lack of love

Chapter 50 I Can't Take It Anymore

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In the last week before going abroad, Lian Siqiao closed her business and was busy moving and packing up.

Although there are not many things in the studio, many of them were arranged by him himself, and it has only been two short months, so he is still a little bit reluctant.

Li Qi was still used to running to the studio when he got off work, watching Lian Siqiao staring at the things on the table in a daze, looking like he wanted to tidy up but didn't want to.He knew that he had always been such a long-lasting person, whether it was with people or things, but he liked to show that he didn't care about it.

Li Qi thought for a while, and said, "Let me handle it for you."

In the past, this kind of thing was done by Li Qi, because if it was handed over to Lian Siqiao, he might throw it halfway and pick it up again, so it would be a waste of time.But this is only known to Li Qi and his close friends. Li Qi used to buy a lot of small things for him because he thought Lian Siqiao's contrast was cute.As a result, those things were of course kept, and they refused to throw them away when they got dirty, which gave Li Qi a headache for a while.

Lian Siqiao looked at him in surprise, thought for a while and said, "That's fine."

He originally planned to finish sorting things out today, and then he probably wouldn't come to the studio again.He thought about it for a while, and decided to say it clearly: "The key will be handed over to you. Starting tomorrow, I should not come here again."

Li Qi stared at him without answering, as if he was expecting something.It doesn't matter if you say he is despicable, but he came to look for Lian Siqiao sternly because he had figured out Lian Siqiao's soft-hearted character.But Lian Siqiao's soft-heartedness will not be used where it shouldn't be, otherwise he would not have this opportunity at all, so he thinks that Lian Siqiao doesn't have feelings for him.

Sure enough, Lian Siqiao still couldn't help looking at her like this, and said, "Thank you for being with me this time, I want to treat you to dinner, so..."

So what he has not said.

But Li Qi realized that Lian Siqiao was inviting him home, and he wanted to cook himself.He has worked hard for so long, just waiting for this opportunity: "I will go."

Sensing the joy in his tone, Lian Siqiao couldn't help being stunned.It seemed that he hadn't seen Li Qi so happy for a long time, and he even laughed along with him: "Then tomorrow night, are you free?"

How could Li Qi refuse: "Yes."

Lian Siqiao told him the address and asked him to come back after get off work tomorrow night.

Early the next morning, Lian Siqiao went to the nearby market to buy ingredients. He hadn't done this for a long time. To do something for someone, it can't be said that he had no expectations, but he was still nervous.His home is like his most private side, and he will not show it to others easily, but he still made an exception for Li Qi, and not only once.

He went home with two bags of food to make soup, and started tidying up the house while waiting.It's not that his daily life is too sloppy, it's just that there are some things that are not easy for Li Qi to see, but he found that he couldn't hide them no matter what, so he simply gave up.

At four o'clock in the afternoon, he was about to start cooking, and the aroma of the soup surrounded the kitchen.He hasn't done it himself for a long time, but these life skills have not been forgotten at all.

When it was nearly five o'clock, the doorbell rang, and Lian Siqiao was halfway there, so he hurriedly washed his hands and went to open the door.Sure enough, Li Qi was outside the door, and he brought his favorite dessert over.

"Why are you so fast?" Lian Siqiao didn't feel nervous anymore, he was worried that his dishes would burn, so he rushed back to the kitchen after putting the things in the refrigerator.

Li Qi watched him putting on his apron and busying himself in the kitchen. He casually looked around the room, but was stunned.

At least half of the things in the house were given to Lian Siqiao by him before.They were not valuable items, but probably souvenirs. Some of them were deliberately piled deep in the cabinet, and were spotted by sharp-eyed Li Qi.

Li Qi's popularity has always been very good, so he is used to buying some special products as gifts when he goes out of town.Since he bought them all, he would naturally bring a copy for Lian Siqiao, but sometimes he couldn't guess what Lian Siqiao really liked, so he just bought them all.He saw a palm-sized ceramic lucky cat on the bookcase. It was the first time he bought it for Lian Siqiao. It had no commemorative significance, it seemed to be just a whim.Lucky Cat's hand was bumped into a dent when it moved, but Lian Siqiao still placed it in the most obvious position.

