like the abyss

Chapter 21

Qin Suzheng said that there was room for improvement, but he could eat a whole table of dishes.He ate a lot, and Lu Yuan also ate a lot. In the end, both of them were a little stuffed.Lu Yuan cleaned up the empty dishes, and the two of them put on their coats and went downstairs for a walk to digest food.

There were not many people walking, except for Lu Yuan, there were only a few old men and women walking their dogs.Lu Yuan has lived here for many years, and most of the neighbors in the community are familiar, so it is inevitable to say hello and chat.

The old man had eaten early, and he had already returned from a walk. Lu Yuan stroked the golden hair he was holding twice, said goodbye to him, and went to find Qin Suzheng.

Qin Suzheng was at the corner of the corridor sheltered from the wind.Lu Yuan trotted two steps to catch up with him, and continued to walk side by side with him.

Qin Suzheng saw him petting a dog just now, and was a little curious, "Like dogs? Why don't you raise them yourself?"

The lower half of Lu Yuan's face was tucked into his collar, and when he heard his words, he poked out his chin slightly to speak, "No, I like cats."

Qin Suzheng was also chatting, and continued to ask him on this topic: "Why don't you raise it?"

Lu Yuan said frankly, "It's too troublesome."

Qin Suzheng smiled lowly and said nothing.Lu Yuan buried his face in his collar again.

It was still cold at night, the two of them walked downstairs twice, the tip of Lu Yuan's nose and ears were already red from the cold, Qin Suzheng had no choice but to take him home.There is warm air in the elevator room, and the skin starts to itch when it is cold and hot.Lu Yuan stretched out his hand to rub it, but was stopped by Qin Suzheng.

Qin Suzheng held his wrist, "It will be fine in a while."

Lu Yuan itched badly, and Qin Suzheng grabbed his hands and couldn't move, so he could only turn his head and rub his collar on his collar to relieve it.

Unexpectedly, Qin Suzheng glared at him, "It's useless to be cute."

Lu Yuan didn't know where to start complaining.

Qin Suzheng said so, but he still let go of his wrist, and was afraid that Lu Yuan could not help grabbing with his hands, so he had to cover his ears with two hands.

Lu Yuan could only let him cover it.Qin Suzheng's hands were very hot and pressed against his cold ears. The other sounds disappeared in an instant, and the only thing that existed was the sound of blood flowing in his body or the other person's body.It seems that the world is empty, and it seems that we are in the deep sea.Qin Suzheng was too close, and Lu Yuan even felt that he could hear the sound of the heart pumping along the opponent's skin, muscles and bones, and it was very rhythmic, driving his heart to resonate.

Lu Yuan felt a little uncomfortable.The cold temperature of the skin on the pinna of the ear slowly recovered, so he shook his head to indicate that he was healed.Qin Suzheng pinched his earlobe with his fingers, it was not as cold as before, so he let go of his covering hand.

Qin Suzheng pressed the floor calmly, and asked him casually, "Why are you so afraid of the cold?"

Lu Yuan was exposed to cold when he was a child, and his hands and feet were not warm by nature, so he was naturally afraid of the cold, but it was a long story, and Lu Yuan didn't know where to start.I had no choice but to vaguely say: "It's okay."

The elevator arrived quickly, Qin Suzheng walked out quickly and turned around to wait for him to follow, with a smile on his face, "Squeamish."

Lu Yuan has never been described in this way before, and he watched him enter the password to open the door in a daze, "Huh?"

Qin Suzheng had no choice but to repeat to him again: "Auntie must spoil you very much if you say you are delicate."

Qin Suzheng didn't know much about the Lu family.Now that Lu Jiming is old, he doesn't have the energy to go out and flirt, and he is eaten to death by Bai Fangping. Naturally, the husband and wife are in harmony with each other, and they are even regarded by outsiders who don't know the truth as a model of a good man from the Gu family. The older people in the circle know Lu Jiming's bad things in the past are now just sighing that the prodigal son will turn around, and the young ones don't even know that Mrs. Lu is the upper class mistress.

Lu Yuan felt a little complicated when he heard Qin Suzheng's question, and didn't know how to tell his mother that he didn't dote on him.He only knew that the poor woman had passed away unfortunately, but he didn't know that she had been crazy for ten years before she died.It's not that Lu Yuan doesn't want to blame his mother, because she didn't really show his mother's feelings, but Qin Suzheng's family is harmonious and happy, so he must not understand his past.Even if you tell him all the ins and outs, is there any more significance?In exchange for the sympathy and compassion of the other party?

Lu Yuan thought so, neither nodded nor shook his head.Qin Suzheng only thought that he was acquiescing, and then thought that he had accidentally mentioned Lu Yuan's deceased mother. He felt a little sorry, and rubbed his hair, "I'm sorry, I forgot that Auntie has already..."

Lu Yuan didn't care about this matter, and patted his arm to reassure the other party that he didn't mind, "It's okay."

However, Lu Yuan's mood has not been high since then.The shadow left by Lu Yuan's childhood is so heavy that every time he mentions it, Lu Yuan will fall into some uncontrollable self-loathing.Lu Yuan knew enough about his emotions, and didn't want Qin Suzheng to be affected by his negative emotions, so he hid in the bedroom after washing up.

Qin Suzheng has always been able to tell when he is willing to communicate and when he refuses to communicate. Lu Yuan thought he was obvious enough, but he didn't expect Qin Suzheng to take a shower in the guest bedroom and come in with him.

Lu Yuan was already wrapped in the quilt and fell asleep, Qin Suzheng pulled him out of the quilt a little bit, and sat on the side of the bed, "Unhappy?"

Lu Yuan showed his eyes from under the quilt.He was sitting at the bottom, Lu Yuan half-raised his eyelids, the focus was not on him.

Qin Suzheng is different from before, he looks like he must break the casserole and ask the end: "Is it because I mentioned auntie?"

Lu Yuan didn't speak, he continued to guess: "Is that because I said you are delicate?"

Lu Yuan still didn't answer.Qin Suzheng reached out and pulled down the quilt next to the tip of his nose, "Why are you unhappy?"

Lu Yuan pulled back the quilt, and said in a muffled voice, "I'm not unhappy."

Qin Suzheng sighed, "It's all written on his face."

Lu Yuan felt that his words were too exaggerated, so he asked him, "What did you write?"

Qin Suzheng pulled his face out, pretending to read: "I'm not happy to be bullied by other children."

Lu Yuan was amused by him and wanted to laugh, "What else did you write?"

Qin Suzheng pretended to read it seriously for a while, "I even wrote, 'If you don't coax me, I'm going to cry'."

Lu Yuan asked him with a straight face: "Then what should we do?"

Qin Suzheng thought about it, lifted the quilt and lay down, and hugged Lu Yuan in his arms.He hugged him too tightly, Lu Yuan's face was pressed tightly against his chest.When he spoke, his chest vibrated, and Lu Yuan could hear it clearly.

His voice was very low, as if he was telling a fairy tale to a child, "I can't help it, I can only hug and coax my brother."