed, and then the mania seemed to have been lurking in Zhang Qiuyan's body, and it completely broke out after this incident.

At first Zhang Qiuyan hid it very well, no one in the family knew that he had changed.Things changed when Zhang Qiuyan's mother said something to him after another monthly exam, and then Zhang Qiuyan had a fit, which frightened his mother.

After that, Zhang Qiuyan didn't hide it anymore, and his temper became very weird and fragile. Zhang's parents had no choice but to find a psychiatrist. The doctor said that it was a mental illness, unless the patient was willing to come out, or there was no way to treat it.

After going to university and in the new environment, Zhang Qiuyan's condition is a little bit better, but he has to be the first in everything, which undoubtedly increases his own pressure and makes his condition worse.Later, it was Zhang Qiuyan who figured it out on his own and started taking medicine, and his condition stabilized a little.

Zhang Chengbo spoke a little slowly, but He Qiuming listened carefully, and while listening, he still didn't forget to look at Zhang Qiuyan, who was beside him in a depressed mood.I don't know what he was thinking, but when Zhang Chengbo asked him to take care of Zhang Qiuyan more, He Qiuming nodded in agreement with his request.

Afterwards, He Qiuming thought, maybe Zhang Qiuyan looked so pitiful that night, and he looked a bit like him.

Although the reasons are different, they are all sad and want to struggle.