Li Qi turned his head to look at the kitchen, and suddenly felt the urge to hug him and kiss him.But he clenched his fist and endured it.

Don't be impatient at this time, otherwise it will ruin the big event.

Lian Siqiao turned off the fire, only then did he realize that he seemed to have left Li Qi in the living room and didn't greet him.He hastily tore off his apron and took the dishes out.

"Let me help you." Li Qi didn't show any abnormality, and took the initiative to go to the kitchen to serve the soup and get the bowls and chopsticks.

Even Siqiao seemed to have caught a glimpse of him looking at her closet just now, it has been so long, she probably... didn't see anything.

Lian Siqiao didn't have a dining table at home, so they sat in the living room to eat and chat as usual.Li Qi hadn't touched him since that time, but when the two were alone, the atmosphere was still different.

After the meal, Lian Siqiao served dessert, which was a piece of cake.He shared half with Li Qi and started to eat.

Even Siqiao's hobbies haven't changed much from before to now, food, lodging and life are the same, like an old man, most people may find it quite boring, Li Qi actually thought about it before, but he doesn't think so now up.Because his heart has already settled down, he just thinks that this Lian Siqiao is really innocent and cute.

Li Qi saw cream on his mouth, wiped it off with his fingers, then put it in his own mouth to lick it off.

Lian Siqiao looked at his movements and remembered something, her face turned red again.He wanted to stand up uncomfortably, but accidentally knocked over the cake in his hand, and luckily it fell on Li Qi's shirt.

Lian Siqiao became anxious, and immediately leaned over, picked up the cake, and took out a tissue to wipe the cream stains on his clothes.

Li Qi's attention was not on the clothes at all, he saw Lian Siqiao's long eyelashes drooping down and his lips slightly parted.He still remembers the feeling of kissing these two lips, soft and comfortable.

As soon as Lian Siqiao approached him, Li Qi couldn't help it, and the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time suddenly burst out.He squeezed Lian Siqiao's chin and kissed it, and stuck his tongue in from the crack of his lips.

Lian Siqiao's movements froze there, she couldn't even care about the dirt on her clothes, she pushed Li Qi away, wanting to back away.

But Li Qi grabbed his hand instead and pushed him down on the sofa.His kiss came fiercely and suddenly, as if he wanted to eat Lian Siqiao.

Lian Siqiao hadn't made up her mind at all, and was messed up by this kiss again.He leaned his neck up to bear Li Qi's fierce kiss, his jaw was knocked open, the soft flesh in his mouth was licked by the warm tongue, the saliva between the two sides was constantly exchanging, there was the fragrance of butter, and the sweetness of cake.

"Woo..." Li Qi didn't disturb his mind enough, and continued to suck and bite his tongue.Lian Siqiao was forced to moan, and trembled with sensitivity.

I can't take it anymore, I really can't take it anymore...

Li Qi could smell the scent of his hair, the scent of detergent on his clothes, and the faint body scent from his warm skin.As long as he smells the other person's body, he will be hard. If this is not love, what else can it be?

Lian Siqiao felt that Li Qi's things were being pressed between her legs, so she didn't dare to struggle any more.Between kisses, he said in a begging tone: "Don't do this..."

Li Qi heard it, let go of his lips, but instead kissed his face and asked, "Why? Give me a reason."

This kind of behavior is so flirtatious, Lian Siqiao couldn't say no at all: "You first..."

"That's it." Li Qi refused to budge.He was determined not to let Lian Siqiao escape, even if he couldn't find out the result tonight, he would still punish him: "Do you hate me?"

"No……"

"like me?"

"........."

"If you don't like me, why keep those things?"

Lian Siqiao turned her head away and refused to answer, Li Qi bit her ear as punishment: "Look at me and answer. If you don't go abroad, will you stay with me?"

Lian Siqiao looked at him for a long time, and finally answered: "Yes."

Li Qi breathed a sigh of relief, but he didn't show it on his face: "Lian Siqiao, what are you afraid of? I'm more afraid than you..."

