Long-awaited double lover

Chapter 45】

On the cold tombstone is the damp breath of rain.The torrential rain that night blew away the white lilies with yellow leaves, and the water droplets slid down the photos inlaid on the tombstone.Chu Zhiluo raised his hand and swept away the water droplets that blurred his vision. This was the first time he really saw Tang Weiwei's appearance clearly.There was a radiant smile on Qingcheng's face, which was almost the same face, but Chu Zhiluo felt that there was a huge distance between him and Tang Weiwei.He loves so humblely, Tang Weiwei loves vigorously.

"I do not like you."

In the deserted cemetery, Chu Zhiluo poured out the words that had been hidden in his heart for a long time.

"Obviously I was the one who met Li Ran first, but he put all the promises he gave me on you. That's why I hate you."

Chu Zhiluo leaned against the tombstone, the corners of his mouth slipped into a perfect arc, "But, I'm so happy. Because you have loved Xiao Ran for so many years."

Some people say that the earth is round, so we will meet again at the place where we first left.It was Xiao Ran's promise under the cherry blossom tree that year that supported Chu Zhiluo's resistance to illness for so many years.It was obviously just a stranger passing by, but Chu Zhiluo believed it.Because Xiao Ran's eyes were so serious, the warmth of holding him with both hands still lingered in his palm.

If Tang Weiwei hadn't died, maybe the person lying in the tombstone now was him.

"Because of your heart. So I survived. I thought about it more than once. If it was me lying in the tombstone now, would Xiao Ran miss me like this."

Linglong dice puts red beans on the bones and knows nothing.

"In that case, Xiao Ran and I will miss it completely."

"He said he loves me. But I won't believe it anymore. Because you are the gap between us that can never be bridged. As long as I close my eyes, I will remember that night when Xiao Ran told me about your love. I can never replace you in his heart."

"What you can't get is the best."

"Look, you didn't marry Xiao Ran in the end, did you? But you are the only wife in his heart."

Chu Zhiluo lowered his numb calf and picked up the fallen lilies.

"Bye now."

"my sister."

Chu Zhiluo threw the broken lily into the trash can at the entrance of the cemetery, got into the car and said to the driver, "Go to the hospital."

Chu Zhiluo still doesn't like the smell of the hospital.The pungent smell of disinfectant constantly reminded him that he had been so dying.Walking into Xiao Ran's ward, Yan Yuerong who was sitting by the bed stood up excitedly the second she saw Chu Zhiluo.She bent down and said to Xiao Ran who was resting on the bed, "Xiao Ran, do you see who is here?"

Xiao Ran turned his head and saw Chu Zhiluo suddenly appearing at the door of the ward.He was a little excited and reluctantly propped up his body, "Zhi Luo..."

Chu Zhiluo stepped forward, took the pillow on the bed and placed it behind Xiao Ran, "Lean on."

Xiao Ran stared at Chu Zhiluo without blinking, for fear that he would disappear as soon as he turned around.

"Mrs. Xiao, can I have a private talk with Xiao Ran?"

"Yes, yes...Of course."

Yan Yuerong now regards Chu Zhiluo as the only good medicine that can cure Xiao Ran.She exited the room and closed the door.The room fell silent for a while.

"Xiao Ran, who are you showing this to?" Chu Zhiluo's words were not as gentle as in the past, "Lying sickly on the hospital bed, for one person, this is going to die."

Xiao Ran was silent and did not speak.Just looking at Chu Zhiluo.

"If you're doing this for me, it's totally unnecessary. As I said, it's over between us."

"No. As long as I don't give up, the relationship between us will never end." Xiao Ran tightly grasped the bed sheet under him.

Chu Zhiluo sighed, and put down his aggressive attitude, "Xiao Ran, let's have a good talk. I'm really tired, I'm tired when I'm with you. Do you know what it's like to have endless expectations? How painful was it when I forced a smile for the first time?"

"Zhiluo, that's all my fault...we can start again...really...I won't let you down." Xiao Ran looked at Chu Zhiluo pleadingly.But Chu Zhiluo was not moved.

"Xiao Ran, do you know how long I've been waiting for you?"

"Year after year. Day after day. I believe, you will come to me."

"Even after all these years I forgot why I waited for you."

"Is it because I love you? I'm already not sure."

"I used to think that I couldn't keep your heart. But at least I still have a child who is connected by blood between us. But now the only bond is gone."

"You always say it makes me forgive you. Let's start again. Xiao Ran, you are still selfish."

Chu Zhiluo looked at the stiff Xiao Ran motionlessly, "You only care about your own feelings. You think you can't do without me now, you know it's sad, you want me to come back to you, then you won't It hurts so much. But have you ever thought about my pain? Whenever I see you, I think about the lost child between us."

"No matter how deep the love is, it cannot withstand the abandonment again and again."

"I love you. I still love you to this day."

When Xiao Ran heard Chu Zhiluo's words, a dying flame flashed in his eyes.

"But. I can't be with you anymore."

"This is the last time I will see you. From now on, whether you live or die, it has nothing to do with me. There is only so much I can do."

"Xiao Ran, we all have to move forward."

"No one can stay in the past forever."

"And I think mine is much better now than it was before."

"Xiao Ran, let me go. Let yourself go too."

The sky that was originally clear and cloudy has become cloudy at some point.Dense lingering drizzle sprinkled on the window sill.

"Can I give you one last hug?"

After a long time, Xiao Ran's answer stunned Chu Zhiluo.He nodded in agreement with Xiao Ran's actions.Trembling, Xiao Ran stretched out his arms to hug Chu Zhiluo.

"I never thought that one day I would lose you... I still lost you in the end."

The man's trembling cries echoed in Chu Zhiluo's ears.He just hugged Chu Zhiluo, and couldn't rub Chu Zhiluo into his blood and bones.This time the separation will be so close.

There used to be someone who loved him so carefully.He smiled shyly and gently at him, he would call his name affectionately, and he listened to him quietly.

Time can't match the fleeting years.The young man who was ignorant and ignorant at that time also gradually learned to love himself through the hurt.And he is still the same selfish, only understands his own pain, but ignores the pain that Chu Zhiluo has been enduring all along.This time, he really should let him go.

"Xiao Ran, I hope you won't regret it one day. 』

Tang Ningyuan's words were still vivid in his memory.That was a warning and a prophecy.

Chu Zhiluo walked out of the ward and saw Yan Yuerong get up hastily.He just said lightly, "He'll be fine."

Since then.

They will end up in each other's lives.