lack of love

Chapter 47 Kissed

Extra 11

Lian Siqiao didn't know how to respond to this sentence.After all, they were clearly in love two years ago, but they separated in the end.

Li Qi added: "No matter how many times you push me away, I will never give up."

"You..." Lian Siqiao really lost his mind, pushed him away, and sat up by himself, "Why do you do this. You clearly know..."

Li Qi stepped back and didn't force him anymore, although he wanted to hug him like this for a while longer: "I know. I just want to tell you that I'm serious, and I want you to see my determination."

Lian Siqiao quickly continued: "You are obviously not such a person. No one can't live without another person."

"People change. Especially after realizing they've lost something important..."

Li Qi's eyes were too serious, Lian Siqiao didn't dare to look at him at all.He stood up and wanted to leave, fearing that he would fall into it again: "I'm leaving."

Li Qi didn't force him any more, and stood up to send him back: "It's too late, I'll see you off."

"No, it's very close to here." He didn't want Li Qi to invade his private area anymore, it would give him the illusion of being seen through.It's not that he doesn't trust Li Qi, but that he's already used to self-protection.

Li Qi insisted, "I'll see you off."

In the end, even Si Qiao didn't make it, and sat helplessly on the sofa. He had been tossing until this point, and now he didn't feel sleepy anymore: "Why are you lying here and sleeping?"

Li Qi said, "Because I can see the stars."

Lian Siqiao turned to look at him in surprise.He never discovered that he could see the stars in his studio.Sure enough, everyone sees things differently. Li Qi has always been such a positive person.And the other party's words also reminded him of the time when the two went to see the night scene together.

Li Qi suddenly asked, "Want to see it?"

Probably affected by memories, Lian Siqiao nodded in a strange way.

Li Qi stood up and let him lie down where he had just been.Lian Siqiao looked out the window and saw the stars.And Li Qi stood under the window, from this angle, it looked like a star on his head.Lian Siqiao seemed to suddenly understand why Li Qi kissed him just now.He did have such an urge to go back to the time when he was passionately in love, hugging and kissing each other recklessly.

Li Qi's expression changed a little, as if he was a little distressed, he looked away slightly: "Don't show such an expression, I'm afraid I won't be able to resist kissing you again."

Lian Siqiao didn't speak.

Li Qi said again: "You know I can't force you, and I can't make you completely trust me in a short time, but I will show you slowly, until the day you can really accept me. It's just Now that we have such a little time left to spend together, I hope I don’t have any regrets, it doesn’t matter if you don’t accept me, why not treat it as the last memory of being with me.”

After hearing these words, how could Lian Siqiao not waver: "What do you want?"

"I guess, like before."

Lian Siqiao looked up at him.

"Of course, I won't do anything excessive to you."

Lian Siqiao thought for a while, and finally let go: "Okay."

In the middle of the night, Lian Siqiao was so tired that he fell asleep on the sofa, and Li Qi didn't even have time to ask him to go upstairs to sleep.He hesitated for a while, then picked him up and went upstairs.He put Lian Siqiao on the soft mattress, and when he bent down, he still couldn't help kissing him.Lian Siqiao opened her eyes a little bit, looking half asleep and half awake, she couldn't tell if she was awake, but she closed them quickly.

Li Qi became a little more courageous, and once again pressed his lips against his lips lightly, feeling the long-lost beauty.

He didn't do it too much, he just touched it and left, as if he was very attached.

He used to think that as long as he knew more people, he could find the one that suits him best.But now he doesn't think so anymore, it's because of someone he likes that everything becomes meaningful.

Lian Siqiao didn't bring anything with him when he came here, so when he woke up on the second floor of the studio in the morning, he was still a little dazed.

It was Li Qi who knocked on the door and called him: "Get up and have breakfast."

He woke up instantly when he heard Li Qi's voice, and immediately recalled what happened last night: "What time is it?"

He didn't forget that he had to go to work today.

Li Qi replied: "Don't worry, it's only 07:30."

Lian Siqiao breathed a sigh of relief and got up to wash up.When he changed his clothes and went downstairs, Li Qi had already bought him breakfast, a sandwich and a cup of milk tea.

The two sat at the table and enjoyed their breakfast quietly.How long had it been since such a scene happened, and Lian Siqiao couldn't remember it anymore.

Li Qi suddenly said, "I'm going on a business trip next week."

Lian Siqiao just took a bite of the sandwich and stared at him blankly.Only then did he really realize that they didn't have much time to spend together.Li Qi didn't say where he was going on a business trip, and he didn't expect to ask, he just said, "How long?"

"About two weeks."

Lian Siqiao didn't speak anymore, and forgot to bite the food still in her mouth.

Li Qi observed his expression for a while, and he became more confident: "I will come again."

"En." Lian Siqiao only realized now that she was waiting for his words.

"By the way, I forgot to bring the clothes I borrowed from you last time. I'll bring them next time."

"Yeah." In fact, it doesn't matter if you don't pay it back, Lian Siqiao thought in her heart.He felt that he was contradictory and selfish. Since he pushed Li Qi away, he hoped that he could keep his things by his side.

After noon that day, Li Qi said that he was leaving: "I have to go back, and I have to prepare things for the business trip..."

"Oh." Lian Siqiao suddenly felt a little lost for some reason, "Then drive carefully."

Li Qi said again: "I will come again."

Lian Siqiao suddenly didn't know whether it was right or wrong for her to do so.He obviously felt that he had been shaken, and the closer he was to the day of separation, the more reluctant he was to part with him.If he had known the day when Li Qi came to his door, he should have kicked him out with a broom. It would be better to tear his face apart than it is now.But Li Qi is so nice, how could he speak ill of him?