Lian Siqiao was very surprised that Li Qi would say the word "fear", the Li Qi he knew had never shown such emotion.

Li Qi confessed, "I'm afraid you'll fall in love with someone else."

When they broke up at the beginning, there was indeed an element of anger.But after going abroad, he realized that he couldn't forget his old lover, half a year had passed.He became afraid to inquire about Lian Siqiao's whereabouts, because he realized that he was afraid of hearing the news that Lian Siqiao was with someone else, and he was still staying so far overseas, he didn't know what would happen to him, he couldn't Imagine that day coming.It was the first time in his life that he had this mentality of escaping, but when he returned to China and made up his mind to get it back, he disappeared until he met unexpectedly because of Zhong Qiran...

Li Qi added: "You are not the only one who feels uneasy about the future. Don't you have confidence in me?"

Lian Siqiao didn't seem to have recovered from the shock, but he shook his head when he heard the last sentence: "I don't have confidence in myself. I'm actually very afraid that I will end up like my parents...why? God is tired of you, why don't I let go first..."

Because I am afraid of losing, I hope to keep the best moment.

Li Qi finally got the truth out of his mouth: "You look so smart, but you are so stupid."

"I do not……"

Li Qi kissed him and didn't let him speak again.

Lian Siqiao pushed him, but this time he easily pushed him away: "Li Qi..."

"I want to hug you, even if I force it to the end. But I still want to ask your wish, do you really want it?"

How should this person answer?

"If you refuse, I won't look for you again in the future." This is a bit heavy, but if you don't let him make a choice cruelly, I'm afraid Lian Siqiao will think about it again in the future, "But if you accept If you don't, even if you think I'm annoying, no matter how fierce the quarrel is, I won't leave you again..."

Lian Siqiao stared at him blankly.

Li Qi kissed his lips tenderly and asked, "Answer?"

"Yes..." Lian Siqiao still couldn't lie to herself, no matter how many times he pushed Li Qi away, she still yearned for his approach.He knew it was sick, but he couldn't control Li Qi.

Li Qi smiled and lowered his head to kiss him. Although his movements were gentle, he couldn't wait to take off his clothes.

Lian Siqiao thought of something belatedly: "My family... doesn't have..."

Li Qi said, "I'm prepared."

Lian Siqiao stared dumbfounded at Li Qi taking out the lubricant from his pocket, as if he had planned it for a long time.

Li Qi didn't explain much. He always prefers to practice rather than talk nonsense.He kissed Lian Siqiao's neck, and unbuttoned his shirt one by one.

"Hmm..." Lian Siqiao moved her body, and Li Qi's hands caressed her skin exposed to the air.He hasn't had such intimate contact with people for a long time, and he feels itchy wherever he is touched.

"Too thin." Li Qi murmured as he stroked his waist, then directly reached under his trousers, stroking his genitals through the panties.

"Woo, Li Qi..." Lian Siqiao trembled under his palm, then his buttocks were lifted, and his pants were taken off.

Li Qi only took one look, and felt that his lower body was too hard.He unbuttoned his trousers, released the desire to hold back the pain, and rubbed against Lian Siqiao's body.Two sensitive genitals stick together, bringing more and more exciting pleasure.

Lian Siqiao shrank her body nervously.Li Qi propped up his upper body, separated Lian Siqiao's legs with his hands, dipped his middle finger in lubricant, and tentatively probed into the hole.

"Hmm..." There was still some discomfort when a place that hadn't been used for a long time was entered.But when Lian Siqiao noticed that Li Qi was staring there, he couldn't help pinching his legs: "Don't look..."

He didn't realize that this action clamped Li Qi's fingers instead.

When the soft and warm touch came from his fingertips, Li Qi's mind went blank for a moment, and he subconsciously inserted his finger deeper until it was completely submerged.

"Ah..." Lian Siqiao was so stimulated that a moan escaped from his mouth, and then a series of pleasure came.

Li Qi started to use his fingers in and out of his acupoint, the lubricant had been melted by body temperature, it was wet and sticky, and even felt a little hot due to friction.

