mountain snow

Chapter 44 I'm an Idol

I felt that the blood in my whole body seemed to have stopped, and after a while, my brain boiled again, rushing towards my lungs and limbs.I couldn't control myself at all, and I didn't care about the wound on my head just after the stitches were removed, so I hugged Yue Sheng hard and squeezed into his arms.

He seemed to be taken aback for a moment, but quickly realized that he covered the gauze on my head with his hands, and patted my back lightly.

"I am the accumulated snow that never melts!" I actually said through gnashing of teeth, not knowing what I was "hating", "Brother, I am the accumulated snow you saw!"

Yue Sheng said softly: "Yes."

"You want me to accompany you, don't you?" I choked up and said, "In the past few years, you have always wanted me to accompany you!"

Yue Sheng said again: "Yes."

I was shaking violently in Yue Sheng's arms, my heart, spine, and brain were all numb.When I was there, I thought he didn't want me anymore and left me alone in Xucheng.Then, year after year, I began to understand him and know that I was also an important family member to him. He left me, and maybe under the circumstances, what he could do was the best for both of us. A sensible decision - even if it's not necessarily the best one.

When I miss him, he also thinks of me.

It's just that I never thought that he would put me in such an important position.Snow Mountain is with him, just like I am by his side.

He is lonely.

"Woo..." I couldn't help but trembled more and more. I grabbed his clothes tightly and asked, "Brother, have you ever regretted it?"

He hugged my hand for a while.

I closed my eyes and wiped my tears against his chest.I know I asked an extremely stupid question, didn't I already know the answer?If he doesn't regret it, why does he want me to swear never to leave him?

In fact, he is not so selfless and merciful, he is just a mortal, with the despicableness of a mortal, he wants to take advantage of me as a stupid parrot, and use his tricks to keep me by his side.

"Regret." After a period of silence, he finally spoke, "But if I can choose again, I..."

"I know." I got out of his arms, looked at him with tears all over my face, and suddenly became cruel, wanting to stab him in the heart, "You will still take Little Sunshine away and leave me behind. But brother, I'm not doing well, I always fantasize that I'm Little Sun, and I hurt my assistant, he's a good man... I'm sick, the doctor can't cure it, only you can."

He looked at me intently, his eyes getting darker and darker, and the folds between his brows seemed to hide a whole world.

"Shh." I stretched out my index finger, pressed it on his lips, then pressed it against him, kissed him through the index finger, and said almost out of breath, "Brother, you don't need to explain, I think slowly, I still have time, You let me think slowly."

He took my wrist and pressed his index finger against the artery.Is it throbbing violently there?I don't know, I only know that he pulled my hand away violently, and then bit my lip hard.

His eyes were no longer calm, and the undercurrents under the abyss finally broke through the sea, setting off a stormy sea.

I opened my eyes wide and for a few seconds I forgot to breathe.My brother, no, my beloved was kissing me, and he kissed me again.

He kissed so hard, almost biting, almost swallowing me.

My heart was so full that it squeezed out soreness and pain. I wrapped my arms around his neck and responded with all my might.If he wants to eat me, he will eat me.

My narration ended, and he carried me into his home and put me on the bed, and the words I had organized for several days fell apart in his arms.

It's not me who perishes, it's him.

The only elementary school in Bieyue Village was on summer vacation. When Yue Sheng and I were leaving for Xucheng, Xiao Dongxi and the shofar braid ran to the entrance of the village to see us off.Huang Xiaoye drove, bumpy for half a day, we arrived in the town, and then took a minibus from the town to the city.In the evening, we stayed in a simple guest house and waited for the next day's train.

The wound on my head has healed, and I don’t need to wrap it in gauze anymore, but there is an ugly scar. Fortunately, my hair has grown back, a piece of thorny green stubble.Time is repairing the scars, and the answer in my heart is becoming clearer and clearer.

They were the most rational decisions that Yue Sheng could make back then, because I was naive, Yue Sheng was confused, and we were torn apart in the torrent.

But now I have the ability to stand firm.

"Brother." I turned around by the window, with my back to the bustling street downstairs, "I want to work with you as a volunteer teacher."

Yue Sheng turned his head, as if he had read the thoughts in my heart.

"You said that if you go to one village, you can't go to another village. There will always be the next village waiting for you." When Zhai escaped—just thinking about doing the same thing with him, I was so excited, “I can use my influence to take the lead, and I can also set up a fund. I have connections and can get the initial capital. You know education, you have been to so many mountain villages, and you are familiar with everything in the village. Brother, we can not only witness the growth of a generation in Bieyue Village, but we can also witness the changes in Bieyue Village!"

The light in Yue Sheng's eyes flickered, I walked over, hugged him, and put my forehead on his shoulder, "Brother, your Shanxue has grown up and is capable, and I can be with you just like you saved him back then. Changed the fate of more children."

At this moment, maybe we all thought of Jin Ming.He should have been alive. We rushed back to Yuejiazhai to save him.But we were one step too late.

I felt Yue Sheng's chest was shaking slightly.He is not like me, who is always chattering. He was silent when he was 15 years old.

But when he needs to rely on, I can be his support, and I am his support!

"When Zheng Ce arranged for me to debut, he positioned me as an idol." I said, "Brother, don't reject me. Now I feel more like an idol than ever before. I have a responsibility on my shoulders."

Yue Sheng held my shoulders, looked into my eyes, and asked me seriously: "Have you thought it through?"

I said, "Think about it clearly. I started thinking about it the day I got home. Now that I think about it, the scar on my head is going to fall off."

Yue Sheng smiled.

"We can gather like-minded people together. My appeal is there. In the future, more and more young people will pay attention to what happens in remote mountainous areas." I don't want to put gold on my face, "and I am not Purely for charity, I can make documentaries, movies, and programs, and then slowly transform. Brother, what do you think?"

I was afraid that Yue Sheng would not agree, and I wished I could pour out all the thoughts in my heart, like those insurance salesmen who spit all over the place.

I must look funny.

I also had an even more ridiculous idea, that if he rejected me, I would stab him with my prickly hair.

He is not afraid of pain, but he is afraid of hurting my newly formed wound, so he will give in after being stabbed a few times.

"Brother..." I wanted to continue, but he said, "The fund is called Shanxue?"

I froze for a moment, and immediately understood what he meant.

I proudly said the name I had been thinking about for several nights, "It's called the Little Sun Fund!"