Two more days passed.

There are relatively few customers on weekdays, so he can take advantage of this spare time to sort out the client information handed over to other psychological counselors.In fact, he has almost made arrangements, but old customers will still come to talk to him.There will be dependence in confiding, and a large part of these old customers almost regard Lian Siqiao as a friend.Lian Siqiao is different from other psychological counselors, he doesn't deliberately say nice things to cater to clients, and most of the time he almost hits the nail on the head, but he is tactful so as not to embarrass people.So later, many of these consultative conversations turned into pure pouring and chatting.

Lian Siqiao only accepts such customers now, not because he is afraid of trouble, but because he is not good at handing over half of the work to others. After all, it is the customer's privacy, not a commodity that can be exchanged or returned.

But when he was free, he would inevitably think of Li Qi.

Taking a step back, after he left the country, as long as he kept in touch with Zhong Qiran, he could still know about Li Qi.He really hoped that Li Qi could have a good life, and he didn't necessarily have to be together.

Or...don't meet him again before it's too late?

Lian Siqiao was in a daze, when he heard the sound of the door being pushed open, he thought it was a guest, looked up, and suddenly couldn't speak: "You...how do you...?"

Li Qi said: "The place where I am on a business trip happens to be nearby."

Lian Siqiao was in a complicated mood and didn't know what to say.One second he was thinking not to meet again, and the next second Li Qi appeared, his heart was in a mess.

Li Qi walked over, holding a bag of clothes in his hand: "Don't you want me to come?"

Lian Siqiao wanted to say yes.He knew that now was the opportunity to speak, and if he missed this time, he might never be able to speak again.

But Li Qi took his words first: "I can come to see you every day."

Lian Siqiao was stunned for a while, and suddenly couldn't speak: "Is it okay for you to come here like this?"

"It's okay." Li Qi returned Lian Siqiao's clothes to him, "I was afraid that you would find me annoying and wouldn't see me anymore."

"No……"

"Can you have dinner with me at night? The hotel I live in is nearby, not far from your place. After all, I'm going to stay here for two weeks, and I'm not familiar with it..."

Li Qi said so, how could Lian Siqiao refuse.

In the evening, Lian Siqiao took Li Qi to a restaurant for dinner.The advantage of living in the suburbs is that the place is big and the scenery is good.The owner of the restaurant is also an ingenious person, and he decorated the house beautifully.People who usually make a living in this kind of place either want to escape the fast-paced life of the city, or have their own dreams.This store is obviously the latter, the food is delicious and the price is not expensive.

Li Qi asked, "Do you come here often?"

Lian Siqiao shook her head: "This is my first time."

After all, he lives alone and eats all three meals casually, so how could he come here to eat in a leisurely way.

Li Qi asked again: "Do you like this place?"

"Why do you ask?"

"Compared with before, you are a little different. Staying here, you seem to be happier and your spirit is much better."

This is the truth.Lian Siqiao can adapt to the pace of life in the city, but he prefers to live a leisurely life like this.Everyday life is simple and less distracting.In contrast, Li Qi is the kind of person who can live well in the city.

"I really like it." He was preparing to go abroad and wanted more time for self-study. It was also because of Li Qi that he deliberately moved out of the city. Unexpectedly, after living for nearly two months, he began to like Li Qi. Such peaceful days.

"What about after the studio?"

"The house is only rented until next month."

"Did you plan to continue living here after you came back?"

Lian Siqiao shook her head: "It's been so long, let's talk about it later."

Li Qi didn't ask any more questions.After the two finished their meal, he suggested, "Would you like to take a walk?"

Lian Siqiao thought about it, and by the way, tell Li Qi what shops can be purchased nearby.

The two walked side by side, and Li Qi suddenly wanted to grab his shoulders, just like before.The biggest advantage of him is that he does not hide things, even when he is in love with a man.

Lian Siqiao seemed to feel that he was getting closer, so she turned her head and asked, "What's wrong?"

Li Qi's intention was discovered, and his mind went blank for a moment, before he blurted out a sentence inexplicably: "I still prefer your cooking."

Lian Siqiao was stunned, her face seemed to turn suspiciously red, and she turned her head away as if pretending to be fine.

Li Qi became bold again, put a hand on his shoulder very naturally, felt that Lian Siqiao seemed to stiffen, and immediately said: "This shouldn't be too much."

Lian Siqiao didn't know what she was thinking, she lowered her head and didn't speak. After looking carefully, she found that her ears seemed a little red.

This is a really strange thing.The two of them had obviously done everything before, but now they get along as if they are falling in love again.Li Qi thought of his reaction to kissing Lian Siqiao last time, it wasn't resentment, it wasn't disgust, it was half-push, half-acceptance, refusal to welcome.If Lian Siqiao had no idea about him, he wouldn't believe it.What Lian Siqiao is struggling with now is just because he is about to leave, and he is afraid that they will fall in love again like before.

Lian Siqiao didn't have the courage, but Li Qi did.It's just that he has to knock open his hard shell bit by bit first, so that he can let go of his defenses.

Li Qi simply didn't think about anything, and said, "Before you leave, can I still..."

Eat again.

The last sentence was silenced by himself, because Lian Siqiao suddenly turned his head, and he lowered his head again.The four eyes meet, the atmosphere is just right, if you don't kiss, you won't be a man.

So Li Qi kissed, and the hand holding his shoulder slid across his back and pressed the back of his neck.He thought Lian Siqiao would push him away, or slap him.

but none.Lian Siqiao let him kiss her.

kissed.