Lian Siqiao began to feel the heat inside her body, and the strange and comfortable pleasure continued to climb up.

Li Qi really wanted to enter his body like this, but he couldn't.Lian Siqiao's back was terribly tight, almost like it was the first time.Even Siqiao's first time was also his, but he was too impulsive at that time, he pressed her on the bed and fucked him hard, tossing him until his back hurts, and he couldn't even attend class the next day.They are a little far away from that time, but the mood is the same.

"Okay... that's enough..." Lian Siqiao probably felt ashamed to be played with by fingers like this, and urged Li Qi to come in.

"Wait a second..."

"Don't do it...I..." Lian Siqiao couldn't say the rest.

But Li Qi understood that he wanted to ejaculate.He pulled out his fingers to let Lian Siqiao relax, took off his clothes again, and lowered his head to kiss his lips.

Li Qi's body was very hot, and the most important thing was that the part that couldn't be ignored was pressed between his legs, rubbing against the sensitive acupuncture points.

"Hmm..." Lian Siqiao moved, her legs were stretched further apart, her mouth was completely plundered by Li Qi's tongue, and she could only make an unbearable sound from her chest and throat.

Lian Siqiao took off the hard shell and softened into a puddle of water under him, how could Li Qi not be excited.He couldn't wait for Lian Siqiao to get used to it completely, so he pressed his waist and forced his way in.

"Woo!" Lian Siqiao's eyelashes trembled violently when he was penetrated, and his genitals softened, and a vague moan came out of his mouth, "It hurts..."

Li Qi continued to kiss him tenderly, reaching out to hold his genitals to comfort him, making him feel pleasure in the pain, and then forcefully pushed him an inch.

"Well, it's too big..." Lian Siqiao groaned in pain and began to struggle, but her posterior acupoints contracted reflexively, biting Li Qi almost uncontrollably.

Li Qi frowned, and said helplessly, "Don't move...I can't bear it anymore..."

Lian Siqiao gasped and said, "You... just be more straightforward..."

"Okay." Li Qi really didn't want to bear it anymore, he had endured it for too long, and finally caught him, how could he let him go so easily.He kissed Lian Siqiao's lips vigorously, then straightened up, concentrated on their joint, and entered to the end in one go.

"Ah──" Lian Siqiao was pressed firmly under Li Qi's body, her body was completely opened, and her burning desire kept coming in and out.The lube was pushed deep and squeezed out, all the way from the buttocks to the couch, it was erotic as hell.Lian Siqiao couldn't see it herself, but Li Qi saw it all.

Li Qi raised his slender ankles, forcing the spot where they intersected to be exposed.Lian Siqiao couldn't stop her at all, she moaned continuously after being fucked, and the pleasure was so intense that it was terrifying.

When Li Qi was only halfway through, Lian Siqiao couldn't help but ejaculate first.He didn't stop, thrusting furiously as the gut walls nearly went into spasm.

"Huh... no, don't... um, ah..." Lian Siqiao was powerless to resist at all, and let others manipulate him weakly.

Li Qi was really not polite, he pulled Lian Siqiao's hands around his neck, hugged her up, and sat on his body.

"Oh, don't..." Lian Siqiao's legs trembled violently, and she almost couldn't help swallowing Li Qi's things even deeper.Every time Li Qi pushed up, his body sank even deeper.It was too uncomfortable to enter this depth, Lian Siqiao almost grabbed his shoulder tightly, like clinging to a driftwood, begging for mercy: "It's too deep..."

Li Qi liked the way he relied on him, but he was completely ignited by lust, and his mind was full of wanting to eat people up.He kissed Lian Siqiao's neck, pinched his soft buttocks with both hands, opened the opening of the hole a little, and pushed his desire deeper.

"No..." Lian Siqiao was completely forced to cry, and was bullied to the point of punching him.But at this time, he had no strength at all, and Li Qi grabbed his hand again, and kissed from his fingers to the inside of his arm.

"I don't want it... I don't want it..." Lian Siqiao couldn't bear such a strong stimulation at all, the sensitive points in her body were rolled back and forth, and the nipple was sucked by Li Qi again.

As if he had completely lost the autonomy of his body, Li Qi forced him to ejaculate for the second time.

When Li Qi finally put him down, he slumped on the sofa and was exhausted.He thought it was over like this, but Li Qi turned him over again and buried him from behind.

"Li Qi..." When he was struggling to escape, the man grabbed his waist again and pulled him back.

While sticking out his hips, Li Qi kissed the back of his neck: "Next time I run, it's not just like this..."

Lian Siqiao's consciousness was fuzzy, she didn't know what she answered, it was probably something to beg, and then she couldn't remember it at all.

Lian Siqiao couldn't get out of bed the next day, so Li Qi helped him prepare breakfast and went to work.

Lying on the bed, Lian Siqiao recalled what happened last night, and wondered why she agreed to him like this.But now that he admits it, he won't let himself go back on his word.

Li Qi is willing to make changes for him, and it's not like he can't work hard to see.If he wants to get rid of the psychological shadow of love, he still has to start learning the correct way of loving.

At noon, Li Qi called and asked if he had eaten yet?In the evening, she came back to Lian Siqiao's house and brought him dinner.

Seeing that he had no intention of leaving, Lian Siqiao asked, "Aren't you going back to the hotel?"

"Retired." Li Qi said honestly, "The last few days, let me accompany you?"

How could Lian Siqiao say it badly, the two would soon be separated, how could he not be sad.

Li Qi said, "After I get there, I will call you every day."

"it is good."

"I'll see you when I'm free."

"it is good."

Li Qi asked, "Is there anything you want to tell me?"

Lian Siqiao decided not to control him too strictly. When Li Qi asked, he didn't know what to say.He always seems to be in a bad position, not knowing how to treat him well.

Li Qi said: "If you have nothing to say, I'll help you decide."

"Decide what?"

"When you're abroad, you can't get too close to other men, you can't be alone under the same roof, you can't hook up with men, and you can't fall in love with others..."

Lian Siqiao heard his words getting more and more absurd, and hurriedly said: "I don't have one."

"Also, the most important thing is to say that you love me every day when you don't meet each other."

"You..." Lian Siqiao couldn't believe that Li Qi would make such a request.

"We used to be negligent in communicating, so...we all ignored each other's feelings." Li Qi looked at him seriously, and asked again: "Can you trust me again?"

Lian Siqiao looked at him and nodded.

"Lian Siqiao, I love you."

Lian Siqiao blushed for a while before whispering, "I love you too."

The last few days have been quite happy, and the sadness of being separated has been diluted by the joy of their reunion.Li Qi used this as an excuse, and took the opportunity to ask for Lian Siqiao several times.

Afterwards, Li Qi personally went to see off the plane and watched Lian Siqiao leave.

Lian Siqiao originally thought that life would be different, but apart from a change of environment, there was actually no difference.Everyday life is full of studies and internships, and many people are even working hard for their own future.He made friends and talked with Li Qi on the phone or video every day.When each other is busy, they will talk first, and there will be no more anxiety about not being able to find someone suddenly.

Only now did he understand that being separated from the one he liked was not as terrible as he had imagined.It's all about mind.

Li Qi didn't dispose of the things in the studio later, he negotiated with the owner and bought the house at a high price.For him, this is his second start, even if it is not used temporarily, it is already full of many memories of him and Lian Siqiao.

Lian Siqiao didn't know it when he returned from vacation abroad in the first year.In the second year, Li Qi brought him back here and proposed to him.

Li Qi proved that their relationship has not changed because of the distance.

So Lian Siqiao agreed.

Love needs two-way operation. It is not the first time you meet, you must be in the most perfect state for both parties to be called

It is a good match.Mutual understanding and the running-in of life are more important.

Everyone has experienced times of hesitation and loss on the road of growth, and it is not the case on the road of love.

They missed it once, and then they learned the lesson. They can become better people for themselves and each other, and learn and grow from each other.

He believes that they will have a good start and a good end this time.

──Li Qi x Lian Siqiao's story is over──